TRANSPARENCY WITH GOD, Pt 2


 

 

CHRISTIAN MASKS

Two years ago, one a dear pastor-mentor asked me if I would connect in a woman who seeking a prayer warrior. I agreed and contacted the sister. We clicked.  I couldn’t wait to “storm the gates” of hell with her in prayer each morning. She was also a natural healer-practitioner who wanted to assist me in my Lyme Disease and Dystonia battle. We had our love for our cats and composing worship songs as common ground and talked about everything wonderful, musical and spiritual under the sun. She introduced me to a very complicated and very costly protocol, (costing well into thousands of dollars). I balked at the cost and reminded her that healing from Jesus never put anyone into a lifetime of debt. I wasn’t being facetious, just concerned about the burden of juggling so many supplements with foods and the RIFE machine. I was shocked when I received an eight page very angry,  condemning letter that made me cry for half an hour! When I emailed her and as her if she was mad at me, I got no comment and never heard from her again. That last I heard, she emailed my husband with news she had lost her rental house and was living in her car. She I was heart-broken that she was destitute and sick. Mark and I decided to bless her with a check and one of my hand-made beaded chokers to let her know she was still a Queen in Father’s eyes.

I reeled with shock and grief at the sudden severing of this relationship, but abrupt endings of this nature happen everyday for people all over the world. It can emotionally traumatic to receive a damning letter from someone you loved and trusted. Events like these often disturbed my peaceful momentum, especially since I came from a background of abuse, but I’ve learned to focus on restoring peace and harmony by bringing the schism to the Lord, forgiving and praying for the person. I then become creative and joyful again. Our response to angry confrontations is to pray for those who persecute or offend us and especially if they are our brethren. We should also not gloat over any misfortunes that befall for the way of love is showing compassion.

When we are hurt, insulted or accused of something we didn’t do or say, our flesh can allow our tongues to set aflame a forest fire of retaliatory damage. We must consistently abide in Father-Jesus presence to keep our flesh bridled. Paul tells us in Rom 12:18 to try as much as possible to live at peace with all men.

The glorious and transforming essence emanation emanating from Holy Ghost through us determines the outcome of Father’s blessing and provision. When we discipline ourselves to flow in His unconditional love, (and forgiveness) we will see a local, national and global soul-harvest We often hear it said “There is strength in unity” We just have to read our newspaper headlines blaring examples of chaos and disunity all across our own America everyday. Scattered groups seethe in civil disobedience. Racial hatred and rioting brews between law enforcement and angry protesters. Political parties are also in disunity about how to address and solve the problem of an ever-rising and astronomical debt. Going down the line, we see husbands and wives at enmity with each other mistrusting each others motives, manipulating to get needs meet and controlling to Lord over. Here is an example of a fragmented and disunified America at her worst.

To God’s dismay, His people are in the same position, disorganized, squabbling, impotent , pathetic, not to forget busy-bodies scrutinizing everyone’s walk and business but their own. Do we really think Jesus is coming for a bride in this condition?
It is time to look in the mirror and ask Holy Spirit to scrutinize us for the purpose of purifying us.

We cannot continue in our state and expect to see God’s supernatural signs and wonders. His hands are tied by our self-righteousness, unresolved conflicts, prejudice, harshness, and condemnation which weakens the fragile fibers of God’s tapestry, His church. Imagine a complicated machine with many parts and electrically powered. If there is a short somewhere in the wire and the connecting wires are severed, the machine won’t work. Once the breach is repaired either by soldering or reconnecting the wire, the machine does its magic. This is how the body of Christ also operates.

Apostle Paul gave us a beautiful descriptive picture of how important everyone of us is in the body. Each child of God is a crucial part of the smooth-running of His body! Two people, a couple or a group can have a schism and all are affected. The momentum of the machine is slowed down or stopped. We wonder why our ministries, marriages and finances are not flourishing and as an ever-flowing fountain of water. We cannot expect for fruit from works of the flesh. Peace and joy comes from an uncluttered and pure spring. When we walk in love, we bear patiently with each other and are tender-hearted.

Paul tells us to bear each others burden Gal 6:2 We are all responsible for each other growth and well-being. We shouldn’t stand idly by if a brother or sister is in sin or making poor choices for his life and family. Wise and mature elders are to groom and teach the younger and inexperienced. This is how the body of Christ should operate, in fullness and harmony. The trend of Christian apathy must change in the United States and the heavy burden should not be borne by the tiny percentage of intercessors? All of us are responsible with our gifts, talents and abilities to mesh with each other in divine harmony.

… 25 …so that there may be no division in the body, but that the members may have the same care for one another. 26And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it; if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it. 27 Now you are Christ’s body, and individually members of it. 1 Cor 12 25-27

I’ve had to deal with many other disturbing and confrontational issues with various people. I most stressful one with one of my husband’s friends, a fellow minister who thought it was his calling to scrutinized my every spontaneous ministry endeavor-activity. He’d often counsel my husband.

“You need to control that situation.” or ” My wife would never do that. Anita is out of order.” Once too many times, my husband would remark during a spat, “I need to put my foot down like pastor ( no name disclosed)  says!”  Looks like an insecure, controlling and manipulative spirit here. This  man needs to mind his own business and pray about me if he is that  bothered. that much by my excitement to go out spontaneously to minister at a nursing home. This type of scrutinizing and controlling advice is  greatly damaging to a marriage and certainly does nothing to build up a wife’s hospital ministry!

