For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks at his natural face in a mirror; for once he has looked at himself and gone away, he has immediately forgotten what kind of person he was. But one who looks intently at the perfect law, the law of liberty, and abides by it, not having become a forgetful hearer but an effectual doer, this man will be blessed in what he does.…

Walking in Love with God and With Man

We cannot separate our relations with our brethren from our relationship with God. True transparency is having a pure heart not only towards God, but our brothers and sisters and everyone.. How do we become transparent?

Often in our journey before Christ, wore masks to hide our inadequacies, short-comings and woundedness. Though Jesus gave us Holy Spirit to help transform our minds, some of us still struggle with the fear that we aren’t accepted, sufficient and have to live to such and suches expectation or we are failures. Some have worn the mask so well and for so long that their deception mindset inhibits Christ’s beautiful gift of freedom.

It is for freedom that Christ set us free; therefore keep standing firm and do not be subject again to a yoke of slavery. Gal 5;1

4 And we have such trust through Christ toward God. 5 Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being from ourselves, but our sufficiency is from God, 6 who also made us sufficient as ministers of the new covenant, not of the letter but of the Spirit;[a] for the letter kills, but the Spirit gives life. 2 Cor 3: 4-6

This being said, we no longer are tethered to the bondage of the law, so we should rejoice in Christ’s spiritual freedom and the personal guidance, wisdom and company of precious Holy Spirit!?

The problem starts when the revealed truth of what true freedom is misinterpreted and a “legalistic” brand of faith (Christianity) prevails, leaving behind a trail of wounded and/or back-slidden people, who weren’t edified at all by our brand of truth…but repelled. Ouch!.
How heart-breaking to see so many walking in tension, fear and anxiety, when Christ should be their shelter and joy..

Recently a spiritual sister asked me to pray with her about a broken friendship with another sister. Things are crazy on FB and I’m amazed at the spats and ungodly episodes on public display. People unfriend each other for the stupidest differences of opinions or “grey-area” doctrinal beliefs. I can’t stand discord and confrontation. I was very saddened about my sisters plight and then later in the day, heard the news alert about the ISIS attacks on Parisian citizens. I knew I had to bring my burdens to the Lord during my intercession prayer time. My spirit begged to ask Holy Spirit why death and terror were exploding and a victorious remedy was nowhere to be found. Humanities fear was burgeoning like a nuclear mushroom cloud.

As I brought my sorrow and prayers to the throne room and waited for Holy Spirit to lead. My Bible opened up to 1 John 4:20 20 If a man say, I love God, and hateth his brother, he is a liar: for he that loveth not his brother whom he hath seen, how can he love God whom he hath not seen?

I pondered on the Hateth word. Jesus took hate and committing adultery to deeper roots issues of sin. In Mat 5:22 But I say unto you, That whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment: and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in danger of the council: but whosoever shall say, Thou fool, shall be in danger of hell fire.

This is the only passage in the Bible where the term raca is used. Raca comes from the Aramaic term reqa. It was a derogatory expression meaning “empty-headed,” insinuating a person’s stupidity or inferiority. It was an offensive name used to show utter contempt for another person. Jesus warned that the use of such a word to describe someone was tantamount to murder and deserving of the severest punishment of the law.

So it is pretty serious for us to be angry and see our brother or sister in an inferior position. We are certainly not honoring them nor being humble! Honour all men. Love the brotherhood. Fear God. Honour the king. 1 Pet 2:17

Paul gets very descriptive when he lists those acts of the flesh which are evil.
Eph 4:31 bitterness, rage, anger, brawling slander and every kind of malice. Our brother Peter also concurs with 1 Peter 2:1 Put away all malice, deceit, hypocrisy, envy, slander of every kind.

I believe all of us have had tinges of one or more of any of these devious, sneaky sins and if our mouths have uttered them, they surely have come from the abundance of our hearts!
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, Phil 2:3. There’s a lot to soul search and pray about here and it would be in our best interests to truly examine our hearts. Ask Holy Spirit to show us what is in our hearts. Let us allow Holy Spirit to job of being pure in every way.

Let our prayer each morning, even before we arise out of bed be….
4 Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer. Psalm 19:14

Walking in true love is a lot harder and just saying, :I love you or I’m praying for you.” Jesus stressed the commandment of love. And this commandment have we from him, That he who loveth God love his brother also.

In thinking about all the tragedies and demonic attacks I understood how our divine love or lack of it directly influences the happenings and the severity of what happens across the globe, in our own nation, our community and our family!

So now I am giving you a new commandment: Love each other. Just as I have loved you, you should love each other. John 13:34

To really drive the point of loving each other with a fervent love, the way Jesus commanded, I will take you deeper into Jesus teachings to the Pharisees and Saducees. You may have wondered why Jesus give another (and new) a new commandment when Moses had already given us the 10 commandments? If we do our research, we find that hundreds of extra laws were added by the Hebraic leaders. Most of the Pharisee and Rabbis were driven to abide by the myriad and very specific laws and believed they were righteous and pleasing Jehovah God.

13 But woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye shut up the kingdom of heaven against men: for ye neither go in yourselves, neither suffer ye them that are entering to go in. Mat 23:13

Jesus rebuked them by telling them their strict adherence to the laws and outward holiness practices were nothing but hypocrisy to God because: they made it so difficult to follow. Many of the rabbis thought they could cover their sin and greed by long prayers and fasting. They often made shady business dealings and defrauded widows, the vulnerable and the poor. Further in the passage Jesus blasts them by saying they went so far as to tithe on the smallest things such as herbs, yet many of them denied justice for the widows, did not provide for orphans and were void of compassion for the needy and broken. I’m sure many of us are like those “quick-to-judge” and condemning pharisees and Sadducees who write off pastors and/or TV televangelists who fell from grace. Jim Bakker shares his story of how very few brethren ministered to him redemption, compassion and love while serving his time in prison. This should not be so. The body of Christ must be a place for refuge because Christ died for us ungodly and all are equal to receive his unmerited grace!

