MOVING FORWARD


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MOVING FORWARD From Offenses and Woundings

For many of us, conflict and strife are two of the most difficult areas to address. The inability to confidently address criticism and conflict  stifles our ability to soar upward into our divine fullness. The book of Proverbs is chock full of warnings to be cautious in our communication. Being slow to speak and waiting for divine wisdom for understanding has been challenging for me. I grew up in a family atmosphere of intense conflict between my German mother and Puerto-Rican father, whose relationship started to weaken when my father took on great responsibilities as the vice president of the Spanish Fraternity. His time and financial investments to the Spanish Community were straining our family and mom and dad argued constantly. I was very sensitive as a young girl and my parents arguing was very distressing for me. I also had to endure my mother’s temper tantrums where she regularly overturned the furniture, tore apart everything in my two younger sisters’ rooms and gave them beatings. This abusive environment of fear and anger became of stronghold in me. I was terrified of angry, mean people. At the first sign of a negative body language or facial expression, my stomach would turn and I became nauseous. I must admit,  my communication  style was challenged because of my nervousness in the presence of angry people.  This stronghold intensified during my first marriage where I endured domestic violence.  My fear to express disatisfaction or  uphold my boundaries  was firmly established. and my husband’s rage when I stated my opiinion caused me to keep m mouth shut because I didn’t want to be attacked.

We’ve all suffered rejection, abandonment and/or abuse and the extent of our spiritual growth-healing depends on our willingness to allow Christ to heal the deeply-embedded, negative strongholds of our mind and soul. In my life as a creative person,  (many artists, musicians and people in creative fields) feel a need to escape the sordid aspects of reality. Non creative people can also seek refuge in certain comforts such as sports, drugs, alcohol, shopping, food addictions and pornography. This is natural for us to feel safe from excruciating mental anguish or a sexual trauma such as molestation or rape. Those of us from extremely abusive backgrounds believe that the only way to cope with our painful past is to find refuge in the beauty and wonder of our creative endeavors and projects. Success in our careers and creativity is a good thing, but staying stuck in the plateau of woundedness and the trauma is not.

For me it has been a very long and painful road to spiritual freedom and joy because there were few intuitive and anointed pastors and/or deliverance counselors who could help me accurately identify negative strongholds. Even less to find are those who willingly guide a wounded individual to Christ’s wholeness. With the kingdom of hell becoming more aggressive than ever before, (satan knows his time is very short). God’s people are getting a triple dose of attacks in every area of life. It’s rare for any child of God not to be suffering some attack. Strife and division seems to be the main area satan has been using to create division and weakness in the body of Christ. The way around this is continual time in God’s presence, repentance and being accountable to elders.

The law of Love

1 Cor. 13 4-8 is really the formula which builds and strengthens the body, but often harder than it seems. Agape love allows no pride and convicts us when refuse to be wrong. We say, “Why should I acquiesce to him/her?” The spirit of offense is strong and often uses the element of surprise. You’re caught off guard when he strikes and you’re trembling in anger. Offense must be taken captive by Christ’s authority.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.

A fellow intercessor sister and I were praying about how to address various weak areas our brthren needed to address. I told her how disappointed II was about several incidents which occurred with very dear and mature prophetic Christian sisters in my circle. Each incident involved a disagreement where both parties responded in quick anger. There was no resolution and the two decided not to bother with each other again. This breaking of relationship and avoiding each other disturbs me and disturbs the delicate atmosphere of unity in God’s family. We may glibly disregard our decision to break relationship with a brother or sister, but that small offense breaches the circle of love. We may not immediately feel or see the sting of offense-rejection, but it’s seed  takes root nonetheless and it opens the door to other demonic strongholds.

Pastor Derrik Prince teaches how just one rejection can swing open a door allowing other demonic stronghold to take root. This is why repentance is so necessary. When we are unified in love, we operate in great power and achieve God’s greatest miracles, healing and deliverance. When we have disagreements so sharp that we cut off the relationship and go on our merry way, we lose the opportunity to grow in the area of resolving conflict. We are as iron sharpening iron and Father is pleased when we conquer that pride spirit and seek reconciliation and resolution. With God all things are possible and when we come together in prayer, with the intention of resolving and unifying, we will be building bridges and healing wounded or misunderstood hearts.

