TWEAK ME, (Every Idle Word)


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Tweak Me (Every Idle Word)
February 14, 2014

A Life of Tweaking
In the process of professional music recording, the work must go through many tweakings. I start out laying basic lead vocal, acoustic guitar played with a click tract. I take the rough draft home and work on harmony. Then I get ideas for motifs, which I then give to my lead guitarist, bassist and drummer. We all meet for a recording session. Then comes the artsy part. My producer-engineer and husband Mark sit together and listen back to the tracks. We listen carefully for any notes I sang flat or sharp, any bad bass notes or any dissonance. We take home the track again, listen and continue to fine-tune the song. By the time it’s ready for mastering, we have tweaked and tweaked until the mixes sound radio ready! It can be an arduous process, but joyously rewarding. I’ve learned so much recording all of six original CDs and three cover ones. After over twenty solid years of professional recording, I can say I’m a veteran songwriter-producer but still always evolving to ever higher musical heights.

Thankfully, my hunger for excellence has spilled into the area of my personal spiritual growth as worship leader-songwriter, journalist and soul sculptor desiring to see glorious transformation within the body of Christ. Upon awakening each morning, I start meditating about Father God searching my heart, testing my anxious thoughts and showing me if there is any evil. Psalm 139:23 &24. I ask Him to help set a guard over my lips. Psalm 141:3 I daily have to yield and give Him permission to tweak me, my actions and even my deepest unconscious response. Why am I so concerned?

The hour is late the world is getting darker and more evil by the day. Atrocities beyond the most barbaric horror movies ever created are occurring everywhere. During my prayer time, I’m even more aware of the lateness and urgency f the time I’m in and how I must be salt and light. You and I are ambassador of peace and reconciliation and a king and a priest!

Sloppy Agape or a penchant for priestliness

In one of my earlier blogs, Sloppy Agape or Penchant for Priestliness, I focused on living an excellent life in Christ. I hope Tweak Me zeroes in about the reality of the demonic realm violently belching out profound evil attacks worldwide and in every area of peoples lives. This demonic assault is so powerful, unless God’s people get it together in unity, we will be overcome by death and destruction. This is not to scare anyone but to show how we must approach the demonic dilemma. We must be unified in love and fit for the master’s use. It has grieved me to hear about so much friction, strife and dissension amongst my brethren. Being brought up in a multi-cultural family, a hard-working, gregarious Puerto-Rican father and stoic, moody German mother, was a cause for many difficult times for my three sisters and I. It was here in family that I learned how important diplomacy, a desire to quickly forgiveness is essential to be emotionally and spiritually at peace. I willingness to keep communication lines open is golden!

I want to be closer to God and be the expression of his kindness, patience, mercy and grace. Rather than just read God’s word, I desire to meditate on it, so it can become a beautiful part of me. I’ve learned that it’s not enough to just read the word, but to ask Holy Spirit to bring it to life in our spirits. Here is where the transformation occurs!

Jesus discourse in the Gospels was penetrating and not easily forgettable. His words cut like a knife as he spoke in parables or true events with a conviction so strong, many were transformed forever! The framework of family and society is so fragile and dependent upon us abiding in Him, (the vine) that without our meticulous interaction and intervention, society will cease to exists as we know it! We must work hard to overcome rivalry, impatience, frustration, strife and anger by asking for God’s help. We must discipline ourselves to daily by gazing into the Holy Spirit mirror. Only then can we receive the help we need to be the overcomers and transformers of our world!

Addressing confect has always been one of my weak points I hate confrontation because usually it is with someone intent upon imposing their will or perspective on mine and usually ends up with hard words said.. Sometimes even just angry, closed body language and angry facial grimaces make my stomach ill.

The past few days while going about my usual mundane chores, I kept thinking about the phrase… ..every idle word .I knew God wanted me to elaborate on how our speech affects our lives and the lives of all in our world. .All week, friends and loved ones ask me to stand with them in prayer about their frustration with their chaotic family unhappy spouses and kids and unfruitful ministries. Sins of the flesh are usually at work.

I grapple with my own share of issues with my husband that we must work out together. Sometimes during an argument with my husband, (thankfully we don’t cuss each other or disrespect each other), but his body language and disrespect may anger me. My voices gets high and he will walk right away, refusing to talk with me unless my voice gets lower. After the argument, we wonder what happened. I always soul search and ask God to show me how I contributed negatively to the situation. With that in mind, I know that communication entails a delicate blend of respect, self-control and patience. We have much work to do together to navigate the atmosphere of resolving our hard issues. One thing for sure, we both know that we must forgive and hug each other sincerely, so we can both go to sleep with a clear conscience! Resolving conflict and forgiving should enter the equation whether we have a conflict with our spouse, children, co-workers or neighbors. Holding on to anger will never set us free to receive the peace and blessing father has for us. We should always soul search to see if there was something we said or did that would have positively resoled the issue. Sometimes our lives or relationships are unfruitful not because of doing bad things but because of not doing the right thing!
I love Joyce Meyer’s ministry because she focuses often on teachings about cultivating fruitful love walks. I love to compare the concept of our love walk with my planting of my vegetable garden this past summer. There are very deliberate things one has to do to have a garden that produces lush produce. One can’t expect to just plant the seeds and forget about them. First came the tilling of the hard, lifeless soil, then adding and mixing organic fertilizer , more tilling and then rest and wait. After a few days, the small seedlings growing in small containers were transplanted carefully into their place in the soil. Certain plants would grow and take much space so they had to be positioned with that in mind so they wouldn’t overcrowd those plants which took less room. To the avid gardener or professional farmer, nurturing their crop is a prized and precious endeavor. We should look at it in the same we do growing fruitfully in God’s vine!
The power of love is the fortifying agent we produce, (after learning spiritual warfare skills.). What good is being an loving child of God everyone gets along with, but you’re bound,, miserable and fearful and you can’t help anyone be set free!? Responding positively in faith when faced with trials, cris and tragedy is what Father desires in his people. Perseverance and humor assuages the burden of grief and difficult times.