I repeat Jesus mandate again
…10″If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love; just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love. 11″These things I have spoken to you so that My joy may be in you, and that your joy may be made full. 12″This is My commandment, that you love one another, just as I have loved you. John 15: 10-12

Love is the enduring motif crucial for unity and strength in the body. When we start taking seriously our love walks, (as Teacher Joyce Meyer calls) we will start seeing amazing authority and victories in our prayer lives, in our family relationships and in the spiritual condition of our world. It is 11:59 and counting. Your heart purity, deep love for your Christian brothers and sisters and the resulting prayer victorious all depend on how transparent you are with God and yourself. I believe that when we come together in the manner of divine purity, we will see amazing miracles and victories against the ever-increasing evil and demonic activity.

Prayer, Abba Father, let us be excited to know each other and what makes us tick. Let us help each other with burdens, sins, fears, pouring in the balm of compassion and patience with those who have disabilities and past woundings. Let us honor each others boundaries and listen with our hearts when we have offended each other. Let us strive to reconcile broken relationship. Let “I’m sorry that I hurt you. How can I change so that this doesn’t happen again?” be comfortable. I now come to the throne room of grace and and into the Holy courtroom with confidence, believing that my powerful prayers have changed my circumstance,and my world, In Jesus name. Amen



For the wounded, vulnerable, and physically-challenged

Dear Precious sister or brother, are you discouraged? Are You disgusted and think Father God-Jesus has not heard nor answered your prayer? Are you worn out by fighting, crying and discouragement? Are you baffled and perplexed that you’re not only hit with one trial but  two, three or four at a time and you just cannot take one more hit?

I want to let you in on a little secret.on what is going on so you can adequately prepare and strengthen yourself in these daunting times. Many unseen things are happening in the spiritual realm. Satan’s time is short and he is stepping up his plans to “wear down” the saints of God. One of my spiritual mentors and pastors, Augusto Perez, sent us prayer intercessors an urgent prayer request a few years ago. I was taken aback and totally uninformed about the various demonic groups (sorcerers, warlocks and other”called” elite) whose MO is to destroy humanity at every cost. Only God Himself knows what  these ceremonies entailed for us here on planet earth. If you haven’t noticed, the spirits released from the abyss through these evil ceremonies are responsible for the  lawlessness, school shootings, ISIS attacks and a myriad of other atrocities.

You won’t hear this from the average pastor, but this is a reality and a VERY frightening reality for all the inhabitants of the earth. Thankfully, the Child of God abiding in God’s shelter does not have to fear the grave assaults of our nemesis.  Strategic plans to wear us down are  chronic and terminal sicknesses, financial distress,  wayward and rebellious children wreaking havoc on their families, nervous breakdowns,  domestic violence, suicide, irreconcilable differences causing divorces,  and substance abuse destroying families. These attacks are hitting  with vehemence and totality and the worse is yet to come, unless God’s people take seriously their marching orders to wage serious spiritual warfare.

The first place the body of Christ must start at is him/her heart and mouth. What comes out of our mouths is what determines the outcome of our trials and  satan’s attacks. Through brainstorming with  successful and victorious prayer warrior pastors and intercessors, I’ve gleaned some amazing strategies in these demonically-charged times. Many of you may be fearful regarding  the spiritual, financial and economical assaults globally, but now is not the time to shirk and run to our underground bunkers or delete your “Doomsday-prepper” friends” Facebook posts.

The body of Christ needs to awaken to the reality. The words of our mouth are the fruits of our hearts!  Oh my! This was a big one for me. How many years of my Christian life have I uttered words of doom and death on myself. “”Oh, I’ll never get well. I am so deep in debt, I will never get out. Or, that spouse, child or freind will never change” These are all negative declarations. Satan’s minions are standing by, laughing gleefully as you continue to dig yourself deeper into the pit of depression and negativity.

Transform your atmosphere with declarations  of God’s word. Transformation and hope will  become your reality. WOW! Imagine we daughters and sons of God creating our own divine realities by our very words and attitudes. I want to drive this point in…until it sinks in and you start to see how you can indeed by God’s very own fruitful tree…always bearing fruit. But first you’re going to have to admit this fault and ask God’s help to turn it around!

It took me decades to realize the truth…that my own failures and lacks were because of not abiding in the Lord’s very presence and absorbing His precious-life-giving words into my being!! Until we abide in this  divine truth, we will not achieve God’s great victories and soar in His divine purpose!

Did you know that satan has access to Father’s heavenly courts to accuse and malign us daily? Look what he did to poor Job?

Job 1:6 Now there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the LORD, and Satan came also among them.

We tie up God’s hands to  release His blessings and victories when we declare the opposite of what His word tells us! So, for example, we wonder why God has not provided for our rent, food and utilities and we complain and say ” I can’t make my paycheck meet my bills” Satan will use this very statement to God against you.

Your response to your need, “My God provides for ALL my needs according to His riches and glory.”  We must stop griping and mistrusting God if He chooses to answer our prayers at the eleventh hour, perhaps to test us to see if we really do believe He will come through. He tests us often to see if we will trust and obey, so be careful little mouths what you say because satan’s  spirits thrive and grow in the atmosphere of  complaining, resentment and fear. .

Let us also remember that the moment that we decided to serve and worship our Lord, we have enlisted in God’s army and it will be a journey of continual warfare because  satan wants to kill, steal and/or destroy us. Psalm 34:19,  Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the lord delivers him from them all.

We will also have to endure a “wilderness period” for growing in power and trust. These are necessary for us to reach our highest potential. As we grow in Christ, we must learn to be disciplined and consistent in our declarations so that God’s word becomes a part of us. Even great pastors, teachers and worship leaders can fall or get weak if they do not daily abide in God’s presence and word.  The more we read, study and meditate in God’s word, the more easily it will come our through our mouth as our powerfully-wielded weapon of spiritual warfare! There is no other way around it.  Make daily mediation and memorization of God’s word with Holy Spirits revelation  and you will see amazing results in your faith walk!

