Fighting the Good Fight of Sickness


Fighting the Good Fight of Sickness

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Children of God who struggle with a catastrophic  and chronic condition have the extra burden of dealing with excruciating pain. There are few things one can do except taking medication  which often doesn’t kill the pain. Struggling with all kinds of allergies, lung ailments, Lyme disease and Dystonia (from environmental illness) I’ve had to hunker down with Jesus and God’s word to get through each hour. I pray that you will find peace as you discipline yourself in His strengthening word

We also well know that we are in warfare and we shouldn’t be surprised at this fiery trial that is before us. Though Father never gives us illness, he always uses it for His glory and our benefit. In my case, suffering has taught me about the treasures of an empathetic heart and I find such blessings in sharing my gifts of singing-performing, encouragement and visiting at bedside the sick, elderly and dying.

I’ve also learned that illness often has an emotional-spiritual root, so I’ve had to work very hard to address many past issues of emotional traumas, abuse and abandonment. I highly suggest Henry Wright’s insightful book, A More excellent Way. Father is so faithful giving us the needed grace each day to move forward.

Recovery may also mean getting down to the nitty gritty of deliverance counseling and forgiveness. I have had to work  very hard for a few decades to abide peacefully in the shelter of His wings! Pray and ask Father and Holy Spirit if there is cleaning you need to do win your minds attic. Daily meditation of God’s word especially the Psalms can transform you immensely.

Pray, research, get counsel, pray, research. Be open-minded and open-hearted and see what miracles father has for you.

Duuteronomy 30:19

19 This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live

Don’t accept what the doctors tell you. God is the only one who has decreed your end. You have choice and treatment options. Do you want to beat this thing or die? It’s your choice!

Proverbs 18:21
Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.

Science has proven that the nerves connected speech, so the mouth and jaw are all interconnected with the brain cells and nuero-transmitters!

Psalm 139:14
(New living Translation)
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous–how well I know it.

The human body is astoundingly resilient, can heal itself Science still has not uncovered all the mysteries of the human body and its marvelous workmanship.

Psalm 139:17-18
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I could count them, they would be more in number than the sand.. When I awake, I am still with you.

Imagine God being so in love with you that he thinks about you all day? What a multitude of wonderful thoughts He has towards us and is with us every moment morning til our state of unconsciousness. Every Child of God must learn that Father loves us more than we could even fathom. A stronghold of many is the spirit of unworthiness. We have been rejected, bullied or unnoticed for most of our lives, this often, deeply-imbedded mental stronghold keeps us from truly believing we are worthy because of Jesus!

Isaiah 50:7
Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore have I set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame.

Phil 4:8
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.
Isaiah 43 18-19
18 “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness, and streams in the wasteland.

Ezekiel 37 12-14
Thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, O my people, I will open your graves, and cause you to come up out of your graves, and bring you into the land of Israel.
13 And ye shall know that I am the LORD, when I have opened your graves, O my people, and brought you up out of your graves,
14 and shall put my Spirit in you, and ye shall live, and I shall place you in your own land: then shall ye know that I the LORD have spoken it, and performed it, saith the LORD.
The valley of the dry bones has been the most mesmerizing of all scripture to me. I marvel at the wonder of God totally restoring dry, dead bones! He is more than able to do more than we can imagine.

Isaiah 53: 5
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.

Isaiah 58:8
Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.

Psalm 61
I will cry to you when my heart is overwhelmed.

Lam. 3:22-23
His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness.

Romans 8:35-36
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

Psalm 23

23The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green [1] pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest [2] my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. [3]

Jer. 17: 7 &8
…Blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.
8 They will be like a tree planted by the water, that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”

Rev 21:5
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

Is. 43:19
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.

Rev 21:5
And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.

Psalm 119:33
Order my steps in thy word: and let not any iniquity have dominion over me.

Psalm, 46:10
…. “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”

Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Psalm, 30:5
For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.
Phil 4:8

…whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.

