HEALING IS the CHILDREN’S BREAD


 Do you remember the poignant story in Mat 21 15-28 of the Canaanite women who approached Jesus in desperation because her precious little daughter suffered demon-possession. Even in her utter grief, Jesus said not a word but  and his disciples urged him to send her away.

Then Jesus turned to her and said,  “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.” She was not to be ignored and knelt beside him. “Lord, help me!”His answer was “it is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”

Instead of retorting in resentment or offense, she  answered, “yes, lord But even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from the  their master’s table.”

Jesus was so moved by her audacity that he immediately healed her daughter. She had a bulldog faith that would not let go!

Friend, are you still suffering today with a painful and/or chronic condition even after years of prayer liners, prayer clothes and meditating on your healing scriptures? Could you be missing something or doing something wrong? Could there be some blockage that is keeping you from your miraculous healing? I pray my latest  article on healing will help you uncover any ground you’ve not explored before.

(Unearthing, Addressing and Dismantling  Generational Curses and Iniquities)

Today, let us ask Father Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus to explore the deeper spiritual waters in hopes of toppling the barriers to our healing and wholeness. I hope by sharing transparently, the the mystery of my own bondage and sufferings from uncancelled generational curses  that you also may gain deliverance and freedom. Knowledge is victory.

I was ordained as a minister in 2013 by Pastor-evangelists, Leo and and Edith Fram.  I’ve passionately and consistently been serving my precious Lord Yashuah HaMashiach since 1982 under the authority of a Pentecostal hell-fire and brimstone pastor. I was born to a Puerto-Rican Catholic father who was stationed in German and where he married my beautiful, blonde-haired, green-eyed mother.

In the seventh grade, I suffered a traumatic  event which led to a six year tenure of bullying by 3 black girls, who were under demonic influence. From then on, I suffered shame about my birth heritage. Soon after, my sisters and I suffered childhood abuse and neglect because of my mom’s scorn of my dark-skinned father, (and other buried traumas she endured as a girl in Germany). Dad was also almost driven insane by mom’s fits of rage and antics. Supporting us became so challenged that he decided that foster care would be best for my two younger sisters.. One day, my mom lost her grip with reality, called the cops on me and I was ordered to leave. I was also placed in foster care in my senior year of high school. My life fell apart.

My adult life, feeling orphaned by my parents and supporting myself became overwhelming. I became deeply depressed and bulemic because of shame issues. A few years later in April 1982, a “religious” friend invited me to his church where I accepted Jesus as my Lord and savior. I never realized that this was just the beginning of a very long tenure of spiritual battles and health attacks that would be helped by deliverance. It took many years to correctly use the keys Jesus had given me to wholeness & freedom. WHY? Because I had many generational curses and family iniquities that blocked my blessings and wholeness. I had no idea satan still had access to me through these buried generational curses. This is the missing key many Children of God are ignorant of.

After decades of suffering various and recurring health issues, (particularly hay fever, allergies and bronchitis, my younger sister almost died several times from Asthma attacks!) I found out lung ailments were associated with “FREEMASONRY”I had no idea there was any such thing, but it was discovered during a deliverance session that I had Freemasonry in my family line. ( my grandfather in Germany had a hidden life with this secret society group! In another deliverance session, it was found a SANTERIA curse harassing me, (my father was born & raised in Puerto-Rico and by a devout Catholic mother).

Friends, it is hard for me to imagine that as a  committed servant of Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus that I’d be suffering so much. I had a strong calling as  a worship leader and teacher. (Holy Spirit taught me how to compose and write songs on the guitar). I’ve also experienced God using me greatly in the ministering to the sick and dying in hospitals and nursing homes and have been called to preach at funerals. I’ve also counseled, challenged youth as well as professional adults as a behavior counsel our at Nutri-System Weight Loss centers.

