FELLING the GIANT, Lyme Disease


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Lyme Disease is a killer, of mind body and spirit. It is insidious and deadly, almost unconquerable. I’ve met many precious folks on Facebook’s  Christian Lyme Disease group and am astounded at the suffering and hopelessness.  As a journalist, I feel obligated to help my brethren in their journey to wellness and victory.

I have learned so much since being diagnosed in 1992, right in the middle of my  musical journey with my boyfriend-lead guitarist, Chris, (who also was diagnosed  4 years after me).  God blessed us with an anointed calling to share the Gospel through our unique brand of Gospel hard rock, folk-rock, blues and jazz. My heart was skipping beats, I became weak with dizziness and my mind was foggy. My life exploded at the doctor’s  diagnosis of Lyme Disease!  I was terrified and overwhelmed with the thought of having to drive myself from Seaside Park to Red bank, NJ where Rosephin intravenous anti-biotics would be administered for thirty-one days straight. I could not miss one day, or the Lyme would  become aggressive and overtake my immune system.

God got me through the devastating season, but  several months later, the symptoms returned, this time with a vengeance. I had to endure another bout of anti-biotic, this time Amoxicillin. I felt better for a brief couple of months, but then soon noticed I was feeling debilitated very easy. I caught everyone’s cold and my lungs were continually congested. Within several months, I was close to Bronchitis and Pneumonia  very often and one bout was so bad, I almost died. I had no medical insurance, but was blessed by  a donation from the executive director of the  Christian ministry organization I served with.  Carolyn insisted I go to the emergency walk-in clinic for an examination and treatment. The doctor who saw me was so alarmed that I waited so long to come in and that as far he he saw, if I’d waited another few days, I would have died!

After that frightful crisis, my health took a downward spiral and I could not work. I ended up having to  support myself as a live-in companion to an elderly gentleman. Thankfully, it turned out the gentleman became,  “Pop” and became like my adopted grandfather. He, even more than I, was very concerned about my fragile health. He insisted I  hook up with a specialist who could diagnose my latest condition. I happened to befriend  a neighbor who lived just across the street from us and  she recommended  I see her chiropractor who was very affordable. I saw him the following week and at the end of our appointment, he confirmed I had Candid.  he explined how the antibiotic treatments were responsible for upsetting the good bacteria and my body and I had a fungus proliferation. I’d never heard of this strange disease with the musical name, but accepted the  protocol.   Now I knew why I had such an insatiable craving for starches and breads. They were fueling my system. I was put on a  low sugar diet with intense ant-fungal supplements. It was the hardest  diet I’d ever been on. After a month, I was feeling better, but recovery was slow. It was hard to discipline myself to even take a short walk for exercise each day. Worse was having no treats, like the starches my body was addicted to.

The Candida-Lyme battle lasted about two years because the craving for soft bread and pasts was so intense. The lack of proper nutrition, the  brain fog and damage to my immune system made me almost clinically depressed. It was a miracle to take care of Pop, the house we lived in and pursuing my music projects. Amazingly, God kept me together  My neighbors, (the Christian couple who recommended the great chiropractor) invited me to their church. Now I had a church family to help me carry the load of my temporary  disability. Even though, my pastor and my fellow brethren didn’t understand my illness, my involvement in a church family reminded me to rely on my faith in the Lord. Part of being a committed child of God aspiring to maintain victory, no matter what, I vowed to  address the LYME-Candida episode as a temporary season which Father would bring me through. If I was ever to soar into my destiny, I had to make some serious changes in my attitude and ability. I had a great calling and many gifts o share with the body of Christ. We  must never accept this demonic health attack as permanent, otherwise, we will never be whole and healed! My season with this brutal disease, brought me to new levels of fitness, natural health and wisdom on how to care for my temple. .

Father God has given us everything we need for abundant health, but sadly His people,(millions of them) are bound by disease and-or mental illness. I’m grateful for the wellspring I have learned and am the better for it. Since He has granted me the victory of overcoming and soaring forward in my calling, (as a recording artist-song-writer, journalist, artist and soul-sculptor)  I feel obligated to impart my wisdom and expertise who are presently suffering from Lyme, (and other catastrophic illnesses).

I first urge you all to surrender your whole body and being to your Heavenly Father. This is the first and foremost step to your journey of healing. At times, it may be impossible because of extreme and incessant pain to focus, but try your best to remind yourself of His protection of your life. Begin each day in worship and devotion to your Heavenly Father who cares about you more than you can imagine. He didn’t give Lyme to you, satan did. That being said, here is my prayer

Abba Heavenly Father,  please lead my precious  brother or sister sister  into your green pasture of protection and provision. Holy Spirit, please let your healing waters flow from their belly. Lead them into all wisdom and revelation through applying your  promises to their lives and perspectives. Lead them to the  godly practitioners who have knowledge of your natural healing. Father,  Give them counselors who can help them address any generational or ancestral curses and sins (such as involvement in free-masonry,  Santeria, the occult-witchcraft)  as well as any roots of bitterness unforgiveness and anger. You call us to freedom and it is harder for some of us than others, but You will work out all things for our good if we humble ourselves under your hand. Thank You Father for your love, healing and mercy, in Jesus name, amen.

After committing ourselves to daily prayer and worship, there are three books, I highly recommend to extricate yourself from the  death mindset of serious illness, whether it be Lyme, Disease, Cancer, MS, Lupus, etc. Many diseases have a spiritual root. I never knew this from any churches I ever went to. This discovery was one of the most miraculous in  walking towards the first step of healing. It all started with the Bull’s Eye rash I never got!

1.http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/220376.A_More_Excellent_Way

Pastor Henry Wright is an amazing man of God with divine wisdom and insight into the roots of sickness

2. http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/754419.Healing_the_Sick

3. http://kynanbridges.com/media/index/all/0/334-Possessing-Your-Healing

This is one of my favorite books! It has powerful healing prayers and declarations to  speak each day! This one is a must have!

I also highly suggest deliverance counseling ministry. Disease is not always our fault, sometimes it came from our parents, grandparents or ancestors. Imagine my surprise when my deliverance counselors was given a word of knowledge, that I had a Santeria curse and Freemasonry in my family line! Children who had parents involved in Freemasonry have lung issues.