I also had to deal with  the contention of another Christian brother who would start a discourse with my husband and end  six to seven hours later into the wee hours into the night!  Though his visits were infrequent, the tiny window of time my husband and I was often devoured by his nebulous conversations. He could not see my concern for my husband’s need for  sleep and our need for quality time together on the week-ends. He was obstinate with pride and refused to be courteous and respect our marriage covenant and relationship. The last time he came to visit, he exploded in anger when I asked my husband to reserve the last hour of Sunday night for our time. He was so enraged by my request to my husband that he wrote me a 10 page letter beginning with how domineering I was. I couldn’t believe that the same man I prayed with in my car after my grocery shopping two years ago was the same person who lunged at me in rage in my own house!

He has yet to apologize, but I’ve forgiven him and moved on in prayer for him and God restoring our friendship.

Another strange confrontation happened to me about eleven years ago. A dear Christian musician-artist sister’s husband bawled me out one day by phone with the most hateful accusations. He didn’t believe my intentions with his wife (or our relationship) was godly. I loved being around this sister and loved being involved in perforating and ministry. he called me a user and manipulator and that I manipulated my best friend-music partner for years. I was so shocked and sick for days!

I didn’t hear from this dear woman for over eleven years, but never ceased praying and blessing them. Just imagine the fruit of our friendship, the fellowship and ministering to souls with our combined gifts. Satan loves to disturb the balance and harmony of God’s people with mistrust, hard-hardheartedness and pride.If this couple would have sat down and we all reasoned and listened wirth the Spirit, many wonderful things could have been accomplished for the kingdom.

Satan’s spirits are usually at the root of angry, hateful confrontations or accusations and we must be on guard to his devices. When the body is weakened by unforgivesnness, bitterness and false slander, we cannot overcome the attacks that come our way. Our prayers are hindered by our prideful resistance to apologize and reason in fairness and love!

So, here is the connection between the rise of ISIS, racial tension, persecution, genocide and every other malignant evil. The body of Christ is the salt of the earth.We are the city of a hill and from which all nations should look too because of our righteous and obedience to god’s commandments and ordinances!Proverbs 29:2 tell us that the righteous increase, the people rejoice. But when a wicked man rules, the people groan.

America and the rest of the world are groaning!

The enemy gains power when God’s people are weak with strife, disharmony and pride. For the creation awaits in eager expectation for the revelations of the sons of God! Rom 8:19. It is time that we all gaze into God’s mirror and see the haggard, weary sin-scarred visage staring back at us. Let us not believe in the deceiver who has fooled us into thinking that we are right with God because we are memorizing scripture, attending Saturday or Sunday services, keeping the Shabbat, tithing (and even praying (in the flesh). Let us worship…in Spirit and in truth. John 4:24

How fruitful are our “godly” activities when we’ve ignored and minimized our broken or strained relationship? Husband do you belittle or ignore your wife’s passion to win souls and her passion for heavenly things? Wife do you neglect to cook, take care of the house and honor your husband? Children, do you disrespect and rebel against your parents? Pastors and elders are you meddling in people’s “out of the box” marriages and ministries when it’s none of your business? These are some of the “insignificant”(in our eyes) sins, but crucial as far as the health and fruitfulness of the body of Christ.

Prayer:
Heavenly Father,
Let us not love not in word but in deed. 1 John 3:18 Let us not do cheap lip service, “I love and pray ” for so and so everyday, yet we talk about them like dirt behind our backs. Beloved, Help us Holy Spirit to love each other fervently and with pure hearts., forgiving each other.
Help us to be transparent with You and with each other, confessing our sins so we can walk in healing and joy!

In the matchless name of Your Son, Jesus, Yashuah
Aman

WAGING SPIRITUAL WARFARE WITH CONFIDENCE


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For the wounded, vulnerable, and physically-challenged

Dear Precious sister or brother, are you discouraged? Are You disgusted and think Father God-Jesus has not heard nor answered your prayer? Are you worn out by fighting, crying and discouragement? Are you baffled and perplexed that you’re not only hit with one trial but  two, three or four at a time and you just cannot take one more hit?

I want to let you in on a little secret.on what is going on so you can adequately prepare and strengthen yourself in these daunting times. Many unseen things are happening in the spiritual realm. Satan’s time is short and he is stepping up his plans to “wear down” the saints of God. One of my spiritual mentors and pastors, Augusto Perez, sent us prayer intercessors an urgent prayer request a few years ago. I was taken aback and totally uninformed about the various demonic groups (sorcerers, warlocks and other”called” elite) whose MO is to destroy humanity at every cost. Only God Himself knows what  these ceremonies entailed for us here on planet earth. If you haven’t noticed, the spirits released from the abyss through these evil ceremonies are responsible for the  lawlessness, school shootings, ISIS attacks and a myriad of other atrocities.

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/tribulation-now/2015/10/29/piercing-the-darkness-with-pastor-augusto-perez

You won’t hear this from the average pastor, but this is a reality and a VERY frightening reality for all the inhabitants of the earth. Thankfully, the Child of God abiding in God’s shelter does not have to fear the grave assaults of our nemesis.  Strategic plans to wear us down are  chronic and terminal sicknesses, financial distress,  wayward and rebellious children wreaking havoc on their families, nervous breakdowns,  domestic violence, suicide, irreconcilable differences causing divorces,  and substance abuse destroying families. These attacks are hitting  with vehemence and totality and the worse is yet to come, unless God’s people take seriously their marching orders to wage serious spiritual warfare.

http://mysteryoftheiniquity.com/2011/11/04/13-demon-skulls-13-mayan-elders/

The first place the body of Christ must start at is him/her heart and mouth. What comes out of our mouths is what determines the outcome of our trials and  satan’s attacks. Through brainstorming with  successful and victorious prayer warrior pastors and intercessors, I’ve gleaned some amazing strategies in these demonically-charged times. Many of you may be fearful regarding  the spiritual, financial and economical assaults globally, but now is not the time to shirk and run to our underground bunkers or delete your “Doomsday-prepper” friends” Facebook posts.