We all love the gift of grace. We do something wrong, treat others roughly, are harsh or condemning, then confess our sin in a casual, unconcerned manner to God. Some of us continually offend or aggressively confront our brethren with our newly revealed and illuminated Biblical truths or growth. An offended brother or sister makes us feel guilty and so we confess to God, but we rarely look in the mirror and see our error. We are just like the man who looks in the mirror briefly and walks away unchanged! James 1:23

Approved and Disapproved workers

Jesus gave a serious rebuke that every idle word we speak shall be revealed on the day of judgement. After an argument, we may say, “Oh, I didn’t mean to say that.” But it came right out of our hearts. Jesus said, “Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth speaks.,” Luke 6:48.
Jesus says that a good tree is known by its good fruit. If we are bearing good fruit then good things should come from our hearts to our mouths. I believe more pastors, teachers and prophets should be teaching their people about the necessity fo bearing good fruit and abiding in the vine to illuminate the glory of our Father! I pray the body of Christ meditates on the concept of the becoming that beautiful tree planted by the waters that bears fruit even in the desert and famine times. Let us not live our lives casually, but purposefully. Let’s refrain from saying aloud things that ought not be even thought of!

Paul writes to his spiritual son, Timothy about the analogy of the holy house God is building with Jesus as the chief cornerstone. Some of us are vessels of gold, silver, wood or clay. Some are for the Lord’s common use and some for His special occasions! Wouldn’t we all love to be a vessel that is for His special use? Not all of us will get a mansion in glory and many righteous crowns. Only those who have surrendered themselves and their flesh will receive the best rewards. Paul reminds us to run the race unhindered and for the prize. There will be many who get into heaven by the skin of their teeth and get a log cabin and a cotton tunic! Others,(like missionaries who gave all, even their own lives for the lost) are having their opulent mansions build right now! It is our choice while we are alive on earth to produce as much fruit as we can. That doesn’t mean completing projects successfully, graduating at the top of the class, maintaining a strong internet presence or being the most wealthy CEO of a corporation. It means preaching the good news to the lost and broken and discipline-grooming people for kingdom service and filling practical needs like food, shelter and provision. God loves people, not things and projects

In participating in the building of of Father’s kingdom, we must be very precise and focused. Let’s fine tune our reactions and habits of communication and ministry buy putting off contentious, strife, envy, wrath, pride critical and legalistic spirits. Whoever names Christ as their savior must put away (and be aware of the tendency to have) iniquity. Strife is a real killer of unity in the body and good relationships and we should avoid strife at all costs. We are called to live at peace with all men.

God’s sons and daughters must be perfect…perfect as Father is perfect. Perfection in this context is not the sense of never being wrong, making mistakes, having a strong disagreement with someone, but having an awareness and desire to be the best we can even in our thoughts, speech and actions. Let us focus on nurturing our spiritual garden, our hearts, with wonderful and edifying things.

At the Bema Seat

To close, I wanted to share on my recent meditating of Rev 20:12 , I’m humbled by reverential fear reading about the Bema Seat . It has caused me to remain vigilant and watchful for demonic attacks which would make me soppy in my love walk. The scene of the Bema Seat on Judgement day for all people reminds me that our whole lives will be wrapped up in a nutshell within the pages of our book of life. There will be no time to take back anything we’ve done or make excuses to God. Let’s seriously meditate on being prepared, in true intimacy with Father-Christ and having our relationships in order. Let’s put away all bitterness, resentment, unforgiveness and/or hate.

Imagine the deafening silence as the angels stand at attendance. As we are called up before the Lord. The books are opened…and another book is opened, The Book of Life. Just envisioning myself standing before Christ, (in this instance) as my judge, makes me tremble. I think about my own book in heaven chronicling every unconfessed thought, action and motivation.. All I can groan in prayer to Father is “help me, Lord.”and “more of You and less of me.”

Imagine, beloved, your own book in heaven. I pray that you and I will have few recorded negative incidents to be ashamed of. I pray that now, while we still have a little time, that we will start today tweaking our love walks and be fruitful in every good work! 2 Tim 2:21. Let us not say evil things about our president, wish that murderers and rapists all die or blast TV pastors and evangelists and their past indiscretions. We need to pray fervently that all men may receive Christ. Paul and Moses were both murderers, Two of the most infamous Muslim terrorists had a Damascus experience and received Christ as Savior and Lord!. We don’t know which enemies now are our friends and brethren in the future!

A Damascus Experience, Kamal Saleem

Father, help us to speak life-giving words and not look for the faults in others. Help us to discipline ourselves in meditating on how to have good fruit and to tweak our love walks even if we get along with everyone. Help us to have an attitude of gratitude for all people and to find the good in everyone. Help us also to pry for our enemies and those who persecute us because we don’t know will of them will be other brother or sister!

A New Life and Master. Walid Shoebat

God bless you as you ask Father, “Tweak us, Lord!

UNITY of the BRETHREN


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Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity!  PSALM 133

Since a young girl I’ve always wanted to live happily with my sisters, get along with my classmates, have wonderful friendships and be obedient to my parents.  In that aspect,  I haven’t changed. I still want more than anything to be reconciled to all those in my circles.

Sadly, I’m noticing people are acting strange. I’m hearing about  rivalry,  jealous criticism and just plain being overly touchy, (thin-skinned).

Right on Facebook, I hear about people being “unfriended” without a reason and no communication! So, what is that all about?

My friends have  asked, What did I do?”

Obviously, the  person  who unfriended forgot about Jesus saying we must forgive our brother 70 times 70!  I’m hoping to remind myself and anyone that we shouldn’t diss  people for the smallest of reasons and if they did offend us, please tell me what I did. I would be more than happy to discuss and move forward in our relationship.

Let;’s also remember  that satan is the  accuser  of the brethren. He stands before Father to accuse us and his cohorts whisper lies or exaggerate  a small fault we have to make it bigger than it really is. We are all overwhelmed ( and forgetful) with family, jobs and especially the bad things happening around the world.  We need to stick together and give each other the benefit of the doubt. We can’t read each others’ minds and sometimes something we said or something we may have forgotten to do hurt or offended you.

