NEAR to the BROKEN-HEARTED


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The weight was becoming so crushing that Barbara could barely  breath

I got off of my tread mill, at the telephones’ ringing and heard my precious sister Barbara’s voice, weak with grief.  She was grieving for her son, Adam and it was a very difficult time for her. I was grateful to be  available for her and listened as she poured out her heart to me. Feelings of protectiveness came over me like a mother bear seeing her cub being threatened.  I knew the enmey was trying to drag her backwards into the depths of bondage.  I waited for Holy Spirit to download instruction on how to minister to her.

I felt a very heavy burden of anguish and then I asked her to rest and be still because I was going to release a song over her. The inspiration of lyrics came to me the past Saturday because of a burden for my three younger sisters who were are battling weights from their past. As I was checking my emails, I saw a dear prophetic brother who wrote that Holy Spirit had told him I was going to write another song. I grabbed my pen and within 5 minutes I wrote  “Enter My Rest” Holy Spirit reminded me  of  Hebrews 4:11Let us therefore strive to enter into His rest.

I could feel a spiritual tug of war going on with Barbra, but I told her I felt to sing Shalom over her. the new song,  Enter my Rest and Beautiful Daughter. Holy Spirit was showing me that Abba wanted her to  let go of all the weights..and rest in him. Then He showed me a performance anxiety spirit was pulling her. So we prayed together against the spirit.    I saw that we indeed were in a tug of war. Yashuah Jesus, Barbara and I were on one side of the  rope and the  demonic spirits at the other end. We continued to pray and we took authority over the spirits. .

As we were waging warfare,  standing firm, we felt the noose was loosening. Barbara prayed and then started singing Hallelujah, we sing hallelujah. I joined in and we were singeing prophetically.

hallelujah. We sing hallelujah,  We sing hallelujah to our King

You release us to the skies, cause we are butterflies.

We are soaring into glory.. He releases us into the skies

We soar on weightless wings and look into our Father eyes,

All of a sudden, Barbara laughed and she was light with exhilaration. Father helped her to break through. It was so delightful, she suddenly burst out that she saw a vision of millions of Monarch butterflies being released. WOW! was all I could say!

Truly, Barbara’s received a glorious breakthrough and fresh  anointing of her ability to see visions. We were enthralled at the fresh unction of confidence and strength Father had given her and we marveled at how Father is so near His children when they are broken-hearted.

During my prayer over Barbara, I also  reminded her  that Yashuah had already set a banquet table for us to dine on His exquisite delicacies of mercy and grace, among many others.  Though He invites us and often we come in shabby clothes and   broken as paupers, he garbs us in  pure white wedding gowns, spotless in His blood.  Sister Barbara and all my precious brothers and sisters, let us fall back into His hammock of love after you have confessed your sins and weaknesses! Release and rest!

“Enter My Rest” Holy Spirit reminds us in  Hebrews 4:11.  Let us therefore strive to enter into His rest. For some of us, we may need to ask God’s help to discipline ourselves from the stringent bondage of work and striving. God is faithful..He hears our cries and will surely help!

Are You THIRSTING?


 Isaiah 55:1
Is anyone thirsty? Come and drink–even if you have no money! Come, take your choice of wine or milk–it’s all free!

 When I was a very young believer, fronting our Christian hard rock band, The Promise with my then boyfriend, lead guitarist, Chris, Isaiah’s words leaped at my heart. The call was so compelling that we wrote “Are  You Thirsting” for our band repertoire’s opening call.

  Many today are thirsting and many others do not even realize their  frenzied searching for truth and dabbling in the occult is a cry for truth. My prayer is that the compelling videos included here in my blog today  will be the answer you are searching for. I especially challenge my Jewish brothers and sisters to look up in your prayer time and ask Father Jehovah to reveal the truth once and for all.

 In these last days,  God’s Clarion call rings out to all across the globe.
May these wonderful videos move your heart  that Jesus Yashiach  HaMaschiah is the risen and glorious son of the most high God.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjDQ-fLWzPk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PGHHwUQjEYQ
Behold he is risen from the dead and has given us all the authority over satan and his  cohorts. Behold, the harvest is white for the reaping of which Father God is equipping and anointing His children to do His business. Father has given us a reprieve and we must be about our work quickly. Now is the time for salvation. Now is the appointed time for all to come to the cross. Our God has opened up the doors of hidden wisdom and revelation and His people must  take advantage and declare the way of the Lord to every people, tongue and nation. In times past, truth was sealed, but God has chosen to use modern technology to show the hard-hearted and doubtful that His Son,  has truly come and risen from the grave to give us eternal life and salvation.
 Heavenly Father,  we beseech thee with broken and humble hearts.  Help us be unified, all of us  standing in the gap for the lost. Lord of heaven and earth, creator of the universe. be merciful for those who have been led astray.  bring your precious Jewish people back into Your fold, their glorious destiny. We declare open hearts and open minds to be illuminated by precious Holy Spirit, Ruach HaKodesh . We thank you for Your harvest, in Jesus name, amen.

SILENCING the SONGBIRD


angel in  copper silk gown1“Lord, help me get through this. Help me, please” I kept saying as my jaw and mouth started to throb and convulse. I boldly accepted my pastor’s invitation to perform at the Jackson Baptist glory Celebration, a musical worship concert of local worship leaders and teams. A week ago, I emailed Pastor Sandra that I’d be performing His Eye is on the Sparrow and It is Well, two of my favorites that I sang to the residents of my area nursing home and the local physical rehabilitation centers. Those two songs were staples because they were a reminder of God’s promise to me that He was with me even in the valley. I had to play these two songs on my guitar almost everyday, just to remind myself that indeed, despite the incessant, tormenting pulling in my neck, the jerking of my arms and the rapid opening and closing of my mouth, one day, I would be released. It took every ounce of focus to do anything of substance. During this TMJ-Dystonia tenure, I’d programmed myself to call upon the Lord to strengthen me.. Steadfast confidence and reliance on Him was always the reward. That was who Father was,…always gracious in answering my prayer to give my best to my performances.

