growing Zucchinis

Journal Entry, August 1, 2020

So, our electricity just went out. I was sending out email notifications about my Sunday, August 9th beach front gospel concert. My difficult Oromnadibular-Tmj Dystonia journey continues as I grapple with mysterious and complex body system issues.

Our nation still lingers in the Covid-19 crisis grip as the battle rages between the Hydroxychloriquine efficacy and the creation of a vaccine. National Hurricane Center reported tropical storm, Isaias barreling down and engulfing the east coast. Mark scurried to set up our power generator as the wind roared vehemently across our neighborhood, already ripping off large branches from the fungus-covered tress. As I gazed out my kitchen window, trying hard to remember where I put the box of candles for weather emergencies, (like the one  at present), I saw huge branches strewn across my back yard. I had just raked up the last few piles of dead leaves, debris and twigs and now, I would have to begin all over again with raking and gathering piles of yard debris.

It’s about 12:51 and the rain stopped. I went outside to see what damage was done. Heavy branches had fallen on some of my special flowering plants. On the other side of the yard, a huge branch had fallen so close to my little vegetable garden that some of my tomato plants were crushed. I took some pictures of my littered yard and spoke life to the remaining plants in my patio. I thanked Father that the dead , bark-stripped tree at the  other end of the yard did not collapse on our rental’s roof, otherwise our landlord would have had a huge expense. I was thankful that our Heavenly Father was so faithful to hear and honor our prayers for protection, as He always has!

These past several months have been severely distressing for me reading and watching so many reports of the death toll from the Covid-19 and the controversy regarding people having access to Hydroxychloroquine. Coupled with that, the continuing anarchy and rioting from the angry Black Lives Matter and Antifa mobs which resulted in the senseless shooting deaths of many innocents. Being an intercessor involved with several prayer battalions, it has been almost overwhelming,  coupled with enduring my disabling symptoms  due to the 90 degree and high humid weather.

Facing the  resulting  isolation, lack of social camaraderie, boredom, stress  and unemployment from the  lingering and disabling  Covid-19 crisis, I felt strongly to do something positive and inspire others not to succumb to hopelessness. I know how powerful an impact a child of God can have  using a wonderful platform such as a blog site!

My prayer is that as you read this blog, you decide in your heart to do something and not allow this daunting giant to imprison you permanently. Only the fittest survive and  with Christ, we can do all things.  If we do nothing, indeed we’ll not recover and our lives will change dramatically for the worse.inspecting my tomatoe plants

Let us decide today to be overcomers and remember Jehovah God’s and Jesus’ faithfulness in bringing us through the Storm victoriously. I grapple with the same emotions, frustrations and sadness as you and some days, I really haven’t felt like I wanted to get up and face the day.  But we must remember that our trials besieging us are simply difficult obstacles we transcend while walking with our beautiful Christ. We are runners in a long-distance marathon and Christ is running alongside us!  Our race of life is comprised of different seasons, relationships, and environment and we must decide whether we will adapt or die. I dislike the present view I see of our national horizon, but I know that God has given each of us a gift,  (or for others of us, multiple gifts)  to address and traverse the challenging terrain of life.

Today, I was compelled to revisit the parable of the talents in the Gospel of Mathew 25: 14-30.  It tells the story of the wealthy master going on a business trip and giving talents to his servants to gain interest. This story has always greatly inspired me to be vigorously devoted to multiply my Heavenly Father’s affairs.  Fourteen years ago,  (before the Dystonia diagnosis-battle) I had no problem  boundlessly engaging, with precision and speed,  in all of my endeavors.  As the years came and went speedily, my pace seemed to slow down to almost a snail’s pace and wrought with great frustration, anguish  and regret. Continually re-evaluating my relationship with my Heavenly Father , I deduced that I had to make some emotional and spiritual changes if I was going to continually be fruitful. And I knew it wouldn’t be possible without the help of Holy Spirit.