Let’s all talk together in love and stay close , edify and strengthen each other, (as our LORD says)  Let’s get over ourselves and get on with tweaking each other in words of love, edifying and  proper, honest & loving communication! This is for anyone I may have “unknowingly offended:)  Blessings and LOVE to all.

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Liberal Wisdom and Revelation


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Liberal Wisdom and Revelation
Journal Entry Saturday January 3, 2015

It is Saturday January third 2015…a new year. In March, it will be eight years dealing with the violent Dystonia spasms of my neck and throat. Mark and I have been back from out Missouri trip: attending Pastor Mel Bond’s miracle healing service. I had positive expectations of God’s creative manifestation. Having already read his powerful book on spiritual warfare and watching his You Tube healing videos, I knew him to be a soft-spoken and gracious man, not using hype to expound God’s greatness in healing. Besides the anticipation of meeting Pastor Mel in person, countless thoughts swirled in my mind. The usual, how could I be serving Father for so long and still be in miserable physical  torment despite continually declaring His healing words and taking authority over any negative thought, event or symptom. It was very frustrating to desire more of Holy Spirit and yet still suffering intensely.

Thus my continuing quest to understand the connection between my head knowledge and Father’s divine pathway to healing.

I meditate once again upon the much-read, but never fully revealed first chapter of Ephesians. Each time I reread it, I feel energized and my spirit illuminated. How can one not read the extravagant words without stopping to meditate upon God’s fatherly resplendent love and provision. He has given us every heavenly and earthly blessing to enjoy! What a book brimming with and explaining the nuances of our appointed divine treasures that father God has ordained to us since the beginning of time! I must admit that I have read the book of Ephesians hundreds of times since 1982, (the year of my salvation re-birth) and wonder why, at this late age, it strikes me in such a powerful way, so much so that I want to compose a tract and share it with the world!

Eph. 1: 3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoptions as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself according to the good pleasure of His will.

Just this opening statement in itself brims over with divine  abundance! Chapter seven continues elaborating on Father’s glorious  extravagance. blessings

In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins according to the riches of his grace which he made to abound toward us in all wisdom and prudence, having made known to us the mystery of His will according to His good pleasure which He purposed in Himself.

The first chapters of Ephesians is the introduction to the entry and adoption into the family of God! What a wonderful destiny to embrace and yet so many of God’s people are suffering in body and/or enduring poverty and need.

God’s people are now living in the great expanse of knowledge, written in Daniel 12:4)  In these present end times the church is also receiving the full brunt of satan’s rage. I ponder the irony of Paul’s declaring of the glorious destiny that every child of God receives once he follows Jesus Christ. God’s people are indeed perishing from lack of knowledge (there are many ways to perish). How can we awake and walk in that glorious destiny unless we are taught the word of God. Handling the word of God. 2 tim 2:15

Live call in Prayer hosted by Pastor Janet Ellsworth.

Each night at 12:30 am, I tune into CTN Christian network program You and Me, hosted by pastor Janet Ellsworth. This amazing woman of God always has an apt word for God’s children and she is always authoritative, yet enthusiastic and compassionate. As the night goes on and many callers share their burdens, I am astounded at how man are tormented with grievous bodily afflictions. Many call for a financial blessing and still many others ask for deliverance and demons to stop harassing them. It looks to me that the majority of God’s people have not received the pre-ordained blessings as cited in Ephesians and that their pastors, bishops, priests and rabbi’s have not taught them the very basics of the Christ life! Truly, it grieves my heart that so many brothers and sisters are greatly suffering. There are requests for healing and restoration of bodies as many are bedridden, house-bound and hospitalized. Surely, satan is  busy deploying his demons to hinder the gospel from going out into the streets by keeping God’s people in bondage. Something is seriously wrong!

We read in the Gospels’ how Jesus traveled from town to town and was deeply grieved at the wandering, suffering throngs that followed him for healing. During those times, people had little defense against demonic attack or possession. We see so many examples of people being enslaved by spirits of infirmity. We read that Jesus groaned in His spirit at the masses of the precious people scattered as lost sheep without a shepherd. He became known and glorified as the gentle healer.

Pastor Janet’s You and Me call in program is greatly needed. She begins the program with scripture and ends by ministering in compassionate prayer. People need to be taught the very basics of living in Christ,  (particularly, spiritual warfare) and to know how to defend themselves against satanic attack and oppression!  Many have no idea how demons got into their homes, attached themselves to their rebellious children or even how a voo-doo curse was placed by a angry, jealous neighbor or co-worker! This is reality. This is what God’s people are enduring. Sadly, many pastors have no idea how to cast out a demon or counsel and release an enslaved brother or sister out of bondage from a generational curse. This is incomprehensible. We must move away from the tepid Methodist and lukewarm, religious circles, because we are at war with a vicious and relentless enemy!

We read in the gospels about Jesus astounding (Exousia) authority! He promised that after He rose from the dead we would also be walking in both Dunimus) and w. Are pastors teaching the flock how to wield heavenly armament? How many Christians even know what dunimus and exousia are in the first place? I just recently heard a powerful teaching by John Paul Jackson. he elaborated on the power and authority we have in Christ. Yet, I see God’s people doing worse than non-believers! Again, I say something is wrong. We may have a testing period where we are struggling financially, but poverty and need should not be a permanent lifestyle, otherwise we’d be unable  to provide for the needs of the orphans, widows and the poor in our circle?

For the new year, pastors , church leaders and elders need to start getting with the program. It is time for the church to walk and abide in the great callings Paul taught in the book of Ephesians. He asks that we obtain the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of God and that our eyes be enlightened about the hope of His calling! Wow, that sounds like divine living. In that kind of living, there is joy unspeakable and full of glory. We are able to endure difficult times and circumstances in full hope that Jesus is always with us, even in the storm! Are God’s people so full of joy that the world sees it and rejoices? Does our joyful countenance make people compelled to taste and see that the Lord is good and invite them to be their Lord and Savior?.

But the church is too busy going on a witch hunt and scrutinizing small matters of personal conviction rather than teaching the glorious and edifying ways of Christ.