As more people entered the church, I could feel the excitement, which propelled me even more to be in close communion with Father. My husband Mark, saw I was in distress and massaged my neck. A girlfriend showed up, excited and encouraging and also gave me a neck massage.
People were filling into the well-lit church while the musicians and singers waited on the platform for the sound engineer to tweak their sound. My turn came and I adjusted the microphone. An older guitarist gentleman told me I could plug my guitar to his box which was a blessing so I didn’t have to set up all my effects pedals. Then I took a back seat near the edge of the church so people wouldn’t see my mouth contort. I hunched over in my seat, trying to take deep breaths to control the violent pulling and spasming in my neck. I felt an anxiety rise up, which always happened when the muscles got inflamed from the continua movement of my jaw. I continued to pray and stay alert .It was getting harder and harder to stay comfortable and I had to fight the impulse to run to the car and lay on my back for relief.

Finally, the concert started with a vivacious acapella trio. I was third in line. Then my Pastor approached the stage and introduced herself and me. I scurried up to the platform, nonchalant about my nondescript and unglamourous appearance. I’d long ago discarded my adherence to looking beautiful and well-coifed because it took so much energy to get through each hour. It had come to the point where it took an enormous amount of focus to do basic chores, my exercise routine, my daily voice scales and guitar practice. My only concern now, was to focus  on my performance-ministering in God’s anointing. To people enduring catastrophic illness, outward, perfect beauty is the last concern. Our symptoms wear us out to the point that we can’t be concerned that our make-up is perfect. Anyway, my lipstick and mascara always smeared or wore off halfway into any activity. My face always ended up leaning on my hands as I tried to position my head and neck in a comfortable way. Such is dealing with an upper cervical-spinal issue. I felt peaceful as I faced the audience.
“I’m so blessed and thankful to be here tonight despite having a very difficult almost nine years struggling with Dystina-TMJ, a neurological disorder similar to Parkinson. I’m so glad to be here to encourage any of you who are stiffening with any kind of illness. No matter who you are, God cares about what you are going through. Indeed, His eye is on the sparrow and as He is attentive to a tiny sparrow falling to the ground, so much more so are you precious in His sight”

The strains of my guitar and voice filled the church and I felt at ease, hardly aware of any muscles neck spasms. It was amazing how relaxed I now felt,compared to the preceding hour of anguish in my neck. I knew it was all Him! At the end of His Eye Is on the Sparrow, I paused for a second.  My eyes swept across the people’s faces as they sat spell bound watching me and listening to my every word. My face softened and I said, “It is well. It is Well.”
I then felt a surge of strength and stated, “You know, no weapon formed against you shall proper and Satan is under your feet. Get a hold of that and decide to walk powerfully in God’s strength. The devil is under your feet!”

JACKSON BAPTIST Church concert June  5, 2016

The audience grabbed a hold of that one and I preceded to sing It is well. I was joyful to hear one of the drummers accompanying me and my performance came alive with God’s hope and victory for everyone who’d choose to believe that all is well because of Christ’s victory on the cross!

By the third verse, everyone was standing and joined in through the end of the song! The chorus…It is well, with my soul reverberated with the layered harmonies of many voices. It was a transcendent moment for me! Father God punctuated His daughter’s glorifying music performance with His healing presence.

As I left the stage with the applause still lingering, the wicked spasms came back with a vengeance and I told Mark and my friend I had to lay down. I rushed to our HHR car and rested, immediately feeling less pressure in my neck. After about a half an hour, I decided to go back in, in case there was anyone who wanted to talk with me or have prayer. I was immediately approaches by several people One tall lady in particular, grabbed my hand.

“Hello sister and what can I pray with you for?”I asked.

“I was so blessed…so blessed by your songs. ” She gushed with tear-filled eyes. ” I have Lupus and have been very depressed for a long time.” She went on to share a little of her story and then a pastor joined me as I prepared to pray over the sister. Quite a few more people approached me to hug me and shake my hand and then I felt weak with the excitement and challenge of the night. I retreated back to the car to rest.

As I meditate and chronicle this pivotal evening of my life, I ponder the mystery of my battle-journey.  This TMJ-Dystonia condition has affected me in so many ways, some bad, but mostly good. Anyone diagnosed with a chronic illness will first ask, “Why me, God?” Then they will become angry at the injustice of it all and then resign themselves, either to resentment-bitterness or they decide that they will fight back and make the best of it! I have chosen to be the victorer and make the best of this daunting trial and trust that father will get all the glory from it!l

My encouragement to anyone enduring a daily or terminal illness is to weight your thoughts, dreams, standards and hopes by God’s word and His living presence. The Bible doesn’t answer all the the Jobian mysteries of a catastrophic health condition. For me it’s been groping my way through a dark maze and then leaving the “out” door onto a terrain riddled with land mines. Failure and death lurks beside every mine and one wrong step could propel you into the cemetery of resignation. I’ve often asked myself why I forge forward in my research, knowledge of Biblical healing and preventative medicine, (natural healing) when I’m daily almost overwhelmed with these devastating muscle-neurological and bio-chemical abnormalities.

I’ve learned from Dr Caroline Leaf (brain scientist) about the utter complexity of how the brain and the nuero-transmitters react to stress and trauma. From her research I’ve gleaned amazing insight on the importance of learning, meditating and relying on God’s divine and superior knowledge. After all, He did create and fashion our bodies in the most unfathomable ways ways!

Coming from a background of extreme abuse (bullying and domestic violence) and suffering much rejection because of generational sins, and then being redeemed  and transformed by Christ’s Yashuha’s love and freedom, reminds me  of my vow to the evil powers that be, that I will never again live in bondage. Though these devastating symptoms threaten me each day to hold me captive, I’ve relied on God’s Holy Spirit to empower me with His all-abiding strength, resilience and the possibility of total healing-restoration! Who else can promise that? Neither doctors, nor the toxic drugs they push can promise the prefect healing of our physician, Christ the messiah whose very stripes enabled us to walk in restoration!

