THE DEADLY CONSEQUENCES, (Of Improperly Removed Mercury Amalgam Fillings)


My Tragic Story of a Dental Filling Gone Rogue October 2018

It is a beautiful fall day and I’m sitting in my room waiting for this itchy Bentonite clay to dry, so I can wash it off and move forward with my day. You may ask, why do I have clay on my face? Bentonite clay is known to remove toxins, so since I’m desperate to get this mercury out of my face, my clay application has been a part of my detoxing routine. After almost of decade of enduring tormenting, uncontrollable spasms of my throat muscles, (Platysma) and jaws. I have been on a relenting quest to solve this neurological mystery. Only just a few months ago, I found a medical journal link about an Asian woman who had the same issue as I. Imagine it taking that long to assure myself I wasn’t crazy and there had to be someone else, somewhere on this planet with a condition as mine! This lady’s solution was surgery.

So each week, I spent innumerable hours researching on the internet, anatomy photos of the face, neck and area, as well as researching everything I could find about TMJ, Dystonia and other movement disorders.

I’ve decided to write a comprehensive article on my condition which was caused by Mercury poisoning from one improperly removed amalgam filling. My misery has been so extensive and my life so drastically affected by this horrific phenomenon, that I vow to share with everyone I can so they don’t have endure the hell I’ve been through for over 11 years.

I feel it nesseasary,  as an ordained minister and journalist to make available any information that leads to wholeness and wellness. Many have no idea how toxic mercury is to the human body. Mercury is a deadly substance and yet dentists continue to fill the teeth of children and adults with it.

My husband and I were serious natural health people and we had read health articles about mercury amalgam fillings, so we decided to go to the local dentist ion our town. Today, we are regretful for our ignorance about what kind of dentist should do such a serious thing as amalgam removal. Just my one molar filling caused incredible damage and my life was turned upside down. I suffered relentless and unimaginable pain, isolation and impaired physical bodily functions.

This TMJ-Dystonia affliction also plunged my husband and I into a six thousand dollar debt for detox treatments. Our environmental MD, Dr. Rasa, trained in Dr. Klinghaddts mercury detoxifying program, was very concerned and compassionate when she saw me. She had never seen such intense symptoms in a metal-mercury issue. She did everything she could with no results.

I suffered a myriad of symptoms all relating to the compressed nerves intertwining in that jaw joint area. I had blurred vision when in certain positions, spastic tongue, (and also biting on my tongue so hard, I bled for half an hour and had excruciating pain). My masseter muscles, (chewing muscle) made me clench so hard, I cracked a back molar and had to get a crown. Other times, my mouth would open so wide, I could feel the hard tension and it hurt!

When lying in bed on my side, trying to sleep my sinuses would clog up and I could only breathe through my mouth. Most of the time, my vision is slightly blurred, but when I lay on my stomach, I can read the finest print and even see clearly the hole of the tiniest bead.  (One day, I was repairing a damaged beaded necklace and found that in my focusing on the beadwork, my throat and jaw muscles relaxed)! It was glorious to now get a respite from the tormenting and distracting pulling of my platysma muscles.

My symptoms were so distracting, troublesome and often so painful, I would have certainly had suicidal tendencies were it not for my intimate relationship with my Heavenly Father and Jesus. At the end of each day, I could wait to be entirely unconscious so I could enjoy some peace. It was a struggle every day to not speak death or negativity upon my coming into consciousness. My immediate thoughts would be, “I don’t want to have to go through another day again suffering this torment”. The average person without the Lord would ask for death. I also was getting more adept at praying fervent and victorious prayers to my Heavenly Father for strength and grace not to go insane with the pain. Without God also, I would be as mean as a snake because of my pain and discomfort. It is incredibly difficult living with a movement disorder. For me, there is no relief and no cure, (except for God). I minister to many Facebook Dystonia (and Lyme disease people), having also suffered from this vicious ailment). They suffer with isolation, damaged marriages and family lives and being unable to live their lives in a normal and productive fashion.

Please watch Dr Nicoles informative video. She is a blessing:

The Damaging Physical Manifestations of Mercury Poisoning

Platysma-TMJ Dystonia  also took a great toll on the teeth. The bruxism caused  my upper and lower teeth to clench and at other times the jaws open and close very wide every second or so. That makes it hard for me to eat, (and I avoid eating in public, because the food falls out of my mouth). Almost the whole first year my teeth clattered so hard that one of my back molars got cracked and I had to spend money on a crown. My wonderful holistic dentist, Dr Piela, from Lake Como, NJ insisted I pull it, but I lost a molar 15 years ago and didn’t want two empty spaces, (making a huge gap). And the possibility of a cavitation. I have problems with the tooth and either have to stick a hot needle to release the pus, or go to Dr Piela for an Ozone shot in that area. The Bentonite clay has been a help in keeping the infection and inflammation down. This bizarre ailment has made me go through the more crazy things to deal with.

During the first several years of this Dystonia situation, two different neurologists ordered MRIs. One prescribed pain drugs and muscle relaxants, (which I told him would not give me relief). The other neurologist give a quick glance and suggested my problem could be related to my past Lyme Disease episode. No one even approached the idea that my jaw could be dislocated. My husband Mark was severely affected by my trauma and pursued every modality he thought could help, including acupuncture, magnets, special TMJ supplements and Rife machine. None helped at all. It was becoming a great crisis for both of us and affected our marriage in ways we never thought of.

About eight years into the TMJ Dystonia nightmare, I was feeling excruciating pain in the other jaw joint. (Around the end of my first year after being diagnosed with Dystonia), the right jaw also became extremely greatly affected and I had to put heat and ice several times a day to endure the pain. I could feel an abnormal bump when I felt that area. Many times, sobbing hysterically, I would beg Mark to find another doctor to help me.

We couldn’t even enjoy activities a normal couple enjoyed, a nice meal at a fine restaurant, bike-riding, socializing, movie theaters and even a car ride was unfeasible because of the pain and discomfort of sitting up for a long period.
http://amalgam.org/education/scientificevidenceresearch/mercuryamalgamfillingsmajorfactorperiodontaldiseaseoralhealthproblems/

I suffered other manifestations of mercury and metal poisoning, including mineral deficiencies and digestive/ malabsorption problems. The condition of my hair, skin and nails was terrible, dry and brittle and as of late, my hair has not grown and has even broken up to the extent that I have almost shoulder length hair instead of the very long, luxurious mane I used to sport. The mercury seems to have accumulated because of my love for tuna fish, which I ate several times for the protein content. Under my new detox regimen, (nutritional Balancing), no tuna or fish is allowed.