The body of Christ needs to awaken to the reality. The words of our mouth are the fruits of our hearts!  Oh my! This was a big one for me. How many years of my Christian life have I uttered words of doom and death on myself. “”Oh, I’ll never get well. I am so deep in debt, I will never get out. Or, that spouse, child or freind will never change” These are all negative declarations. Satan’s minions are standing by, laughing gleefully as you continue to dig yourself deeper into the pit of depression and negativity.

Transform your atmosphere with declarations  of God’s word. Transformation and hope will  become your reality. WOW! Imagine we daughters and sons of God creating our own divine realities by our very words and attitudes. I want to drive this point in…until it sinks in and you start to see how you can indeed by God’s very own fruitful tree…always bearing fruit. But first you’re going to have to admit this fault and ask God’s help to turn it around!

It took me decades to realize the truth…that my own failures and lacks were because of not abiding in the Lord’s very presence and absorbing His precious-life-giving words into my being!! Until we abide in this  divine truth, we will not achieve God’s great victories and soar in His divine purpose!

Did you know that satan has access to Father’s heavenly courts to accuse and malign us daily? Look what he did to poor Job?

Job 1:6 Now there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the LORD, and Satan came also among them.

We tie up God’s hands to  release His blessings and victories when we declare the opposite of what His word tells us! So, for example, we wonder why God has not provided for our rent, food and utilities and we complain and say ” I can’t make my paycheck meet my bills” Satan will use this very statement to God against you.

Your response to your need, “My God provides for ALL my needs according to His riches and glory.”  We must stop griping and mistrusting God if He chooses to answer our prayers at the eleventh hour, perhaps to test us to see if we really do believe He will come through. He tests us often to see if we will trust and obey, so be careful little mouths what you say because satan’s  spirits thrive and grow in the atmosphere of  complaining, resentment and fear. .

Let us also remember that the moment that we decided to serve and worship our Lord, we have enlisted in God’s army and it will be a journey of continual warfare because  satan wants to kill, steal and/or destroy us. Psalm 34:19,  Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the lord delivers him from them all.

We will also have to endure a “wilderness period” for growing in power and trust. These are necessary for us to reach our highest potential. As we grow in Christ, we must learn to be disciplined and consistent in our declarations so that God’s word becomes a part of us. Even great pastors, teachers and worship leaders can fall or get weak if they do not daily abide in God’s presence and word.  The more we read, study and meditate in God’s word, the more easily it will come our through our mouth as our powerfully-wielded weapon of spiritual warfare! There is no other way around it.  Make daily mediation and memorization of God’s word with Holy Spirits revelation  and you will see amazing results in your faith walk!

Some of you may have problems with memorization, but print out your power scriptures around your house or work areas. Speak them out loud. If you have health issues, look up and mediate on healing scriptures. If you are abandoned, isolated or been abused, look up scriptures of restoration. If you have financial lack, seek scriptures about God’s miraculous provision.

Many of us came from backgrounds of sever emotional and/or physical trauma,, chronic health crisis, loss, poverty, shame-body image issues, family dysfunctional, parental neglect. It often takes much longer for us to  retrain our minds. This is where Holy Spirit comes in, compassionate counseling and maybe even deliverance. God created our bodies and minds to heal from the greatest traumas.

http://drleaf.com/blog/

Dr Caroline Leaf, a brain scientist, teaches about how we can be transformed to the  beautiful, divine person God created us to be. We can be transformed by the renewing of our minds in Christ! Rom 12:2. For some of us with great wounds and traumas to address,  maintaining emotional  stability and joy can be very difficult, especially if we are isolated or ill. Here is where the body of Christ and compassionate counselors need to step in. When even these fail, we can look to Holy Spirit, our comforter, teacher and best freind. Being so isolated and challenged for over eight years with Dystonia, I have found great comfort in  resting in the presence of The holy Spirit!

Print out  your special verses and post them on your mirrors, refrigerator and doors. Keep worship music going all day if you can. DO NOT declare your infirmities of struggles as permanent. It is Father’s will for you to be whole. Even if you are  weary, heart-broken, or  disgusted,  try to avoid verbalizing out loud how you feel.

When you spend time in Father’s word, ask Holy Spirit to guide you on verses that will be your warfare prayer. DECLARE your special verses each day OUT loud because in our verbal declaration is our power. Abba God never lies and is never wrong. If our lives are amiss it’s because we are doing something wrong.  I’ve wasted many years as his daughter complaining and allowing depression to hinder my walk. I still struggle daily with pain & staggering fatigue, but I declare that I’m more than a conqueror and I can DO all things through Christ who strengthens me! I must daily declare my victory.
 My prayer  is that the following scripture verses will release you into your calling as an overcomer!
 Isaiah 62:3
The LORD will hold you in his hand for all to see–a splendid crown in the hand of God.

Fear not you are more than a conqueror because Jesus has already victored over our adversary and all his minions. Rom 8:37

IPhil 4:19   But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

Hebrews 13:5
Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

Psalm 37:25
I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread.