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I, for one, need nothing else, but Him. The irony of my health journey has been that my enemy has tried to silence me by afflicting the very tools of my ministry. A worship leader-psalmist-speaker’s mouth and voice are the instruments with which she/he expounds God’s healing words, promises and anointed presence. Only in God’s presence is healing, so my enemy has chosen to viciously attack me, ( in my neck, vocal chords, throat and jaw) so that he can shut me down and shut off God’s healing works through me!

Ten years ago, somewhat vivacious and passionately aspired to get signed and go on tour, I never would have imagined to join the ranks of the “disabled” population.  Any pride or self-reliance I had is now completely extinguished and I’ve been brought to the place of humble submission…total reliance on Him alone!. This is Father’s refining process for me. I’m on his potters’ wheel and He is shaping me to what he wishes me to be. (Now, I can’t say that I’m always still and yielding) but mostly, I trust that He knows what He is doing.

He is using a chosen instrument, not of my parents ilk. None of my parents were musicians, nether were any composers or played instruments! It has been a testimony for God to teach me how to play guitar and compose the beautiful Psalms he has given me. It will be seven years since beginning the recording of my album MOD PROPHET and then my worship CD,  The Anointing, His Presence. They are nearing completion, getting more polished and glorious with each song. I will not stop and neither shall my enemy stop my mouth from praising Him and teaching the world of His great promises and Love.

The songbird will sing!

 

PUT UP YOUR DUKES


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Strategic Warfare  (Holiness, Fasting and Unceasing Prayer)

I want to discus with you beloved brethren about the  crisis and proliferation of false prophets and false shepherds. YouTube is replete with prophetic posts and words from the Lord. I was very troubles to come across  well-respected Pastor Perry Stone asking Brian Carn to repent. On the right side of the YouTube page were other brethren also calling out Brian. I was very sad to read these other  allegations. Indeed there seems to be a proliferation of people  prophesying Thus saith the Lord.

Truly, we are in very dark times and Jesus told us that there woudl be many false prophets. Today, a sister asked me to respond to her post about the miraculous outpourings of salvation upon the Muslim people and their visions and visitations by Jesus to them. A sister responded that the woman of God who was  ministering to this group was performing eh miracles through satan. Now this is certainly something we need to be aware of and spiritually discerning about. This sister made some very relevant points.

 Many would come in Jesus’ name and would be deceived,  Mat 24:5 2. The word of God is truth’s test. 3. Call them out and warn others.

Bethel Church (Bill Johnson Hillsongs; Brian Houston, Rick Warren, to name just a few) are all in question by man brethren. It certainly is a very  hard things to discern between the true men and women of God and the false. We know that if it were possible, the very elect would be deceived.

Mat 24:24  For false Christs and false prophets will arise and will show great signs and wonders, so as to mislead, if possible, even the elect.

I doubt that any of us are above being deceived, so we need to more than ever fa sat and pray for however long it takes to receive a direct answer from Holy Spirit. After all He is the true reveler

john 16:13 .But when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will show you things to come.

Heidi Baker shared her precious testimony on Sid Roth’s It’s Supernatural program. She seems a woman whose heart was pure and seeking the Lord with all her heart at a very young age. It’s hard to believe that she started out as a “false” prophet. It’s hard to believe that any of the TV Evangelist, prophets or teachers began with impure motives. Most of us start out wanted  God so much with a pure heart. So when and how does the “false” anointing and prophesies come in?

We can discern the truth of a person’s identity by examining their fruit, Jesus said you’ll know them by their fruit. We must also pray unceasingly and with great focus. As satan is incessant in pummeling us with lies and deception, so must we engage. The greatest sin of the pastors and teachers, especially of the mega churches is they are not  grooming their flocks to seek  and revere Father’s presence! the most needful thing for God’s people is to hunger after Him. How many of His children are crying out to sit in His presence and worship? We are in serious trouble, folks. A precious prophetic brother of mine who also struggles with a physical malady share what Holy Spirit gives him. People, Abba God is devastated about the lack of love and hunger His people have for Him. is cup is about to overflow with indignation because weare walking in hypocrisy and sin.

Here is the message Holy Spirit gave to my brother:

“My son, I am bringing a full fledge of My fire upon My church because of the great sin it has committed against Me. I am bringing this fire My son because it is absolutely necessary to burn up the sin which has overtaken the leaders of My church. My fire is necessary My son because of the enormity of sin that is within My holy temple from the leaders to those who sit listening to them. My son, why are there so few calling out for My holiness? My son, holiness is not an option. It is what I require because it reveals the true intent of the heart. It reveals My son those who are for Me and those who are not. My son, why are so few standing up and calling out for My fire? My son, I love My precious church but why doesn’t My precious church love Me anymore?

   My son, My heart aches for the multitudes who have abandoned Me. My son, My temple is supposed to be holy, it is supposed to be pure, it is supposed to be undefiled. My son, My word says that I search to and fro seeking those who are Mine but I am finding so few who have hearts of worship for Me. My son, My priests have abandoned their calling because their calling was first to Me and then to lead My flock but so many have jumped into bed with the world. My body, My precious body My son have no one to lead them because My priests, My leaders have allowed prostitutes into My holy temple, My holy place. My son, what I am sending will not be pretty but is absolutely necessary.

My son tell anyone, tell everyone what I have spoken to you. My son, tell, tell, tell anyone who will listen to you that the hour is so late and I am getting ready now to call those who are My church, who are My precious bride, home. My son, I am asking My temple to rend their heart and not their garments because their garments have been polluted by the sin of this world, the sin of riches, the sin of filthy lucre. How My son did this happen to My precious church? I am calling out right now to My precious body that the time for preparation is over but how many will hear My voice? How many will hear My heart since very few know My heart anymore? My son, the day of preparation is over because the day is at hand for My times of fire. My son, the day of My cloven tongues of fire is at hand. The day and the hour of My fire, the fire of My Holy Spirit which will reveal whose hearts are for Meand whose hearts are not is now at hand.”