We can no longer abide in a place of lack or ignorance regarding achieving the full array of the glorious promises Father wants us to have. He wishes us to be prosperous and in good health. Yes, there will be times of testing when we may have to endure sickness for a while for His glory, in expectation of healing and restoration. There will be times when Father will allow a satanic attack to buffet us (as in Paul’s case when he asked God three times to take away the thorn in his flesh) , but use it as spiritual muscle-building test so Father is glorified.

The church is directed to build up each other in faith, in gifts and in callings. Love and edifying are the chief goals, but next in line is successful spiritual warfare and knowing our adversary the devil is about seeking to destroy. . Love and wisdom must walk hand in hand.

This January begins a fresh year where I’ll enter the next phase of God’s divine destiny, power, wisdom and prosperity. We must not think prosperity is limited to financial wealth, but wholeness in every area). Father invites us to ask Him for wisdom and we must not stop at where we are, but ask Him to continue imbue us with dunamis (dynamite) wisdom and exousia (authoritative) wisdom!

God bless you!

BEAUTIFUL hand-beaded, one-of-a-kind Chokers


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About Artist,Anita Ivette Ferrer

Anita Ivette Ferrer thought her unexpected health affliction would be short-lived. She didn’t expect to be still struggling over seven years later from Dystonia, a mysterious movement disorder which doctors say has no known cause nor cure. Anita is used to engaging challenging circumstances, but her latest has brought her to the forefront of uncharted territory Faith in Jesus Christ in hand coupled with an iron will propels her to new heights of spiritual self-discovery, supernatural trust in God and ultra creativity.

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When she wakes up each morning, she inwardly dreads another day coping with the pain and fatigue which could restrict her ability to live a normal life. But as she gets up from her bed, she relies upon Christ to empower her with strength and hope for the day! Her prayers are always answered as she tackles her house chores, outreach to the bedridden, elderly and dying and her creative endeavors.

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Quite by accident, Anita found a temporary respite from her violent facial twitching while repairing some old broken beaded chokers. She found that focusing upon the fine beadwork caused the muscles to cease pulling! The next thing she knew, she was spending more and more time at the craft stores purchasing unique, beautiful beads for her new passion!

Anita, 1989 Magna Cum Laude Brookdale Community College graduate whose major studies were in the humanities and social services, never imagined that a condition like Dystonia would lead her back to her childhood talent, designing!

fall,2014 139Anita believes with all her heart that her healing could be just a heart beat away. Though each day continues to be a struggle, God inspires her to keep the momentum going! She has learned through overcoming battle with chronic Lyme Disease, poverty, child abuse and domestic violence that in order to grow, one must re-invent themselves! Though she’s had to greatly curtail her performing and song-writing due to the spasms, her beaded jewelry design has taken her to new levels of exciting creativity and an opportunity to share her craft with the world. She also hopes to educate the public about Dystonia and movement disorders which are increasing. As yet the only treatments for Dystonia are Botox injections and DPS Deep Brain stimulation which Anita feels would not help her symptoms.

Anita resides with her husband and their cats in Browns Mills, NJ. She is also available to minister in music at your church or special event.

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Purchase of Anita’s creations helps her to continue ministering to the elderly, disable and hospice patient. You can find out more about Anita via her http://www.anitaivetteferrer.wordpress.com blogsite

Anita Ivette Ferrer
Anita Ivette Ferrer One of a Kind Designs
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609-893-2397

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Fighting the Good Fight of Sickness


Fighting the Good Fight of Sickness

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Children of God who struggle with a catastrophic  and chronic condition have the extra burden of dealing with excruciating pain. There are few things one can do except taking medication  which often doesn’t kill the pain. Struggling with all kinds of allergies, lung ailments, Lyme disease and Dystonia (from environmental illness) I’ve had to hunker down with Jesus and God’s word to get through each hour. I pray that you will find peace as you discipline yourself in His strengthening word

We also well know that we are in warfare and we shouldn’t be surprised at this fiery trial that is before us. Though Father never gives us illness, he always uses it for His glory and our benefit. In my case, suffering has taught me about the treasures of an empathetic heart and I find such blessings in sharing my gifts of singing-performing, encouragement and visiting at bedside the sick, elderly and dying.

I’ve also learned that illness often has an emotional-spiritual root, so I’ve had to work very hard to address many past issues of emotional traumas, abuse and abandonment. I highly suggest Henry Wright’s insightful book, A More excellent Way. Father is so faithful giving us the needed grace each day to move forward.

Recovery may also mean getting down to the nitty gritty of deliverance counseling and forgiveness. I have had to work  very hard for a few decades to abide peacefully in the shelter of His wings! Pray and ask Father and Holy Spirit if there is cleaning you need to do win your minds attic. Daily meditation of God’s word especially the Psalms can transform you immensely.

Pray, research, get counsel, pray, research. Be open-minded and open-hearted and see what miracles father has for you.

Duuteronomy 30:19

19 This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live

Don’t accept what the doctors tell you. God is the only one who has decreed your end. You have choice and treatment options. Do you want to beat this thing or die? It’s your choice!

Proverbs 18:21
Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.

Science has proven that the nerves connected speech, so the mouth and jaw are all interconnected with the brain cells and nuero-transmitters!

Psalm 139:14
(New living Translation)
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous–how well I know it.

The human body is astoundingly resilient, can heal itself Science still has not uncovered all the mysteries of the human body and its marvelous workmanship.

Psalm 139:17-18
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I could count them, they would be more in number than the sand.. When I awake, I am still with you.

Imagine God being so in love with you that he thinks about you all day? What a multitude of wonderful thoughts He has towards us and is with us every moment morning til our state of unconsciousness. Every Child of God must learn that Father loves us more than we could even fathom. A stronghold of many is the spirit of unworthiness. We have been rejected, bullied or unnoticed for most of our lives, this often, deeply-imbedded mental stronghold keeps us from truly believing we are worthy because of Jesus!

Isaiah 50:7
Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore have I set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame.

Phil 4:8
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.
Isaiah 43 18-19
18 “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness, and streams in the wasteland.