I want to tell you all, that when we come to Christ from a family riddled with curses and generational iniquities, everything does not just disappear with the declaring of the salvation prayer. The Bible says we work out our salvation with reverence and trembling…thus it is a process. Phil 2:12 For me it’s been a staggeringly exhausting and arduous process. Imagine being so talented in music, the arts, journalism & being plagued for almost 9 years with a tormenting “movement” suborder, DYSTONIA of the mouth! My mouth, throat and tongue are the tools God uses to lead people into His presence as a worship leader. Imagine being in excruciating pain every waking minute because I refuse to use pain killers which would damage my organs or cloud my mind. (To get through each hour, I discipline myself to declare that I have the MIND of Christ).. After  having countless doctors, chiropractors and neurologists examine me and then being  told there is NO cure …Christ must be my sufficiency, or I will just have a nervous breakdown and give up the fight!

Imagine the shame & frustration of having uncontrollable mouth movements making ugly facial grimaces and feeling the sensation of being choked and can barely breath. Dozens of times, I’ve had to call in prayer lines and also had countless ministers of healing lay hands on me. Countless hours I’ve spent in researching the causes of this TMJ jaw DYSTONIA and am no nearer to relief than 8 years ago. I realize there must be mysterious issues and powers that be here at work. I cry daily   to my Father for strength and refuse to give up my right be be whole. The barrier must be found…and torn down by the blood of Yashuah…and so the mystery tour continues.

If you are in similiar treacherous waters as I’ve been for these eight and half years, (I’m not even counting the ten years earlier fighting a  staggering battle with Lyme Disease and candida), do not give up on the Lord!  Keep knocking, keep seeking. A recent scripture that was sent to me by Pastor Jeff lane from YOU and Me Prayer ministry was,

James 1 2-4  My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into                         divers  temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

So then, he/she who endures til the end shall be saved. Long-term suffering born patiently yields a precious fruit of compassion and empathy for others we meet who are also suffering! Jesus already paid the price for our healing & deliverance. There is no reason for any of His children to be suffering and ineffective for His kingdom. If we are still suffering, perhaps we’re  doing something wrong, have some buried, ancestral harassing spirit, need to press more confidently and expectantly or maybe, we just need to believe and expect our healing is already done! This is what Father Jehovah has taught me. Healing IS the children’s bread.

Sickness is not from the Father, Kynan bridges, author Possessing Your healing. reminds us throughout his wonderful book. Father will deny any good things. Are some of us harboring an “unconscious desire ” for special attention in our sickness so we don’t have to take responsibility to grow and receive the higher things of God? Let us seek Him diligently. Some of us really don’t want to be healed, because it’s out of our comfort zone! Well, folks, Father wants us to rooted & grounded in the faith, not to be forever drinking milk!

Science and medicine correctly deduce a physical-reason for Bi-Polar, depression or any sickness, but…Christ supersedes any emotional or physical condition. Period. .By HIS stripes were are healed. Psalm 103 1-3. Christ is PREEMINENT over ALL. I hope this helps some of you. Watch the 700 club, Sid Roth’s It’s Supernatural and Andrew Wommack’s teaching series on healing. YouTube also has amazing documentaries of divine healing. Have an open mind in Christ and see what He will do. Christ heals every day and everywhere around the world. There is NO excuse to stay emotionally ill for we HAVE the mind of Christ. You need to connect with anointed, supernatural ministries who specialize in deep healing. I thank God everyday for His word which has transformed me. When I start to get depressed about this temporary Dystonia mouth seizures, I rebuke & bind the spirit of depression and declare that I have the mind of Christ…DITTO.

One more thing, denial will keep you in tremendous bondgae and sorrow. The hardest part about starting your journey to healing through deliverance is saying, I am sick or I need help. satan is cunning as he has led so many of God’s people into bondage through spiritual and emotional deception. If he can get us to say, “I don’t need to be delivered from demonic oppression or influence” he will keep us from receiving all of Fathers benefits and blessings. As I said at the beginning of this expository, “healing Is the children’s bread.

Abba, in the name of Yashuah Jesus, I stand in the gap for my brother and sister who is in bondage. I declare that he/she is FREE in the name of Jesus and by His precious blood, they are a new creation. I bind the spirit of deception and delusion and cast you out into the dry places. Holy Spirit, fill this mind NOW with your divine, pure and holy transformation and illumination. Thank You, Father for opening up the spiritual eyes of my brother  or sister. I declare this day, that they are moving towards You and away from all the entrapments, generational curses and family iniquity. Jesus bore our sorrow, sicknesses and dins, so we Thank you NOW that my freind is walking towards complete freedom and deliverance. help him or her to walk in transparency and honesty with you regarding their sin or struggles. Your word says that we should confess our sins to each other. So give us a joyful and repentant heart, In Jesus matchless name, amen.