This blogs’ message is even more urgent than the last one. Those who are  zealous for the Lord know that the falling away has already occurred and many are being swept away into deep delusion. My heart is sobbing for my brethren who have lost their first love. Every night in bed, in my darkened room, I cry out, “Mercy, Abba, mercy” I know his judgment will come swiftly and His fire burning to a crisp  those who prophets them  with their mouths, but whose hearts are far from Abba. Oh, my, I have to search deeply my own self every day to stay close to Him, to worship in spirit and truth and pray for others to receive the priceless revelation of His majesty and the accessibility into the Holy of Holies…His glorious presence.

Once saved is not always saved and being close to Father, Yashuah and Ruach HaKodesh years ago or even weeks ago is not the same as abiding in His presence. Abiding in Him means to stay connected with him every day and often, with so many distractions and fearful world events, we can very well loose sight of His ever-abiding presence and His hope!

I urge you brothers and sisters, especially if your in a mega-church…to re-assess your relationship with Jehovah Father, Yashuah Jesus and holy Spirit.  The hour is so late, we may not have the next day to repent. We are called to lift up Holy hands. Put away looking at worthless things,  Psalm 119:37 Are you focused on your job, making more money to buy more toys and material things? Are your priorities on your hobbies, refurbishing your car and/or home? Is most of your time spent watching sports and TV?  These ear all “worthless” things which won’t amount to dust  When we see sin, false prophets leading the sheep astray)  we must confront and pray unceasingly. Fast…and pray in the Holy Spirit.

.The bottom line, our life’s mission is to love the Lord with all our mind, soul and spirit and love our neighbors as ourselves. That is how we can fend satan’s blows of deception, idolatry and worldliness. Satan will drag many of God’s people into hell by their selfishness and carnality. It must hurt and anger Father that the meg-churches boast thousands of members, yet there the sheer numbers don’t dent the staggering numbers of poor and homeless people amidst their very cities!.

We can certainly judge by  fruits and the inability of the church to address such abject poverty is a true sign of hypocrisy and sin. There is such a things as overabundance of opulence and wealth (and a mismanagement of stewardship regarding the finances which come in to the coffers.  Is it really needed to have several million-dollar homes and  exotic cars? There is nothing wrong with great wealth, but when it is is hoarded to a high degree, it is somehow evil. Father is watching those who give generously in their alms-giving. And we will be held accountable for our stewardship of our wealth, finances and even our time. Church, we must  immediately get circumspect with our walks because His coming is imminent. If you’re lacking in any point, repent, renounce your greed, sin or apathy and move forward in abundant l worship (to Him)  love and giving.  Living Holy, repentant lives is how we defend ourselves from the wiles of satan.

Holy spirit recently anointed me with a precious new song called Fruits of Repentance.  Jeremiah 616. One of the verses is from Jeremiah 6:16 , “Stand by the ways and see and ask for the ancient paths, Where the good way is, and walk in it; And you will find rest for your souls.  Now if the time for us to get back to the basics, obey His commandments and ask for the old ways…for they are righteous!

Until the church gets a strong revelation of personal obedience and reverance for His presence, many will be shocked when Yashuah says, “”depart from me who work iniquity!”

Many will weep in torment when cast out into utter darkness and eternal separation. My brother or sister, make your path straight. Ask Holy Spirit to examine your walk everyday and listen…and obey. God bless you beloved.

WHY PRAY?


Prayer is the backbone of the Christian walk and without it, nothing can be accomplished in Heaven or earth. By the very power of our tongues’ confession we can move mountains,  fell giants and change the destiny of peoples and nations.

Many of our brothers and sisters have such a small vision of themselves that they don’t even believe that their prayers are heard. Why? Because they’ve not received a revelation of their identity in Christ.

The effectual, fervent prayer of a man or woman avails much Jam 5:17. Two main descriptive adjectives describe what kind of prayer moves God.  The original translation of fervent means to boil, to be hot, having fervor and zeal. According to Strong’s concordance, effectual,  means to energize or be energized. Barclay describes prayers as empowering contact with God. It’s not only a gateway to God for us, but is a channel to God for us! This should get us exited  because we are being plugged into the divine, all-encompassing power  of our almighty Heavenly Father.

Sometimes, we come into God’s presence as if it’s a chore or obligation. I definitely can understand that in light of the daunting, evil things transpiring around the world at present. Even the most passionate prayer intercessor can get disheartened and weary from travailing in prayer. I know that at times, as Holy Spirit  impress on me to pray about horrific events, particularly the ISIS invasion , (and their barbarically bloody way of Jihad) and the fetus marketing  I’m worn out when done and just want t get under the covers.

I would like to share with you how to get reignited with zeal and passion by reading about and meditating on the great prayer warriors of the Bible and how their prayers succeeded. Let us remember that some of them were fearful or young, but God uses those who are not equipped, but available and willing.

Moses

Moses had such an intimate relationship with God, that he was able to reason with the Lord.  His people, the Israelites resorted to idolatry while He was giving Moses the commandments on  Mount Sinai. God told Moses to go down quickly because he was about to consume His own people. Moses prayerful reply was reminding Jehovahah of the covenant He’d made with Abraham, Issac and Jacob. Then the Lord relented. When an intercessor knows his identity in His Heavenly Father, he is able to stand in the gap fr the people he leads. Many times Moses tried to convince God from not destroying the people because of unbelief and rebellion. Most of us are also familiar with Moses most famous exploit, parting the Red Sea.

Gideon

Gideon was a man called out by God as a judge during the period of the Judges  An angel of the Lord appeared and  called him a mighty man of valor!  Gideon replied that his clan, Manasseh was the weakest clan and he was least in his father’s house. His prayerful response was asking the Angel why his people were in such derision and ended his discourse with asking if he could lay out a fleece to prove His promise. God was gracious and listened to Gideon’s reasoning. From henceforth, Gideon boldly destroyed his father’s  Baal altar and later subdued the vicious Midainites! No matter what background or station in life, when God calls us to do great exploits, we can be assured that we will be victorious because He has called us to do it!