When Mark and I lived at our water front home, we did twice weekly FAR sauna sessions in our downstairs music room. He had also reminded me to stay on distilled water, (I’ve been faithfully drinking distilled water since I married him) and now I am certain that this was a mistake because it robbed my bones and joints of the necessary minerals and nutrients it needed. Today, I don’t advise anyone to drink distilled water without the guidance of skilled natural physician who has expert experience in detoxification. I’m paying a heavy price for following  wrong health advice.

The past year and a half, the TMJ-Dystonia issue was unmanageable and I begged Mark to take me to a Doctor Jeffrey Brown, who shares a Sleep-TMJ practice in Church Falls Virginia. I’d done much research about jaw joint damage and treatments and found amazing You Tube videos of the work Dr Brown and Dr Stack were doing with a Gelb mouth appliance for Tourette’s syndrome and TMJ sufferers. I was convinced that the Gelb appliance was the only thing I’d seen which had the effect of stabilizing a spastic and maladjusted jaw joint. The mouth piece itself was a staggering $4,000, (and out of our budget) but I was constantly in excruciating pain and the quality of my life was worsening. Something had to give or I’d be good as a vegetable. I was desperate for some relief, from the teeth grinding and the opening-closing movement of my mouth really hurt my jaw joints.

I was so sure that I had a jaw issue that I asked my primary care physician to refer me to a specialist who could order an MRI of my jaw joints. He agreed and I made my appointment with Dr Carlson, EMT specialists. I greatly anticipated the MRI results and as I had known, the MRI showed extensive damage and no more cartilage. I sobbed hysterically when I shared the details with Mark when he got home from work. At least my suspicions were confirmed so I could move forward with a treatment.

Mark and I finally drove to Church Falls, VA for my first appointment, X-rays and mouth appliance fitting with Dr Jeffrey Brown, TMJ-Sleep Center. I told Dr Jeffrey, I believed the integrity of my head, mouth and throat tissues were compromised because of the mercury spillage and here was the result. I also mentioned that being I was a professional vocalist for many years, the belting and long hours of performing made my jaw joint “pop” and that must have been the joint getting out of the socket. So much for a vigorous singing career and drinking distilled water.

What have I learned from this health crisis? I lost so much living my formerly creative and active life. My confidence has plummeted, because the facial and mouth spasms are so apparent, strangers stare at me in the grocery store, the library or even just walking down the street for a walk. Singing, which usually comes so easily and naturally is now a physical feat of exhaustion. My Platysma and SCM muscles are so tight, I can barely breathe or get air. I believe the mercury may have also made me extremely sensitive to EMF and WIFI, as well as bright lights.

Thankfully, my strong prayer life and a life of walking in thankfulness and praise to my Heavenly Father and Jesus has kept me sharp enough to continue my journal blogs- on WordPress and performing-recording my compositions. I keep encouraging myself, remembering my upscale Jazz gigs and teaching my classes. One day, soon, I will be doing what I love uplifting people! Though being housebound has been a bummer and the vicious spasms have prevented me from bringing joyful music to the elderly residents at Buttonwood Hospital. I often struggle with feeling ugly and freakish, but I refuse to allow this brutal beast to keep me down forever. There are too many people I need to teach, encourage and inform on health and wellness in Christ. That is my hope, Christ is my healer.

I hope my sharing all the details of my mercury amalgam filling disaster will make you nervous and concerned enough to carefully research a highly qualified Holistic dentist to remove you or your loved ones mercury filling. Please make sure to watch the informative videos. I want to thank Dr Nocole for her excellent video. She is the kind of dentist you can trust to protect your health and future. I also recommend my dentist Dr Elizabeth Piela, Lake Como, NJ for east coast people.

I’d like to mention that many Cancer survivors fare better than victims of mercury poisoning. Their neurological dysfunctions and TMJ issues may be misdiagnosed and many thousands of dollars can be wasted for treatments that don’t address the true issue. I hope this article helps you to make good decisions about your dental health and treatments. Please feel free to contact Dr Nicole, Dr Piela or me to answer any questions you may have. God bless you and stay healthy!

 

 

 

Dystonia, Tourette’s Syndrome & “Movement” Disorders and the TMJ Connection


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After  watching so many You  Tube videos of precious people suffering from  Tourette’s Syndrome, Dystonia and other movement disorders, I’ve decided to  include  “Movement” Disorders advocacy and information to my other health categories. Since suffering from TMJ-Dystonia for ten brutal years, I can no longer allow this  mysterious, vicious and often disabling neurological condition to disrupt and hinder my life. I vow to also  share valuable information, treatments and excellent doctors with everyone.

I cannot help but grieve for the enormity of  suffering and loss of quality of life, my movement disorder brethren suffer each day. Many of us  abide in prisons of extreme pain-discomfort,  embarrassment, isolation, depression and at time we grapple with losing  hope of ever  having a normal life. We avoid going out in public because people do not understand why our movements and loud voices have to be so disruptive.Some of our postures are downright bizarre and our movements erratic. Some of us spew profanities and we are often housebound

 Drugs often do little to give us relief or diminish the intensity of our uncontrollable movements, though most choose to use drugs in the hope that any day they will get better. My decision to discontinue prescribed pain-killers and pharmaceuticals ended a month after my first diagnosis. The muscle relaxers did nothing but make me spacey, apathetic and  drowsy. I finished my bottle and that was the end of it. Since then, my husband and i have chased many rabbit holes to find the root cause o my mouth-jaw spasms. Some of you may be asking. “Why not Botox or Deep Brain Stimulation surgery”? I am an ordained minister- prayer intercessor and Psalmist-Composer-Singer.  To create, produce music and  compose expositors, I must have a very lucid mind unhindered by any drugs.

 

It took almost nine years  researching the web, to find someone who could accurately address my  spasming mouth-jaws. I saw several You Tube videos from renowned  TMJ Specialist, Dr Jeffrey Brown, TMJ-Sleep Apnea center in Falls Church,  When I showed my husband, Mark, Dr. Browns and Dr Stacks, treatments he balked. It would be a burdensome expense. But the jaw misalignment had gotten to the point where it affected my sleep, my ability to even focus clearly on my creative productivity and even taking care of my house. I was in constant pain and the jerking, clenching-unclenching of my mouth was beyond anything I could endure..  Were it not for my strong relationship with Christ, I would have succumbed to  nervous breakdown!

 

Ir was getting harder and harder to endure the incredible pain in my now left jaw also  One day, my mouth was forcing itself to open so wide, the stress on my jaw joint was staggering to the point, I would pass out. I sobbed in and told Mark, I had to make an appointment with Dr brown. I was willing to travel any distance and though it would be a very costly investment, I was one I could not afford to invest in!

I watched more of Dr brown and Dr Stack’s You-Tube videos and was astounded at how successfully, the Tourette’s and TMJ Dystonia people responded. Indeed, their was something about that special mouth appliance that helped to re-align the jaw joints and helped to  decompress pressure on the facial and neck nerves.