Some of you may have problems with memorization, but print out your power scriptures around your house or work areas. Speak them out loud. If you have health issues, look up and mediate on healing scriptures. If you are abandoned, isolated or been abused, look up scriptures of restoration. If you have financial lack, seek scriptures about God’s miraculous provision.

Many of us came from backgrounds of sever emotional and/or physical trauma,, chronic health crisis, loss, poverty, shame-body image issues, family dysfunctional, parental neglect. It often takes much longer for us to  retrain our minds. This is where Holy Spirit comes in, compassionate counseling and maybe even deliverance. God created our bodies and minds to heal from the greatest traumas.

Dr Caroline Leaf, a brain scientist, teaches about how we can be transformed to the  beautiful, divine person God created us to be. We can be transformed by the renewing of our minds in Christ! Rom 12:2. For some of us with great wounds and traumas to address,  maintaining emotional  stability and joy can be very difficult, especially if we are isolated or ill. Here is where the body of Christ and compassionate counselors need to step in. When even these fail, we can look to Holy Spirit, our comforter, teacher and best freind. Being so isolated and challenged for over eight years with Dystonia, I have found great comfort in  resting in the presence of The holy Spirit!

Print out  your special verses and post them on your mirrors, refrigerator and doors. Keep worship music going all day if you can. DO NOT declare your infirmities of struggles as permanent. It is Father’s will for you to be whole. Even if you are  weary, heart-broken, or  disgusted,  try to avoid verbalizing out loud how you feel.

When you spend time in Father’s word, ask Holy Spirit to guide you on verses that will be your warfare prayer. DECLARE your special verses each day OUT loud because in our verbal declaration is our power. Abba God never lies and is never wrong. If our lives are amiss it’s because we are doing something wrong.  I’ve wasted many years as his daughter complaining and allowing depression to hinder my walk. I still struggle daily with pain & staggering fatigue, but I declare that I’m more than a conqueror and I can DO all things through Christ who strengthens me! I must daily declare my victory.
 My prayer  is that the following scripture verses will release you into your calling as an overcomer!
 Isaiah 62:3
The LORD will hold you in his hand for all to see–a splendid crown in the hand of God.

Fear not you are more than a conqueror because Jesus has already victored over our adversary and all his minions. Rom 8:37

IPhil 4:19   But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

Hebrews 13:5
Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

Psalm 37:25
I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread.

Psalm 34:19

Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the LORD delivereth him out of them all.

Psalm 91


Psalm  68:4-6

4Sing to God, sing praises to His name; Lift up a song for Him who rides through the deserts, Whose name is the LORD, and exult before Him. 5A father of the fatherless and a judge for the widows, Is God in His holy habitation. 6God makes a home for the lonely; He leads out the prisoners into prosperity, Only the rebellious dwell in a parched land.…

Rev  12:11

They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.

Heb 13:5

Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”[a]



Should Christians listen to Secular Music?

As a teen-ager, my mind brimmed over with fashion designers-costuming and sketching creations. I planned to be a rock star when I grew up. Watching Cher and Ann Wilson fronting their groups made me desire to be a beautiful singing talent to the world. I was one of those teenagers who had no interest in drugs, partying or sleeping around. I planned to be a virgin for my husband. Fast forward eight years later, I accepted my precious Jesus Christ in a spirit-filled Pentecostal church. I was introduced to singing 3 and four part harmony with two sisters at that church.

Several years later, God had me meet with a innovative guitarist who has been one of my best friends for 27 years. Chris asked me to front his Christian rock band and I was forever changed. I had a beautiful voice, large range and could harmonize anything! Holy Spirit brought out the most amazing songs through Chris’ guitar, my voice and lyrics touching on every subject from praise & worship, to the worth of the unborn, to genocide, social issues and precious love songs. We had a pure relationship, though he had conflicts with the other band members and myself because of his controlling tendencies. Chris kept evolving musicallly, (and I went along with him) and we were composing advanced jazz and blues songs. My journey as a front woman, took me to amazing places emotionally and spiritually. Though I had to end my relationship with Chris, it made me seek Father god and Jesus even more. I grieved for the loss , but a few years later Father brought a wonderful new friend into my life who bought my first CD of my original compositions which I recorded with my first producer. He was so impressed with the quality of my voice, he came over my house with his guitar, taught me a few basic chords and left with, “Get comfortable with it and play everyday.”

To make a VERY long story short, I fell in love with the guitar and my technique and skill at composing grew sublimely quickly, writing my first spiritual song in a month! I began experimenting with different chord positions and bought a jazz chord book which led to me composing songs for my second CD and then a jazz worship Cd with my first guitar song writing partner, Chris
Years, (and many recording-performing projects with great studio producers and session musicians) later, God opened up my spirit to vast amounts of musical elements with which to compose music for His glory and for music describing events, relationships and social issues. So, with all this in mind and all my experience and joy as a composer, performing artist and prophetic worship leader, I compare musical expression to being a painter.

If God gave us a palette of about three or four main hues, ( with endless possibilities in the blending together various colors), why can’t musicians use the musical notes and chords as lavishly? There are hundreds maybe thousands of possible variations of colors in the spectrum and with the exception of a few bold and innovation Christian artists, the majority of artists on KLOVE or most Christian stations use the same chordal formula and the same stale lyrics.
Isn’t our God vastly creative and endlessly innovative? Aren’t we made in His image and with the same ability to innovate the greatest works of art and music…far above non-sacred composers and artists?

I don’t mean to put down KLOVE or any Christian station, but God’s people, who have a platform to exhibit His greatness settle for mediocrity or what has been done or follow the trends of secular radio stations play and the A&R moguls pump out. I personally find very little of the Christian music market interesting, probably because of my experimenting with compelling and captivating chords and notes!