Ezekiel 37 12-14
Thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, O my people, I will open your graves, and cause you to come up out of your graves, and bring you into the land of Israel.
13 And ye shall know that I am the LORD, when I have opened your graves, O my people, and brought you up out of your graves,
14 and shall put my Spirit in you, and ye shall live, and I shall place you in your own land: then shall ye know that I the LORD have spoken it, and performed it, saith the LORD.
The valley of the dry bones has been the most mesmerizing of all scripture to me. I marvel at the wonder of God totally restoring dry, dead bones! He is more than able to do more than we can imagine.

Isaiah 53: 5
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.

Isaiah 58:8
Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.

Psalm 61
I will cry to you when my heart is overwhelmed.

Lam. 3:22-23
His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness.

Romans 8:35-36
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

Psalm 23

23The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green [1] pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest [2] my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. [3]

Jer. 17: 7 &8
…Blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.
8 They will be like a tree planted by the water, that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”

Rev 21:5
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

Is. 43:19
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.

Rev 21:5
And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.

Psalm 119:33
Order my steps in thy word: and let not any iniquity have dominion over me.

Psalm, 46:10
…. “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”

Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Psalm, 30:5
For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.
Phil 4:8

…whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.

Eph 2:10

For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Isaiah 59:19 So shall they fear the name of the Lord from the west, and his glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him.

TRUE DISCERNMENT


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True Discernment Oct 15, 2014

His fathomless eyes pierced deep withing hr spirit. She felt a cool, gentle cleansing come over her thoughts and memories. She thought of the cruel, demeaning men who had misused and abused her. She thought of her valueless existence and total dependence on her latest partner. Her parents and siblings had long disowned her, calling her a whore and lazy woman. Every time, she met a man, they somehow tricked her into even more sell-loathing and shame. Each man added more baggage and shame.

As the man continued to probe her and talk to her, her eyes started to fill with tears. He had the most compassionate eyes, she had ever seen. His voice was gentle and h seemed genuinely interested in her. Could he really see that she was a broken woman who had a deep longing for a man to cherish and respect her. She no longer had a soul, but now she was mesmerized and couldn’t move from her place at the well.

Most of us are familiar with the story of the Samaritan woman at the well. Here is a glorious picture of our Savior, Yashuah Jesus discerning the life and spirit of a precious woman who needed deliverance and healing. We also know the story of how Jesus chose Matthew to be one of His disciples. Tax collectors in Biblical days were treated with hostility and avoided at all costs. Many were greedy and dishonest, but in spite of the prejudice, Jesus saw Matthew’s open and willing heart and what he was capable of being for Jesus’ ministry and the kingdom of God.

How often have we made hasty judgements of people and even our brethren just by looking at, observing their habits or listening to their speech. During Jesus’ discourse with the woman at the well, we notice that he was attentive and asked for her to draw water for Him. Indeed, she was intrigued and very surprised that he took notice of her. The beauty of this supernatural encounter with Jesus was that the Samaritan woman was not uncomfortable, nor did she seem afraid as he talked to her. Then Jesus gets very personal and says he knows she’s had five husbands and she was not married to her latest partner. As the discourse progresses, Jesus offers her the gift being forever watered and satiated by living water from an eternal well spring!

By the time Jesus finished talking with her, she was forever transformed! She was so jubilant that she couldn’t wait to tell everyone she knew of the Saviors Messiah whom she had been saved and delivered! This happens to be one of my favorite stories of the Bible, because I too was a person a mixed ancestry, who never fit in school or with others. I also suffered from my mother throwing me out of our house in senior year of highschool. I also suffered harassment from school and had difficult relationships with former pastors who misunderstood and judged me wrongly On top of all that mess, I had s string of relationships with men who were emotionally broken, needy and lacked self-worth. I truly related to that lonely, but precious Samaritan women.

In our encounters with people, we deduce that nudge in our spirit to be Holy Spirit discernment. We must remember that since we are so close to Christ;’s return, deceiving spirits and false prophets will proliferate the landscape of Christendom. We must be constantly on guard and in God’s presence to differentiate between the holy and the profane. We must stop and lsiten to His voice and ask “is this God, from satan or my suspicious, paranoid flesh”? God’s people must be extremely alert and sensitive to navigate through the maze of spiritual information and manifestations. Through making so many mistakes and suffering from lack of true discernment, I’ve paid a heavy price for not having the needed knowledge I needed. It can be frustrating for young believers to learn how to have discernment, the know the difference between conviction or condemnation.
How can the child of God accurately discern by Holy Spirit?

The first thing I do when I arise is pray Psalm 19:14 May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

And
Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139 23&24

If I feel a spiritual impression, my husband often asks me, it is God’s nudge or satan’s nudge. That got me a little nervous and I knew that I had to get serious and seek him earnestly and ask for confirmation. Recently I was very comforted by pastor Pastor Robert Morris’ (Gateway Church ) Special teaching, The God I Never Knew, He explains the transforming and loving nature of the Holy Spirit. He is so meticulous about us seeking and receiving all the precious gifts God has for us and that we need not be afraid of receiving a bad impartation from satan or a counterfeit spirit!
.
Now suppose one of you fathers is asked by his son for a fish; he will not give him a snake instead of a fish, will he? 12″Or if he is asked for an egg, he will not give him a scorpion, will he? Luke 11 11&12…

When we pray continually like this each morning and evening of our lives, he will truly guide us. If we are searching for Him more than the gifts and blessings, He will show himself great and show you great and mighty thing as he said to Jeremiah. 33:3

Father desires for his children to prosper in every area of our lives and be in health.

If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. James 1:5

Wisdom and direction is available to all of us including how to deal with brothers and sisters who are in error or about to make a serious mistake in their lives. We shouldn’t immediately jump on their case and condemn them without first praying about how to address an issue.

But the wisdom from above is first of all pure. It is also peace loving, gentle at all times, and willing to yield to others. It is full of mercy and good deeds. It shows no favoritism and is always sincere… James 3 17&18 .