Psalm 34:19

Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the LORD delivereth him out of them all.

Psalm 91

The COVENANT PRAYER-SONG

Psalm  68:4-6

4Sing to God, sing praises to His name; Lift up a song for Him who rides through the deserts, Whose name is the LORD, and exult before Him. 5A father of the fatherless and a judge for the widows, Is God in His holy habitation. 6God makes a home for the lonely; He leads out the prisoners into prosperity, Only the rebellious dwell in a parched land.…

Rev  12:11

They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.

Heb 13:5

Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”[a]

TIME to CLEAN UP, CHURCH!


large church congregationI write this letter with a HEAVY heart and more than 31 years later! Judgment is coming to America and as Scripture says, Judgment first starts in Abba Jehovah’s own house and people.

I am an intercessor prophetic journalist and worship leader (ordained by Pentecostal-spirit-filled pastor-elders and have been in Fathers service since 1983) passionate for Father God, Yashuah Jesus and especially to see Holy Spirit move, walk in miracles, healing and repentance- revival. My anguished travailing for America’s fate-destiny and particularly, Christ’s Bride, has led me to deep place in Him. Watching Christian TV and seeing many of the famous TV pastors and evangelists with massive congregations, wouldn’t we expect this many people to heavily holily influence our present society, the media and politics. Would our influence change the ever-contaminated sinfulness of our nation After all, Jesus declared us to be a city on a hill.

I came to Christ as a non-practicing Catholic, invited to a small Pentecostal church in Toms River, NJ. A young Jehovah’s witness man wanted to court me, but I felt something wasn’t right with his religion. Father led me to Pentecostalism-spirit-filled life and I was never the same. I found myself transformed in many ways, even though Abba had me endure many fiery trials. Only a year into attending this tiny congregation, (of about 15 adults, 7 children ) our church erupted in a scandal. Our beloved pastor had adultery with 3 of the deaconesses, a homosexual relationship and molested several of the children!! Many of us were so traumatized that we could function for weeks! Many of the new believer left Christ and I watched as their unattended wounds became fodder for atheism and hating all which had to do with Jesus.

Somehow I had an inkling that this Jesus I read about and served was nothing like the leaders I sat under. I continued my joyful evangelism in the nursing homes and hospitals. I was hungry for more of my Jesus. I followed two spirit-filled sisters from my former church to a Monmouth county AG. I rejoiced to once again have a family. (My own blood family was ripped apart by child abuse, foster care and divorce).

I enjoyed about another year with my new family and enrolled in college where I met a charming guy. I was passionate about Jesus and evangelizing wherever I went. The guy was attracted to holy Spirit’s joy in me and we started to spend time together in God’s word and Bible study. Unbeknownst to me, he had some serious baggage. I ended up courting him (in ignorance about being “unequally yoked) . Fast forward to my second deep spiritual wounding. My fiance’s baggage was involvement in the occult and witchcraft. His salivation prayer and baptism of Holy Spirit at a Terry Talbot concert was not enough to deliver him from satan’s grasp. I was caught in a vicious and deadly fight for my spiritual freedom and life!

The shocking thing is that my 60-something AG pastor and his son, (as well as 4 elders and deacons) were unable to cast out a witch-craft-demoniac spirit from my fiance. I was only three years old in my faith and I’d never experienced the hatred , rage and abuse which my fiancé poured on me and from which I couldn’t escape because of his threats to ‘find” me wherever I escaped to and murder me if I didn’t marry him. I ended up being married by this AG pastor. Shockingly, there was no concern nor discernment for my well-being and that they should certainly not endorse a marriage to such a man with such demonic oppression! I can’t tell you what this did for my belief in the “heavenly” Father who is supposed to love and protect me!

Jer 23 1&2 Woe to the shepherds who are destroying and scattering the sheep of My pasture!” declares the LORD. 2Therefore thus says the LORD God of Israel concerning the shepherds who are tending My people: “You have scattered My flock and driven them away, and have not attended to them; behold, I am about to attend to you for the evil of your deeds,” declares the LORD

God help you pastors which have allowed your sheep to be torn and butchered by satan and his demon spirits! I would n’t want to be you when you have to give an account before the GREAT judge Jesus Christ at the bema Seat.

Fast forward to the next phase of my growth. I had enough of the shallowness and lack of true Exousia anointing that I so desperately needed as a victim of child abuse and now domestic violence and abandonment-divorce. I met someone who said that Calvary Chapel in Old bridge was a good church. Though hesitant, I decided to go because I needed fellowship and healing from two bad Christian experiences. Because of my giftings in voice and worship, I connected with the worship pastor, (no name). He saw my love for Christ and my talent as a singer-songwriter and encouraged me to sit under Pastor Lloyd’s teachings. Eventually, I could apply to be one of the worship leaders.

I won’t apologize for the length of this expose because it’s time the sin in AG and other large churches be exposed. This is why America has declined in her godly heritage. I had to share this grievance, (because of a recent wounding-abuse of a beloved brother and AG pastor). He shared his story with me in confidence. Upon praying about this, ( I shared some fo my abuses) Abba compelled me to share this with the body of Christ. So they see the reality of their sin, guilt and repent. The axe is coming down very soon. Who knows whether Father will grant us grace to partake of the great revival harvest. But…there won’t be any harvest or revival with a church that is filthy with adultery, greed for money, controlling-intimidation weaker sheep, apathy regarding the murder or our unborn babies and the stronghold of Homosexuality in our nation.