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I would not be alive today if it were for my passionate desire for  knowing my Heavenly Father, Jesus and being led by Holy Spirit..If you are not committed to worshiping and obeying Father’s commandments, you will not be free…to heal. Obeying His commandments is not just going to church, attending Bible studies or even saying prayers. It is intimate relationship! In intimacy with Father and Jesus. You will find peace even in the strum of sickness and suffering. The following list contains the essentials of healing and peace.Do not focus on the intensity of your storm or the unfairness of why you are suffering.  Of course we all ask these questions in the beginning, but try to move forward and face the reality. Father knows it all:)

  1. Begin your day with worship, Thanksgiving and communion with Your heavenly Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit. Keep anointed worship music ( not Christian pop) worship-praise music on. Demonic spirits cannot tolerate praise and worship. They’ll have a touch time harassing you when you are singing and praising the Lord! That atmosphere draws God’s mercy and love and makes it repugnant for depression and spirits of death.
  2.  Read all you can about how your immune systems work and the chief detoxifying organs the especially the gut, where the main action takes place. Garden of Life, Primal Defense pro-biotic is an outstanding.
  3.  I was a victim or child abuse and domestic violence, (as an adult). Any long term emotional and/or physical trauma will deplete the Adrenal glands and Thyroid. You may want to get testing for this. I take a high quality Adrenal and Thyroid supplement. Make sure you  get your doctors approval for  supplements.
  4.  My lungs have suffered many assaults over the years from allergies, (hay fever, dust and mold) so I was prone to Bronchitis. I now take Clear Lungs from Ridgecrest
  5. With the many drugs and different antibiotics, the liver and detoxifying organs incur much damage. Milk Thistle has been a godsend for me. I also take raw cilantro and parsley which are very good for the cleansing of the body.
  6. Mercury poisoning seems to accompany many Lyme Victims, I’ve discovered Alpha Lipoic  Acid and Glutiathione are detoxifiers.
  7.  The immune system does not recover well from any type of stress or environmental toxins, pesticides and chemicals.  Lypo-Spheric Vitamins C amazingly strengthens my system when I’m taxed.
  8.  A wonderful tincture for Lyme is Una de Gato by NutriCology.
  9.  Other anti-oxidants are E,  A, B complex
  10.  There are many other God-given natural supplements and  natural modalities
  11.  Get informed and acquainted with world class, Christian practitioners who are experts in natural healing. Many of these have successful programs on Christian TV and internet. Here are some of my favorites. I urge you to GOOGLE, go to the Library in research an/or buy books dealing with your different symptoms, (condition)  a. Doug Kaufman, Know the Cause (The fungus Link) .http://www.knowthecause.com/index.php/get-started/about-doug-kaufmann
  12.  Doctor Mercola, an outstanding  natural doctor, http://www.mercola.com/
  13.   I first learned about Candida and fungus from reading Dr’ William Crook’s book,   http://www.yeastconnection.com/about_story.html
  14. Rest and good sleep are essential for the body to restore itself. Don’t forget the importance of calcium and magnesium. My favorite sleep enhancer is CALM.  I get it from Vitamin Shoppe and they have their own, cheaper brand.. Take twice a day. Calm soothes the nerves and it is good for restlessness  http://www.vitaminshoppe.com/p/natural-vitality-natural-calm-rasp-lemon-16-oz-powder/n3-1006#.V-2bGvSsu1s
  15.  Camomile tea and other calming teas are great taken twice a day.
  16.   Zeolites are microporous, aluminosilicate minerals commonly used as commercial adsorbents and catalysts. I occasionally use it for mercury, myco-toxins and for my liver and kidneys.              http://zeolitehealthylife.com/zeolitebenefits/zeolitebenefits.html
  17.  bentonite clay is another excellent detoxifying  substance. http://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1718897

I WILL NOT LAY DOWN


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Ministering to elderly and sick nursing homes residents with Pee-Wee.

Note to Readers: My journaling of my battle with Dystonia-TMJ is to bring awareness to friends l loved ones in the hopes of giving more help, compassion and understanding to our deficiencies. I also hope doctors and medical personnel can understand the various areas of our lives that are restricted  and inhibit by inability to administer to our former duties, responsibilities and personal creative endeavors.  These journal entries and (medical personnel involved) . Our symptoms may even affect our judgement and/or mental-emotional prowess before we  had our condition. The utmost patience and compassion is needed for us to be contributors to our father’s kingdom. May our prayers, not just  for Dystonia, Alzheimer, Dementia ( or any other victim of a health disorder,)  not just be for our immediate healing, (so we don’t have to be inconvenienced) but to teach us patience and forbearance.

Journal Entry,  July 5, 2016

Just woke up to another overcast day, promising more rain. I don’t complain because many states are in a water crisis. My vegetable garden is flourishing, but the barometer and humidity has wrecked havoc with my jaw joints. When atmospheric pressure changes,  my neck muscles, nerves and jaws go berserk, making it almost impossible to accomplish any thing with merit. It’s going on two weeks trying to get together two of my best story to send to Guidepost inspirational magazine. I’m also waiting to get motivated to send m art package to a greeting card company here in Paterson, NJ.

Each day is different in this season of TMJ Dystonia in regards to what I’m able to accomplish, but it’s always the same regarding my determination to receive my miracle manifestation of healing. God has still not answered my question regarding what purpose this tormenting condition persists.  At times my flesh reminds me that it’s going on nine years and if God had a great plan for me, how could He be so cruel to allow it to linger and so curtail my vivaciousness and productivity. I remind myself that Abba is a good God and everything He gives is wonderful and needful to His children. One thing I know for sure ..that His ways are perfect and He does know how much I’m suffering. Satan’s plan is always to ambush our minds and barrage us with a continual spray of doubting questions, physical pain and our focus of it.

At times when I have a moment of peace, such as when I’m pulling acorn seedlings in my yard, I feel His gentle presence. Oddly, my muscles rest and my jaw is calm. My jaw and throat also seem to get calmer while I’m focusing on my fine bead work. But mostly, I’m groaning in agony as I press forward, (much like pushing through a tropical impenetrable forest),  through each hour to make it to bedtime. Here is where I rely on Father’s strength each day for sanity! When the neck spasms get so bad that I fall on the floor and writhe in pain, I can’t bare to be alive. Here is where I have to take captive that demonic spirit of suicide, death and insanity. I can’t explain to anyone except someone enduring daily pain on a scale of 8 or nine every waking moment of their lives.