So, Mark and i finally made the 3 hour drive to Falls Church. Dr Brown was kind enough to schedule my appointment,  the fitting of my mouth piece and its delivery all into one day, other wise we would have to go home to New Jersey and come back the very next day, which would have been too much for Mark since he was driving. I was so relieved that I could get relief from the bone on bone pain each day and the prevention of much bone spurs..

I continued my own  researching lower facial-jaw anatomy and how the jaw joint misalignment causes other issues, such as lose of cartilage. I found health websites that said that bone broth and gelatin helps. to rebuild cartilage. Dr Brown also told me to eliminate all dairy because it contributed to calcium loss! Now i understood how high calcium intakes caused by bones to lose calcium. I was very disappointed about my new diet wouldn’t include my former favorite cheeses and my twice weekly warm milk to get me to sleep before bed. My appetite was already poor because of being stressed and depressed about my jaw pain. It would be a new challenge to embrace a dairy-free diet and also get enough protein. Time for us also to not take serious our government guidelines lied to us and said dairy was bone-strengthening.’s nutritional guidelines.

It’s been around three months wearing this mouth appliance. I continue o declare my healing prayers each day and keep a positive outlook and attitude, knowing that nothing is impossible with God. He is more than able to completely  recreate new articular jaw joints,  cartilage and ligaments. I found several women on You Tube who received miraculous miracles of healing from God!  Without hearing these testimonies, I’m sure I would be in a deep depression.

Bridgette healed of TMJ!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJWnaPpzu7A

 

Minister Becky Dvorak also has an anointed healing ministry and she explains how a child of God can receive their healing.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJWnaPpzu7A

 

The next two videos show two y6oung men, patients of Dr Stack and TMJ Sleep Apnea Center, of which Dr Jeffrey Brown has now taken over. The TMJ-Dystonia symptoms I suffer from are very similar to  except I don’t have the vocal tics and grunting.  It’s hard to imagine these young guys dealing with these violent spasms all day.

The uncontrollable movements not only affect me socially but socially as well. I’ve denied many invitation from my husband to get out of the house and enjoy the beautiful, warm day at the flea market,  I just didn’t care to deal with the embarrassment of people staring at me while making ugly facial grimaces.

The two young men have had several successful adjustments with Dr Stack and have their lives back. There are many on the Facebook Dystonia groups who would greatly benefit from Dr Brown’s expertise in addressing jaw and facial misalignment.  This next link will take you inside the jaw misalignment connect as Dr Jeffrey gives us a lesson on  TMJ jaw joint anatomy.

http://sleepandtmjtherapy.com/2018/01/case-condylar-catastrophe/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q0ixYKlwrNQ

 

As I continue aspiring to minister and serve victims of domestic violence, troubled youth and the elderly as well as successfully marketing  my color photo-journaling books, beaded jewelry, fashions  and  Christ-help books, I make every effort to share what I’ve learned and recommend the amazing services of Dr Jeffrey Brown.  This man has been compassionate and cares about his patients. Unlike other doctors and specialist who treat  all their patients alike and with little special  attention, Dr Brown, tailors His  treatments  for each unique patient. TMJ Dystonia sufferers from all over the United States and some even travel from out of the country for his treatment.

Dr Jeffrey Brown

Sleep & TMJ Therapy
2841 Hartland Road Suite 301
Falls Church, VA 22043   703-821-1103-

 

I hope after reading this blog and watchi8ng the videos, you will seriously consider your next step and journey into healing and getting your life back. I have the added blessing of calling out to my Heavenly Father, Jehovah, Rappha, my Healer and His precious son, Jesus Christ, Yahusha, who took our sicknesses and infirmities upon His own back, so that we can experience healing and restoration. I offer you the invitation today to accept Christ as your Savior and call upon Him to heal your disease-condition. Call upon His name and in the meantime, if you’re still suffering, God uses Dr Brown to help people today!

God Bless you and Shalom..on your healing journey.

THE FELLOWSHIP OF SUFFERING


DSCN3556 John 15:13 Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

Journal Entry, March3, 2017

My quest to find answers to the tormenting mystery of the JAW-mouth Dystonia continues. Each hour, I continue to rely heavily on Father giving me the strength to endure, uncomplainingly. My seasonal job, delivering telephone books door-to-door, started last week and my body is weary. from the windy-cold and the physical exertion.  Unlike  several years ago, when I bitterly complained to Father that I should be on tour with my incredible band. I told him, how hard it was to have do such humbling work when He had blessed me with such talent. And then the added grief of being misunderstood, alienated from wonderful fellowship and dealing with a tormentically distracting movement disorder was more than any human to bear. Even now, the pain in my (now also)  left jaw is painful and  I can barely stand to do anything. The past nine years of this  horrendous disorder (and the thought that there is no reversal for the damaged joints should cause me to sink into utter depression). Honestly, it has been lonely beyond belief and at times, I deem my small music-compassionate outreach, Brave Flame Productions-Outreach a thankless job, (at times). I am a very social person and  cherish the camaraderie of friends and loved ones being emotionally and spiritually connected with me.

Nevertheless, I realize that this ongoing suffering has brought about great change in my spiritual outlook and Father’s glorious workmanship in my life. This realization had brought me to create my 5 part-series journalism-color photographs and devotional series, ARISE FROM YOUR GRAVE. It has also compelled me to record and produce songs for two concurrent albums, a prophetic rock , Mod Prophet and a worship album, The Anointing, (His presence). One would expect that the result would be a publishing book deal and distribution or at least interest in the recorded works.  My book series still await  publication and my albums are still incomplete.

I wait upon the Lord, for He will renew my strength. What strength? For any passionately creative person in the midst of projects, there’s always the hope of success and renown. For the child of God, renown would be being sought after for the expertise of the skill. There is dealing with the disappointment of struggling financially and/or having few customers-patrons. So, I tell Father, more than anything… I wish to be in His perfect will.

This prayer brought me to place and realization of the precious treasure of His presence and company. In this quiet place of seeking Him above even success in my creative endeavors, He shows me what he truly values as spiritual wealth and abundance.

Each morning, as I arise to consciousness, I’ve disciplined my spirit to mediate on several verses. I have had to train myself because the left jaw is so violently  spastic that I awoke several times during the night in great pain. I didn’t want to succumb to anger or bitterness as I had with my past Lyme Disease battle in 1992.

Psalm 19:14

14 Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer.