Eph 2:10

For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Isaiah 59:19 So shall they fear the name of the Lord from the west, and his glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him.

In the Waiting Room


 

Standing in Faith for Divine Restoration

I’m in the waiting room. It is the same room where Job wrestled with himself and God. This waiting room is a spiritual area where an afflicted and suffering child of God straddles , (and struggles with) the blurred line of complete faith and trepidatious pain.)

In the waiting room, I’m reading the book of cures for all conditions, despite the fact that I dread the fact that I may wake up to yet another day where this stabbing in my Jaw joint will relentless pummel me to the point of sobbing out loud for relief. I may not be scraping erupting boils off my skins with a sharp piece of pottery, but I am fighting thoughts of being in never-never land with my heavenly father, where there will be no more tears or suffering. What keeps me going is the truth that my Redeemer lives.

God has sent me off downhill on the front seat of a racing rail car in to uncharted territory. For those of us dealing with acute chronic pain without medication, I’ve spent years wracking my brain trying to pinpoint the source of my distress. I’ve also exhausted every option of treatment, to no avail and have also been through countless doctors who’ve treated me with every healing modality available.

I stand here, scratching my head, wondering what to do with myself. I follow Jesus with a devoted heart and know of a certainly that Father God is not the giver of this tormenting disease, but my enemy satan who has sent out one or several of his minions to torment me.

I’m pretty much exhausted and disgusted by all the years of driving to doctors and trying this and that with no relief. I wonder every day how other children of God deal with their excruciating pain. I’ve amassed a library of books on deliverance and getting myself free.

I’ve experienced and learned quite a bit since my other Dystonia blogs from several years ago. I hope this latest one will give a little more insight and a little more hope to the hopeless!

Prayer avails much and the more yo know about the specifics of your condition, the more confidently you can pray in full assurance that Yashuah, or healer shall heal or sickness! Always put prayer at the top of your list, asking Father for supernatural wisdom and whether you’ll need to be treated by a good doctor.

First off, here are a few links that yo may want to check into. My issue has been violent twitching of the neck, mouth, tongue and throat areas, particularity the Platysma muscles and Temporo Mandibular Jaw joint, TMJ. I have done all kinds of research to find a way to sooth the pain in that area.

Dystonia of the lower face cold be cased by Trigeminal Neuyraligia

http://neurosurgery.uthscsa.edu/display_patients.php?ps_id=61&pg

You may also want to pray and ask Father if your resistant Lyme or Dystonia could be linked to a spiritual root. My husband and I just finished a week-long stint of powerful teachings on the spiritual roots of Disease. Although I am very acquainted with the scriptures, I was very surprised to learn about how satan can afflict God’s people with disease and sickness through open doorways of sin or generational curses. Many pastors and denominations insist that once we accept Christ as our Savior it’s a done deal. But there are too many Christians who love Christ and are trying to live godly lives who are suffering greatly from the effects of things that happened during their childhood, in early adolescence and even in the womb! I would leave no stone upturned when it comes to walking in total healing and deliverance.

Doctor Henry Wright, founder of BE IN Health teaching ministries and author of his book, says much about sin being a cause of our stubborn and chronic sickness.

http://www.beinhealth.com/public/

Here are some excellent ministries who specialize in deliverance if you find your symptoms are not improving.

Robert Heldler
http://www.amazon.com/Set-Yourself-Free-Deliverance-Manual/dp/0979167809

Pastor Derek Prince

I also highly recommend detoxifying your body as best as you can. Since Lyme is also connected with mercury start today on a dedicated detoxifying regimen. You’ll still have to deal with pain or discomfort but the less toxins, bacteria and fungi you have the more energetic you’ll be.