I’ve heard Biblical scholars say that Lucifer was the most beautiful angel endued with transcendent musical talent. Ezekiel 28:13. If he was he may have had every creative idea possible on every instrument. And of course, he inspired the greatest musicians, artists and writers of out time with his rebellious and tainted influence. So…what happened to that same transcendent creativity and talent issuing from GOD through his artists? I can only think of a few modern artist like Phil Keaggy and Keith Green and a handful of classical artist with extra-ordinary giftings, but this is not usually the case.

A blogger commented on Ugochi’s post, Ese says, “I struggled with deleting my favorite rock songs from her collection” I had to struggle also because most of my favorites have that quintessence that most Christian artists I hear don’t have. Sorry to say this. It’s even harder for Christian Jazz avant-gardecollaboration auddio max 1 composers to discard their secular collection. Here’s where some of us experienced and advanced composers-artist stand. The lack of innovation and problem-solving by God’s people not only involves musical creativity but also directly affects social issues and humanitarian challenges! Another subject for another post.

In my case, to the pure all things are pure.


large church congregationI write this letter with a HEAVY heart and more than 31 years later! Judgment is coming to America and as Scripture says, Judgment first starts in Abba Jehovah’s own house and people.

I am an intercessor prophetic journalist and worship leader (ordained by Pentecostal-spirit-filled pastor-elders and have been in Fathers service since 1983) passionate for Father God, Yashuah Jesus and especially to see Holy Spirit move, walk in miracles, healing and repentance- revival. My anguished travailing for America’s fate-destiny and particularly, Christ’s Bride, has led me to deep place in Him. Watching Christian TV and seeing many of the famous TV pastors and evangelists with massive congregations, wouldn’t we expect this many people to heavily holily influence our present society, the media and politics. Would our influence change the ever-contaminated sinfulness of our nation After all, Jesus declared us to be a city on a hill.

I came to Christ as a non-practicing Catholic, invited to a small Pentecostal church in Toms River, NJ. A young Jehovah’s witness man wanted to court me, but I felt something wasn’t right with his religion. Father led me to Pentecostalism-spirit-filled life and I was never the same. I found myself transformed in many ways, even though Abba had me endure many fiery trials. Only a year into attending this tiny congregation, (of about 15 adults, 7 children ) our church erupted in a scandal. Our beloved pastor had adultery with 3 of the deaconesses, a homosexual relationship and molested several of the children!! Many of us were so traumatized that we could function for weeks! Many of the new believer left Christ and I watched as their unattended wounds became fodder for atheism and hating all which had to do with Jesus.

Somehow I had an inkling that this Jesus I read about and served was nothing like the leaders I sat under. I continued my joyful evangelism in the nursing homes and hospitals. I was hungry for more of my Jesus. I followed two spirit-filled sisters from my former church to a Monmouth county AG. I rejoiced to once again have a family. (My own blood family was ripped apart by child abuse, foster care and divorce).

I enjoyed about another year with my new family and enrolled in college where I met a charming guy. I was passionate about Jesus and evangelizing wherever I went. The guy was attracted to holy Spirit’s joy in me and we started to spend time together in God’s word and Bible study. Unbeknownst to me, he had some serious baggage. I ended up courting him (in ignorance about being “unequally yoked) . Fast forward to my second deep spiritual wounding. My fiance’s baggage was involvement in the occult and witchcraft. His salivation prayer and baptism of Holy Spirit at a Terry Talbot concert was not enough to deliver him from satan’s grasp. I was caught in a vicious and deadly fight for my spiritual freedom and life!

The shocking thing is that my 60-something AG pastor and his son, (as well as 4 elders and deacons) were unable to cast out a witch-craft-demoniac spirit from my fiance. I was only three years old in my faith and I’d never experienced the hatred , rage and abuse which my fiancé poured on me and from which I couldn’t escape because of his threats to ‘find” me wherever I escaped to and murder me if I didn’t marry him. I ended up being married by this AG pastor. Shockingly, there was no concern nor discernment for my well-being and that they should certainly not endorse a marriage to such a man with such demonic oppression! I can’t tell you what this did for my belief in the “heavenly” Father who is supposed to love and protect me!

Jer 23 1&2 Woe to the shepherds who are destroying and scattering the sheep of My pasture!” declares the LORD. 2Therefore thus says the LORD God of Israel concerning the shepherds who are tending My people: “You have scattered My flock and driven them away, and have not attended to them; behold, I am about to attend to you for the evil of your deeds,” declares the LORD

God help you pastors which have allowed your sheep to be torn and butchered by satan and his demon spirits! I would n’t want to be you when you have to give an account before the GREAT judge Jesus Christ at the bema Seat.

Fast forward to the next phase of my growth. I had enough of the shallowness and lack of true Exousia anointing that I so desperately needed as a victim of child abuse and now domestic violence and abandonment-divorce. I met someone who said that Calvary Chapel in Old bridge was a good church. Though hesitant, I decided to go because I needed fellowship and healing from two bad Christian experiences. Because of my giftings in voice and worship, I connected with the worship pastor, (no name). He saw my love for Christ and my talent as a singer-songwriter and encouraged me to sit under Pastor Lloyd’s teachings. Eventually, I could apply to be one of the worship leaders.

I won’t apologize for the length of this expose because it’s time the sin in AG and other large churches be exposed. This is why America has declined in her godly heritage. I had to share this grievance, (because of a recent wounding-abuse of a beloved brother and AG pastor). He shared his story with me in confidence. Upon praying about this, ( I shared some fo my abuses) Abba compelled me to share this with the body of Christ. So they see the reality of their sin, guilt and repent. The axe is coming down very soon. Who knows whether Father will grant us grace to partake of the great revival harvest. But…there won’t be any harvest or revival with a church that is filthy with adultery, greed for money, controlling-intimidation weaker sheep, apathy regarding the murder or our unborn babies and the stronghold of Homosexuality in our nation.