Once awake, I ask Holy Spirit to order my steps and  focus me on what scripture He wants me to meditate on.  During the next hour, He will show me someone who needs a prayerful phone call, a hand-made card or care package. Yesterday, a Christian sister’s name popped into my spirit. I said, “Okay Abba, I will call Jackie, (not her real name)”

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When .I called Jackie, she replied, “That is amazing, Anita. I was thinking of you just yesterday and i was going to call you.” She asked me how I was doing with my jaw-mouth situation and I immediately gave her details of how I thought I was stopping my own healing. I slipped more often than I’d liked, saying  things like, day , “I can’t do that because of this disabling TMJ-Dystionia.” Lately, I was at least catching myself in mid sentence and repenting and saying, I am healed.” Jackie  admitted she was also speaking sickness over herself., her lungs and poor breathing. Jackie’s lungs had deteriorated so bad in the past year that she was on oxygen all day! I was thankful, that though my jaw-throat situation was very painful and distracting, at least I could drive and walk around freely. Jackie then confessed that during her seeking prayer to God about her suffering, she had deep, unresolved grief about her childhood and past.

I was astounded hen she mentioned her deep grief because i  was presently getting victory over my own many losses by reading a wonderful deliverance book, Pray Through It  by Rob Morrisette. The author was very detailed about the traumas and strongholds of his counselees and I was getting freer and freer reading about the victorious testimonies of the people.  Rob’s counseling manner was very detailed and he stressed bringing every painful incident to God in prayer and asking for healing. Jackie was very excited and wrote down the name of the book. I also shared with her about my joy of participating on the conference telephone line several hours each day with passionate prayer warriors across our nation. I told her how strengthened I was in their company and the powerful anointing of their prayers. She admitted to feeling judged around other brethren  and I felt she was constrained by a spirit of unworthiness. Jackie also took down the conference prayer call number and I prayed with her.

At the end of our discourse, Jackie was in tears and prayed for me. She thanked God for me being obedient God had put me on her heart the day before, but she didn’t call and was grateful that I was spiritually sensitive. I was deeply humbled and broken that Father was so gracious to even use me in such a way..to build up and strengthen my precious sister who  said she felt she was backslidden!

This call was a confirmation that I was  right where Father wanted me to be, sitting in his love and waiting for direction. My direction happens to be the gift of edifying, building up my brothers and sisters who feel broken  weak and unworthy.  Father is not so concerned about my creative endeavors, (however God-inspired they are) but about developing intuitiveness to the needs and brokenness of my brethren. In order to have sensitivity to ascertain that my brother and sister needs tenderness, encouragement or a tangible need, (such as rent money or groceries), I need to stay deeply connected and deeply compassionate, however rough or irresponsible they may seem. I’ve desperately longed for patience, long-suffering and understanding about my weird  movement (with loud voice) disorder and have often been judged harshly and misunderstood. But Father has used these painful times so I can learn long-suffering and kindness.  Separating myself unto Him and worshiping with a thankful heart has borough me to precious places of surrender, where I can give out of a pure heart. Though my physical reserves, (my energy) seem limited, my capacity to  love has so increased. Father is nurturing my capacity to love deeper than a surface level. If I encounter relationships were a brethren seems difficult, a nuisance or unpleasant to be around, I ask Father to remind me that there may be deeply-rooted generational issues or traumas from childhood and up.

The Pray It Through, book  has been eye-opening resource to delve deeply into the hearts of my brothers and sisters and where Father can groom me to love, not just in word and deed, but true empathy! I believe this is what causes strife and rejection in the body. We say we love  (and pray for) our brother or sister from afar, yet we will not come forth in honesty and reason at the table with them and our Heavenly Father.

I pray that my brothers and sisters take a deeper look at their season of suffering and submit it to our Abba. He will show us how he is breaking down ideologies of tradition, religion and even relationships, (as the secular arena perceives them). Our ways are not God’s ways and our thoughts are not His. He uses the weak, broken , ugly things, and even small, insignificant (according to the world’s standards) ministries.

He has made everything beautiful in His time. Ecc 3:11

When mega-churches and mega-ministries crumble at His glorious appearance because they did not minister to the orphans, widows and  foreigner, those ministries build on His compassion will thrive and be the lighthouse to the nations!

Let us remember that the temporary sufferings and lacks are not worthy to be compared with the glories which await us in heaven! be encouraged my brother and sister! God sees and he is pleased.

I WILL NOT LAY DOWN


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Ministering to elderly and sick nursing homes residents with Pee-Wee.

Note to Readers: My journaling of my battle with Dystonia-TMJ is to bring awareness to friends l loved ones in the hopes of giving more help, compassion and understanding to our deficiencies. I also hope doctors and medical personnel can understand the various areas of our lives that are restricted  and inhibit by inability to administer to our former duties, responsibilities and personal creative endeavors.  These journal entries and (medical personnel involved) . Our symptoms may even affect our judgement and/or mental-emotional prowess before we  had our condition. The utmost patience and compassion is needed for us to be contributors to our father’s kingdom. May our prayers, not just  for Dystonia, Alzheimer, Dementia ( or any other victim of a health disorder,)  not just be for our immediate healing, (so we don’t have to be inconvenienced) but to teach us patience and forbearance.

Journal Entry,  July 5, 2016

Just woke up to another overcast day, promising more rain. I don’t complain because many states are in a water crisis. My vegetable garden is flourishing, but the barometer and humidity has wrecked havoc with my jaw joints. When atmospheric pressure changes,  my neck muscles, nerves and jaws go berserk, making it almost impossible to accomplish any thing with merit. It’s going on two weeks trying to get together two of my best story to send to Guidepost inspirational magazine. I’m also waiting to get motivated to send m art package to a greeting card company here in Paterson, NJ.

Each day is different in this season of TMJ Dystonia in regards to what I’m able to accomplish, but it’s always the same regarding my determination to receive my miracle manifestation of healing. God has still not answered my question regarding what purpose this tormenting condition persists.  At times my flesh reminds me that it’s going on nine years and if God had a great plan for me, how could He be so cruel to allow it to linger and so curtail my vivaciousness and productivity. I remind myself that Abba is a good God and everything He gives is wonderful and needful to His children. One thing I know for sure ..that His ways are perfect and He does know how much I’m suffering. Satan’s plan is always to ambush our minds and barrage us with a continual spray of doubting questions, physical pain and our focus of it.

At times when I have a moment of peace, such as when I’m pulling acorn seedlings in my yard, I feel His gentle presence. Oddly, my muscles rest and my jaw is calm. My jaw and throat also seem to get calmer while I’m focusing on my fine bead work. But mostly, I’m groaning in agony as I press forward, (much like pushing through a tropical impenetrable forest),  through each hour to make it to bedtime. Here is where I rely on Father’s strength each day for sanity! When the neck spasms get so bad that I fall on the floor and writhe in pain, I can’t bare to be alive. Here is where I have to take captive that demonic spirit of suicide, death and insanity. I can’t explain to anyone except someone enduring daily pain on a scale of 8 or nine every waking moment of their lives.