Doctor sherry Rogers, book “DETOXIFY or DIE”

http://organicconnectmag.com/sherry-rogers-md-god-designed-the-body-to-heal/#.U0cKRlOwXrY

Above all, Dr Jesus is your chief physician, so pray, declare those scriptures and rejoice, even if you’re sobbing in agony! My life has been so complicated, as many of you also have. May we love each other and fervently pray for each other as Jesus commands us and share the secrets of healing and restoration with each other. The world truly knows we are Christian when we love and cherish each other.

Slow But Steady Progress


Journal Entry, October 3, 2013
My Journey recovering from Lyme, Dystonia and heavy-metal, mercury Poisoning

I am redeemed from the curse and by Jesus’ stripes I am healed! This is the truth I hold on to each day as I grasp the Lord for my complete wholeness. I continue to make the many changes needed for my complete restoration. This morning, I wake up, thanking Him and praising Him for all He has done. I learned that God loves to her our praises and we appreciate all He has done for us. God despises complainers and I try my best, in spite of the great pain and discomfort, to endure each day.

Yesterday was a day from hell. My appointment to be fitted for a crown with Dr Elizabeth Piela, my holistic dentist. arrived. I don’t have to worry about more toxins entering my body with dental repairs. Dr Piela is thorough, not only highly knowledgeable, but also compassionate. She listens to me when I share my concerns and we brainstorm together for a solution. Quite unlike an arrogant Lyme Disease doctor in Stockton who rebuked my husband when he asked for confirmation that EDTA was good for mercury/heavy metal poisoning chelation. Such is the reality with most doctors, who are very arrogant regarding patients who are well-educated about their illness or condition.

I awoke to yet another beautiful, warm Indian summer day. My right jaw was still sore from over two and a half hours of being pried open for preparation of my crown. I was in agony and almost broke down in tears as my throat and jaw nerves kept convulsed. I couldn’t believe the procedure was taking so long, but doctor assured me it was necessary for the procedure. She gave me several shots in my gums so I wouldn’t feel the pain. I was glad I called a spiritual mother earlier in the day for prayer and agreement that I would have no horrendous pain afterwards. I thanked Jesus over and over each second we counted down for the mold to harden for my molar crown. Many thoughts flooded my mind as Dr worked on me. I was angry that the enemy had so attacked my body and teeth over the years and that my progress was so slow.

Continuing her work, Dr mentioned that magnetic detox clay did wonders for mercury. I could have slapped myself, because hubby Mark had purchased a supply for me, but I was always so overwhelmed with my protocol that I kept forgetting! I vowed to apply my clay as soon as I got home to speed up the detox process of my jaw, gums and neck.

There were a myriad of issues I had to deal with every day. The pain factor was the greatest, with the Right jaw being almost dislocated. Then I had the anxiety of not knowing when my teeth were going to chomp down on my poor tongue. Most days, both sides of my tongue were riddled with bumps from where the teeth cut through. Those times that the tooth cut deep and I bled profusely. I screamed at the top of my lungs and cried out loud for about ten minutes. I seemed to take forever for the pain to subside. Every time it happened, I asked God. “Why is this body behaving this way? Is there anybody else on earth enduring such a hell where her mouth, teeth and teeth are her worst enemy? And when will this end?”

I faithfully prayed in faith, wept and searched online for testimonies or stories of other Dystonia, Lyme and heavy metal poisoning victims experiences with recovery. I’ve yet to find anyone with these bizarre and tormenting symptoms, making me all the more isolated and disheartened. I could easily deal with the toxicity, but daily dealing with such pain every moment is almost excruciating. If it weren’t for my relationship with my Heavenly father, Jesus and Holy Spirit I surely would have fallen deeply into depression or been committed.

So, after enduring over two and a half hours of my mouth being pried open, Dr Piela fitted my molar with a temporary crown. I felt so weak from the procedure, that I asked Father God for extra help again to drive home.