Joshuah

Since Joshua’s first escapade with the eleven other spies, he continued to be bold and faithful to God’s commands. He and Caleb didn’t flinch when they saw the size of the giants who occupied the land they were ordained to possess. num 13  Caleb had a different spirit than the other spies.  When Caleb announced to the Isrealites that the protection of the Anakim, ( a certain race of giants) was gone, they still protested because of intimidation of Caleb;s confidence that they tore their clothe and wanted to stone, Joshua, Caleb and Moses. The Lord was angry about their lack f faith and cowardice and  said that the only ones who would enter the promised land would be  Joshua and Caleb. These two men were greatly  favored and revered militarily. In another amazing miraculous episode, Joshua asked Gd to still the sun from going down so he and the army could finish ff their adversaries, 

Nehemiah:

Nehemiah was another beloved man f God who had a heart fr his people the Jews. He was cup bearer to King, Artaxerxes

Lord, the God of heaven, the great and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love with those who love him and keep his commandments, let your ear be attentive and your eyes open to hear the prayer your servant is praying before you day and night for your servants, the people of Israel. I confess the sins we Israelites, including myself and my father’s family, have committed against you. We have acted very wickedly toward you. We have not obeyed the commands, decrees and laws you gave your servant Moses.

“Remember the instruction you gave your servant Moses, saying, ‘If you are unfaithful, I will scatter you among the nations, but if you return to me and obey my commands, then even if your exiled people are at the farthest horizon, I will gather them from there and bring them to the place I have chosen as a dwelling for my Name.’

10 “They are your servants and your people, whom you redeemed by your great strength and your mighty hand. 11 Lord, let your ear be attentive to the prayer of this your servant and to the prayer of your servants who delight in revering your name. Give your servant success today by granting him favorin the presence of this man.”

Nehemiah was of an excellent spirit, compassionate and focused to organize the rebuilding of the beloved city, Jerusalem. The walls were breached in many places and broken down completely in others. Even the people’s spirits were broken, but he planned, organized and followed through with the rebuild ed. There were  several daunting adversaries intimidating the workers and who wanted to assassinate Nehemiah. Nevertheless, He prayed and those below him prayed fr God’s strength and success.anon

King Jehoshaphat

2 Chron 20 tells of King Jehoshaphat suddenly being encompassed-by the Moabites, Ammonites and other gro.  He was very afraid and had the people fast.

Lord, the God of our ancestors, you alone are God in heaven. You rule all the kingdoms of the nations. You are so powerful that no one can oppose you. You, our God, drove out the inhabitants of this land before your people Israel and gave this land to the descendants of your friend Abraham forever. They have lived in it and have built a sanctuary in honor of your name in it, saying, ‘If calamity, sword, flood,[c] plague, or famine comes upon us, we will stand before this temple, before you, because your name is in this temple. We will cry out to you in our distress, and you will hear us and save us.’ 10 So look here! The Ammonites, the Moabites, and those from Mount Seir—the people you wouldn’t let Israel invade when they came out of Egypt’s land, so Israel avoided them and didn’t destroy them— 11 here they are, returning the favor by coming to drive us out of your possession that you gave to us!12 Our God, won’t you punish them? We are powerless against this mighty army that is about to attack us. We don’t know what to do, and so we are looking to you for help.”

The Holy Spirit came upon the attending prophets and told King Jehoshaphat that the Lord would be with them and t not be afraid.  The King prepared for the victory by appointing singers to give praise before the Lord. They were to march in front f the army. The Lord launched a surprise attack n the armies and thousands f corpses all lay n the ground.

There are many other  stories of the great conquests by  God’s leaders, prophets, kings and servants and time just doesn’t permit me to share them all. They all had several things in common.

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Queen Esther’s story is most amazing because she  started out as an orphan. Her cousin, Mordecia  adopted  and raised her. Esther’s Jewish name is Hadassah and she ended up being chosen as King Xerxes new queen after his former Queen Vashti was dethroned.  From all the many maidens, Esther excelled over them all. But the king  did not know her heritage.   Esther was faced with the greatest crisis of her life when Mordecai revealed an insiduos plane where Haman, the king’s second man in commend, caused King Ahaseraus to write a decree that all the Jews in the Land should be destroyed. When Mordecai found out, he told Esther.  She then called all the people of Susa to fast for three days as well as her maidens.  Esther knew her God and knew that He would deliver her and her people. The king could not change his decree, but  Mordecia convinced her that  it may be her destiny “for such a time as this” to stand and deliver her people. As it turned out, Esther requested to see the King and he heard her request. The king issued a Deere where the Jews would be able to defend themselves if any came to harm them. For this reason was the great queen Esther revered and the Jews celebrate the  holiday of Purim.

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Daniel

Devote American Christian saints today complain that we are vexed by our  perverted culture, but there is nothing new under the sun. Daniel and  his friends were taken away and forced to live the Babylonian culture. He spent his whole life serving in the royal court of Babylon.Despite the influences of the pagan culture., Daniel thrived, communing intimately with His God. He was so focused, that he prayed three times a day, with his windows opened toward Jerusalem. Daniels’ captorss acknowledged that Daniel’s outstanding wisdom, training and intelligence was from His mighty God.  That dedication to God paid off when Daniel had to endure being thrown int the lion’s den;  Fellow servants of the King, came to accuse Daniel of not obeying the decree to worshiping him alone. The king was grieved because he loved Daniel and so revered the exceptional live he lived because of his God, Yahweh. They pressured the king and Daniel was thrown  into the lion’s den.

In the morning. after a sleepless night, the king rushed to the den were Daniel was and cried, “Daniel, servant of the living Gd, has your God delivered you from the lion’s?” He knew who the true God was. God is always near too those of a broken and contrite spirit. Gd always hears the cries of His children who are in covenant with Him. Do you disbelieve God’s almighty power and ability to save? I urge you to test Him. Taste and see…that He truly is good! You’ll not be disappointed.