After these many years, I deal with  the grief of losing a good chunk of my life. A dark season of nine years is a lot. I know brother Joseph, in the Bible, had to bear thirteen years of incarceration, but having a agonizing and distracting bodily condition is a whole new ball game. The most painful thing for me is deducing my relationship with Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit. I’ve always believed that valid and thriving  relationship with the Lord had to be true and breath-takingly reverent. My prayer times are anything but reverential  There’s a whole lot of shaking and  jerking going on, hardly my idea of anything pleasing to God!  My focused prayer and devotions to Him are at best , sporadic. (I’m just being transparent with you). I often go in to prayer expecting  the outcome to be detached and superficial because  mostly… I weep through the whole time! Whew. Imagine struggling through your talking to father God?

“Father forgive me for being this way.”

Maybe tomorrow, I will have no more spasms and I can joyfully never and praise him. This is the uncharted waters that the Bible doesn’t address, so I have to contend with disgust of my inability to give Father my best and to even give Him His proper due.

The other devastating thing i that doctors I’ve seen have no idea where to even start for a treatment program. They look at me in surprise and apologize that there is nothing they can do. I’ve been researching and GOOGLING for over six years and have  found only a few doctors who specifically treated Dystonia of the mouth and.or upper cervical area. A girl freind  messaged me a few weeks ago telling me she also was researching my condition and found a  Dr LEE, who has a private practice   in South Korea. Many of his  Dystonia and TMJ patients were getting successful results with his treatments!  I also found a doctor  in  DE who treated TMJ. Unfortunately, they are very few and far in between in NJ and to travel to other states like the doctor in Teaas would be very costly and inconvenient for my husband to take off work. I continue to ask and pray whether father wants me to wait for His divine supernatural creative miracle for my jaw or travel to a  TMJ physician. Father be merciful to us who are suffering.

Dr Lee’s practice and You-Tube link.

July 4th was spent praying for a breakthrough rest with my jaw and neck spasms. The day was already almost half over and I needed to express my love for my Heavenly Father. it was so frustrating, picking up my Taylor and just jerking so wildly, I had to lay down. Uselessness and despair threatened to ruin my day, but finally picked up my guitar anyway and started to sing my favorite energetic hymns, like Onward Christian Soldiers.  Anyway, I am more than a conqueror!

Fast forward today, brought my Bible, a Max Lucado devotional and Jewel’s book, Chasing The Dawn into the bedroom. I prayed that something would awaken my heart and I’d be able to move forward into my day. My eyes fell upon the subtitle of Jewel’s book, Melbourne, Australia. I’ve always dreamed of Australia even as a young girl. Down Under seemed a glorious utopia far away from the chaos and heartache of my present circumstance of my parents plan to divorce. I often dreamed in my bed at night that I would somehow end up there and live a peaceful and creative life!

So Jewel expressed the sensations of her entering the stage to perform her repertoire to her Australian fans. Her writing was so elegant and enticing, making me miss my own performing and composing tenure. I felt a profound sense of loss that I was so far and disconnected to that glorious season of my life. Words cannot describe a performance were the performer “feels” her audience and they feel her. It is an indescribable connection that infuses the artists expression of singing-performing (and doctors have no idea the profound effects that a neurological disorder as Dystonia-TMJ can have on the creativity of a talented singer-composer. This has been a major grief, few realize  the extent of loss when a performing artist is unable to perform (and compose)  at the high level she was used to. I feel less than human and disconnected that this condition has so disrupted the  beautiful overflow of expressing my music-soul.

When I perform before an audience, it’s like I gently fall off a trapeze like a leaf  I lose all sense of the present, of time and the faces that gaze at me.  Father placed me in a I  a divine bubble and I’m floating in His love. Everything around me fades into nothingness and all I’m aware of is the holiness  (and lightness0 of His presence. This has happened several times. Twice, when I sang at dying persons’ deathbed and at a funeral service, where a seer told my husband she saw cherubim dancing joyously around me as I sang my Psalm 91 original. Another recent time, was just last month while singing two of my favorite Hymns His Eye is on the Sparrow and It Is Well at a church concert. . Despite the fact I was miserable and my neck was inflamed with pain and my mouth was  moving violently, I grabbed Father’s hand and took His strength. No one could have been more surprised than me, when everyone stood up and joined me on the heart-rending chorus, It is Well With My Soul. I knew it was God and God alone who carried me through the song.

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A girl, her voice and Guitar, Proclaiming the Love of Christ!

This dark season I’m immersed in is complicated, daunting and bizarre with its untold repercussions. I can’t bare to be seen in public because of the embarrassing facial grimaces and my arms and upper shoulder jerking. Even standing in line at the post office for fifteen minutes is main achievement. With these negative symptoms molding me into something no one would want to be, I’ve learned to make some adjustments. I’ve long discarded the activity of complaining and have made a lovely habit of making someone’s day a little better. If I’m at the grocery store I find something attractive about the person near me and compliment them. I so delights me to see them smile and to make their day by a compliment. The practice of being a blessing to someone is a high point of my day. I refuse to give the enemy any ground or make him think that his attacks on me will sully God’s wonderful destiny for me. I want to please my Father by serving and being a blessing no matter how hard it is! I feel sad for mean people because I know that they’ve not practiced and seen the results of kindness in spite of their physical misery, stressful relationship or mundane life. Persistent acts of kindness and serving cheerfully is evidence of a God-infused lifestyle.
All this being said, I’m reminded of President Abraham Lincoln, One of the greatest presidents who ever lived, who endured and succeeded despite countless failures and  disappointments, shut doors and heart-aches. Amazingly, he grabbed the bull by the horn  in all his tenacity and audacity…his faith in God almighty.  He prevailed, head held high even during one of America’s most horrific times, the Civil War. Though I’m not faced with anarchy, riots and the threat of assassination, I still am facing a mountain which shall be moved by my obstinate faith in the God who restores and rewards all things.

http://www.school-for-champions.com/history/lincoln_failures.htm#.V3v21hJ4K1s

Weathering Dystonia,  (as president Lincoln faced his own giants) I know that God must have a very important job for me to do in the future and He is preparing and training me for such a time as this. Thankfully, July 5, 20016, we are still in peace here in America and life is somewhat normal. I recently watched a Christian outreach organization,  Ezra International outreach who focused their relief efforts on the refugees from cities near Ukraine. Soldiers had all but demolishes the businesses, neighborhoods and banks by bombs and machine gun fire. I couldn’t believe my eyes as I gazed at the footage of such devastation. Thousands were killed, there were bodies in the streets and many holocaust survivors were starving and left on their own. America could soon be enduring the same fate and I prayed that God would be merciful to the sick, elderly and young ones. Any of us American citizens could suddenly face the terrible war atrocities as our brethren in war-torn Ukraine and any other middle eastern city!