Brothers and sisters…REPENT and turn from your sin. Ask Holy Spirit if deception has risen as a barrier blocking Holy Spirit’s voice.

What is most urgent here is the necessity to bring more souls into His kingdom. Satan’s MO has surely been to use Father’s pastors and leaders to bar people from getting into the kingdom.

Getting back to Calvary, Old bridge, a few months later, this worship pastor seemed to ignore me anytime I asked about leading worship. I was puzzled at his change of attitude towards me, but was patient. A few weeks later after not seeing him on stage with the worship team, I asked someone what happened to pastor. They told me he was ousted for having an affair with one of the female worship leaders! So much for Calvary Chapel, Old bridge. (BTW, they do not believe in the heavenly Holy Spirit language or prophetic giftings) . I was again devastated and disgusted. I was desperate for fellowship and like-minded believers to sing and evangelize with. I shared my experience with a sister from our former AG congregation and she told me she was attending another AG in another Monmouth county town.

It was great to be back with some of my former sisters. The new pastor and his wife were flowing in the true gifts of the Holy Spirit. I met a wonderful Christian man and was married by this pastor. Then he had to leave about eight months later and another pastor cane. At first, he seemed genuinely led by Holy Spirit. I had to start all over with proving myself as a worship leader and waited for Holy Spirit to reveal my calling to this pastor. I sought Abba’s presence more and more and Father answered my prayer for Holy Spirit to used my gift as worship leader for the edifying of that body.

Several times, I during my leading of worship, (and seeing people’s hearts being moved) that this pastor often would interrupt or quench Holy Spirit’s presence. I felt Holy Spirit being “grieved” and shared my concerns with other worship leaders and elders. They noticed also and were upset. This particular church desperate needed Holy Spirit’s ministry because there was mcuh apathy and lack of discernment, members enslaved to depression and even demonic spirits coming in through its own members! This was a very sick church and there would be no transformation or healing with sin in the camp!

Another sick episode in this church happened with another pastor, (who is now my present pastor, a highly anointed and spirit-filled women of God) The pastor at AG gave permission for her to have a worship service there and upon arriving she saw in t before she could even enter, she had to rebuke and break yokes of demons that were around this AG church!! I was quite surprised when she confided in me. I’ve heard too many horror stories about Kundalini spirits and AG people not having the real Holy Spirit.

The last straw on my back regarding these lukewarm and soon-to-be-judged churches is my dear pastor friend who was ousted for confronting adultery (adultery seems to be a favorite sin and rampant in these churches including AG churches). I met this precious and true man of God through the former-mentioned pastor at the AG church where I led worship. He was convicted by my true anointing and tried to get rid of me by offering me to this pastor friend of mine who was staring a new church in Ocean county. (No names). Strangely, the church didn’t take off and a year later had to be closed.

My pastor friend then took a position at another very large AG church in Ocean county. He was there a while but then a problem arose with the senior pastor having an affair with another woman My pastor friend confronted the leadership about this. He also reported them to AG headquarters. My pastor friend’s wife suddenly died and rather than the leadership of this church supporting him through his loss, he was rebuked, snubbed. (and now black-balled)!!!

I am ( but even more so Jehovah, Yashuah Jesus and Holy Spirit) sick of this evil and sick of all the sin in God’s house. I share this with the AG leadership ( and every church who proclaims Christ as Lord and King of the world) as Holy Spirit leads me so that there can be repentance and healing in the Body of Christ. Yashuah seeks a church without spot or wrinkle and if anyone thinks that He ignores these transgressions, they are very mistaken. I urge you all to repent. My physical body has been severely damaged by all the demonic attacks and trauma while being a part of a Pentecostal-evangelistic AG environment. I still am paying dearly with a neurological condition called Dystonia, no doubt by all this evil and trying to oppose countless and relentless satanic attacks because I desire God’s presence and Holiness MORE than anything in this world, (as well as my pastor friend who I’m helping to strengthen and heal)..

BTW, what ever happened to giving a public apology to the body and to all people?

Please do not ignore this letter or retaliate by unbelief, apathy, or black-balling saints who desire Abba’s presence and desire to be holy. . Christ is coming VERY soon and we’ better repent NOW, clean up our acts and be ready to prepare ourselves as Jesus Yashuah’s virgin bride. Amen and amen!




Here is my response to the latest Hagman & Hagman Report radio broadcast. I highly respect the knowledge and insight you all share with us.
The body of Christ, today and (all throughout Biblical history), has taken a Que Sera Sera“ attitude. It really saddens me that few pastors recognize the need for total and drastic act of repentance and a 180 degree turnaround. This happened because of the lukewarm Christian influences of our parents and grandparents who should have changed the course of our nation by opposing the evil trend and the aggressive advances of the atheistic. They succeeded in the banning of prayer in schools and the passing of the Roe VS Wade bill.

All this has precipitated more and more rampant immorality, sex-trafficking, the casual and unprecedented murder of unborn children, pornography and every other abomination condemned by Yahweh God in the law He gave to Moses. We’ve habitually shirked the responsibility to confront and deal with personal and corporate sin, with no concern about the consequences which will affect our children and grandchildren/ We shouldn’t be concerned about loss of our material possessions when the Tsunami of chastisement comes, but breaking covenant with our Holy and gracious Heavenly Father. We have slapped Him in His face with our disrespect and hatred..

For the life of me, I wonder where is compassion and concern for the next generation? Many of us will be dead and/or in glory, enjoying the perfection of heaven, but what about our precious children and grandchildren. I ask all you married men. It is your responsibility as commanded by God to nurture and protect the interests and safety of your wives and children. I pray Holy Spirit will convict every Christian man in America to start fasting and praying in your heavenly language so Holy Spirit will guide your choices as turbulent economic, social and terrestrial changes threatens to transform our lives as we know it today. No doom and gloom here, just analyzing and reminding everyone.