PUT UP YOUR DUKES


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=voEZQ0whaW4

Strategic Warfare  (Holiness, Fasting and Unceasing Prayer)

I want to discus with you beloved brethren about the  crisis and proliferation of false prophets and false shepherds. YouTube is replete with prophetic posts and words from the Lord. I was very troubles to come across  well-respected Pastor Perry Stone asking Brian Carn to repent. On the right side of the YouTube page were other brethren also calling out Brian. I was very sad to read these other  allegations. Indeed there seems to be a proliferation of people  prophesying Thus saith the Lord.

Truly, we are in very dark times and Jesus told us that there woudl be many false prophets. Today, a sister asked me to respond to her post about the miraculous outpourings of salvation upon the Muslim people and their visions and visitations by Jesus to them. A sister responded that the woman of God who was  ministering to this group was performing eh miracles through satan. Now this is certainly something we need to be aware of and spiritually discerning about. This sister made some very relevant points.

 Many would come in Jesus’ name and would be deceived,  Mat 24:5 2. The word of God is truth’s test. 3. Call them out and warn others.

Bethel Church (Bill Johnson Hillsongs; Brian Houston, Rick Warren, to name just a few) are all in question by man brethren. It certainly is a very  hard things to discern between the true men and women of God and the false. We know that if it were possible, the very elect would be deceived.

Mat 24:24  For false Christs and false prophets will arise and will show great signs and wonders, so as to mislead, if possible, even the elect.

I doubt that any of us are above being deceived, so we need to more than ever fa sat and pray for however long it takes to receive a direct answer from Holy Spirit. After all He is the true reveler

john 16:13 .But when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will show you things to come.

Heidi Baker shared her precious testimony on Sid Roth’s It’s Supernatural program. She seems a woman whose heart was pure and seeking the Lord with all her heart at a very young age. It’s hard to believe that she started out as a “false” prophet. It’s hard to believe that any of the TV Evangelist, prophets or teachers began with impure motives. Most of us start out wanted  God so much with a pure heart. So when and how does the “false” anointing and prophesies come in?

We can discern the truth of a person’s identity by examining their fruit, Jesus said you’ll know them by their fruit. We must also pray unceasingly and with great focus. As satan is incessant in pummeling us with lies and deception, so must we engage. The greatest sin of the pastors and teachers, especially of the mega churches is they are not  grooming their flocks to seek  and revere Father’s presence! the most needful thing for God’s people is to hunger after Him. How many of His children are crying out to sit in His presence and worship? We are in serious trouble, folks. A precious prophetic brother of mine who also struggles with a physical malady share what Holy Spirit gives him. People, Abba God is devastated about the lack of love and hunger His people have for Him. is cup is about to overflow with indignation because weare walking in hypocrisy and sin.

Here is the message Holy Spirit gave to my brother:

“My son, I am bringing a full fledge of My fire upon My church because of the great sin it has committed against Me. I am bringing this fire My son because it is absolutely necessary to burn up the sin which has overtaken the leaders of My church. My fire is necessary My son because of the enormity of sin that is within My holy temple from the leaders to those who sit listening to them. My son, why are there so few calling out for My holiness? My son, holiness is not an option. It is what I require because it reveals the true intent of the heart. It reveals My son those who are for Me and those who are not. My son, why are so few standing up and calling out for My fire? My son, I love My precious church but why doesn’t My precious church love Me anymore?

   My son, My heart aches for the multitudes who have abandoned Me. My son, My temple is supposed to be holy, it is supposed to be pure, it is supposed to be undefiled. My son, My word says that I search to and fro seeking those who are Mine but I am finding so few who have hearts of worship for Me. My son, My priests have abandoned their calling because their calling was first to Me and then to lead My flock but so many have jumped into bed with the world. My body, My precious body My son have no one to lead them because My priests, My leaders have allowed prostitutes into My holy temple, My holy place. My son, what I am sending will not be pretty but is absolutely necessary.