We should aspire to be led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. Romans 8:14
If we stay in the word and in His presence, we will rarely be led astray, Jesus told us
Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing.…John 15:4&5

Having discernment means to bear and to judge good fruit.
You will know them by their fruits. Grapes are not gathered from thorn bushes nor figs from thistles, are they? So every good tree bears good fruit, but the bad tree bears bad fruit. 18″A good tree cannot produce bad fruit, nor can a bad tree produce good fruit.…Matt 7 16&17

We are also told to est the spirits to see they if they are of God. 1 John $:1

Here is the challenge of the children of God. Not every one who names Christ is truly a son or daughter. In these very dark days of deception and false prophets, it is even more crucial for God’s people to walk in true Holy Spirit discernment. Kundalini, (false spirits) has infiltrated many, many churches and charismatic denominations today. Great discernment is sorely needed so that non believers and new born believers don’t become fearful when it comes to experiencing the supernatural gifts and manifestations of the Lord!

Let us remember that Father God of lights protect His own. Blessed are the pure in spirit for they shall see God. Those who seek him with all their heart shall find Him. Jer.29:13

I’ve seen and experienced too many unnecessary mistakes by God’s people who suffer and die from lack of knowledge and wisdom. Truly wisdom is the principle thing,

Young believers also need to be discipled and nurtured in the things of God. I didn’t have a spiritual mentor, so I suffered many difficult and unnecessary grievances, most involving pastors. One former pastor often called me into his because of questions other pastor would call him about. This pastor questioned why I dressed the way I did, was suspicious about needing to have temporary food from the church food pantry and my purchasing of a Taylor guitar. I was deeply wounded by my pastor’s suspicion of my every action. I felt such hurt, I had to find another church and I ended up in a well know Calvary church, in Old Bridge, NJ. At first, the worship pastor was excited and supportive to learn I was musically gifted. He said he would love me to sing on the worship team soon. Months later, when I asked him when I could audition, his seemed distant and cold and told me that I would have to begin at the bottom, the Broken Loaves food pantry ministry, before I could lead worship!

Another pastor of an AG church mistrusted my worship leading. As soon as people started feeling the anointing raise and the strong presence of God by lifting their hands and worshiping, he would interrupt and dismiss every one to go home! I was very grieved and I’m sure so was Holy Spirit. After these spiritual traumas, I knew that Father God was teaching me a lesson about praying and seeking His will for my life and calling. I didn’t seek discernment and wasted precious time in churches where I didn’t really belong. I put all my trust in pastors and asked their opionion about everything, rather than asking Father!

I’m growing and learning, though and Father is so gracious! I seek Him with a pure and passionate heart and find complete affirmation, acceptance and guidance. I’ve learned that His style and way is disimiliar from my earthly father’s rigid and harsh discipline, I had to learn when to leave an atmosphere of abuse or legalsim. God sent very rigid and intimidating pastors so I could learn to be led by His precious Holy Spirit and to know that his way and will for my life, ministry and marriage. Would be very different for someone else! I see His precious hand in my own husband’s and my unconventional and challenged relating dynamics and marriage. Only Holy Spirit can guide our unique paths. Both my husband Mark and I have encountered some disturbing experience with false pastors and their ministries. .
We must ask holy Spirit for even more guidance and discernment as we see the many strange manifestations regularly occurring on Christian TV which try to imitate our God. Kundalini spirit operate in many of these “cults”. The leaders of many of these churches are prideful and mammon-greedy, lording over their flocks. There is too much opulent living through begging for “seed offerings” and such. Many have lost their focus on serving and preaching repentance and holiness.

We must get back to basics and pastors, bishops and leaders need to start following Jesus’ commandment of love, otherwise, the church will be filled with division, strife, suspicion, condemnation, deception and wasted kingdom potential

Before we barge into anyone’s life or church like a bull in a china shop, we must lay at our Father’s feet and ask Holy Spirit for His direction. Unbridled zeal rarely brings about gentle acceptance and revelation. While going into deep study about false (Kundalini) spirits and true discernment I came upon a relevant statement from Andrew Strom, author of “Why I Left the Prophetic Movement). The book is a shocking expose of what is going on in God’s house. The following words echo my exact feelings when it comes to ministering in love by His wisdom and discernment.

A lot of people think that to be a prophet, you have to be hard…..When I was a
young Christian, I was a total zealot., but I was often without wisdom….and also
without love. I would walk into a room full of Christians and start an argument at
the drop of a hat.. I was not afraid to blast anyone … truth was king!. That was the
most important thing and that was all I cared about! ..

Over the years, God did a work in me…..From God’s point of view, the most
Thing in the world is PEOPLE! In those early years, it was not peopel that I
truly cared about. The only thing I deeply valued was the truth that I was trying
to put across that day. And as I attacked and spiritually hacked at people all
day, I was a spiritual nightmare!

If you love your truths more than you love people, then you are an out-and-
out pharisee….If you can get broken enough to truly love people and value them
more than anything else on earth, then speak truth to them out of that place of
love. Listen friends
you can do anything with truth, you can use it to beat people up or set them
free. You can use it in love or you can use it in self-righteousness to hammer and
condemn people.

Father, may your people truly be a city on a hill whose light is so compelling that it draws All men unto you. It’s not by power, not by might but by Your Spirit sayeth the Lord. Teach us to discern how we are to minister to each individual soul. My our discourse be so enthrallingly lovely, as Jesus spoke to that Samaritan woman at the well and may they be totally joyful and transformed by your love! In Jesus’ name, we pray, amen

TRUE DISCERNMENT

His fathomless eyes pierced deep withing hr spirit. She felt a cool, gentle cleansing come over her thoughts and memories. She thought of the cruel, demeaning men who had misused and abused her. She thought of her valueless existence and total dependence on her latest partner. Her parents and siblings had long disowned her, calling her a whore and lazy woman. Every time, she met a man, they somehow tricked her into believing even more that she was worthless and used-up. Each man added more baggage and shame.

As the man continued to probe her and talk to her, her eyes started to fill with tears. He had the most compassionate eyes, she had ever seen. His voice was gentle and h seemed genuinely interested in her. Could he really see that she was a broken woman who had a deep longing for a man to cherish and respect her. She no longer had a soul, but now she was mesmerized and couldn’t move from her place at the well.