After these many years, I deal with  the grief of losing a good chunk of my life. A dark season of nine years is a lot. I know brother Joseph, in the Bible, had to bear thirteen years of incarceration, but having a agonizing and distracting bodily condition is a whole new ball game. The most painful thing for me is deducing my relationship with Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit. I’ve always believed that valid and thriving  relationship with the Lord had to be true and breath-takingly reverent. My prayer times are anything but reverential  There’s a whole lot of shaking and  jerking going on, hardly my idea of anything pleasing to God!  My focused prayer and devotions to Him are at best , sporadic. (I’m just being transparent with you). I often go in to prayer expecting  the outcome to be detached and superficial because  mostly… I weep through the whole time! Whew. Imagine struggling through your talking to father God?

“Father forgive me for being this way.”

Maybe tomorrow, I will have no more spasms and I can joyfully never and praise him. This is the uncharted waters that the Bible doesn’t address, so I have to contend with disgust of my inability to give Father my best and to even give Him His proper due.

The other devastating thing i that doctors I’ve seen have no idea where to even start for a treatment program. They look at me in surprise and apologize that there is nothing they can do. I’ve been researching and GOOGLING for over six years and have  found only a few doctors who specifically treated Dystonia of the mouth and.or upper cervical area. A girl freind  messaged me a few weeks ago telling me she also was researching my condition and found a  Dr LEE, who has a private practice   in South Korea. Many of his  Dystonia and TMJ patients were getting successful results with his treatments!  I also found a doctor  in  DE who treated TMJ. Unfortunately, they are very few and far in between in NJ and to travel to other states like the doctor in Teaas would be very costly and inconvenient for my husband to take off work. I continue to ask and pray whether father wants me to wait for His divine supernatural creative miracle for my jaw or travel to a  TMJ physician. Father be merciful to us who are suffering.

Dr Lee’s practice and You-Tube link.

July 4th was spent praying for a breakthrough rest with my jaw and neck spasms. The day was already almost half over and I needed to express my love for my Heavenly Father. it was so frustrating, picking up my Taylor and just jerking so wildly, I had to lay down. Uselessness and despair threatened to ruin my day, but finally picked up my guitar anyway and started to sing my favorite energetic hymns, like Onward Christian Soldiers.  Anyway, I am more than a conqueror!

Fast forward today, brought my Bible, a Max Lucado devotional and Jewel’s book, Chasing The Dawn into the bedroom. I prayed that something would awaken my heart and I’d be able to move forward into my day. My eyes fell upon the subtitle of Jewel’s book, Melbourne, Australia. I’ve always dreamed of Australia even as a young girl. Down Under seemed a glorious utopia far away from the chaos and heartache of my present circumstance of my parents plan to divorce. I often dreamed in my bed at night that I would somehow end up there and live a peaceful and creative life!

So Jewel expressed the sensations of her entering the stage to perform her repertoire to her Australian fans. Her writing was so elegant and enticing, making me miss my own performing and composing tenure. I felt a profound sense of loss that I was so far and disconnected to that glorious season of my life. Words cannot describe a performance were the performer “feels” her audience and they feel her. It is an indescribable connection that infuses the artists expression of singing-performing (and doctors have no idea the profound effects that a neurological disorder as Dystonia-TMJ can have on the creativity of a talented singer-composer. This has been a major grief, few realize  the extent of loss when a performing artist is unable to perform (and compose)  at the high level she was used to. I feel less than human and disconnected that this condition has so disrupted the  beautiful overflow of expressing my music-soul.

When I perform before an audience, it’s like I gently fall off a trapeze like a leaf  I lose all sense of the present, of time and the faces that gaze at me.  Father placed me in a I  a divine bubble and I’m floating in His love. Everything around me fades into nothingness and all I’m aware of is the holiness  (and lightness0 of His presence. This has happened several times. Twice, when I sang at dying persons’ deathbed and at a funeral service, where a seer told my husband she saw cherubim dancing joyously around me as I sang my Psalm 91 original. Another recent time, was just last month while singing two of my favorite Hymns His Eye is on the Sparrow and It Is Well at a church concert. . Despite the fact I was miserable and my neck was inflamed with pain and my mouth was  moving violently, I grabbed Father’s hand and took His strength. No one could have been more surprised than me, when everyone stood up and joined me on the heart-rending chorus, It is Well With My Soul. I knew it was God and God alone who carried me through the song.

10-17-2012-205THE VOICE of an ANGEL

A girl, her voice and Guitar, Proclaiming the Love of Christ!

This dark season I’m immersed in is complicated, daunting and bizarre with its untold repercussions. I can’t bare to be seen in public because of the embarrassing facial grimaces and my arms and upper shoulder jerking. Even standing in line at the post office for fifteen minutes is main achievement. With these negative symptoms molding me into something no one would want to be, I’ve learned to make some adjustments. I’ve long discarded the activity of complaining and have made a lovely habit of making someone’s day a little better. If I’m at the grocery store I find something attractive about the person near me and compliment them. I so delights me to see them smile and to make their day by a compliment. The practice of being a blessing to someone is a high point of my day. I refuse to give the enemy any ground or make him think that his attacks on me will sully God’s wonderful destiny for me. I want to please my Father by serving and being a blessing no matter how hard it is! I feel sad for mean people because I know that they’ve not practiced and seen the results of kindness in spite of their physical misery, stressful relationship or mundane life. Persistent acts of kindness and serving cheerfully is evidence of a God-infused lifestyle.
All this being said, I’m reminded of President Abraham Lincoln, One of the greatest presidents who ever lived, who endured and succeeded despite countless failures and  disappointments, shut doors and heart-aches. Amazingly, he grabbed the bull by the horn  in all his tenacity and audacity…his faith in God almighty.  He prevailed, head held high even during one of America’s most horrific times, the Civil War. Though I’m not faced with anarchy, riots and the threat of assassination, I still am facing a mountain which shall be moved by my obstinate faith in the God who restores and rewards all things.

http://www.school-for-champions.com/history/lincoln_failures.htm#.V3v21hJ4K1s

Weathering Dystonia,  (as president Lincoln faced his own giants) I know that God must have a very important job for me to do in the future and He is preparing and training me for such a time as this. Thankfully, July 5, 20016, we are still in peace here in America and life is somewhat normal. I recently watched a Christian outreach organization,  Ezra International outreach who focused their relief efforts on the refugees from cities near Ukraine. Soldiers had all but demolishes the businesses, neighborhoods and banks by bombs and machine gun fire. I couldn’t believe my eyes as I gazed at the footage of such devastation. Thousands were killed, there were bodies in the streets and many holocaust survivors were starving and left on their own. America could soon be enduring the same fate and I prayed that God would be merciful to the sick, elderly and young ones. Any of us American citizens could suddenly face the terrible war atrocities as our brethren in war-torn Ukraine and any other middle eastern city!

So… it would behoove me…and everyone to thank God that our country is still somewhat intact and not facing the atrocities and hardships of war and judgment.  Maybe for a short time, we are still the land of the free and though my own personal suffering is challenging, t’s nowhere near the suffering of people who’ve had their homes destroyed by bombs and have no where to go to get their next meal.