God’s great prayer warriors have  several things in common

  • They were totally commuted to God
  • They were focused on Him alone being the victory over whatever challenge they had to face.
  • They were courageous
  • Most important, they knew how to worship and revere Him

Jesus, our advocate, intercedes on our behalf. Rom 8:34 When the disciples asked him how to pray, He gave us The Lord’s prayer as a templet. We should always remember  that He isn’t a magic genie or Santa Claus. He is Holy and we should enter in with reverence and honor Him for who He is… Creator of heaven and earth and God of the universe. Blessed are we that whenever we’re in a sudden bind and  can only say a quick prayer, God immediately hears us!  Let us thank Him for all our miracles and provision.

Whenever we feel our prayers aren’t being answered or we feel we are unworthy to have our prayer heard, we should recall and meditate on these aforementioned brethren who believed in their great God and loving father, for He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow! If we are in covenant with Father and abide in the vine, every prayer is always heard. It is time for us to enter boldly, with confidence and reverence and expectation.

 

 

 

 

WAGING SPIRITUAL WARFARE WITH CONFIDENCE


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For the wounded, vulnerable, and physically-challenged

Dear Precious sister or brother, are you discouraged? Are You disgusted and think Father God-Jesus has not heard nor answered your prayer? Are you worn out by fighting, crying and discouragement? Are you baffled and perplexed that you’re not only hit with one trial but  two, three or four at a time and you just cannot take one more hit?

I want to let you in on a little secret.on what is going on so you can adequately prepare and strengthen yourself in these daunting times. Many unseen things are happening in the spiritual realm. Satan’s time is short and he is stepping up his plans to “wear down” the saints of God. One of my spiritual mentors and pastors, Augusto Perez, sent us prayer intercessors an urgent prayer request a few years ago. I was taken aback and totally uninformed about the various demonic groups (sorcerers, warlocks and other”called” elite) whose MO is to destroy humanity at every cost. Only God Himself knows what  these ceremonies entailed for us here on planet earth. If you haven’t noticed, the spirits released from the abyss through these evil ceremonies are responsible for the  lawlessness, school shootings, ISIS attacks and a myriad of other atrocities.

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/tribulation-now/2015/10/29/piercing-the-darkness-with-pastor-augusto-perez

You won’t hear this from the average pastor, but this is a reality and a VERY frightening reality for all the inhabitants of the earth. Thankfully, the Child of God abiding in God’s shelter does not have to fear the grave assaults of our nemesis.  Strategic plans to wear us down are  chronic and terminal sicknesses, financial distress,  wayward and rebellious children wreaking havoc on their families, nervous breakdowns,  domestic violence, suicide, irreconcilable differences causing divorces,  and substance abuse destroying families. These attacks are hitting  with vehemence and totality and the worse is yet to come, unless God’s people take seriously their marching orders to wage serious spiritual warfare.

http://mysteryoftheiniquity.com/2011/11/04/13-demon-skulls-13-mayan-elders/

The first place the body of Christ must start at is him/her heart and mouth. What comes out of our mouths is what determines the outcome of our trials and  satan’s attacks. Through brainstorming with  successful and victorious prayer warrior pastors and intercessors, I’ve gleaned some amazing strategies in these demonically-charged times. Many of you may be fearful regarding  the spiritual, financial and economical assaults globally, but now is not the time to shirk and run to our underground bunkers or delete your “Doomsday-prepper” friends” Facebook posts.

The body of Christ needs to awaken to the reality. The words of our mouth are the fruits of our hearts!  Oh my! This was a big one for me. How many years of my Christian life have I uttered words of doom and death on myself. “”Oh, I’ll never get well. I am so deep in debt, I will never get out. Or, that spouse, child or freind will never change” These are all negative declarations. Satan’s minions are standing by, laughing gleefully as you continue to dig yourself deeper into the pit of depression and negativity.

Transform your atmosphere with declarations  of God’s word. Transformation and hope will  become your reality. WOW! Imagine we daughters and sons of God creating our own divine realities by our very words and attitudes. I want to drive this point in…until it sinks in and you start to see how you can indeed by God’s very own fruitful tree…always bearing fruit. But first you’re going to have to admit this fault and ask God’s help to turn it around!

It took me decades to realize the truth…that my own failures and lacks were because of not abiding in the Lord’s very presence and absorbing His precious-life-giving words into my being!! Until we abide in this  divine truth, we will not achieve God’s great victories and soar in His divine purpose!

Did you know that satan has access to Father’s heavenly courts to accuse and malign us daily? Look what he did to poor Job?

Job 1:6 Now there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the LORD, and Satan came also among them.

We tie up God’s hands to  release His blessings and victories when we declare the opposite of what His word tells us! So, for example, we wonder why God has not provided for our rent, food and utilities and we complain and say ” I can’t make my paycheck meet my bills” Satan will use this very statement to God against you.

Your response to your need, “My God provides for ALL my needs according to His riches and glory.”  We must stop griping and mistrusting God if He chooses to answer our prayers at the eleventh hour, perhaps to test us to see if we really do believe He will come through. He tests us often to see if we will trust and obey, so be careful little mouths what you say because satan’s  spirits thrive and grow in the atmosphere of  complaining, resentment and fear. .

Let us also remember that the moment that we decided to serve and worship our Lord, we have enlisted in God’s army and it will be a journey of continual warfare because  satan wants to kill, steal and/or destroy us. Psalm 34:19,  Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the lord delivers him from them all.

We will also have to endure a “wilderness period” for growing in power and trust. These are necessary for us to reach our highest potential. As we grow in Christ, we must learn to be disciplined and consistent in our declarations so that God’s word becomes a part of us. Even great pastors, teachers and worship leaders can fall or get weak if they do not daily abide in God’s presence and word.  The more we read, study and meditate in God’s word, the more easily it will come our through our mouth as our powerfully-wielded weapon of spiritual warfare! There is no other way around it.  Make daily mediation and memorization of God’s word with Holy Spirits revelation  and you will see amazing results in your faith walk!