Brothers and sisters…REPENT and turn from your sin. Ask Holy Spirit if deception has risen as a barrier blocking Holy Spirit’s voice.

What is most urgent here is the necessity to bring more souls into His kingdom. Satan’s MO has surely been to use Father’s pastors and leaders to bar people from getting into the kingdom.

Getting back to Calvary, Old bridge, a few months later, this worship pastor seemed to ignore me anytime I asked about leading worship. I was puzzled at his change of attitude towards me, but was patient. A few weeks later after not seeing him on stage with the worship team, I asked someone what happened to pastor. They told me he was ousted for having an affair with one of the female worship leaders! So much for Calvary Chapel, Old bridge. (BTW, they do not believe in the heavenly Holy Spirit language or prophetic giftings) . I was again devastated and disgusted. I was desperate for fellowship and like-minded believers to sing and evangelize with. I shared my experience with a sister from our former AG congregation and she told me she was attending another AG in another Monmouth county town.

It was great to be back with some of my former sisters. The new pastor and his wife were flowing in the true gifts of the Holy Spirit. I met a wonderful Christian man and was married by this pastor. Then he had to leave about eight months later and another pastor cane. At first, he seemed genuinely led by Holy Spirit. I had to start all over with proving myself as a worship leader and waited for Holy Spirit to reveal my calling to this pastor. I sought Abba’s presence more and more and Father answered my prayer for Holy Spirit to used my gift as worship leader for the edifying of that body.

Several times, I during my leading of worship, (and seeing people’s hearts being moved) that this pastor often would interrupt or quench Holy Spirit’s presence. I felt Holy Spirit being “grieved” and shared my concerns with other worship leaders and elders. They noticed also and were upset. This particular church desperate needed Holy Spirit’s ministry because there was mcuh apathy and lack of discernment, members enslaved to depression and even demonic spirits coming in through its own members! This was a very sick church and there would be no transformation or healing with sin in the camp!

Another sick episode in this church happened with another pastor, (who is now my present pastor, a highly anointed and spirit-filled women of God) The pastor at AG gave permission for her to have a worship service there and upon arriving she saw in t before she could even enter, she had to rebuke and break yokes of demons that were around this AG church!! I was quite surprised when she confided in me. I’ve heard too many horror stories about Kundalini spirits and AG people not having the real Holy Spirit.

The last straw on my back regarding these lukewarm and soon-to-be-judged churches is my dear pastor friend who was ousted for confronting adultery (adultery seems to be a favorite sin and rampant in these churches including AG churches). I met this precious and true man of God through the former-mentioned pastor at the AG church where I led worship. He was convicted by my true anointing and tried to get rid of me by offering me to this pastor friend of mine who was staring a new church in Ocean county. (No names). Strangely, the church didn’t take off and a year later had to be closed.

My pastor friend then took a position at another very large AG church in Ocean county. He was there a while but then a problem arose with the senior pastor having an affair with another woman My pastor friend confronted the leadership about this. He also reported them to AG headquarters. My pastor friend’s wife suddenly died and rather than the leadership of this church supporting him through his loss, he was rebuked, snubbed. (and now black-balled)!!!

I am ( but even more so Jehovah, Yashuah Jesus and Holy Spirit) sick of this evil and sick of all the sin in God’s house. I share this with the AG leadership ( and every church who proclaims Christ as Lord and King of the world) as Holy Spirit leads me so that there can be repentance and healing in the Body of Christ. Yashuah seeks a church without spot or wrinkle and if anyone thinks that He ignores these transgressions, they are very mistaken. I urge you all to repent. My physical body has been severely damaged by all the demonic attacks and trauma while being a part of a Pentecostal-evangelistic AG environment. I still am paying dearly with a neurological condition called Dystonia, no doubt by all this evil and trying to oppose countless and relentless satanic attacks because I desire God’s presence and Holiness MORE than anything in this world, (as well as my pastor friend who I’m helping to strengthen and heal)..

BTW, what ever happened to giving a public apology to the body and to all people?

Please do not ignore this letter or retaliate by unbelief, apathy, or black-balling saints who desire Abba’s presence and desire to be holy. . Christ is coming VERY soon and we’ better repent NOW, clean up our acts and be ready to prepare ourselves as Jesus Yashuah’s virgin bride. Amen and amen!

Liberal Wisdom and Revelation


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Liberal Wisdom and Revelation
Journal Entry Saturday January 3, 2015

It is Saturday January third 2015…a new year. In March, it will be eight years dealing with the violent Dystonia spasms of my neck and throat. Mark and I have been back from out Missouri trip: attending Pastor Mel Bond’s miracle healing service. I had positive expectations of God’s creative manifestation. Having already read his powerful book on spiritual warfare and watching his You Tube healing videos, I knew him to be a soft-spoken and gracious man, not using hype to expound God’s greatness in healing. Besides the anticipation of meeting Pastor Mel in person, countless thoughts swirled in my mind. The usual, how could I be serving Father for so long and still be in miserable physical  torment despite continually declaring His healing words and taking authority over any negative thought, event or symptom. It was very frustrating to desire more of Holy Spirit and yet still suffering intensely.

Thus my continuing quest to understand the connection between my head knowledge and Father’s divine pathway to healing.

I meditate once again upon the much-read, but never fully revealed first chapter of Ephesians. Each time I reread it, I feel energized and my spirit illuminated. How can one not read the extravagant words without stopping to meditate upon God’s fatherly resplendent love and provision. He has given us every heavenly and earthly blessing to enjoy! What a book brimming with and explaining the nuances of our appointed divine treasures that father God has ordained to us since the beginning of time! I must admit that I have read the book of Ephesians hundreds of times since 1982, (the year of my salvation re-birth) and wonder why, at this late age, it strikes me in such a powerful way, so much so that I want to compose a tract and share it with the world!