So… it would behoove me…and everyone to thank God that our country is still somewhat intact and not facing the atrocities and hardships of war and judgment.  Maybe for a short time, we are still the land of the free and though my own personal suffering is challenging, t’s nowhere near the suffering of people who’ve had their homes destroyed by bombs and have no where to go to get their next meal.

Dystonia reminds me of the need to be more compassionate, empathetic and giving of my resources to those who have less. Though I’d never wish anyone to endure a condition that robs and diminishes so much of our lives, the blessing in disguise is the  awareness and empathy of others sufferings and the motivation to do something about it!

Perhaps that is the gift Father looks to glean when we face a loss or bodily suffering. May father use you and I greatly to strengthen someone who has a deformity, impediment of disability

HEALING IS the CHILDREN’S BREAD


 Do you remember the poignant story in Mat 21 15-28 of the Canaanite women who approached Jesus in desperation because her precious little daughter suffered demon-possession. Even in her utter grief, Jesus said not a word but  and his disciples urged him to send her away.

Then Jesus turned to her and said,  “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.” She was not to be ignored and knelt beside him. “Lord, help me!”His answer was “it is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”

Instead of retorting in resentment or offense, she  answered, “yes, lord But even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from the  their master’s table.”

Jesus was so moved by her audacity that he immediately healed her daughter. She had a bulldog faith that would not let go!

Friend, are you still suffering today with a painful and/or chronic condition even after years of prayer liners, prayer clothes and meditating on your healing scriptures? Could you be missing something or doing something wrong? Could there be some blockage that is keeping you from your miraculous healing? I pray my latest  article on healing will help you uncover any ground you’ve not explored before.

(Unearthing, Addressing and Dismantling  Generational Curses and Iniquities)

Today, let us ask Father Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus to explore the deeper spiritual waters in hopes of toppling the barriers to our healing and wholeness. I hope by sharing transparently, the the mystery of my own bondage and sufferings from uncancelled generational curses  that you also may gain deliverance and freedom. Knowledge is victory.

I was ordained as a minister in 2013 by Pastor-evangelists, Leo and and Edith Fram.  I’ve passionately and consistently been serving my precious Lord Yashuah HaMashiach since 1982 under the authority of a Pentecostal hell-fire and brimstone pastor. I was born to a Puerto-Rican Catholic father who was stationed in German and where he married my beautiful, blonde-haired, green-eyed mother.

In the seventh grade, I suffered a traumatic  event which led to a six year tenure of bullying by 3 black girls, who were under demonic influence. From then on, I suffered shame about my birth heritage. Soon after, my sisters and I suffered childhood abuse and neglect because of my mom’s scorn of my dark-skinned father, (and other buried traumas she endured as a girl in Germany). Dad was also almost driven insane by mom’s fits of rage and antics. Supporting us became so challenged that he decided that foster care would be best for my two younger sisters.. One day, my mom lost her grip with reality, called the cops on me and I was ordered to leave. I was also placed in foster care in my senior year of high school. My life fell apart.

My adult life, feeling orphaned by my parents and supporting myself became overwhelming. I became deeply depressed and bulemic because of shame issues. A few years later in April 1982, a “religious” friend invited me to his church where I accepted Jesus as my Lord and savior. I never realized that this was just the beginning of a very long tenure of spiritual battles and health attacks that would be helped by deliverance. It took many years to correctly use the keys Jesus had given me to wholeness & freedom. WHY? Because I had many generational curses and family iniquities that blocked my blessings and wholeness. I had no idea satan still had access to me through these buried generational curses. This is the missing key many Children of God are ignorant of.

After decades of suffering various and recurring health issues, (particularly hay fever, allergies and bronchitis, my younger sister almost died several times from Asthma attacks!) I found out lung ailments were associated with “FREEMASONRY”I had no idea there was any such thing, but it was discovered during a deliverance session that I had Freemasonry in my family line. ( my grandfather in Germany had a hidden life with this secret society group! In another deliverance session, it was found a SANTERIA curse harassing me, (my father was born & raised in Puerto-Rico and by a devout Catholic mother).

Friends, it is hard for me to imagine that as a  committed servant of Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus that I’d be suffering so much. I had a strong calling as  a worship leader and teacher. (Holy Spirit taught me how to compose and write songs on the guitar). I’ve also experienced God using me greatly in the ministering to the sick and dying in hospitals and nursing homes and have been called to preach at funerals. I’ve also counseled, challenged youth as well as professional adults as a behavior counsel our at Nutri-System Weight Loss centers.

I want to tell you all, that when we come to Christ from a family riddled with curses and generational iniquities, everything does not just disappear with the declaring of the salvation prayer. The Bible says we work out our salvation with reverence and trembling…thus it is a process. Phil 2:12 For me it’s been a staggeringly exhausting and arduous process. Imagine being so talented in music, the arts, journalism & being plagued for almost 9 years with a tormenting “movement” suborder, DYSTONIA of the mouth! My mouth, throat and tongue are the tools God uses to lead people into His presence as a worship leader. Imagine being in excruciating pain every waking minute because I refuse to use pain killers which would damage my organs or cloud my mind. (To get through each hour, I discipline myself to declare that I have the MIND of Christ).. After  having countless doctors, chiropractors and neurologists examine me and then being  told there is NO cure …Christ must be my sufficiency, or I will just have a nervous breakdown and give up the fight!

Imagine the shame & frustration of having uncontrollable mouth movements making ugly facial grimaces and feeling the sensation of being choked and can barely breath. Dozens of times, I’ve had to call in prayer lines and also had countless ministers of healing lay hands on me. Countless hours I’ve spent in researching the causes of this TMJ jaw DYSTONIA and am no nearer to relief than 8 years ago. I realize there must be mysterious issues and powers that be here at work. I cry daily   to my Father for strength and refuse to give up my right be be whole. The barrier must be found…and torn down by the blood of Yashuah…and so the mystery tour continues.