2 Chron. 7:14, If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.

God’s “true” children are more than able to impact and change the direction and destiny of this nation, but there are many pious “macho” pastors who delight to see the chastisement and annihilation of the American people), which includes precious children, the elderly, disabled and “good” non-believers). Other brethren who are buried in temporal and tangible endeavors, lusts and/or of activities which have no beneficial value to humanity,(or to their families and communities) have little interest in God’s modern prophets dire warnings to repent and change our ways!

aftermath of HiroshimaAmerica could soon look like this picture of Hiroshima after the first atomic bomb hit. This time, Iran, China or Russia would be glad to be the first to nuke  an American city.
I watch, with great sorrow and anxiety for some inkling of resolve by the church to shift the degree of severity and totality of the approaching tempest. Just research what is happening with Greece . We are next! Why am I so passionate to share this with the body of Christ? Because Jehovah desires mercy and not judgement.

Hosea: 6:6 Therefore I have hewn them in pieces by the prophets; I have slain them by the words of My mouth; And the judgments on you are like the light that goes forth. 6For I delight in loyalty rather than sacrifice, And in the knowledge of God rather than burnt offerings. 7But like Adam they have transgressed the covenant; There they have dealt treacherously against Me.…

Many ask, “How could a loving God be so cruel? Why would God punish with such unquenchable wrath and completeness,”?

The main problem with us is we’ve had so many blessings, are so wealthy and have everything imaginable at our disposal that we believe in that “entitlement” mentality. Our godly forefathers waged a great warfare and paid a great price for our emancipation from the tyranny of England’s monarchy.

I happen to love America, as also my dearest friend, Pastor Augusto Perez shared on His blog radio broadcast. We are both of Latino descent and from the “old” school of life. Augusto’s’ father had to take his family quickly to escape the threatening tyranny of Fidel Castro in Cuba, when he took office on February 16, 1959..Fidel’s ruthless coup d’etat crushed any idea of Cuban families to live and enjoy their former lives! .

In comparison, my father, Teofilo Ferrer Cepeda, a dark-skinned, soft-spoken Puerto-Rican and gifted entrepreneur, sought to give his family a better life in America. He came from a dirt poor background, teaching himself fine skills in graphic art and design. His faith and dreams were rewarded by the great God, Jehovah that he faithfully served, My father taught us to revere the earth God gave us, to have integrity and love hard work. He believed that when attaining wealth or provision through honest, hard work, God would reward.

God ordained work and Adam and Eve were encourage to tend the Garden of Eden. Honest hard work, living withing ones means and appreciation of every blessing and provision seems to be a lost art.

I keep hearing my brethren declare, “God is in control.” And yes He is, but He has also given His people and everyone on earth the responsibility and privilege of choice. The body of Christ can choose whether to say “Whatever, Lord” and make no effort to provide for the widows, the orphans and the broken and set the precedence of righteousness and justice for the oppressed. That neglect is what has brought our Holy and righteous Father to the edge of boiling rage… and that volcano of rage is about to explode!

If only pastors and shepherds would follow the lead of the great Biblical leaders, like Moses, Nehemiah, Ezra and King Jehoshaphat who incepted great reformation and revival during their tenures.It is imperative that God’s modern prophets sound the trumpet and warn the people, but we should have sought first God and studied Nehemiah’s model and direction.

The hour is late. God only knows if America will be here tomorrow.Not

Note: to my loyal readers, please forgive  the typos and errors on my latest post. Something strange has happened ALL day, myriad distractions, and especially this wordpress program seems to have a mind of its own! After going back to read my post, I was horrified to find fragmented sentences, misspellings, and grammar errors, after  wordpress was supposed to recognize and have the typos in RED I don’t know what’s going on, but this looks very bad for an accomplished writer. I hope tthis time, you have a better-edited  revision. Shalom!

The TRUE Gift of Christ Empathy


Brother Chad and I are discussing the great deception and delusion that have taken over some. Immediately, Holy Spirit reminded me, may the body of CHRIST worship Him, in spirit & in truth. Many cannot decipher the difference between knowing His word intellectually VS abiding in the Vine, Holy Spirit’s presence. This is the deficit-famine Chad mentioned in his post. Some brethren in my own circle have tremendous head knowledge about God, but deny the power there of. They think because they were trained in Bible school, studied the word of God under lukewarm pastors teaching watered-down Gospels, (which neither save, deliver or transform) and you can tell just by looking at their miserable, frowning faces how much of Christ they reflect!.

Abba Jehovah commanded us to “serve our God-Father-Creator with joy and thankfulness!” Duet 28:47

DSCN1796Singing with joyfullness to the Lrd, my wonderful Father and savior!

They are swollen with their pastor’s doctrines that are very close to the truth, but still far from what is righteous in Yashuah’s eyes!!

Yashuah Jesus  said to a Pastor Richard Sigmund, his book, My Time In Heaven” that “My people have lost their compassion. Compassion is thing I desire of my people” Jesus had such love for people that He groaned in His spirit when they rejected  him. Mat 23:37 “Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you were not willing.”…/rich…/9781603741231/pd/741231

In the description section of  the book, I found sarcastic, scoffing reviews from one person,  but whether Pastor’s experience is authentic is not  the crux. The  crux is empathy and action, like the Good Samaritan! There are too few who seek not true empathy, (which is weeping deep in your spirit and wanting to ease the pain…and doing so) This is TRUE compassion Yashuah speaks of. We must be very careful not to place more effort, focus and dedication to our jobs, businesses, ministries or even our own personal revelation which we hope to convince others! (I’m writing quickly as Holy Spirit is leading me).