So this morning, as I wake up to face yet another day, I start weeping, asking for God’s help and seeking to look deep within myself to free up my body, mind and spirit from any toxic residue. My research about mind-body connection continues as I learn from Dr Caroline Leaf how negative thoughts and emotions from the past take deep root in even our subconscious mind! I know as I continue to soul-search search and address old attitudes with the Holy Spirit, I’m getting freer and freer. But, it’s a taxing process. I vow to completely conquer rejection, abuse and trauma issues from my past. I am going upward and moving forward because Christ has paved the way for me to be fully delivered and vibrant!

Despite all this agonizing, “turtle-slow” progress, I declare

“Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.”

I’m called to be the poster child of mysterious, undiagnosed and environmental illness being totally healed by the stripes of Jesus Christ. I’m paving the way in the new frontier of illness that may be bio-engineered in nature.

Many questions remain unanswered as I fumble towards total wellness. I know for a certainty that My Heavenly father will never give me more than I can handle. This challenge entails a steadfast trust, faith and action in Him! This battle is not only a physical, but a spiritual where I must be in position to merge all the Biblical truths-promises with the medical-scientific components! This is truly challenging for one who has no mentor to learn from!

This blog-journal entry is quite different and even more specific than any I have ever written, probably because there is so much at stake. We are in such times where many hapless people and children are suffering greatly and where orthodox medicine has failed in it attempts to heal!

Truly, today, this generation desperately needs the most spiritually (Christ-enlightened) holistic healers. Only the pure, refined temperance of the Holy Spirit can completely make whole those with spiritually rooted or bio-engineered illnesses. Christ warns us in Matthew chapter 24 of the hosts of darkness which will come and deceive the nations, doctors and scientists to ensnare and trick the population into thinking they will be healed and free. There is no darkness in Christ at all, for His wisdom is pure. New Age has beguiled us into thinking we are our own healers.

(This blog seems to be writing itself) so, I share this journal entry with parents whose children are suffering from autism, with grown children whose parent is dying from PSP, (another degenerative and incurable movement disorder) and with those who have neurological conditions of which there is no cure or relief. These are medical-spiritual maladies that we must delve deeply into and unravel, rather than putting on a useless band-aid of pharmaceuticals which only mask the symptoms. I believe healers are entering an age of enlightenment never before entered. Natural healers and physicians must be very careful about who they are learning from.

Yahweh God has all the answers despite the claims of the “Illuminated Ones.” angels from the dark side are disquieted as angels of light. Yahweh never reveal His uncontaminated wisdom to the arrogant, selfish and demonic who wish to market and sell (in the black markets) at huge profits. Those pure ones in the medical community who truly seek the healing of the hopeless suffering will be the ones whom our Creator God will grant great successful medical and spiritual exploits!

http://yahwehisking.com/new-age-healing/

It is for this reason, I share my journey with you!

I pray you, (gifted and compassionate physicians) and patients suffering a catastrophic illness will ask Father God and Jesus Christ, who created your body, mind and spirit in perfect union with Him. It is only in Him where we will find perfect rest and peace. It is only in the shelter of His wings where we will find true refuge, Psalm 91 1&2 Those who put their full trust in Him shall not ever find themselves in slavery to dark influences. Christ said “Come to me all you that are weary and heavy-laden and I will give you rest.” mat 11:28

Are you weary today? Are you suffering with a mysterious or bio-engineered illness? Jesus Christ, the ultimate healer is the answer! Only through Him are all mysteries revealed and perfect healing manifested. God bless you as you give him the ropes, follow His leading, adjust your lifestyle-emotional habits and diet do everything in your power to be whole!

Expect a miracle…in Jesus’ name!

EXPLODING HEALTHCARE IN AMERICA


America has become has become one of the sickest developed nations and in the midst of the great Healthcare issue. How did our health as a whole become so diminished  and sickly? Why is there such a vocal response to national Healthcare?

There are many factors regarding this severely flawed issue. We Americans, despite being one of the most developed nations, has amongst the highest numbers of sick people!We are amongst the fattest amongst the developed nations, even with all the outstanding books, diet programs and natural health food stores!