If you are in similiar treacherous waters as I’ve been for these eight and half years, (I’m not even counting the ten years earlier fighting a  staggering battle with Lyme Disease and candida), do not give up on the Lord!  Keep knocking, keep seeking. A recent scripture that was sent to me by Pastor Jeff lane from YOU and Me Prayer ministry was,

James 1 2-4  My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into                         divers  temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

So then, he/she who endures til the end shall be saved. Long-term suffering born patiently yields a precious fruit of compassion and empathy for others we meet who are also suffering! Jesus already paid the price for our healing & deliverance. There is no reason for any of His children to be suffering and ineffective for His kingdom. If we are still suffering, perhaps we’re  doing something wrong, have some buried, ancestral harassing spirit, need to press more confidently and expectantly or maybe, we just need to believe and expect our healing is already done! This is what Father Jehovah has taught me. Healing IS the children’s bread.

Sickness is not from the Father, Kynan bridges, author Possessing Your healing. reminds us throughout his wonderful book. Father will deny any good things. Are some of us harboring an “unconscious desire ” for special attention in our sickness so we don’t have to take responsibility to grow and receive the higher things of God? Let us seek Him diligently. Some of us really don’t want to be healed, because it’s out of our comfort zone! Well, folks, Father wants us to rooted & grounded in the faith, not to be forever drinking milk!

Science and medicine correctly deduce a physical-reason for Bi-Polar, depression or any sickness, but…Christ supersedes any emotional or physical condition. Period. .By HIS stripes were are healed. Psalm 103 1-3. Christ is PREEMINENT over ALL. I hope this helps some of you. Watch the 700 club, Sid Roth’s It’s Supernatural and Andrew Wommack’s teaching series on healing. YouTube also has amazing documentaries of divine healing. Have an open mind in Christ and see what He will do. Christ heals every day and everywhere around the world. There is NO excuse to stay emotionally ill for we HAVE the mind of Christ. You need to connect with anointed, supernatural ministries who specialize in deep healing. I thank God everyday for His word which has transformed me. When I start to get depressed about this temporary Dystonia mouth seizures, I rebuke & bind the spirit of depression and declare that I have the mind of Christ…DITTO.

One more thing, denial will keep you in tremendous bondgae and sorrow. The hardest part about starting your journey to healing through deliverance is saying, I am sick or I need help. satan is cunning as he has led so many of God’s people into bondage through spiritual and emotional deception. If he can get us to say, “I don’t need to be delivered from demonic oppression or influence” he will keep us from receiving all of Fathers benefits and blessings. As I said at the beginning of this expository, “healing Is the children’s bread.

Abba, in the name of Yashuah Jesus, I stand in the gap for my brother and sister who is in bondage. I declare that he/she is FREE in the name of Jesus and by His precious blood, they are a new creation. I bind the spirit of deception and delusion and cast you out into the dry places. Holy Spirit, fill this mind NOW with your divine, pure and holy transformation and illumination. Thank You, Father for opening up the spiritual eyes of my brother  or sister. I declare this day, that they are moving towards You and away from all the entrapments, generational curses and family iniquity. Jesus bore our sorrow, sicknesses and dins, so we Thank you NOW that my freind is walking towards complete freedom and deliverance. help him or her to walk in transparency and honesty with you regarding their sin or struggles. Your word says that we should confess our sins to each other. So give us a joyful and repentant heart, In Jesus matchless name, amen.

By His Stripes… You are Healed


My Dystonia Journey

Note: If you are suffering from Dystonia, Parkinson, MS, Lupus, Fibromyalgia or any of the host of neurological disorders, please have an open heart, research. Please don’t allow drugs to diminish the quality fo your life. Pain is a killer, yes, but Christ is Life. I have no words to convince you to seek passionately and incessantly for the root issue your illness.  If anything…after eight long, tormenting years of suffering agonizing pain and humiliation, God is our only answer and cure! BTW, still can’t find a cure? Look into spiritual Christian deliverance. According to pastor Henry Wright strongholds and generational issues could be the root of you not receiving your healing. This is all so complicated, but at Pastor Wrights Healing    seminars we learned that small insidious sins such as unforgiveness, bitterness, resentments and even innocent emotions such as deep grieving can block us from healing. Deliverance sessions with a empathetic and  Holy-Spirit-filled counselor can release your ability to receive Jesus healing! check out Henry Wright on Sid Roth. His book,  A More Excellent Way, Be In Health, is a life changer.God bless you on your healing journey. Please pass this blog on to any of your loved ones or family members who are sick. This blog may change your life forever

Journal Entry, April 3, 2016 4:50 pm

So, It’s just a little past spring and I’m delighting in the glorious  blooming of my favorite “snow-busters” crocuses. I really had expected that I would be outside brisk-walking and getting back my size four shape. The violent muscle-pulling of my neck  kept me house bound and stuck sitting most of the winter day,  fashioning my beaded chokers. Stringing the beads were just about the only therapy which kept the violent mouth-jaw-tongue and neck spasms from sending me to a nervous breakdown. Of course, my reliance has been and continues to be on my heavenly Father giving me strength and declaring my healing scriptures otherwise, I would be toast!

Mark and I continue to research and scour the internet for any treatment or new breakthroughs in Dystonia, neurological disorders or tremors. We’re researching the treatment protocol to address the mold contamination situation which started in our old home. A Christian sister prayed with me one day last year and insisted I check into the possibility that it was contributing to the Dystonia symptoms and mild seizures. She said the myco-toxins were dangerous and I shouldn’t wait to let myself get sicker.   I trusted her spiritual wisdom and insight, but Mark wasn’t sure that could be the issue, and besides  the tests to find out about mold are very hard to come by. Any doctors who did treat mold were in very exclusive areas and charged at least a grand just to get in the door. After finding out about the cost, Mark got disgusted and gave up…and I continued to get worse!

Even thought, just getting through each hour was arduous and exhausting, my empathy and compassion for those enduring devastating, chronic and unexplained sickness grew. I ‘m more passionate than ever to help others find healing and wholeness.

So many things encapsulate a movement disorder condition.  Besides, the loneliness, isolation and people unable to care and/or empathize with  the mental, emotional, physical and spiritual ramifications of Dystonia, FibroMyalgia, Parkinson’s Lupus or MS, there is the frustration and hopelessness of never  leaving the bodily prison. Worse yet, are the consequences of being addicted to pain-killers and other anti-confirmatory drugs.