Most of us are familiar with the story of the Samaritan woman at the well. Here is a glorious picture of our Savior, Yashuah Jesus discerning the life and spirit of a precious woman who needed deliverance and healing. We also know the story of how Jesus chose Matthew to be one of His disciples. Tax collectors in Biblical days were treated with hostility and avoided at all costs. Many were greedy and dishonest, but in spite of the prejudice, Jesus saw Matthew’s open and willing heart and what he was capable of being for Jesus’ ministry and the kingdom of God.

How often have we made hasty judgements of people and even our brethren just by looking at, observing their habits or listening to their speech. During Jesus’ discourse with the woman at the well, we notice that he was attentive and asked for her to draw water for Him. Indeed, she was intrigued and very surprised that he took notice of her. The beauty of this supernatural encounter with Jesus was that the Samaritan woman was not uncomfortable, nor did she seem afraid as he talked to her. Then Jesus gets very personal and says he knows she’s had five husbands and she was not married to her latest partner. As the discourse progresses, Jesus offers her the gift being forever watered and satiated by living water from an eternal well spring!

By the time Jesus finished talking with her, she was forever transformed! She was so jubilant that she couldn’t wait to tell everyone she knew of the Saviors Messiah whom she had been saved and delivered! This happens to be one of my favorite stories of the Bible, because I too was a person a mixed ancestry, who never fit in school or with others. I also suffered from my mother throwing me out of our house in senior year of high school. I also suffered harassment from school and had difficult relationships with former pastors who misunderstood and judged me wrongly On top of all that mess, I had s string of relationships with men who were emotionally broken, needy and lacked self-worth. I truly related to that lonely, but precious Samaritan women.

In our encounters with people, we deduce that nudge in our spirit to be Holy Spirit discernment. We must remember that since we are so close to Christ;’s return, deceiving spirits and false prophets will proliferate the landscape of Christendom. We must be constantly on guard and in God’s presence to differentiate between the holy and the profane. We must stop and listen to His voice and ask “is this God, from satan or my suspicious, paranoid flesh God’s people must be extremely alert and sensitive to navigate through the maze of spiritual information and manifestations. Through making so many mistakes and suffering from lack of true discernment, I’ve paid a heavy price for not having the needed knowledge I know seek. It can be frustrating for young believer to learn how to have discernment, the know the difference between conviction and  condemnation.
How can the child of God accurately discern by Holy Spirit?

The first I do when I arise is pray Psalm 19:14 May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

And
Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139 23&24

If I feel a spiritual impression, my husband often asks me, it is God’s nudge or satan’s nudge. That got me a little nervous and I knew that I had to get serious and seek him earnestly and ask for confirmation. Recently I was very comforted by pastor Pastor Robert Morris’ (gateway Church ) Special teaching, The God I Never Knew, He explains the transforming and loving nature of the Holy Spirit. He is so meticulous about us seeking and receving all the precious gifts God has for us and that we need not be afraid of receiving a bad imparatinion from satan or a counterfeit spirit!
.
Now suppose one of you fathers is asked by his son for a fish; he will not give him a snake instead of a fish, will he? 12″Or if he is asked for an egg, he will not give him a scorpion, will he? Luke 11 11&12…

When we pray continually like this each morning and evening of our lives, he will truly guide us. If we are searching for Him more than the gifts and blessings, He will show himself great and show you great and mighty thing as he said to Jeremiah. 33:3

Father desires for his children to prosper in every area of our lives and be in health.

If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. James 1:5

Wisdom and direction is available to all of us including how to deal with brothers and sisters who are in error or about to make a serious mistake in their lives. We shouldn’t immediately jump on their case and condemn them without first praying about how to address an issue.

But the wisdom from above is first of all pure. It is also peace loving, gentle at all times, and willing to yield to others. It is full of mercy and good deeds. It shows no favoritism and is always sincere… James 3 17&18 .

We should aspire to be led by the Spirit of God are the children of God. Romans 8:14
If we stay in the word and in His presence, we will rarely be led astray, Jesus told us
Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself unless it abides in the vine, so neither can you unless you abide in Me. I am the vine, you are the branches; he who abides in Me and I in him, he bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing.…John 15:4&5

Having discernment means to bear and to judge good fruit.
You will know them by their fruits. Grapes are not gathered from thorn bushes nor figs from thistles, are they? So every good tree bears good fruit, but the bad tree bears bad fruit. 18″A good tree cannot produce bad fruit, nor can a bad tree produce good fruit.…Matt 7 16&17

We are also told to est the spirits to see they if they are of God. 1 John $:1

Here is the challenge of the children of God. Not every one who names Christ is truly a son or daughter. In these very dark days of deception and false prophets, it is even more crucial for God’s people to walk in true Holy Spirit discernment. Kundalini, (false spirits) has infiltrated many, many churches and charismatic denominations today. Great discernment is sorely needed so that non believers and new born believers don’t become fearful when it comes to experiencing the supernatural gifts and manifestations of the Lord!

Let us remember that Father God of lights protect His own. Blessed are the pure in spirit for they shall see God. Those who seek him with all their heart shall find Him. Jer.29:13

I’ve seen and experienced too many unnecessary mistakes by God’s people who suffer and die from lack of knowledge and wisdom. Truly wisdom is the principle thing,

Young believers also need to be discipled and nurtured in the things of God. I didn’t have a spiritual mentor, so I suffered many difficult and unnecessary grievances, most involving pastors. One former pastor often called me into his because of questions other pastor would call him about. This pastor questioned why I dressed the way I did, was suspicious about needing to have temporary food from the church food pantry and my purchasing of a Taylor guitar. I was deeply wounded by my pastor’s suspicion of my every action. I felt such hurt, I had to find another church and I ended up in a well know Calvary church, in Old Bridge, NJ. At first, the worship pastor was excited and supportive to learn I was musically gifted. He said he would love me to sing on the worship team soon. Months later, when I asked him when I could audition, his seemed distant and cold and told me that I would have to begin at the bottom, the Broken Loaves food pantry ministry, before I could lead worship!