Obesity has risen to epidemic proportions with diabetes, hypertension and high blood pressure the top conditions  related to being overweight. There are a host of other problems with our American diet, including antibiotics, hormones and artificial chemicals. All of these wreck the delicate balance of our immune system and neurotransmitter release.  A large percentage of African-Americans and Latinos suffer from obesity-related issues. The diet usually consists of high fat, salt and pork, a deadly combination. Science has proven that pork is unhealthy and unclean, but  people still continue to indulge in ham, bologna and pork products. I hope the response of one of these blog posters convinces you all that it would be wise to not eat pork…for scientific reasons!

http://shadygroveranch.net/is-pork-unclean

My husband and I made a decision to try to eat whole, organic foods, drink purified or distilled water and read carefully labels we’ve noticed our health greatly improving. I  became very ill and severely depressed rafter using Nutrasweet and later Splenda as part of my diet regimen to keep trim. After doing research, I found that both sweeteners where highly toxic and damaged the brain tissue. We women think we are doing ourselves a favor of drinking diet soda and baking with Splenda and Nutrasweet, but I paid a very high price by losing my health and putting on weight that I haven’t been able to lose! I also came into early menopause because of these sweeteners.

Notice how  big our youngsters and per-pubescent kids are?  Most of these youngsters are the size of us grown adults. The dairy, poultry and ranching  industry is responsible for fattening up their livestock and  fowl.

http://www.peta.org/living/pages/living_articles/meat-not-suitable-for-children.aspx

http://www.dosomething.org/tipsandtools/11-facts-about-animals-and-factory-farms

The information is out there folks. Do your research. The cure for exploding healthcare costs is taking control of your eating, shopping and dining habits.  Ignorance of good health and hygiene will result in sickness and loss of productivity  We must take drastic measures to improve our health and well-being. the government will not do it for us.  Exploding healthcare  costs  stem from irresponsible food choices, lack of physical activity and numbed senses.

Don’t forget about the dangers of flu shots and vaccines. before you get your shots , do the research first!

http://www.bewellbuzz.com/general/10-reasons-flu-shots-dangerous-flu/

The following links are very helpful and informative to help you make your new healthy lifestyle a reality. Good luck and God bless.

EATING ORGANIC

http://www.eatingwell.com/food_news_origins/green_sustainable/organic_or_not_is_organic_produce_healthier_than_conventional

SPLENDA and NUTRASWEET dangers, Dr Mercola

http://www.sweetpoison.com/

http://products.mercola.com/sweet-deception/

HOW to DETOXIFY and Cleanse your body

Doctor Sherry Rogers

http://www.bowdiges.org/documents/files/FIRS_for_detoxification.pdf

Dr Richard Schulze

https://www.herbdoc.com/index.php/?c=1

Think about juicing, fasting and cleansing twice a year.

DYSTONIA and the VAGUS NERVE


Journal Entry, Monday, July 4th, 2011

Since March 2007, my main focus has been to speak and believe in my healing of this miserable, draining and mysterious condition, Dystonia. Many of my friends, fellow musician/artists and  family still understand very little of what I go through on a daily basis and their expectations of me add to my stress load.

Getting through my boardwalk Gospel concert with my band this past Saturday was a great challenge. Between rehearsals, organizing the set list and preparing, my spasms were very violent and draining. Though my band mates sounding wonderful, I couldn’t enjoy anything due to the intense movements of my mouth and throat muscles. I couldn’t wait to get home and drop into bed.  The next morning, after yet another night of poor sleep,  I dragged myself out of bed in a zombie-like state, praying for God to get me through my worship leading at Pastor Sandra’s church service.

As I put my guitar in its stand and took my seat, I already felt the spasmodic movements increase. I had to rest my head forward on the back of the seat to get some relief and so everyone would see my facial grimaces.  My throat muscles throbbed and lower mouth and jaw opened every second. My eyes were squeezing shut and opening. In 15 minutes all my make-up came off from the constant tearing. I was getting more and more miserable by the minutes and could barely focus on Pastor Sandra’s Message. I could only imagine what the other people though of me.