Some of you may have problems with memorization, but print out your power scriptures around your house or work areas. Speak them out loud. If you have health issues, look up and mediate on healing scriptures. If you are abandoned, isolated or been abused, look up scriptures of restoration. If you have financial lack, seek scriptures about God’s miraculous provision.

Many of us came from backgrounds of sever emotional and/or physical trauma,, chronic health crisis, loss, poverty, shame-body image issues, family dysfunctional, parental neglect. It often takes much longer for us to  retrain our minds. This is where Holy Spirit comes in, compassionate counseling and maybe even deliverance. God created our bodies and minds to heal from the greatest traumas.

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Dr Caroline Leaf, a brain scientist, teaches about how we can be transformed to the  beautiful, divine person God created us to be. We can be transformed by the renewing of our minds in Christ! Rom 12:2. For some of us with great wounds and traumas to address,  maintaining emotional  stability and joy can be very difficult, especially if we are isolated or ill. Here is where the body of Christ and compassionate counselors need to step in. When even these fail, we can look to Holy Spirit, our comforter, teacher and best freind. Being so isolated and challenged for over eight years with Dystonia, I have found great comfort in  resting in the presence of The holy Spirit!

Print out  your special verses and post them on your mirrors, refrigerator and doors. Keep worship music going all day if you can. DO NOT declare your infirmities of struggles as permanent. It is Father’s will for you to be whole. Even if you are  weary, heart-broken, or  disgusted,  try to avoid verbalizing out loud how you feel.

When you spend time in Father’s word, ask Holy Spirit to guide you on verses that will be your warfare prayer. DECLARE your special verses each day OUT loud because in our verbal declaration is our power. Abba God never lies and is never wrong. If our lives are amiss it’s because we are doing something wrong.  I’ve wasted many years as his daughter complaining and allowing depression to hinder my walk. I still struggle daily with pain & staggering fatigue, but I declare that I’m more than a conqueror and I can DO all things through Christ who strengthens me! I must daily declare my victory.
 My prayer  is that the following scripture verses will release you into your calling as an overcomer!
 Isaiah 62:3
The LORD will hold you in his hand for all to see–a splendid crown in the hand of God.

Fear not you are more than a conqueror because Jesus has already victored over our adversary and all his minions. Rom 8:37

IPhil 4:19   But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

Hebrews 13:5
Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

Psalm 37:25
I have been young, and now am old; yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, nor his seed begging bread.

Psalm 34:19

Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the LORD delivereth him out of them all.

Psalm 91

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Psalm  68:4-6

4Sing to God, sing praises to His name; Lift up a song for Him who rides through the deserts, Whose name is the LORD, and exult before Him. 5A father of the fatherless and a judge for the widows, Is God in His holy habitation. 6God makes a home for the lonely; He leads out the prisoners into prosperity, Only the rebellious dwell in a parched land.…

Rev  12:11

They triumphed over him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death.

Heb 13:5

Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”[a]

TIME to CLEAN UP, CHURCH!


large church congregationI write this letter with a HEAVY heart and more than 31 years later! Judgment is coming to America and as Scripture says, Judgment first starts in Abba Jehovah’s own house and people.

I am an intercessor prophetic journalist and worship leader (ordained by Pentecostal-spirit-filled pastor-elders and have been in Fathers service since 1983) passionate for Father God, Yashuah Jesus and especially to see Holy Spirit move, walk in miracles, healing and repentance- revival. My anguished travailing for America’s fate-destiny and particularly, Christ’s Bride, has led me to deep place in Him. Watching Christian TV and seeing many of the famous TV pastors and evangelists with massive congregations, wouldn’t we expect this many people to heavily holily influence our present society, the media and politics. Would our influence change the ever-contaminated sinfulness of our nation After all, Jesus declared us to be a city on a hill.

I came to Christ as a non-practicing Catholic, invited to a small Pentecostal church in Toms River, NJ. A young Jehovah’s witness man wanted to court me, but I felt something wasn’t right with his religion. Father led me to Pentecostalism-spirit-filled life and I was never the same. I found myself transformed in many ways, even though Abba had me endure many fiery trials. Only a year into attending this tiny congregation, (of about 15 adults, 7 children ) our church erupted in a scandal. Our beloved pastor had adultery with 3 of the deaconesses, a homosexual relationship and molested several of the children!! Many of us were so traumatized that we could function for weeks! Many of the new believer left Christ and I watched as their unattended wounds became fodder for atheism and hating all which had to do with Jesus.

Somehow I had an inkling that this Jesus I read about and served was nothing like the leaders I sat under. I continued my joyful evangelism in the nursing homes and hospitals. I was hungry for more of my Jesus. I followed two spirit-filled sisters from my former church to a Monmouth county AG. I rejoiced to once again have a family. (My own blood family was ripped apart by child abuse, foster care and divorce).

I enjoyed about another year with my new family and enrolled in college where I met a charming guy. I was passionate about Jesus and evangelizing wherever I went. The guy was attracted to holy Spirit’s joy in me and we started to spend time together in God’s word and Bible study. Unbeknownst to me, he had some serious baggage. I ended up courting him (in ignorance about being “unequally yoked) . Fast forward to my second deep spiritual wounding. My fiance’s baggage was involvement in the occult and witchcraft. His salivation prayer and baptism of Holy Spirit at a Terry Talbot concert was not enough to deliver him from satan’s grasp. I was caught in a vicious and deadly fight for my spiritual freedom and life!

The shocking thing is that my 60-something AG pastor and his son, (as well as 4 elders and deacons) were unable to cast out a witch-craft-demoniac spirit from my fiance. I was only three years old in my faith and I’d never experienced the hatred , rage and abuse which my fiancé poured on me and from which I couldn’t escape because of his threats to ‘find” me wherever I escaped to and murder me if I didn’t marry him. I ended up being married by this AG pastor. Shockingly, there was no concern nor discernment for my well-being and that they should certainly not endorse a marriage to such a man with such demonic oppression! I can’t tell you what this did for my belief in the “heavenly” Father who is supposed to love and protect me!