Another pastor of an AG church mistrusted my worship leading. As soon as people started feeling the anointing raise and the strong presence of God by lifting their hands and worshiping, he would interrupt and dismiss every one to go home! I was very grieved and I’m sure so was Holy Spirit. After these spiritual traumas, I knew that Father God was teaching me a lesson about praying and seeking His will for my life and calling. I didn’t seek discernment and wasted precious time in churches where I didn’t really belong. I put all my trust in pastors and asked their opinion about everything, rather than asking Father!

I’m growing and learning, though and Father is so gracious! I seek Him with a pure and passionate heart and find complete affirmation, acceptance and guidance. I’ve learned that His style and way is disimiliar from m y earthly father’s rigid and harsh discipline, I had to learn when to leave an atmosphere of abusive or rigid. God sent very rigid and intimidating pastors so I could learn to be led by His precious Holy Spirit and to know that his way and will for my life, ministry and marriage. Would be very different for someone else! I see His precious hand in my own husband’s and my unconventional and challenged relating dynamics and marriage. Only Holy Spirit can guide our unique paths. Both my husband Mark and I have encountered some disturbing experience with false pastors and their ministries. .
We are asking father for even more guidance and discernment as we see some may strange manifestations that try to imitate our God. Besides the alarming amount of Kundalini spirits we are seeing on Christian TV channels, we also notice many are also cults. Many of these leaders are prideful and mammon-greedy lording over their followers! I see too much opulent living through begging for “seed offerings” and such. Many have lost their focus on serving and preaching repentance and holiness.

We must get back to basics and pastors, bishops and leaders need to start following Jesus’ commandment of love, otherwise, the church will be filled with division, strife, suspicion, condemnation, deception and wasted kingdom potential

Before we barge into anyone’s life or church like a bull in a china shop, we must lay at our Father’s feet and ask Holy Spirit for His direction. Unbridled zeal rarely brings about gentle acceptance and revelation. While going into deep study about false (Kundalini) spirits and true discernment I came upon a relevant statement from Andrew Strom, author of “Why I Left the Prophetic Movement). The book is a shocking expose of what is going on in God’s house. The following words echo my exact feelings when it comes to ministering in love by His wisdom and discernment.

A lot of people think that to be a prophet, you have to be hard…..When I was a
young Christian, I was a total zealot., but I was often without wisdom….and also
without love. I would walk into a room full of Christians and start an argument at
the drop of a hat.. I was not afraid to blast anyone … truth was king!. That was the most important thing and that was all I cared about! ..

Over the years, God did a work in me…..From God’s point of view, the most
Thing in the world is PEOPLE! In those early years, it was not people that I
truly cared about. The only thing I deeply valued was the truth that I was trying
to put across that day. And as I attacked and spiritually hacked at people all
day, I was a spiritual nightmare!

If you love your truths more than you love people, then you are an out-and-
out pharisee….If you can get broken enough to truly love people and value them
more than anything else on earth, then speak truth to them out of that place of
love. Listen friends
you can do anything with truth, you can use it to beat people up or set them
free. You can use it in love or you can use it in self-righteousness to hammer and
condemn people.

Father, may your people truly be a city on a hill whose light is so compelling that it draws All men unto you. It’s not by power, not by might but by Your Spirit sayeth the Lord. Teach us to discern how we are to minister to each individual soul. My our discourse be so enthrallingly lovely, as Jesus spoke to that Samaritan woman at the well and may they be totally joyful and transformed by your love! In Jesus’ name, we pray, amen

COME INTO the DEEP


DWNLOADED 9-24-2012 118Journal Entry, Sunday, Septmer14, 2014

TRUE LOVING is a RISK : As I was meditating on Psalm 27 today My prayer was that God would lead me to a deeper level of intimacy. As I thought about the myriad dark places what He has lead me to and the precious intimate relations with people through my life, I then was reminded to read Ephesians, the first chapter. Kathy will relate and agree about the glorious richness of the opening chapter!

Imagine Father God who has already planned our destinies, resplendent with all the depth, revelation and riches of His devising! We, God’s adopted children are rooted in His love and supernatural gifts and blessings. To enjoy the deep well of God’s beauty and LOVE, we must be open to risk and expose ourselves, however shameful. We will NEVER reach a devastatingly wounded world until we can freely reveal our won woundedness. That sounds weird, hanging out your dirty laundry for all the world to see. But when we allow others to look inside our hearts, we open the door to “relationship” intimacy. I’m growing more and more bored with mainstream Christianity! I seek the treasures of intimacy because it is SO healing and enriching. I say this because last night, my visitation at Buttonwood Hospital was pivotal.

My husband was attending a Hebraic bible gathering and I was alone. I knew I needed to get out and minister with my voice and God’s presence. Though I was a little depressed, I felt compelled to go out and bring sunshine to those who were worse off than me.

And as I walked back to my truck, indeed I felt refreshed! I met two new residents I hadn’t met before. One was tethered to an oxygen tank and lay in a dark room. I never know what wonderful things to expect when I enter a room of a person I didn’t know. I asked if I could share a song. By the time I finished “His Eyes Are on the Sparrow” I could feel the powerful presence of the Holy Spirit. The lady was at first apathetic, was shaking with joy I felt so humbled to be used of Father God in such a manner and although I was jerking uncontrollably, it was His deal. I

Nursing home-hospital ministry is not for everyone, but if you are seeking fresh experience in the supernatural and watching half dead people come alive under His power than I encourage you to start today!

My life would be so empty if it weren’t for the deeply enriching episodes of touching a life or making deeper friendship. I call this soul sculpting because you meet a broken person who doesn’t know Christ or has been without human companionship so long, they have forgotten that God loves them. To come back each time and see that person bloom or at least endure their isolation with hope is a powerful example of what Christ wishes all of us to do. He calls us to go out into the highways and byways and be fishers of men.

Being a fisher of men requires endurance, patience and empathy. It is a calling of love, to get out of your comfort zones and influence a life for Christ. I want to see more of Christ. This is the deeper revelation and wisdom the epistle of Ephesians means,: delving into the depths of His heart and to be eager to go out and share that intimate love with the lost…
Okay… I’m going to get off the computer.

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