Being so inundated with prayer requests and seeing so many in need, I wept much  during my special time with my Heavenly Father. I praised, ministered & thanked Him for the multitude of His blessings during my 33 years in Him. I also wept in deep anxiety about the suffering and torment which is soon coming upon the earth by a small group of people who delight to kill off most of the population!  Not conspiracy theory but just check out the ever-growing  statistic of precious people dying of Cancer from pesticides on our foods, GMO and horrendous quality of oxygen in our air. How could  anyone with compassion not grieve for humanity?.

If only they could glimpse what the enemy has planned for the world Jesus clearly warned us in Mat 24:21 For then there will be great distress, unequaled from the beginning of the world until now–and never to be equaled again.

And Luke 21:26, Men’s hearts failing them for fear, and for looking after those things which are coming on the earth: for the powers of heaven shall be shaken.

So I bless you all as I close and anyone who wishes to engage a living, loving and transforming Savior, free free to contact me. There is a risen Savior who came to seek that which was lost!

I pray that we all have ears to hear and allow Holy Spirit to  receive what He has to say and not our pastors or our own personal experiences! Ask Father to show you how, when and to whom to bestow random acts of kindness and mercy, (seeking no reward) , for our reward is in Heaven! Let us be like that compassionate Samaritan who  had empathy, stopped to minister aid and brought restoration to a half dead man!
God bless you as you accumulate treasures in Heaven that will not fade not pass away.


Nehemiah’s Warfare Strategy and an urgent call to God’s people
June 25, 2015

The atmosphere was charged, highly charged. The emotions, actions and lifestyles of the anguished exiles seethed like a raging cauldron. Marriages were in tatters, leadership was corrupt and everyone pretty much did whatever they wanted to do, as in the period of the Judges of Israel. Wives were being divorced for any reason and no respect for the lives of babies and tiny children. God’s people had lived so long in shame, rebellion and ignorance of God’s covenant, only a remnant remembered the great glories of God and His majestic miracles sweetness and blessings of their forefathers.; I delight to share with  the body of Christ the glorious  legacy and  leadership of Nehemaih.

Nehemiah was:

1. Devoted to God in a covenant relationship
2. Empathetic and intuitive regarding what was going on around him
3. Aware and deeply concerned about the condition of his people, the Jews
4. Idealistic: remembering the great former glory of Israel
5 Was a servant-leader whose concern and love for his people far outweighed his position as cup bearer to King Artaxeres

Nehemiah has always been one of my heroes because his mind-set revolved around his relationship with the Lord. He was a gracious and humble man, bringing his anguished concerns first to God after worshiping and reminding God of the former glory of God’s people. I love Nehemiah’s idealism. The squalor, despair and restlessness of the people could not dissuade him from remembering the beauty of Yahweh’s holiness, God’s blessings of prosperity and honor and the royal history of God’s kings.

Modern prophets tell us that it is too late for America, but I know there is still hope for the body of Christ. The times we are in are similar to God’s people living in the era of Ezra and Nehemiah. Yashuah, Jesus must and will judge His church first because she is to be His bride without spot or wrinkle. Sin and every form of iniquity slithers in the undercurrent like that serpent who tempted Adam and Eve in the garden. If we are not deliberate and sincere about daily repentance, we will indeed become like a clogged filter. Holy Spirit cannot flow freely!.

The greatest problem is the leadership. I’ve shared in detail the necessity of godly, spirit-filled and Spirit-led men and women who aspire to emulate the great heroes of the Bible. If a man is not nourishing his own household first, he can’t be fit to rule any territory. Order is not  legalistic, but required to for God’s plans and destiny to be successful.

How did America get to this terrible level of depravity and utter shame when she had such a glorious start? It all started with the two death knells to our nation, Roe VS Wade ion January 22, 1973 and when prayer was banned from schools on June 25, 1962.

. During times of great prayer intercession with weeping and deep sorrow,  I’ve asked Father God, “where did all this mess begin? Where were the backbone of God’s people? (who should have had the courage to oppose the murder of innocent unborn)” . This  present generation must now aggressively cry out in weeping, fasting and repentance for our parents and grandparents who did nothing! We are the generation who holds the keys to the fate of America.

One reason Christian America has lost her way is also  the incorrect handling the God’s word. So you say that you know your Bible? What did Yashuah Jesus say about His Fathers word?. There have been dangerous discrepancies in the translation of God’s word beginning as far as the earliest manuscripts. How needful to have an accurate knowledge of the Greek and Hebrew text and deep study and meditation by the counsel of Holy Spirit. If we think we can discern , understand and apply God’s word just by reading any translation, we are sorely mistaken and  deluded. We’ll also open ourselves to great deception by satan who is eager and ready to manipulate our desires by our own or  a false prophet’s translation-revelation

It may be to late for our government, but we have but a few seconds, (in His holy time clock) to make a very last minute difference in the midst of the body of Christ, by evangelizing and mentoring. new converts.
American Traitors

Shocking reports of young people leaving their homes and security, (as well as youth from many other nations) to enlist and fight with Isis should cause great concern for Christian parents, teachers and leaders  and to question the validity of their “passed down faith and The Gospel’s authority. No other faith or religion can compare to Christ’s atonement on the cross for all humanity. His victorious resurrection transcends every other religious leader, (of who all   are nothing but dry bones)! No one can compare to the glorious Christ…Yashuah Hamashia

I find it astonishing that in ISIS ever-widening swath spreading out like a cancer across the middle east and Africa, our young are mesmerized, drawn to and ready to die for this cause! Reminds me of the Pied Piper, weaving a spell over all who come within ear shot. Could it be that the grizzly,  butchering video games no longer satiate their lust for blood, torment and death? Truly it seems as if those beastly demon angels tethered to the four corners of the Euphrates River were released, unleashing a venomous drug into the very veins of their spirit.

It’s staggering for me to imagine this new young breed of death warriors who prefer and glorify the masters of beading small children, burning alive prisoners and burning everything in sight!. It’s not enough to take slaves captive but to instill terror and fear. Quite a far cry from  kids aspiring to minister compassion, relief healing as benevolent missionaries and medical volunteers. Where have our nation and leaders gone wrong and how can we fix this nightmare?