I hope the following conversation I had with a freind educates other sufferers of immune and/or nerve disorders. The name is changed  for privacy

Damaris:

I just hate to see u in pain. Aside from lethargy and sluggishness, which I know all too well from my meds, do the meds help w tremors
Do u have trouble eating or swallowing. Is that how u keep your youthful, zero fat shape.
Me:

BTW, just to add, I’m waiting to get my book ready for publication. Editing takes great segacity. Excelling at my craft for the Lord far exceeds the issue of NOT being in pain. Choosing to stay alert, (Mark has great immune system challenges also) & I have to be on top of everything regrading knowledge of immune-enhancing supplements, herbs and especially keeping up with label reading,, a new priority since this evil government seeks to weaken the population thru vaccinations , GMO and our produce being tainted. Not to even elaborate on the toxicity of Splenda, Sucralose, MSG and high fructose corn syrup now being added to most foods and beverages. HFC makes makes people even fatter..Daily exercise is also a priority for me. I need to keep fit because Mark’s back has severe herniated disks and he couldn’t do any taxing physical work like chopping the wood or a lot of snow shoveling. I’m adamant about fitness and there’s the necessity of being so in case of any impenitent  EMP situation. God help those who are overweight  or physically debilitated in anyway!  You know, I would have had cancer also if  it not were for my Biblical declaration of Healing scriptures and researching everything I can about keeping my body cancer-free.
Regarding drugs for tremors, Sinemet and other muscle relaxers do little to get to the root of the  spasms. And besides, I don’t have a Parkinson or tremor problem. I have a nerve spasm issue from pinched nerves from the TMJ ligament and trying to detoxify my body from a past severe Carbon monoxide poisoning which did a number on my body.
Damaris: Any Dr mention wiring jaw wiring for what?
Damaris,  miracles abound for people getting astounding healing from Jesus, our Divine healer. Doctors know almost nothing about the body & how God created it to heal itself! I watch the 700 club, Copelend, Andrew Wommack ministries and many evangelical outreaches, German evangelist Rinehard Bonnke have prayed for miracles all over the world, especially in third-world nations. I’ve heard of testimonies on the Sid Roth Program of people whose limbs restored. Others had eyes restored where their eye sockets were empty. God created new eyes! Others gave testimonies of God giving them brand new organs like lungs, a new heart and  kidneys.
So, Mark and I don’t put too much trust in most mortal doctors who  are revered almost as gods. Mark insists they practice medicine.  Most of them could care less to passionately research new holistic and natural healing modalities. They’d not get their extra thousands from the kickback drug companies give them! Most of them are charlatans who rob poor working-class people and their greed compels them to aspire to  another Lamborghini. Remember, the drug industry is a billion dollar industry.
The Bible frowns on drugs and the overuse and dependence on them is overrated.  Drug are not conducive in any way to healing and wholeness of the body or mind and God’s people should not be so gullible and foolish to fall under the temptation to depend on them. (In rare cases, God may allow them  to stabilize a severe health issue, like blood pressure or high  blood sugar),  but we should all approach drugs with great caution and  education about side effects. they may be used We should seek the counsel and wisdom of Holy Spirit for everything and most particularly, our health and well-being.
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In Galatian 5:20,
pharmakeia: the use of medicine, drugs or spells

Original Word: φαρμακεία, ας, ἡ
Part of Speech: Noun, Feminine
Transliteration: pharmakeia
Phonetic Spelling: (far-mak-i’-ah)
Short Definition: magic, sorcery, enchantment
Definition: magic, sorcery, enchantment.

Most of the time the drugs have more side effects than the condition itself. Sadly, many people don’t care to do their research for natural cures, (or prevention in the first place). Why aren’t physicians teaching patients how to prevent sickness? 
God’s people should ask the question and ponder the manner in which our precious healer, Jesus Yashuah suffered and bore the lashes on his back and body so we could walk in divine healing! His bruising was beyond our comprehension and manuscripts have yet to describe to true  totality of his battered body for our healing and benefit God’s children are already healed and we have the authority to be healed in His name This is another reason I walk with and serve my Lord, so what doctors offer is of little worth or help. Mark and I will have to continue to seek a Holy Spirit-filled doctor who is in touch with Christ and has the right diagnostic equipment to pinpoint  the root cause of this Dystonia.
I’m thankful for my Facebook sister with the gift of discernment who originally pointed me in a good direction. Mold poisoning , (Myco-Toxins)  often mimic neurological disorders, so besides sharing my other blogs about possible causes, I pray this one will help also.

Fighting the Good Fight of Sickness


Fighting the Good Fight of Sickness

universal rehab gig long branch nj 2010

Children of God who struggle with a catastrophic  and chronic condition have the extra burden of dealing with excruciating pain. There are few things one can do except taking medication  which often doesn’t kill the pain. Struggling with all kinds of allergies, lung ailments, Lyme disease and Dystonia (from environmental illness) I’ve had to hunker down with Jesus and God’s word to get through each hour. I pray that you will find peace as you discipline yourself in His strengthening word

We also well know that we are in warfare and we shouldn’t be surprised at this fiery trial that is before us. Though Father never gives us illness, he always uses it for His glory and our benefit. In my case, suffering has taught me about the treasures of an empathetic heart and I find such blessings in sharing my gifts of singing-performing, encouragement and visiting at bedside the sick, elderly and dying.

I’ve also learned that illness often has an emotional-spiritual root, so I’ve had to work very hard to address many past issues of emotional traumas, abuse and abandonment. I highly suggest Henry Wright’s insightful book, A More excellent Way. Father is so faithful giving us the needed grace each day to move forward.

Recovery may also mean getting down to the nitty gritty of deliverance counseling and forgiveness. I have had to work  very hard for a few decades to abide peacefully in the shelter of His wings! Pray and ask Father and Holy Spirit if there is cleaning you need to do win your minds attic. Daily meditation of God’s word especially the Psalms can transform you immensely.

Pray, research, get counsel, pray, research. Be open-minded and open-hearted and see what miracles father has for you.

Duuteronomy 30:19

19 This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live

Don’t accept what the doctors tell you. God is the only one who has decreed your end. You have choice and treatment options. Do you want to beat this thing or die? It’s your choice!

Proverbs 18:21
Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.

Science has proven that the nerves connected speech, so the mouth and jaw are all interconnected with the brain cells and nuero-transmitters!

Psalm 139:14
(New living Translation)
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous–how well I know it.

The human body is astoundingly resilient, can heal itself Science still has not uncovered all the mysteries of the human body and its marvelous workmanship.

Psalm 139:17-18
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I could count them, they would be more in number than the sand.. When I awake, I am still with you.