Dystonia reminds me of the need to be more compassionate, empathetic and giving of my resources to those who have less. Though I’d never wish anyone to endure a condition that robs and diminishes so much of our lives, the blessing in disguise is the  awareness and empathy of others sufferings and the motivation to do something about it!

Perhaps that is the gift Father looks to glean when we face a loss or bodily suffering. May father use you and I greatly to strengthen someone who has a deformity, impediment of disability

SILENCING the SONGBIRD


angel in  copper silk gown1“Lord, help me get through this. Help me, please” I kept saying as my jaw and mouth started to throb and convulse. I boldly accepted my pastor’s invitation to perform at the Jackson Baptist glory Celebration, a musical worship concert of local worship leaders and teams. A week ago, I emailed Pastor Sandra that I’d be performing His Eye is on the Sparrow and It is Well, two of my favorites that I sang to the residents of my area nursing home and the local physical rehabilitation centers. Those two songs were staples because they were a reminder of God’s promise to me that He was with me even in the valley. I had to play these two songs on my guitar almost everyday, just to remind myself that indeed, despite the incessant, tormenting pulling in my neck, the jerking of my arms and the rapid opening and closing of my mouth, one day, I would be released. It took every ounce of focus to do anything of substance. During this TMJ-Dystonia tenure, I’d programmed myself to call upon the Lord to strengthen me.. Steadfast confidence and reliance on Him was always the reward. That was who Father was,…always gracious in answering my prayer to give my best to my performances.

As more people entered the church, I could feel the excitement, which propelled me even more to be in close communion with Father. My husband Mark, saw I was in distress and massaged my neck. A girlfriend showed up, excited and encouraging and also gave me a neck massage.
People were filling into the well-lit church while the musicians and singers waited on the platform for the sound engineer to tweak their sound. My turn came and I adjusted the microphone. An older guitarist gentleman told me I could plug my guitar to his box which was a blessing so I didn’t have to set up all my effects pedals. Then I took a back seat near the edge of the church so people wouldn’t see my mouth contort. I hunched over in my seat, trying to take deep breaths to control the violent pulling and spasming in my neck. I felt an anxiety rise up, which always happened when the muscles got inflamed from the continua movement of my jaw. I continued to pray and stay alert .It was getting harder and harder to stay comfortable and I had to fight the impulse to run to the car and lay on my back for relief.

Finally, the concert started with a vivacious acapella trio. I was third in line. Then my Pastor approached the stage and introduced herself and me. I scurried up to the platform, nonchalant about my nondescript and unglamourous appearance. I’d long ago discarded my adherence to looking beautiful and well-coifed because it took so much energy to get through each hour. It had come to the point where it took an enormous amount of focus to do basic chores, my exercise routine, my daily voice scales and guitar practice. My only concern now, was to focus  on my performance-ministering in God’s anointing. To people enduring catastrophic illness, outward, perfect beauty is the last concern. Our symptoms wear us out to the point that we can’t be concerned that our make-up is perfect. Anyway, my lipstick and mascara always smeared or wore off halfway into any activity. My face always ended up leaning on my hands as I tried to position my head and neck in a comfortable way. Such is dealing with an upper cervical-spinal issue. I felt peaceful as I faced the audience.
“I’m so blessed and thankful to be here tonight despite having a very difficult almost nine years struggling with Dystina-TMJ, a neurological disorder similar to Parkinson. I’m so glad to be here to encourage any of you who are stiffening with any kind of illness. No matter who you are, God cares about what you are going through. Indeed, His eye is on the sparrow and as He is attentive to a tiny sparrow falling to the ground, so much more so are you precious in His sight”

The strains of my guitar and voice filled the church and I felt at ease, hardly aware of any muscles neck spasms. It was amazing how relaxed I now felt,compared to the preceding hour of anguish in my neck. I knew it was all Him! At the end of His Eye Is on the Sparrow, I paused for a second.  My eyes swept across the people’s faces as they sat spell bound watching me and listening to my every word. My face softened and I said, “It is well. It is Well.”
I then felt a surge of strength and stated, “You know, no weapon formed against you shall proper and Satan is under your feet. Get a hold of that and decide to walk powerfully in God’s strength. The devil is under your feet!”

JACKSON BAPTIST Church concert June  5, 2016

The audience grabbed a hold of that one and I preceded to sing It is well. I was joyful to hear one of the drummers accompanying me and my performance came alive with God’s hope and victory for everyone who’d choose to believe that all is well because of Christ’s victory on the cross!

By the third verse, everyone was standing and joined in through the end of the song! The chorus…It is well, with my soul reverberated with the layered harmonies of many voices. It was a transcendent moment for me! Father God punctuated His daughter’s glorifying music performance with His healing presence.

As I left the stage with the applause still lingering, the wicked spasms came back with a vengeance and I told Mark and my friend I had to lay down. I rushed to our HHR car and rested, immediately feeling less pressure in my neck. After about a half an hour, I decided to go back in, in case there was anyone who wanted to talk with me or have prayer. I was immediately approaches by several people One tall lady in particular, grabbed my hand.

“Hello sister and what can I pray with you for?”I asked.

“I was so blessed…so blessed by your songs. ” She gushed with tear-filled eyes. ” I have Lupus and have been very depressed for a long time.” She went on to share a little of her story and then a pastor joined me as I prepared to pray over the sister. Quite a few more people approached me to hug me and shake my hand and then I felt weak with the excitement and challenge of the night. I retreated back to the car to rest.

As I meditate and chronicle this pivotal evening of my life, I ponder the mystery of my battle-journey.  This TMJ-Dystonia condition has affected me in so many ways, some bad, but mostly good. Anyone diagnosed with a chronic illness will first ask, “Why me, God?” Then they will become angry at the injustice of it all and then resign themselves, either to resentment-bitterness or they decide that they will fight back and make the best of it! I have chosen to be the victorer and make the best of this daunting trial and trust that father will get all the glory from it!l

My encouragement to anyone enduring a daily or terminal illness is to weight your thoughts, dreams, standards and hopes by God’s word and His living presence. The Bible doesn’t answer all the the Jobian mysteries of a catastrophic health condition. For me it’s been groping my way through a dark maze and then leaving the “out” door onto a terrain riddled with land mines. Failure and death lurks beside every mine and one wrong step could propel you into the cemetery of resignation. I’ve often asked myself why I forge forward in my research, knowledge of Biblical healing and preventative medicine, (natural healing) when I’m daily almost overwhelmed with these devastating muscle-neurological and bio-chemical abnormalities.

I’ve learned from Dr Caroline Leaf (brain scientist) about the utter complexity of how the brain and the nuero-transmitters react to stress and trauma. From her research I’ve gleaned amazing insight on the importance of learning, meditating and relying on God’s divine and superior knowledge. After all, He did create and fashion our bodies in the most unfathomable ways ways!