I continued to have  bouts of  great sadness regarding what I was and was able to do before the Dystonia battle. I continued to rely on the Lord for guidance and He was always faithful.  The uncontrollable muscle spasms often drained me by mid-day, but I adapted to the strategy of taking my journey one hour at a time. I also was greatly encouraged by spiritual moms,  prayer warrior sisters-in- Christ and mentors.  They stood with me as we  declared victory,  envisioned success and  praised the Lord . I’ve had to put a few projects on the back burner, but little by little, they are becoming a reality.  Meditating on scriptures establishes my footsteps and keeps me on track.

Though this Covid-19 crisis has worn many of us thin and haggard with grief and disappointment, we will victor over it  God makes everything beautiful in his time! Ecc 3;11. That is the gorgeous thing about the Lord. There is no devastation that He cannot recreate. The question is, Do you believe it?

In real time,   enduring this movement disorder  at times taxes  me  to the point where I cry out to Father for releif. A voice insists that I can’t do one more day  and losing hope that the the Covid-19  giant will never leave.

Okay, so how do we adjust and emotionally prepare for the consequences of this difficult season? We should first of all be informed and eager to stay abreast of what’s happening through the alternative news reporting agencies. There are many doctors, scientists and Christian leaders dedicated to the betterment of society. Most of them educate and teach how to prepare in times of crisis. There’s a plethora, including,  Breitbart, Info Wars, Veritas Project, Briteon, (Mike  Adams, the health Ranger), WND, Celeste Solum,  Appearance Ministries,  Omega Man, Sheila Zilinksy and many more.

A good first step in prepping  is starting a vegetable garden. Growing vegetables has been an inspiring experience for me , watching tiny seeds sprout and then grow into lush, strong tomato and cucumber plants! Mother’s especially can inspire their children’s imagination and love for nature and to help them understand the value and the necessity of nurturing and growing   Along with working on my garden, I’ve been watching and enjoying the precious small animals which have been regular visitors to my yard.  My husband, looking for a way to cheer me up,  suggested we buy corn, seeds and peanuts to invite the birds and squirrels to our yard. It really has made a difference in my demeanor and I love watching the cardinals, bluejays and squirrels enjoy the treats!

I ask father God to help me to focus on ways  and people to nurture and speak life to the dead things. It is imperative that we find ways  in this season to be creative, nurturing and expectant, because we don’t know how long it will last.  Above all we must  daily cultivate an attitude of gratitude,  however negative and  threatening our world seems.

Another creative endeavor is having family photo album-memory-gathering times. It’s a great way to bring smiles, laughter and hope to break up  the mundareness of  home isolation. There are many creative photography and photo book web-sites you can gather memories to make albums, photo books and blog articles! Michael’s craft stores and Joanne’s Fabric stores are wonderful places for women and kids to be creative. Think of the wonderful things you can make and give to shut-ins and/or elderly. You just have to be creative and dream. God will provide ways where we and our children can grow and thrive during these times. We need only draw near to God and walk in faith to use those gifts He’s given us. The late, precious pastor Derrik Prince and his wife started each day with a powerful declaration each day.    May we declare and decree that everything we create is fruitful!

      For as the rain cometh down, and the snow from heaven, and returneth not thither, but watereth the earth, and maketh it bring forth and bud, that it may give seed to the sower, and bread to the eater:  So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.  Isaiah 55 10 &11

my first corn stalk2

2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Cony Brown
    Aug 12, 2020 @ 19:10:09

    Thanks for your Encouraging Update. God will provide all you need.


  2. Sinneh Rose
    Dec 01, 2020 @ 18:13:47

    I’m so grateful for you and this story. I too grow vegetables and fruit but in pots. It is indeed a reward. In fact it is December 1 and I just finished a bowl of soup to which I picked Swiss chard and kale. We buy critter food and feed the squirrels 🐿 by hand . And of course the birds are a blessing . This Covid and the forced vaccines when hyrdC was legitimately dispersed to patients who healed from C, just angers me so. Praying everyday. Infowars was right on que the whole time. I pray our praying President stays in office all the while. Thank you for this article sister. Good read


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