Shut Up and Fight
Shut up and fight. There is no other recourse but to go back to the basics. We must go back to where our godly leaders, Nehemiah, Ezra, Moses, Joshuah, King Jejoshaphat and later in America, President George Washington, Abraham Lincoln and our founding fathers. We must get back to reading of the law. The leaders must get on their faces, fasting and weeping before God in repentance..

Nehemiah was staunch enough to declare,  “Set a watch against them”

Nememaih didn’t shirk or get angry. Hr surveyed the crisis of Jerusalem’s broken walls and the destitution of his people, the Jews and gave his petition to Jehovah God..Nehemiah’s prayer was heard and he had favor of the King to go about and complete the mission God had called him to do. At every turn of danger or threat, Nehemiah was at his game, praying, directing and delegating duties to the people as they were rebuilding the breaches in the wall. When satan used his pawns Tobiah and Sanballat and the Arab to distract the rebuilding efforts and to stop the work, and even  sought to assassinate Nehemiah in a private place), Nehemiah stood firm in his calling in the center of God’s perfect will. The people respected him and listened to everything he said.

Nehemiah did not read the newspaper or listen to Hannity’s or Bill O’Brian reports and say, Oh my, this is awful. They are beheading little children and other atrocities.” He got right down to the nitty gritty and ordered the people to gird their weapons and defend their communities, homes and families!

It looks like most leaders and even good pastors are saying, “ They’re coming to America. We need to be ready. Be Ready..FOR GOD”S SAKE….for what?

When my father was stationed in German with my mother, younger sister and I, he planned to bring his family to America where opportunities were so we could have a better life than he did as a poor child living in rural Puerto Rico in the early 1940. Were he alive and healthy today and seeing all the atrocities committed by ISIS, Boko Haram, the brotherhood and the Hamass, he would get angry and involved. God’s people should not be passive to just accept all this evil and do nothing about it!

On Hal Lyndsay’s latest program tonight, he shared scriptures about Jesus telling his men to go and buy a sword. Do we think God is pleased when we proclaim piously that persecution is coming without having a strong game plan to oppose a horrifically unfair and brutal enemy. Do we think that it’s okay that the elderly, holocaust victims, disabled and little children deserve to fall prey to this demonic  plague!!! And not even mentioning putting our families at unnecessary risk? Some of us have counted the cost and are ready to die joyously for Christ. But I beg to say that taking a passive stance and just laying down and letting Isis mow us like dandelion weeds is foolish and EVIL!.

God is ushering Christian America into “Awake and on Call”prayer, fasting and intercession. The battle is not ours but the Lords’ and He is calling His people to occupy before Yashuah  Jesus comes. We’d better be getting our wedding gown ready and pure and have the sense to resist our enemy!

Traumatized refuges interviewed by relief workers and Christian ministries report how Isis ambushes a village, town or city and residents flee in terror. Families and businesses have been left behind and some cities are left in rubble! . Imagine the trauma of members of established and thriving communities loosing everything but the clothes on their back! The number of refugees are now in the many thousands.I don’t think we here in a America can imagine the utter chaos and misery of having no control, no advocate ( the United Nations is useless and worthless). I’ve wept too many tears during my  prayer times with Lord and He impressed upon my spirit that much of what is happening could have been averted by prayer and fasting .

After hearing so many horrific reports and weeping and sending my prayers to the throne room, many thoughts compass me about the horrific suffering of hapless citizens and our brothers and sister in Christ. We shouldn’t ignore the demonic threat or be casual about Genocide. This is outright outrage an evil enemy which must be faced squarely and aggressively and  dismantled.

They’re Coming to America

Imagine this very possible scenario. You own and live on a ranch in Texas, or you live in a small town on or near the border of Mexico. Disturbing rumors swirl about decapitated bodies being found. Mayhem arises and everyone is terrified. Many families travel to family members in other states. Then shocking reports come about churches and synagogues being burned with the people in them. Panic arises, yet our leaders downplay the severity of the crisis! Persecution is coming to America, in fact, it has already claims the lives of hundreds here. Nothing will be done, unless the church seeks God ‘s divine and superior strategy to oppose a barbaric and relentless enemy who will stop at nothing to destroy every last one of the Jews and Christians.

Islamic State militants

I’m no military strategist, have no political preference or agendas, I’m just n obscure woman of God, journalist and song-writer, sharing God’s truth through journaling (beginning as a sensitive teenager impassioned about social issues and humanitarian issues). It is time for my brothers and sisters in Christ to open your eyes and face the truth of the upcoming slaughter of the innocent. Now is the time for action. Now is the time to seriously and purposely address the enemies of the cross. And that is exactly what this battle is about. This demonic army is dead-set against the Gospel of Christ.

My vision is to see pastors, rabbi’s, priests,, sheriffs, and law enforcement coming together in one accord to seek Holy Spirit’s direction and guidance in the efforts of rallying devout and courageous prayer warriors and fasting teams. We can’t depend on our politicians to grab the bull by it’s horns. Neither can we trust our government because all but a small handful are God-minded and not money-minded. We can depend on Abba Jehovah’s holy, wise and victorious militia not bent on sloppy revenge and vigilante  actions, but on seeking to win some of Isis who can be redeemed and  overcoming the  unrepentant!Tthat is how we can win this war.

I wonder how my friends and family would react if I were to post pictures of a particular little angel in a fluffy party dresses…cut in half! What would you do, turn away, ignore and forget about it or pray like you’ve never prayed before? As a compassionate journalist led by Christ’s love, maybe that’s what it will take for you to make your stand. Don’t think for ne minute that because we live in America, Land of the free that we won’t soon also  be cut down, our children murdered before our eyes and then be beheaded ourselves! God help me. God help you. God help America

There’ hope. Let’s follow Nehemiah’s suit and show the kingdom of hell who has the real power!!


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