Imagine God being so in love with you that he thinks about you all day? What a multitude of wonderful thoughts He has towards us and is with us every moment morning til our state of unconsciousness. Every Child of God must learn that Father loves us more than we could even fathom. A stronghold of many is the spirit of unworthiness. We have been rejected, bullied or unnoticed for most of our lives, this often, deeply-imbedded mental stronghold keeps us from truly believing we are worthy because of Jesus!

Isaiah 50:7
Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore have I set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame.

Phil 4:8
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.
Isaiah 43 18-19
18 “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness, and streams in the wasteland.

Ezekiel 37 12-14
Thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, O my people, I will open your graves, and cause you to come up out of your graves, and bring you into the land of Israel.
13 And ye shall know that I am the LORD, when I have opened your graves, O my people, and brought you up out of your graves,
14 and shall put my Spirit in you, and ye shall live, and I shall place you in your own land: then shall ye know that I the LORD have spoken it, and performed it, saith the LORD.
The valley of the dry bones has been the most mesmerizing of all scripture to me. I marvel at the wonder of God totally restoring dry, dead bones! He is more than able to do more than we can imagine.

Isaiah 53: 5
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.

Isaiah 58:8
Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.

Psalm 61
I will cry to you when my heart is overwhelmed.

Lam. 3:22-23
His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness.

Romans 8:35-36
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

Psalm 23

23The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green [1] pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest [2] my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. [3]

Jer. 17: 7 &8
…Blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.
8 They will be like a tree planted by the water, that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”

Rev 21:5
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

Is. 43:19
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.

Rev 21:5
And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.

Psalm 119:33
Order my steps in thy word: and let not any iniquity have dominion over me.

Psalm, 46:10
…. “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”

Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Psalm, 30:5
For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.
Phil 4:8

…whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.

Eph 2:10

For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Isaiah 59:19 So shall they fear the name of the Lord from the west, and his glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him.

In the Waiting Room


Standing in Faith for Divine Restoration

I’m in the waiting room. It is the same room where Job wrestled with himself and God. This waiting room is a spiritual area where an afflicted and suffering child of God straddles , (and struggles with) the blurred line of complete faith and trepidatious pain.

In the waiting room, I’m reading the book of cures for all conditions, despite the fact that I dread the fact that I may wake up to yet another day where this stabbing in my Jaw joint will relentless pummel me to the point of sobbing out loud for relief. I may not be scraping erupting boils off my skins with a sharp piece of pottery, but I am fighting thoughts of being in never-never land with my heavenly father, where there will be no more tears or suffering. What keeps me going is the truth that my Redeemer lives.

God has sent me off downhill on the front seat of a racing rail car in to uncharted territory. For those of us dealing with acute chronic pain without medication, I’ve spent years wracking my brain trying to pinpoint the source of my distress. I’ve also exhausted every option of treatment, to no avail and have also been through countless doctors who’ve treated me with every healing modality available.

I stand here, scratching my head, wondering what to do with myself. I follow Jesus with a devoted heart and know of a certainly that Father God is not the giver of this tormenting disease, but my enemy satan who has sent out one or several of his minions to torment me.

I’m pretty much exhausted and disgusted by all the years of driving to doctors and trying this and that with no relief. I wonder every day how other children of God deal with their excruciating pain. I’ve amassed a library of books on deliverance and getting myself free.

I’ve experienced and learned quite a bit since my other Dystonia blogs from several years ago. I hope this latest one will give a little more insight and a little more hope to the hopeless!

Prayer avails much and the more yo know about the specifics of your condition, the more confidently you can pray in full assurance that Yashuah, or healer shall heal or sickness! Always put prayer at the top of your list, asking Father for supernatural wisdom and whether you’ll need to be treated by a good doctor.

First off, here are a few links that yo may want to check into. My issue has been violent twitching of the neck, mouth, tongue and throat areas, particularity the Platysma muscles and Temporo Mandibular Jaw joint, TMJ. I have done all kinds of research to find a way to sooth the pain in that area.

Dystonia of the lower face cold be cased by Trigeminal Neuyraligia

http://neurosurgery.uthscsa.edu/display_patients.php?ps_id=61&pg

You may also want to pray and ask Father if your resistant Lyme or Dystonia could be linked to a spiritual root. My husband and I just finished a week-long stint of powerful teachings on the spiritual roots of Disease. Although I am very acquainted with the scriptures, I was very surprised to learn about how satan can afflict God’s people with disease and sickness through open doorways of sin or generational curses. Many pastors and denominations insist that once we accept Christ as our Savior it’s a done deal. But there are too many Christians who love Christ and are trying to live godly lives who are suffering greatly from the effects of things that happened during their childhood, in early adolescence and even in the womb! I would leave no stone unturned when it comes to walking in total healing and deliverance.

Doctor Henry Wright, founder of BE IN Health teaching ministries and author of his book, says much about sin being a cause of our stubborn and chronic sickness.

http://www.beinhealth.com/public/

Here are some excellent ministries who specialize in deliverance if you find your symptoms are not improving.

Robert Heldler
http://www.amazon.com/Set-Yourself-Free-Deliverance-Manual/dp/0979167809

Pastor Derek Prince

Pastor Suddoth
Righteous Acts Ministries

I also highly recommend detoxifying your body as best as you can. Since Lyme is also connected with mercury start today on a dedicated detoxifying regimen. You’ll still have to deal with pain or discomfort but the less toxins, bacteria and fungi you have the more energetic you’ll be.

Doctor sherry Rogers, book “DETOXIFY or DIE”

http://organicconnectmag.com/sherry-rogers-md-god-designed-the-body-to-heal/#.U0cKRlOwXrY

Above all, Dr Jesus is your chief physician, so pray, declare those scriptures and rejoice, even if you’re sobbing in agony! My life has been so complicated, as many of you also have. May we love each other and fervently pray for each other as Jesus commands us and share the secrets of healing and restoration with each other. The world truly knows we are Christian when we love and cherish each other.

Slow But Steady Progress


Journal Entry, October 3, 2013
My Journey recovering from Lyme, Dystonia and heavy-metal, mercury Poisoning

I am redeemed from the curse and by Jesus’ stripes I am healed! This is the truth I hold on to each day as I grasp the Lord for my complete wholeness. I continue to make the many changes needed for my complete restoration. This morning, I wake up, thanking Him and praising Him for all He has done. I learned that God loves to her our praises and we appreciate all He has done for us. God despises complainers and I try my best, in spite of the great pain and discomfort, to endure each day.