My son tell anyone, tell everyone what I have spoken to you. My son, tell, tell, tell anyone who will listen to you that the hour is so late and I am getting ready now to call those who are My church, who are My precious bride, home. My son, I am asking My temple to rend their heart and not their garments because their garments have been polluted by the sin of this world, the sin of riches, the sin of filthy lucre. How My son did this happen to My precious church? I am calling out right now to My precious body that the time for preparation is over but how many will hear My voice? How many will hear My heart since very few know My heart anymore? My son, the day of preparation is over because the day is at hand for My times of fire. My son, the day of My cloven tongues of fire is at hand. The day and the hour of My fire, the fire of My Holy Spirit which will reveal whose hearts are for Meand whose hearts are not is now at hand.”


This blogs’ message is even more urgent than the last one. Those who are  zealous for the Lord know that the falling away has already occurred and many are being swept away into deep delusion. My heart is sobbing for my brethren who have lost their first love. Every night in bed, in my darkened room, I cry out, “Mercy, Abba, mercy” I know his judgment will come swiftly and His fire burning to a crisp  those who prophets them  with their mouths, but whose hearts are far from Abba. Oh, my, I have to search deeply my own self every day to stay close to Him, to worship in spirit and truth and pray for others to receive the priceless revelation of His majesty and the accessibility into the Holy of Holies…His glorious presence.

Once saved is not always saved and being close to Father, Yashuah and Ruach HaKodesh years ago or even weeks ago is not the same as abiding in His presence. Abiding in Him means to stay connected with him every day and often, with so many distractions and fearful world events, we can very well loose sight of His ever-abiding presence and His hope!

I urge you brothers and sisters, especially if your in a mega-church…to re-assess your relationship with Jehovah Father, Yashuah Jesus and holy Spirit.  The hour is so late, we may not have the next day to repent. We are called to lift up Holy hands. Put away looking at worthless things,  Psalm 119:37 Are you focused on your job, making more money to buy more toys and material things? Are your priorities on your hobbies, refurbishing your car and/or home? Is most of your time spent watching sports and TV?  These ear all “worthless” things which won’t amount to dust  When we see sin, false prophets leading the sheep astray)  we must confront and pray unceasingly. Fast…and pray in the Holy Spirit.

.The bottom line, our life’s mission is to love the Lord with all our mind, soul and spirit and love our neighbors as ourselves. That is how we can fend satan’s blows of deception, idolatry and worldliness. Satan will drag many of God’s people into hell by their selfishness and carnality. It must hurt and anger Father that the meg-churches boast thousands of members, yet there the sheer numbers don’t dent the staggering numbers of poor and homeless people amidst their very cities!.

We can certainly judge by  fruits and the inability of the church to address such abject poverty is a true sign of hypocrisy and sin. There is such a things as overabundance of opulence and wealth (and a mismanagement of stewardship regarding the finances which come in to the coffers.  Is it really needed to have several million-dollar homes and  exotic cars? There is nothing wrong with great wealth, but when it is is hoarded to a high degree, it is somehow evil. Father is watching those who give generously in their alms-giving. And we will be held accountable for our stewardship of our wealth, finances and even our time. Church, we must  immediately get circumspect with our walks because His coming is imminent. If you’re lacking in any point, repent, renounce your greed, sin or apathy and move forward in abundant l worship (to Him)  love and giving.  Living Holy, repentant lives is how we defend ourselves from the wiles of satan.

Holy spirit recently anointed me with a precious new song called Fruits of Repentance.  Jeremiah 616. One of the verses is from Jeremiah 6:16 , “Stand by the ways and see and ask for the ancient paths, Where the good way is, and walk in it; And you will find rest for your souls.  Now if the time for us to get back to the basics, obey His commandments and ask for the old ways…for they are righteous!

Until the church gets a strong revelation of personal obedience and reverance for His presence, many will be shocked when Yashuah says, “”depart from me who work iniquity!”

Many will weep in torment when cast out into utter darkness and eternal separation. My brother or sister, make your path straight. Ask Holy Spirit to examine your walk everyday and listen…and obey. God bless you beloved.