Jer 23 1&2 Woe to the shepherds who are destroying and scattering the sheep of My pasture!” declares the LORD. 2Therefore thus says the LORD God of Israel concerning the shepherds who are tending My people: “You have scattered My flock and driven them away, and have not attended to them; behold, I am about to attend to you for the evil of your deeds,” declares the LORD

God help you pastors which have allowed your sheep to be torn and butchered by satan and his demon spirits! I would n’t want to be you when you have to give an account before the GREAT judge Jesus Christ at the bema Seat.

Fast forward to the next phase of my growth. I had enough of the shallowness and lack of true Exousia anointing that I so desperately needed as a victim of child abuse and now domestic violence and abandonment-divorce. I met someone who said that Calvary Chapel in Old bridge was a good church. Though hesitant, I decided to go because I needed fellowship and healing from two bad Christian experiences. Because of my giftings in voice and worship, I connected with the worship pastor, (no name). He saw my love for Christ and my talent as a singer-songwriter and encouraged me to sit under Pastor Lloyd’s teachings. Eventually, I could apply to be one of the worship leaders.

I won’t apologize for the length of this expose because it’s time the sin in AG and other large churches be exposed. This is why America has declined in her godly heritage. I had to share this grievance, (because of a recent wounding-abuse of a beloved brother and AG pastor). He shared his story with me in confidence. Upon praying about this, ( I shared some fo my abuses) Abba compelled me to share this with the body of Christ. So they see the reality of their sin, guilt and repent. The axe is coming down very soon. Who knows whether Father will grant us grace to partake of the great revival harvest. But…there won’t be any harvest or revival with a church that is filthy with adultery, greed for money, controlling-intimidation weaker sheep, apathy regarding the murder or our unborn babies and the stronghold of Homosexuality in our nation.

Brothers and sisters…REPENT and turn from your sin. Ask Holy Spirit if deception has risen as a barrier blocking Holy Spirit’s voice.

What is most urgent here is the necessity to bring more souls into His kingdom. Satan’s MO has surely been to use Father’s pastors and leaders to bar people from getting into the kingdom.

Getting back to Calvary, Old bridge, a few months later, this worship pastor seemed to ignore me anytime I asked about leading worship. I was puzzled at his change of attitude towards me, but was patient. A few weeks later after not seeing him on stage with the worship team, I asked someone what happened to pastor. They told me he was ousted for having an affair with one of the female worship leaders! So much for Calvary Chapel, Old bridge. (BTW, they do not believe in the heavenly Holy Spirit language or prophetic giftings) . I was again devastated and disgusted. I was desperate for fellowship and like-minded believers to sing and evangelize with. I shared my experience with a sister from our former AG congregation and she told me she was attending another AG in another Monmouth county town.

It was great to be back with some of my former sisters. The new pastor and his wife were flowing in the true gifts of the Holy Spirit. I met a wonderful Christian man and was married by this pastor. Then he had to leave about eight months later and another pastor cane. At first, he seemed genuinely led by Holy Spirit. I had to start all over with proving myself as a worship leader and waited for Holy Spirit to reveal my calling to this pastor. I sought Abba’s presence more and more and Father answered my prayer for Holy Spirit to used my gift as worship leader for the edifying of that body.

Several times, I during my leading of worship, (and seeing people’s hearts being moved) that this pastor often would interrupt or quench Holy Spirit’s presence. I felt Holy Spirit being “grieved” and shared my concerns with other worship leaders and elders. They noticed also and were upset. This particular church desperate needed Holy Spirit’s ministry because there was mcuh apathy and lack of discernment, members enslaved to depression and even demonic spirits coming in through its own members! This was a very sick church and there would be no transformation or healing with sin in the camp!

Another sick episode in this church happened with another pastor, (who is now my present pastor, a highly anointed and spirit-filled women of God) The pastor at AG gave permission for her to have a worship service there and upon arriving she saw in t before she could even enter, she had to rebuke and break yokes of demons that were around this AG church!! I was quite surprised when she confided in me. I’ve heard too many horror stories about Kundalini spirits and AG people not having the real Holy Spirit.

The last straw on my back regarding these lukewarm and soon-to-be-judged churches is my dear pastor friend who was ousted for confronting adultery (adultery seems to be a favorite sin and rampant in these churches including AG churches). I met this precious and true man of God through the former-mentioned pastor at the AG church where I led worship. He was convicted by my true anointing and tried to get rid of me by offering me to this pastor friend of mine who was staring a new church in Ocean county. (No names). Strangely, the church didn’t take off and a year later had to be closed.

My pastor friend then took a position at another very large AG church in Ocean county. He was there a while but then a problem arose with the senior pastor having an affair with another woman My pastor friend confronted the leadership about this. He also reported them to AG headquarters. My pastor friend’s wife suddenly died and rather than the leadership of this church supporting him through his loss, he was rebuked, snubbed. (and now black-balled)!!!

I am ( but even more so Jehovah, Yashuah Jesus and Holy Spirit) sick of this evil and sick of all the sin in God’s house. I share this with the AG leadership ( and every church who proclaims Christ as Lord and King of the world) as Holy Spirit leads me so that there can be repentance and healing in the Body of Christ. Yashuah seeks a church without spot or wrinkle and if anyone thinks that He ignores these transgressions, they are very mistaken. I urge you all to repent. My physical body has been severely damaged by all the demonic attacks and trauma while being a part of a Pentecostal-evangelistic AG environment. I still am paying dearly with a neurological condition called Dystonia, no doubt by all this evil and trying to oppose countless and relentless satanic attacks because I desire God’s presence and Holiness MORE than anything in this world, (as well as my pastor friend who I’m helping to strengthen and heal)..

BTW, what ever happened to giving a public apology to the body and to all people?

Please do not ignore this letter or retaliate by unbelief, apathy, or black-balling saints who desire Abba’s presence and desire to be holy. . Christ is coming VERY soon and we’ better repent NOW, clean up our acts and be ready to prepare ourselves as Jesus Yashuah’s virgin bride. Amen and amen!