Yesterday was a day from hell. My appointment to be fitted for a crown with Dr Elizabeth Piela, my holistic dentist. arrived. I don’t have to worry about more toxins entering my body with dental repairs. Dr Piela is thorough, not only highly knowledgeable, but also compassionate. She listens to me when I share my concerns and we brainstorm together for a solution. Quite unlike an arrogant Lyme Disease doctor in Stockton who rebuked my husband when he asked for confirmation that EDTA was good for mercury/heavy metal poisoning chelation. Such is the reality with most doctors, who are very arrogant regarding patients who are well-educated about their illness or condition.

I awoke to yet another beautiful, warm Indian summer day. My right jaw was still sore from over two and a half hours of being pried open for preparation of my crown. I was in agony and almost broke down in tears as my throat and jaw nerves kept convulsed. I couldn’t believe the procedure was taking so long, but doctor assured me it was necessary for the procedure. She gave me several shots in my gums so I wouldn’t feel the pain. I was glad I called a spiritual mother earlier in the day for prayer and agreement that I would have no horrendous pain afterwards. I thanked Jesus over and over each second we counted down for the mold to harden for my molar crown. Many thoughts flooded my mind as Dr worked on me. I was angry that the enemy had so attacked my body and teeth over the years and that my progress was so slow.

Continuing her work, Dr mentioned that magnetic detox clay did wonders for mercury. I could have slapped myself, because hubby Mark had purchased a supply for me, but I was always so overwhelmed with my protocol that I kept forgetting! I vowed to apply my clay as soon as I got home to speed up the detox process of my jaw, gums and neck.

There were a myriad of issues I had to deal with every day. The pain factor was the greatest, with the Right jaw being almost dislocated. Then I had the anxiety of not knowing when my teeth were going to chomp down on my poor tongue. Most days, both sides of my tongue were riddled with bumps from where the teeth cut through. Those times that the tooth cut deep and I bled profusely. I screamed at the top of my lungs and cried out loud for about ten minutes. I seemed to take forever for the pain to subside. Every time it happened, I asked God. “Why is this body behaving this way? Is there anybody else on earth enduring such a hell where her mouth, teeth and teeth are her worst enemy? And when will this end?”

I faithfully prayed in faith, wept and searched online for testimonies or stories of other Dystonia, Lyme and heavy metal poisoning victims experiences with recovery. I’ve yet to find anyone with these bizarre and tormenting symptoms, making me all the more isolated and disheartened. I could easily deal with the toxicity, but daily dealing with such pain every moment is almost excruciating. If it weren’t for my relationship with my Heavenly father, Jesus and Holy Spirit I surely would have fallen deeply into depression or been committed.

So, after enduring over two and a half hours of my mouth being pried open, Dr Piela fitted my molar with a temporary crown. I felt so weak from the procedure, that I asked Father God for extra help again to drive home.

So this morning, as I wake up to face yet another day, I start weeping, asking for God’s help and seeking to look deep within myself to free up my body, mind and spirit from any toxic residue. My research about mind-body connection continues as I learn from Dr Caroline Leaf how negative thoughts and emotions from the past take deep root in even our subconscious mind! I know as I continue to soul-search search and address old attitudes with the Holy Spirit, I’m getting freer and freer. But, it’s a taxing process. I vow to completely conquer rejection, abuse and trauma issues from my past. I am going upward and moving forward because Christ has paved the way for me to be fully delivered and vibrant!

Despite all this agonizing, “turtle-slow” progress, I declare

“Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”

I’m called to be the poster child of mysterious, undiagnosed and environmental illness being totally healed by the stripes of Jesus Christ. I’m paving the way in the new frontier of illness that may be bio-engineered in nature.

Many questions remain unanswered as I fumble towards total wellness. I know for a certainty that My Heavenly father will never give me more than I can handle. This challenge entails a steadfast trust, faith and action in Him! This battle is not only a physical, but a spiritual where I must be in position to merge all the Biblical truths-promises with the medical-scientific components! This is truly challenging for one who has no mentor to learn from!

This blog-journal entry is quite different and even more specific than any I have ever written, probably because there is so much at stake. We are in such times where many hapless people and children are suffering greatly and where orthodox medicine has failed in it attempts to heal!

Truly, today, this generation desperately needs the most spiritually (Christ-enlightened) holistic healers. Only the pure, refined temperance of the Holy Spirit can completely make whole those with spiritually rooted or bio-engineered illnesses. Christ warns us in Matthew chapter 24 of the hosts of darkness which will come and deceive the nations, doctors and scientists to ensnare and trick the population into thinking they will be healed and free. There is no darkness in Christ at all, for His wisdom is pure. New Age has beguiled us into thinking we are our own healers.

(This blog seems to be writing itself) so, I share this journal entry with parents whose children are suffering from autism, with grown children whose parent is dying from PSP, (another degenerative and incurable movement disorder) and with those who have neurological conditions of which there is no cure or relief. These are medical-spiritual maladies that we must delve deeply into and unravel, rather than putting on a useless band-aid of pharmaceuticals which only mask the symptoms. I believe healers are entering an age of enlightenment never before entered. Natural healers and physicians must be very careful about who they are learning from.

Yahweh God has all the answers despite the claims of the “Illuminated Ones.” angels from the dark side are disquieted as angels of light. Yahweh never reveal His uncontaminated wisdom to the arrogant, selfish and demonic who wish to market and sell (in the black markets) at huge profits. Those pure ones in the medical community who truly seek the healing of the hopeless suffering will be the ones whom our Creator God will grant great successful medical and spiritual exploits!

http://yahwehisking.com/new-age-healing/

It is for this reason, I share my journey with you!

I pray you, (gifted and compassionate physicians) and patients suffering a catastrophic illness will ask Father God and Jesus Christ, who created your body, mind and spirit in perfect union with Him. It is only in Him where we will find perfect rest and peace. It is only in the shelter of His wings where we will find true refuge, Psalm 91 1&2 Those who put their full trust in Him shall not ever find themselves in slavery to dark influences. Christ said “Come to me all you that are weary and heavy-laden and I will give you rest.” mat 11:28

Are you weary today? Are you suffering with a mysterious or bio-engineered illness? Jesus Christ, the ultimate healer is the answer! Only through Him are all mysteries revealed and perfect healing manifested. God bless you as you give him the ropes, follow His leading, adjust your lifestyle-emotional habits and diet do everything in your power to be whole!

Expect a miracle…in Jesus’ name!

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