Eph. 1: 3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoptions as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself according to the good pleasure of His will.

Just this opening statement in itself brims over with divine  abundance! Chapter seven continues elaborating on Father’s glorious  extravagance. blessings

In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins according to the riches of his grace which he made to abound toward us in all wisdom and prudence, having made known to us the mystery of His will according to His good pleasure which He purposed in Himself.

The first chapters of Ephesians is the introduction to the entry and adoption into the family of God! What a wonderful destiny to embrace and yet so many of God’s people are suffering in body and/or enduring poverty and need.

God’s people are now living in the great expanse of knowledge, written in Daniel 12:4)  In these present end times the church is also receiving the full brunt of satan’s rage. I ponder the irony of Paul’s declaring of the glorious destiny that every child of God receives once he follows Jesus Christ. God’s people are indeed perishing from lack of knowledge (there are many ways to perish). How can we awake and walk in that glorious destiny unless we are taught the word of God. Handling the word of God. 2 tim 2:15

Live call in Prayer hosted by Pastor Janet Ellsworth.

Each night at 12:30 am, I tune into CTN Christian network program You and Me, hosted by pastor Janet Ellsworth. This amazing woman of God always has an apt word for God’s children and she is always authoritative, yet enthusiastic and compassionate. As the night goes on and many callers share their burdens, I am astounded at how man are tormented with grievous bodily afflictions. Many call for a financial blessing and still many others ask for deliverance and demons to stop harassing them. It looks to me that the majority of God’s people have not received the pre-ordained blessings as cited in Ephesians and that their pastors, bishops, priests and rabbi’s have not taught them the very basics of the Christ life! Truly, it grieves my heart that so many brothers and sisters are greatly suffering. There are requests for healing and restoration of bodies as many are bedridden, house-bound and hospitalized. Surely, satan is  busy deploying his demons to hinder the gospel from going out into the streets by keeping God’s people in bondage. Something is seriously wrong!

We read in the Gospels’ how Jesus traveled from town to town and was deeply grieved at the wandering, suffering throngs that followed him for healing. During those times, people had little defense against demonic attack or possession. We see so many examples of people being enslaved by spirits of infirmity. We read that Jesus groaned in His spirit at the masses of the precious people scattered as lost sheep without a shepherd. He became known and glorified as the gentle healer.

Pastor Janet’s You and Me call in program is greatly needed. She begins the program with scripture and ends by ministering in compassionate prayer. People need to be taught the very basics of living in Christ,  (particularly, spiritual warfare) and to know how to defend themselves against satanic attack and oppression!  Many have no idea how demons got into their homes, attached themselves to their rebellious children or even how a voo-doo curse was placed by a angry, jealous neighbor or co-worker! This is reality. This is what God’s people are enduring. Sadly, many pastors have no idea how to cast out a demon or counsel and release an enslaved brother or sister out of bondage from a generational curse. This is incomprehensible. We must move away from the tepid Methodist and lukewarm, religious circles, because we are at war with a vicious and relentless enemy!

We read in the gospels about Jesus astounding (Exousia) authority! He promised that after He rose from the dead we would also be walking in both Dunimus) and w. Are pastors teaching the flock how to wield heavenly armament? How many Christians even know what dunimus and exousia are in the first place? I just recently heard a powerful teaching by John Paul Jackson. he elaborated on the power and authority we have in Christ. Yet, I see God’s people doing worse than non-believers! Again, I say something is wrong. We may have a testing period where we are struggling financially, but poverty and need should not be a permanent lifestyle, otherwise we’d be unable  to provide for the needs of the orphans, widows and the poor in our circle?

For the new year, pastors , church leaders and elders need to start getting with the program. It is time for the church to walk and abide in the great callings Paul taught in the book of Ephesians. He asks that we obtain the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of God and that our eyes be enlightened about the hope of His calling! Wow, that sounds like divine living. In that kind of living, there is joy unspeakable and full of glory. We are able to endure difficult times and circumstances in full hope that Jesus is always with us, even in the storm! Are God’s people so full of joy that the world sees it and rejoices? Does our joyful countenance make people compelled to taste and see that the Lord is good and invite them to be their Lord and Savior?.

But the church is too busy going on a witch hunt and scrutinizing small matters of personal conviction rather than teaching the glorious and edifying ways of Christ.

We can no longer abide in a place of lack or ignorance regarding achieving the full array of the glorious promises Father wants us to have. He wishes us to be prosperous and in good health. Yes, there will be times of testing when we may have to endure sickness for a while for His glory, in expectation of healing and restoration. There will be times when Father will allow a satanic attack to buffet us (as in Paul’s case when he asked God three times to take away the thorn in his flesh) , but use it as spiritual muscle-building test so Father is glorified.

The church is directed to build up each other in faith, in gifts and in callings. Love and edifying are the chief goals, but next in line is successful spiritual warfare and knowing our adversary the devil is about seeking to destroy. . Love and wisdom must walk hand in hand.

This January begins a fresh year where I’ll enter the next phase of God’s divine destiny, power, wisdom and prosperity. We must not think prosperity is limited to financial wealth, but wholeness in every area). Father invites us to ask Him for wisdom and we must not stop at where we are, but ask Him to continue imbue us with dunamis (dynamite) wisdom and exousia (authoritative) wisdom!