Coming from a background of extreme abuse (bullying and domestic violence) and suffering much rejection because of generational sins, and then being redeemed  and transformed by Christ’s Yashuha’s love and freedom, reminds me  of my vow to the evil powers that be, that I will never again live in bondage. Though these devastating symptoms threaten me each day to hold me captive, I’ve relied on God’s Holy Spirit to empower me with His all-abiding strength, resilience and the possibility of total healing-restoration! Who else can promise that? Neither doctors, nor the toxic drugs they push can promise the prefect healing of our physician, Christ the messiah whose very stripes enabled us to walk in restoration!

close up anita OG

I, for one, need nothing else, but Him. The irony of my health journey has been that my enemy has tried to silence me by afflicting the very tools of my ministry. A worship leader-psalmist-speaker’s mouth and voice are the instruments with which she/he expounds God’s healing words, promises and anointed presence. Only in God’s presence is healing, so my enemy has chosen to viciously attack me, ( in my neck, vocal chords, throat and jaw) so that he can shut me down and shut off God’s healing works through me!

Ten years ago, somewhat vivacious and passionately aspired to get signed and go on tour, I never would have imagined to join the ranks of the “disabled” population.  Any pride or self-reliance I had is now completely extinguished and I’ve been brought to the place of humble submission…total reliance on Him alone!. This is Father’s refining process for me. I’m on his potters’ wheel and He is shaping me to what he wishes me to be. (Now, I can’t say that I’m always still and yielding) but mostly, I trust that He knows what He is doing.

He is using a chosen instrument, not of my parents ilk. None of my parents were musicians, nether were any composers or played instruments! It has been a testimony for God to teach me how to play guitar and compose the beautiful Psalms he has given me. It will be seven years since beginning the recording of my album MOD PROPHET and then my worship CD,  The Anointing, His Presence. They are nearing completion, getting more polished and glorious with each song. I will not stop and neither shall my enemy stop my mouth from praising Him and teaching the world of His great promises and Love.

The songbird will sing!

 

By His Stripes… You are Healed


My Dystonia Journey

Note: If you are suffering from Dystonia, Parkinson, MS, Lupus, Fibromyalgia or any of the host of neurological disorders, please have an open heart, research. Please don’t allow drugs to diminish the quality fo your life. Pain is a killer, yes, but Christ is Life. I have no words to convince you to seek passionately and incessantly for the root issue your illness.  If anything…after eight long, tormenting years of suffering agonizing pain and humiliation, God is our only answer and cure! BTW, still can’t find a cure? Look into spiritual Christian deliverance. According to pastor Henry Wright strongholds and generational issues could be the root of you not receiving your healing. This is all so complicated, but at Pastor Wrights Healing    seminars we learned that small insidious sins such as unforgiveness, bitterness, resentments and even innocent emotions such as deep grieving can block us from healing. Deliverance sessions with a empathetic and  Holy-Spirit-filled counselor can release your ability to receive Jesus healing! check out Henry Wright on Sid Roth. His book,  A More Excellent Way, Be In Health, is a life changer.God bless you on your healing journey. Please pass this blog on to any of your loved ones or family members who are sick. This blog may change your life forever

Journal Entry, April 3, 2016 4:50 pm

So, It’s just a little past spring and I’m delighting in the glorious  blooming of my favorite “snow-busters” crocuses. I really had expected that I would be outside brisk-walking and getting back my size four shape. The violent muscle-pulling of my neck  kept me house bound and stuck sitting most of the winter day,  fashioning my beaded chokers. Stringing the beads were just about the only therapy which kept the violent mouth-jaw-tongue and neck spasms from sending me to a nervous breakdown. Of course, my reliance has been and continues to be on my heavenly Father giving me strength and declaring my healing scriptures otherwise, I would be toast!

Mark and I continue to research and scour the internet for any treatment or new breakthroughs in Dystonia, neurological disorders or tremors. We’re researching the treatment protocol to address the mold contamination situation which started in our old home. A Christian sister prayed with me one day last year and insisted I check into the possibility that it was contributing to the Dystonia symptoms and mild seizures. She said the myco-toxins were dangerous and I shouldn’t wait to let myself get sicker.   I trusted her spiritual wisdom and insight, but Mark wasn’t sure that could be the issue, and besides  the tests to find out about mold are very hard to come by. Any doctors who did treat mold were in very exclusive areas and charged at least a grand just to get in the door. After finding out about the cost, Mark got disgusted and gave up…and I continued to get worse!

Even thought, just getting through each hour was arduous and exhausting, my empathy and compassion for those enduring devastating, chronic and unexplained sickness grew. I ‘m more passionate than ever to help others find healing and wholeness.

So many things encapsulate a movement disorder condition.  Besides, the loneliness, isolation and people unable to care and/or empathize with  the mental, emotional, physical and spiritual ramifications of Dystonia, FibroMyalgia, Parkinson’s Lupus or MS, there is the frustration and hopelessness of never  leaving the bodily prison. Worse yet, are the consequences of being addicted to pain-killers and other anti-confirmatory drugs.

I hope the following conversation I had with a freind educates other sufferers of immune and/or nerve disorders. The name is changed  for privacy

Damaris:

I just hate to see u in pain. Aside from lethargy and sluggishness, which I know all too well from my meds, do the meds help w tremors
Do u have trouble eating or swallowing. Is that how u keep your youthful, zero fat shape.
Me:

BTW, just to add, I’m waiting to get my book ready for publication. Editing takes great segacity. Excelling at my craft for the Lord far exceeds the issue of NOT being in pain. Choosing to stay alert, (Mark has great immune system challenges also) & I have to be on top of everything regrading knowledge of immune-enhancing supplements, herbs and especially keeping up with label reading,, a new priority since this evil government seeks to weaken the population thru vaccinations , GMO and our produce being tainted. Not to even elaborate on the toxicity of Splenda, Sucralose, MSG and high fructose corn syrup now being added to most foods and beverages. HFC makes makes people even fatter..Daily exercise is also a priority for me. I need to keep fit because Mark’s back has severe herniated disks and he couldn’t do any taxing physical work like chopping the wood or a lot of snow shoveling. I’m adamant about fitness and there’s the necessity of being so in case of any impenitent  EMP situation. God help those who are overweight  or physically debilitated in anyway!  You know, I would have had cancer also if  it not were for my Biblical declaration of Healing scriptures and researching everything I can about keeping my body cancer-free.
Regarding drugs for tremors, Sinemet and other muscle relaxers do little to get to the root of the  spasms. And besides, I don’t have a Parkinson or tremor problem. I have a nerve spasm issue from pinched nerves from the TMJ ligament and trying to detoxify my body from a past severe Carbon monoxide poisoning which did a number on my body.
Damaris: Any Dr mention wiring jaw wiring for what?
Damaris,  miracles abound for people getting astounding healing from Jesus, our Divine healer. Doctors know almost nothing about the body & how God created it to heal itself! I watch the 700 club, Copelend, Andrew Wommack ministries and many evangelical outreaches, German evangelist Rinehard Bonnke have prayed for miracles all over the world, especially in third-world nations. I’ve heard of testimonies on the Sid Roth Program of people whose limbs restored. Others had eyes restored where their eye sockets were empty. God created new eyes! Others gave testimonies of God giving them brand new organs like lungs, a new heart and  kidneys.
So, Mark and I don’t put too much trust in most mortal doctors who  are revered almost as gods. Mark insists they practice medicine.  Most of them could care less to passionately research new holistic and natural healing modalities. They’d not get their extra thousands from the kickback drug companies give them! Most of them are charlatans who rob poor working-class people and their greed compels them to aspire to  another Lamborghini. Remember, the drug industry is a billion dollar industry.
The Bible frowns on drugs and the overuse and dependence on them is overrated.  Drug are not conducive in any way to healing and wholeness of the body or mind and God’s people should not be so gullible and foolish to fall under the temptation to depend on them. (In rare cases, God may allow them  to stabilize a severe health issue, like blood pressure or high  blood sugar),  but we should all approach drugs with great caution and  education about side effects. they may be used We should seek the counsel and wisdom of Holy Spirit for everything and most particularly, our health and well-being.
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In Galatian 5:20,
pharmakeia: the use of medicine, drugs or spells

Original Word: φαρμακεία, ας, ἡ
Part of Speech: Noun, Feminine
Transliteration: pharmakeia
Phonetic Spelling: (far-mak-i’-ah)
Short Definition: magic, sorcery, enchantment
Definition: magic, sorcery, enchantment.

Most of the time the drugs have more side effects than the condition itself. Sadly, many people don’t care to do their research for natural cures, (or prevention in the first place). Why aren’t physicians teaching patients how to prevent sickness? 
God’s people should ask the question and ponder the manner in which our precious healer, Jesus Yashuah suffered and bore the lashes on his back and body so we could walk in divine healing! His bruising was beyond our comprehension and manuscripts have yet to describe to true  totality of his battered body for our healing and benefit God’s children are already healed and we have the authority to be healed in His name This is another reason I walk with and serve my Lord, so what doctors offer is of little worth or help. Mark and I will have to continue to seek a Holy Spirit-filled doctor who is in touch with Christ and has the right diagnostic equipment to pinpoint  the root cause of this Dystonia.
I’m thankful for my Facebook sister with the gift of discernment who originally pointed me in a good direction. Mold poisoning , (Myco-Toxins)  often mimic neurological disorders, so besides sharing my other blogs about possible causes, I pray this one will help also.

A DAY in the LIFE of DYSTONIA, (Eight Years)


Eight years and counting…but trusting and believing that I am HEALED by Jesus stripes. I refuse to disbelieve that Christ also endured  the beating for Dystonia, Lupus, ALS  and PSP. These are all satanic attacks and I continue to declare my healing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCo82bv5lRM

Dear Jim, my dear precious man, My heart goes OUT to you also. I’m a lovely gal whose life has been severely humbled and humiliated also. My struggle with mouth, tongue and throat Dystonia has been a living hell every waking moment. Others couldn’t imagine the heartbreak and anguish having to deal with CERVICAL issues which affect almost every area of our body’s and even the organs and brain neurotransmitter activity. Doctors DO NOT care about doing deeper studies on Dystonia because thy get their kickbacks from the DRUG companies. I for one CANNOT take drugs because my calling as an artist, worship leader, composer and journalist depends on my mind being high mental acuity. So my choice is suffering from great pain from a misaligned JAW joint (TMJ) to bitten my tongue til it bleeds and my lower face and mouth making the ugliest grimaces. For a woman, this is demeaning…so I’m housebound almost all of the week. the only time I get out is when I drive myself to my Chriro for my adjustment which does nothing to stop the facial movements. Driving is grueling because my nervous system reacts violently to the engine power, so my mouth goes Berserk!

This next video is about Sara’s battle with Dystonia (TMJ disorder) She’s another hero of mine and her symptoms are very similiar of what my body has suffered. Following is a list of her symptoms.  I highly recommend anyone enduring Dystonia to get a good MRI of your jaw area to see if your misaligned tooth bite is the problem. I tore my jaw ligament while singing a high E note while singing. I heard  something that sounded like a crack or tear and a week later, my problem started. Unfortunately, doctors and neurologists focused on the brain area and spine, but did NOT focus on the  jaw area:) Also consider any head trauma or car accidents . I pray my blog will open up some more areas for you to find relief for your Dystonia.

The following are Sara’s symptom

Secondary/Acquired Paroxysmal Dystonia moving to Generalised Dystonia, Dystonic Storms, Tremor, Teeth clenching, Migraines
Jaw pain, Temple pain left side, Neck Pain, Back Pain, Shoulder Pain, Low back pain, Headaches, Faint/Lightheaded, Concentration issues, Occasional stutter/slurring, Vertigo, Memory impairment, Hearing impairment right side, Balance problems, Chronic Fatigue
Visual disturbances, Light sensitivity, Sound sensitivity, Smell sensitivity and lack of smell, Ear ache intermittent, Dulling of hearing, Tinnitus (occasionally), Loss of taste (I was just adding lots of salt and didn’t realise!), Toothache, Breathing difficulties, Sinus issues, Snoring
Difficult to wake up/drowsiness, Weak muscles – especially arms/legs/ unable to easily hold phone or brush hair, Sharp and Chronic hand/finger pain, Fine motor control issues -writing/eating/DIY, Slowed movement/ability to move, Biting back/sides of tongue all the time, Sensitive teeth (sometimes), Raynaud’s Syndrome (cold feet and hands), Knee pain, Hip pain, Upper arm and upper thigh (lymph) pain

 

I give all glory and thanks to the Lord for ANY creative endeavor I attempt to finish, (my recording of my albums and my 5-part series book! the incessant & violent pulling on my neck and thraot muscles DRAINS any motivation out of me, so I’m constantly crying out to Father for strength. I pray that all my beloved ones, thank God everyday for being able to enjoy your relationship with your precious heavenly Father, Jesus & Holy Spirit. You have NO idea how much easier it is to life life hen you’re not in agony every waking moment. Thank Him everyday for your health and mobility. Many are disabled by DYSTONIA or suicidal. I give ALL thanks to my wonderful Father for helping me endure this daily cross.  all and Please be patient and compassionate to those who have disability. It’s twice as hard to KEEP your marbles together! blessings to you all!

 

Here is another young lady suffering from a TMJ disorder.

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