A day in the life of DYSTONIA.

Afterwords, I had a full afternoon and evening of cramming two sets of parents visits into 4 hours. After service, I collapsed exhausted onto the back floor area of our car.

After today’s holiday, I will jump back into the tedious race of finding the proper practitioner who can address this disorder.  Of the 3 primary care physicians, six neurologists, eight chiropractors, several acupuncturists, and one myofacilaist, only one has come close in giving me the most accurate diagnosis, Natalia, in Toms River New Jersey.

She has given me the utmost care and concern with her holistic/natural approach and high technology. After Natalia gave me my medical computer scan and the results showed my c1 to c5 vertebrae were getting no circulation, I just about started to cry. Natalia asked me if any doctors were addressing my damaged Vagus nerve. I said

“they don’t even know what it is”

She burst out laughing hysterically.,
“Idiots…they don’t know what they are doing!”

My last primary care physician had no idea what DYSTONIA was either.! I was appalled and I’d had to pay for the office visit. Mark flipped out when I told him about my disappointing incident.  I was running out of patience and suffering greatly. Not only me, but my poor husband was at his wits end trying to get coverage by our insurance company. For three years in a row, they refused to cover at least $70 and we were almost $7,000 in credit card debt in only the middle of the year. This condition was taking atoll on our finances, health and

My husband Mark’s suspicion about high metals were confirmed by my two hair analysis, but none of the doctors wanted to address his concerns or even suggest a treatment that his insurance would cover. Thus over four years of suffering and greatly diminished life quality.

I am confident that Natalia has pinpointed the Vagus nerve condition. I’m sure that even many DYSTONIA sufferers may have a maladjustment of their upper vertebrae and if the pinched area of the nerve is reset, we can move on to healing!

I hope that Dystonia sufferers will look into the injured Vagus nerve as a possible cause of their spasms as well as being open to alternative means of treatment. Natalia said some devices she used were not even accepted in these United States. Of course not, the drug companies will lose out on their kick-backs and business. They want us to be totally dependent of drugs that does not even treat the root cause of the condition. And, patients are settling for band-aids that are costly and further damaging to their bodies and minds.

People, you need to wake up. Are you willing to further damage your body without taking the time to do the research and use wisdom. God created your body to heal itself. Think  about it! Seek a great and caring natural practitioner.

http://www.welltellme.com/discuss/index.php?topic=19042.30

http://www.dartmouth.edu/~dons/part_1/chapter_7.html

Here is the area I suffer from: throat, neck, oro-mandibular jaw jount and ears.

WAGING the War…and WINNING it!


Journal Entry, March 30, 2011

Lance Armstrong riveted the world with his compelling journey battling and conquering cancer. Despite his devastating and dismal prognosis of testicular Cancer that spread to his brain and lungs, he managed to accomplish astounding endeavors, including winning the Tour De France from 1995 to 2005 and is the founder and chairman of the Lance Armstrong for Cancer research and support. This amazing and determined  man refused to accept Cancer’s “death” certificate.

CANCER thrusts the strongest man to his knees, the most tender and  dedicated wife and mother to the  most influential public servant. Cancer prejudices no one. We hear of battles fought across the oceans in wore-torn third world countries with tangible and energy-powered. weapons: Uzi’s, machine guns, missiles and rifles. But the most devastating foe rages within our own body.

When we hear of a friend or loved ones diagnosis, Cancer or any terminal illness, we are shaken to the core. We watch the daily struggle as body functions diminish and the body wastes away through chemo and radiation. We marvel at the courage of Cancer victims as they somehow survive their treatments and yet all around the world, there are so many others who also struggle against an unseen foe within their bodies.