God bless you!

BEAUTIFUL hand-beaded, one-of-a-kind Chokers


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About Artist,Anita Ivette Ferrer

Anita Ivette Ferrer thought her unexpected health affliction would be short-lived. She didn’t expect to be still struggling over seven years later from Dystonia, a mysterious movement disorder which doctors say has no known cause nor cure. Anita is used to engaging challenging circumstances, but her latest has brought her to the forefront of uncharted territory Faith in Jesus Christ in hand coupled with an iron will propels her to new heights of spiritual self-discovery, supernatural trust in God and ultra creativity.

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When she wakes up each morning, she inwardly dreads another day coping with the pain and fatigue which could restrict her ability to live a normal life. But as she gets up from her bed, she relies upon Christ to empower her with strength and hope for the day! Her prayers are always answered as she tackles her house chores, outreach to the bedridden, elderly and dying and her creative endeavors.

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Quite by accident, Anita found a temporary respite from her violent facial twitching while repairing some old broken beaded chokers. She found that focusing upon the fine beadwork caused the muscles to cease pulling! The next thing she knew, she was spending more and more time at the craft stores purchasing unique, beautiful beads for her new passion!

Anita, 1989 Magna Cum Laude Brookdale Community College graduate whose major studies were in the humanities and social services, never imagined that a condition like Dystonia would lead her back to her childhood talent, designing!

fall,2014 139Anita believes with all her heart that her healing could be just a heart beat away. Though each day continues to be a struggle, God inspires her to keep the momentum going! She has learned through overcoming battle with chronic Lyme Disease, poverty, child abuse and domestic violence that in order to grow, one must re-invent themselves! Though she’s had to greatly curtail her performing and song-writing due to the spasms, her beaded jewelry design has taken her to new levels of exciting creativity and an opportunity to share her craft with the world. She also hopes to educate the public about Dystonia and movement disorders which are increasing. As yet the only treatments for Dystonia are Botox injections and DPS Deep Brain stimulation which Anita feels would not help her symptoms.

Anita resides with her husband and their cats in Browns Mills, NJ. She is also available to minister in music at your church or special event.

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Purchase of Anita’s creations helps her to continue ministering to the elderly, disable and hospice patient. You can find out more about Anita via her http://www.anitaivetteferrer.wordpress.com blogsite

Anita Ivette Ferrer
Anita Ivette Ferrer One of a Kind Designs
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Fighting the Good Fight of Sickness


Fighting the Good Fight of Sickness

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Children of God who struggle with a catastrophic  and chronic condition have the extra burden of dealing with excruciating pain. There are few things one can do except taking medication  which often doesn’t kill the pain. Struggling with all kinds of allergies, lung ailments, Lyme disease and Dystonia (from environmental illness) I’ve had to hunker down with Jesus and God’s word to get through each hour. I pray that you will find peace as you discipline yourself in His strengthening word

We also well know that we are in warfare and we shouldn’t be surprised at this fiery trial that is before us. Though Father never gives us illness, he always uses it for His glory and our benefit. In my case, suffering has taught me about the treasures of an empathetic heart and I find such blessings in sharing my gifts of singing-performing, encouragement and visiting at bedside the sick, elderly and dying.

I’ve also learned that illness often has an emotional-spiritual root, so I’ve had to work very hard to address many past issues of emotional traumas, abuse and abandonment. I highly suggest Henry Wright’s insightful book, A More excellent Way. Father is so faithful giving us the needed grace each day to move forward.

Recovery may also mean getting down to the nitty gritty of deliverance counseling and forgiveness. I have had to work  very hard for a few decades to abide peacefully in the shelter of His wings! Pray and ask Father and Holy Spirit if there is cleaning you need to do win your minds attic. Daily meditation of God’s word especially the Psalms can transform you immensely.

Pray, research, get counsel, pray, research. Be open-minded and open-hearted and see what miracles father has for you.

Duuteronomy 30:19

19 This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live

Don’t accept what the doctors tell you. God is the only one who has decreed your end. You have choice and treatment options. Do you want to beat this thing or die? It’s your choice!

Proverbs 18:21
Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.

Science has proven that the nerves connected speech, so the mouth and jaw are all interconnected with the brain cells and nuero-transmitters!

Psalm 139:14
(New living Translation)
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous–how well I know it.

The human body is astoundingly resilient, can heal itself Science still has not uncovered all the mysteries of the human body and its marvelous workmanship.

Psalm 139:17-18
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I could count them, they would be more in number than the sand.. When I awake, I am still with you.

Imagine God being so in love with you that he thinks about you all day? What a multitude of wonderful thoughts He has towards us and is with us every moment morning til our state of unconsciousness. Every Child of God must learn that Father loves us more than we could even fathom. A stronghold of many is the spirit of unworthiness. We have been rejected, bullied or unnoticed for most of our lives, this often, deeply-imbedded mental stronghold keeps us from truly believing we are worthy because of Jesus!

Isaiah 50:7
Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore have I set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame.

Phil 4:8
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.
Isaiah 43 18-19
18 “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness, and streams in the wasteland.

Ezekiel 37 12-14
Thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, O my people, I will open your graves, and cause you to come up out of your graves, and bring you into the land of Israel.
13 And ye shall know that I am the LORD, when I have opened your graves, O my people, and brought you up out of your graves,
14 and shall put my Spirit in you, and ye shall live, and I shall place you in your own land: then shall ye know that I the LORD have spoken it, and performed it, saith the LORD.
The valley of the dry bones has been the most mesmerizing of all scripture to me. I marvel at the wonder of God totally restoring dry, dead bones! He is more than able to do more than we can imagine.

