THE DOOR


Jesus at the door

       We buried my mother, Helga, this past Saturday at Ely Funeral home, Neptune, NJ.  She passed away at her abode, Concord   Rehabilitation center, June 25, 2019 from over four years of Dementia symptoms  It became harder and harder to see my mother so diminish each time my husband, Mark and I visited her. Tears would start to well in my eyes and I had stop and take a deep breath, aching Holy Spirit to strengthen me. My anointed Taylor guitar in hand and Father’s ministering angels surrounding  us in her room, I started to sing beloved healing hymns of faith.  As I leaned heavily on Jesus, I felt peace come over me and started to prophecy in song about mom’s deliverance, healing and  emancipation from the foreboding WWII and Nazi memories of Germany. For too long those ghosts smothered my mother and Mark and I were not about to let her go into eternity without Christ’s covering.

It was  a devastating burden to to see  vicious and merciless Dementia rob my mother of her mind and body. When I received the call from my mother’s social worker and I shared the news with my closest intercessor sisters , I immediately felt strengthened as they spoke courage, strength and peace over my three sisters and I.

     Mom’s burial was a very private affair with only my 2 sisters, my aunt, cousin, niece and a handful of long-time family friends.         

THE DOOR        

Our gathering here today is not only to pay last respects and bid farewell to my mother, Helga Stenzil Ferrer, but also to give credence and glory to Almighty God for the opportunity to enter the door of eternal life and salvation in Christ Yashuah.  I wish to share with you the channels, starting from my girlhood to my mother’s passing, and how it can affect your life today and your own eternal destiny.

I discovered as a teenager that I was a non‑conformist. Never one to embrace legalistic tradition and religion, my spiritual probing always brought me to the edges of radical faith. A deeply introspective and sensitive girl, I found it hard to connect with both of my parents. I kept a diary where I was able to explore my thoughts without condemnation and ponder what my life would be if my family lived peacefully and lovingly with each other.

The day after mom’s death, a dam of countless sorrowful and unresolved events spewed forth, in particular the senseless way both my father and mother died. I’m sure some of you may have felt the weight upon the loss of a cherished loved one. You found yourself suddenly thrown into the reality of burial and funeral details. Mark and I have had our share of funerals and the burying of beloved pets. The recent loss of our beloved Tabby, Bikini drew me directly into God’s perspective, a divine revelation about the brevity of life. From this revelation came my blog, Teach Us to Number Our Days, Moses Psalm 90. How accurately Moses portrayed the brevity of our lives as he cried to God for wisdom to live life intimately with God.

And so, as I prepare for my Mother’s farewell and grieve for what could have been, God impresses me to meditate on John 10:9.  Jesus said “I am the door. If anyone enters by me, he will be saved and go in and out and find pasture”.

We’ve all heard about stories of girls and women caught in terrible events and left vulnerable and exposed. My mother, my sisters and I, (as well as innumerable girls and young women worldwide) bear the scars of rejection, abandonment and abuse‑neglect.  I’ve encountered many women in crisis during my mentoring tenure at Love Inc ,Christian non-profit ministry and understand their feelings of fear, isolation and hopelessness. Without a safe haven, and stability, there is no way to survive and move forward.  There were no doors of safety open for these victims. Statistics rise regarding suicides, nervous breakdowns domestic abuse and/or murder by husband. I am one of the blessed ones who had the sense to use the shreds of sense I had left, (after so many traumatic events) to make the wisest choice I could ever make …to ask for and enter Jesus door!

If only my mother Helga had the joy and relief to enter Jesus’ door. Difficulties abounded for her to the very end, but Mark and I are humbled and grateful to have the privilege of ministering to her through intercession and remission of her sins. We trusted that Father God, in His mercy would redeem her soul. We cried, asking Father to deploy battalions off warring and ministry angels to shatter the demonic bondage that threatened to keep her from eternal life in heaven. We believe Father heard our earnest supplication, for our battle for our loved ones souls is not tangible and earthly, but a spiritual battle. Eph 6:12

Jesus said, “I am the way, the truth and the life” and there is no way we can ever enter heaven without his shed blood as our redemption. Mark and I know that we (and all persons) ,will give an account of our words and deeds during our lives. At the Bema (judgement) seat, Christ will be our judge. At the White Throne judgement, those who refused to accept and live for Christ will be judged and cast into hell for eternity.

Some may protest. “I’ve never killed anyone or robbed a bank”. But I tell you, none can enter Christ’s door, neither by the Catholic sacraments of baptism, confession or the Eucharist. You cannot enter His door through your good works, charitable donations and the sign of the cross, nor attending Bible studies or even reading the Bible.  Our very words and actions bear witness to whether we bear good fruits or evil fruits. Life and death is in the power of our tongues and our words set the atmosphere of our lives   and even affects those near and distant! Rest assured, we will give an account, 2 Cor 5:10

Galatians 5:22 clearly lists the beautiful and gracious fruits of the spirit, love joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self‑control. And of cruse, Galatians 5:19 describes the bad as sexual immorality, impurity, debauchery, idolatry, witchcraft,, hared, discord, jealousy,, fits of range, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions, envy and drunkenness. And let us not forget Jesus commandment of forgiveness in the Our Father prayer. The sin of unforgiveness opens the demonic door to strongholds of resentment and bitterness which has destroyed many marriages and families. Be of good cheer, for the nitty‑gritty sins and strongholds of our souls and family bloodlines have already been cleansed when we appropriate Christ’s, blood to our lives and families. Christ is the all‑sufficient sacrifice for our lives, health and wellness.

Jesus Christ, Yashuah HaMashiach, is the only way the truth and the life. He is also the resurrections, the bread and the door. If curses, bad fortune and sorrow has been a part of your life, bring them to the cross and ask Christ into your life to cleanse and redeem you from your past and your families’ tainted bloodlines. That door to  supernatural healing and peace is available right now today, if you ask Him!

1 Comment (+add yours?)

  1. Heidi Fischer-Palombi
    Jul 12, 2019 @ 19:09:01

    Anita, I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for your transparency in sharing yours and your mother’s journey. She was blessed to have you and Mark standing in the gap for her! May Holy Spirit wraps His loving presence around you continually during this time of grown. 💕🙏✝️

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