Many struggle with familiar conditions such as Parkinson’s and Bells Palsy, but a new group of related “movement” disorders such as Dystonia, PSP are increasing with intensity. Not to diminish the seriousness of cancer, imagine the devastation of a condition where the body, jerks, spasms and violently thrusts your head forward, backwards and sideways? Imagine the exhaustion and expenditure of energy from such a condition where there is NO cure and doctors have no diagnostic tools to pinpoint the cause of this bizarre disorder than comes out of no where!

The neurological.system is like the netherworld of the deepest ocean. Most of it is unseen and still very little is known about it’s complex structure. This mysterious infrastructure encompasses ALL the major glands and organs of the body and even the brain.

When properly and accurately treated, Cancer survivors retain an active and productive lifestyle. Lance Armstrong is an icon for miraculously overcoming a deadly foe. I have yet to hear of recovery testimonies of movement disorder victims. From what I’ve seen, most get worse and some are completely disabled. We are looked upon as freaks when entering a social situation as we twitch and jerk our way through a conversation. Many of us eschew even going out in public so people don’t stare at us. It can be an uncomfortable or frightening thing to have a close encounter with a Parkinson’s or Dystonia victim.

I remember waking up one morning and going down to the kitchen of the home of an elderly gentleman who had Parkinson’s Disease. I stared in horror upon entering the kitchen doorway at a counter covered with Cheerios, bowls, cups and spoons. Milk and sugar made a sticky mess all over the cabinet doors and floor! I ran upstairs to Alex’s room and asked him what was going on. Then he explained to me what Parkinson’s Disease was .

“I shake so violently, everything falls. Ii can’t even pour milk into my cereal, everything splashes all over the place.

I was shocked that a condition could do that to a person. It was my first experience with a movement disorder. I asked him, “How can you live with this?”

I will never forget that day and now I’m waging a battle with a similar condition, young and vibrant as I am.

Yet, something in me bubbles like an effervescent geyser. I have something Alex didn’t possess, an undeniable power and strength that impassioned me to shine brighter than the sun and soar higher than any eagle! Like Lance Armstrong, I purpose in my heart, not to be vanquished by the assaults of my foe, but to scrutinize and study my opponent’s weakness so I can victor over him!

Amidst stressful driving through congested highway to doctors and practitioner appointments, through the daily, uncomfortably incessant vise-like invisible grip on my upper neck and spasmming jaw joins, through the myriad household chores and wifely responsibilities and through the endless required health/nutrition/exercise  routines and regimens, I groan with the effort of juggling them all. I stimulate my passion to regain complete recovery by the hope that is in God only.

What is it that sets passionate health and humanitarian advocates in motion and victory apart from those who die or became totally disabled? We refuse to acquiesce to the victim status. We have been given too much to give up. Christ Himself gave ALL of Himself, so knowing this, there is no going back. I move forward with determination, like a triathlon runner who has engaged in rigorous discipline to achieve his goal!

There are unsung local heroes all around us. Theo Vrahnos, one of my dear friends, wages his battle against Wilson’s Disease, a condition where coppers builds up in the body and causes almost irreparably damage to the neurological system. This beautiful young man refuses to allow this condition to stop him from living a social and normal life. I wrote a power  ballad  “Nobody Sees” about him. Every time I sing it in public, I remember signing to Theo while he was bedridden and now is married and a father.

Dystonia has made me a more compassionate person, concerned in bringing a hurting someone more comfort and acceptance. It has stretched me to be more tolerant of difficulties and challenges. It has pushed my mind’s endurance to it’s greatest heights as I focus on emotional, spiritual and creative strategies not only for myself, but for anyone struggling a disabling condition. Dystonia will NOT imprison me, in fact, it will usher me to even deeper spiritual realms than I’ve even imagined. I’m about to explore new frontiers in the medical and natural healing areas. I believe that God Himself is drawing me to Himself to find answers that secular minded experts refuse to ponder or accept.

God reveals great mysteries to those who search…like curious and hungry little children. No new knowledge will be given to those who think they know it all. So…here I am, Lord. Teach me more!