Isaiah 53: 5
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.

Isaiah 58:8
Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.

Psalm 61
I will cry to you when my heart is overwhelmed.

Lam. 3:22-23
His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness.

Romans 8:35-36
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

Psalm 23

23The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green [1] pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest [2] my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. [3]

Jer. 17: 7 &8
…Blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.
8 They will be like a tree planted by the water, that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”

Rev 21:5
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

Is. 43:19
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.

Rev 21:5
And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.

Psalm 119:33
Order my steps in thy word: and let not any iniquity have dominion over me.

Psalm, 46:10
…. “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”

Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Psalm, 30:5
For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.
Phil 4:8

…whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.

Eph 2:10

For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Isaiah 59:19 So shall they fear the name of the Lord from the west, and his glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him.

Sloppy Agape or a Penchant for Priestliness


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Okay…this title has been nagging me to be published all week!  TV lady pastor, Joyce Meyer joked about it, but to God, living any old sloppy way is not expedient. I thought about sloppy agape and knew this would be a very important message for God’s people.

First off, we all need to get a good revelation of who we are in Christ. If we are Gentile, we are adopted into the spiritual family of Christ through adoption.  Bless the Lord, oh my soul and forget not His benefits. Forget not that our sins were forgiven, we were redeemed from family or generational curses and our broken bodies were healed by His stripes! It’s all finished and the debt has been paid in full;. That being said, we have much to rejoice and be thankful for.

We are kings and priests and we have direct access to the Holy of Holies, Father God’s very presence. Wow! Think about that for a second. Priesthood was a very serious business in the old testament.  One tribe of Israel was granted the privilege of ministering to the Lord, The Levites. The high priest’s role was quite serious, so much so that his holiness and life had to be pleasing before God. If not, he would be struck dead and would have to be pulled out of the holy place by a rope tied to his ankle. That;s how it was in the old testament.

Though we Gentile Christians are not  bound by old testament, we are even more so required to walk as a new creation. What does  that mean? Old things are passed away, all things are new as a child of  God. 2 Cor 5:17.  C

Christian get a back rap by non believers. Many say that we talk the talk but don’t do the walk. Some say we are judgmental and some say we are hypocrites. We say one thing but do another. We are on the precipice of some very cataclysmic earthly, spiritual, political and environmental changes. Everything that can be shaken will be turned upside down.

It is time for all of us to awake and walk according to Father’s  will and pattern.  God is seeking children whose hearts are after Him, whose hearts are pure and who sincerely desire His presence.

If you’ve ever noticed how the cardinals  or Rabbinical priest walk, you’ll see that they are stately and serious.  Their robes are perfect and they are focused as they set about their business.  We are even more so, called and sanctified. God’s word says:

But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.  That is amazing!

We  are not to accept Christ as a ticket to get into heaven for free, but as a deliberate and brand new way to live. This is not the time to live sloppy agape, where anything goes and grace is cheap.  Christ’s grace was priceless and bought as a sacrifice, His very own life! Shouldn’t we revere that calling and give our precious Savior our due honor He deserves!

I encourage you, dear brother or sister to sit at Father’s feet. Be still and listen to want he wants to say to you. Jesus gave us an example of how to pray.  Mat 6:9

Pastor Derrick Prince  gave a beautiful lesson on how to pray so that father would answer our prayers.

The Bible also tells us to lift up holy hands without wrath or doubting.  1 Tim 2:8. We can’t expect father to honor our prayers when we have  resentment or bitterness against a person, we are fornicating with our boyfriend or girlfriend, having adultery with another’s spouse or doing anything that is contrary to God’s word. Being careless with sinning is living a sloppy agape life.

Coming to Christ means you are committing yourself not only to a life of joyful service and but one where your desire is to please  Your Heavenly Father in every way. I anticipate standing before Jesus and Him saying to me, “Well done, my faithful daughter. You have been faithful and here is your reward”

Not everyone will get a mansion or a palace.  Someone who has lived a sloppy agape life on earth will not get the same reward as faithful missionaries or widows who have served and washed the saints feet all their lives. The Bible says there are rewards . Every child of God has gifts which will contribute to the foundation, Christs holy house. 1 Cor 3:12-13.

Let us carefully build upon that house so that we are not ashamed when we stand before our Lord.   May we ask Holy Spirit to help us in our often  spiritual inventory.

Father, we may honor You in every way. Before we even arise upon our beds to start the day may we pray,

Psalm 19:14

May these words of my mouth and this meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.

The last and best thing about being a child of the king is the reward we get at the end of our lives! We may get overwhelmed and distressed about the ever-deepening darkness, but the bottom, line is that …we win! Remind yourself often by re-reading the best chapter in the Bible, Revelation 21 and  where our hero, the Lamb annihilates the enemies of His people The anti christ and false prophet are kicked into the flaming abyss where they will suffer forever for their dastardly deeds.  We await the marriage supper of the Lamb and get to enjoy eternity in Heaven. Dig the awesome description of what the Holy city of New Jerusalem is like!  I can’t see any reason, anyone wouldn’t want to be part of such an unspeakable wonderful destiny as this.

I pray, my brother or sister that you would have a penchant for your Holy priesthood and for those things that are holy, pure and sanctified and may Holy Spirit guide you in all your intentions and doings, amen!

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