CONSPIRACY THEORIES, (Am I the Only One Who Feels This Way?)


PART 1

My rambling thoughts…

With much wisdom comes much sorrow. I must be getting old. I think more deeply, want to solve all the world’s ills, (and if given the chance, I know I could) and wonder how the heck God’s beautiful creation and planet became so contaminated.

I’m still feeling lousy and its going on four 4 years since my Dystonia diagnosis. After that first Lyme diagnosis in 1992, I’ve never been the same, having to contend with periodic bouts of Bronchitis, pneumonia and mercury poisoning which have left me very weak and debilitated. Despite the daunting health battles, I refuse to give up my fight and find regaining wellness means a persistent and aggressive strategy much like the CSI detectives using high caliber and clever technological means to catch their thief.

Increasing occurrences of  Cancer, Diabetes, MS and other serious conditions are also prevailing  with friends and family who tell me about a loved one who just received a death diagnosis.

My youngest sister, Margarita, fights a brave battle against MS for several years and I myself have struggled to cure a bizarre condition called Oro-mandibular Dystonia. I’d never heard of the disorder before and after having done extensive research,  find doctors have no idea what causes it or how to cure it!

The continual opening and closing of my mouth leaves me drained by mid day. My tongue thrashes left to right,  causing incredible bite wounds and profuse bleeding. While chewing, I hear a crack and I’m always aware of the constant moving which makes it almost impossible to focus. All I desire is falling unconsciously asleep and not wake up. I’m battle-weary by mid afternoon in my attempts to juggle my errands and maintain my challenging lifestyle. I find myself highly agitated by the smallest annoyance and mourn the loss of my once soft-spoken and  patient demeanor.

The more I research causes of ailments, treatment protocols and cures, the more information I find about dangerous substances lurking in our foods, water supply and air. I ponder the foolishness of the public continuing to ignore warning about mercury amalgam tooth fillings,  fluoridated and chlorinated water,  and artificial sweeteners. Not even to mention genetically modified produce and foods that could open up a Pandora’s box of genetic and health ills.

Fema camps, HAARP Research, ferocious  oil drilling the Gulf, chem-trails and global warming continue to blare from YOU tube videos. How much more can humanity take? Great anxiety hovers like a black cloud over  humanity with an undercurrent of resignation that something cataclysmic is soon to happen.

In my hometown of Browns Mills and Country Lakes, there is an overabundance of handicapped drivers licenses and COPD is on the rise. Very suspicious to me.  People healing from tuberculosis used to travel down to the Pine Lands for the fresh, invigoration air. Every time  I look up to the sky,  numerous planes etch their trails over the expanse of our sky’s expanse.  Whenever I venture outside, I feel nauseous. According to Dr Perlingieri, Chem-trails are a dangerous concoction of deadly toxic metals,  fungi and  dessicated blood! Read her research for yourself and make up your mind to protect your family and loved ones. Thank God for our physician and scientists who are concerned for their fellow man.

http://www.globalresearch.ca/index.php?context=va&aid=19047

I don’t like what I’m seeing.  People are not questioning why they are getting so sick and why the FDA has infused thousands of grocery products with high fructose corn syrup,  Sucralose and Aspartame.

I think about the nameless, faceless men who fly these plains and who experiment with poisons  and chemicals that will weak and destroy their own people.  Scoffers on You-tube abound, but when you think about it, so did the world as millions of Jews were exterminated over 7 years.   The diabolical hatred and callousness of doctors who did barbaric experiments on small children In Auschwitz will ever haunt me.  We must wake up to what is out there an not pretend. If no one want to be held accountable then we must protect ourselves and our loved ones. There are many excellent health sites where there is information about metal detoxifying. Zeolite is an excellent remover of dangerous heavy metals.

http://www.liquidzeolitecompany.com/categories/Liquid-Zeolite/?gclid=CO3ezarks6cCFYSK4AodZ3wC_w

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