Let us never forget that satan is cunning and has studied mankind for eons. He knows exactly how to s get a toehold in even the most well-intentioned. Conquering offense can often be difficult for people raised in angry, alcoholic and dysfunctional backgrounds. They often have deep-rooted strongholds of unworthiness and inferiority. Their mothers may have scorned, “You’re no good” or “You’ll never amount to anything.” If these declarations are not renounced and broken off, those voices will continue to harass and maim. The child will grow up to be an adult who is fearful of constructive criticism of any kind. When questioned, they respond immediately with raised dukes to fend imagined, crippling blows to their fragile self-worth. Those voices taunt incessantly, threatening their marriage and/or family. These negative accusing voices come from the pits of hell.  Strongholds of rejection and unworthiness can only be banished by daily meditating and declaring God’s truth about His precious children  who are created to do good works!

Learn to address feelings of shame, anxiety and/or unworthiness with God’s word. For those of us who have been raised in abuse and unhealthy homes, we must make wholeness and God’s word a priority. Healing from unhealthy influences may need help from strong, positive mentors. Learn not to be ashamed and defensive when questioned or criticized. Learn to recognize pride when he it rises up. Pride separates, but love unites. Don’t let pride bar us from admitting we don’t have all the answers or we made a mistake. Be sensitive to Holy  Spirit’s nudge when ou quickly  respondi inappropriately, angrilly or with unwaranted suspicion. Give people the benefit of the doubt that they are not always out to get you.

Repentance (humility) are not dirty words and we should never be ashamed to get on our faces, cry out in deep humility and ask Father to reveal our shortcomings. Repentance is cleansing and we grow in His grace when we are transparent. In one of my group prayer battalions, we start out our conference call with confessing our sins and weaknesses to each other.  This was a new thing to me, but found after a few weeks, how it draew my sisters and I closer together and made us more compassionate and prayerful for each other!

Repentance should be as natural as doing a detox or fast for our physical bodies. When we cleanse our body through daily repenting, we do not hinder the flow of Holy Spirit or block Him from blessing us with His conviction and gracious deliverance! My prayer for the body of Christ, is that we work on being transparent and honest with each other. Sin and iniquities root and flourish when we keep our sins and weaknesses hidden. The Bible says we are to confess our sins and weaknesses with each other daily.  All too often,  I see and hear about episodes where our Christian brethren display rage and  are vindictive on Facebook and other public forums. This is a very poor witness to non-believers and grieves our heavenly Father. Especially damaging is strife and division about political issues and gossip. A wise, gracious person would have nothing to do with strife because it weakens the bond of fellowship. We need to share our views respectfully and if the disagreement is too intense, then we must agree to disagree and avoid the subject for the sake of peace.

Brothers and sisters, we need to get it together because we are in the end of the end times and time is short. The eternal destinies of millions are at the precipice of decision and our demeanor must be Christ-alluring, a fragrance in the stench of pride and worldliness. When we are dedicated to unity in our King Jesus, satan cannot get a toehold. Pride in us is insidious and let us remember that it sneaks up even in the best of us. Let us not be afraid to be wrong or uniformed and let us ask God for HIs divine wisdom!

PRAYER, The Double-Edged Sword


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Note This article is not for scoffers, mockers and those who disbelieve there is a God, a devil and demonic spirits roaming and destroying mankind. This expository will elaborate on the efficacy of focused and deliberate prayer, coupled with steadfast faith. If you are born-again in Christ, you need to consider this teaching.

Let’s start at the beginning,
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

When Adam and Eve committed the first sin, by eating of the fruit of the tree of good and evil, they literally handed their dominion over the earth to satan, (Lucifer). Our parents’ sin catapulted all humanity into chaos, separation from our heavenly Father and spiritual death. Despite the devastating consequences, we know that God had a plan to bring his creation back to Himself, by sending His own perfect, Son, Jesus the Christ, to be the sacrificial lamb of cleansing, resurrection and communion. The greatest act which happened to all mankind was Jesus’ victorious resurrection and His redeeming us back to our Father God!. This is the glory of those born-again in Christ! We are now adopted into Christ’s glorious heritage and family and are co-inheritors of all God”s blessings and provisions. This is indeed something we can celebrate and teach others about.  Right now,  Abba  God ( Daddy, in Aramaic)  awaits as many of His sons and daughters to come home to enjoy intimacy through Jesus.

So here we are, many thousands of years after Jesus’ resurrection and victorious dominion over sin,  death and eternal separation from our Heavenly Father . Many have come to the cross, and have come home, but still, innumerable others have chosen to deny God’s precious gift of salvation and communion with God,  Jesus Christ and Holy Spirit. God has blessed His children with a vehicle, prayer

The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results. James 5:16

This scripture doesn’t say the prayers of just any person. He can call himself a Christian, be of a certain denomination or a particular church prays with insincere motives and who really doesn’t seek God’s face. Jesus blasted many of the Pharisee because their prayers were, e lengthy and pious but their hearts were far from God. In many places in the Bible, God tells us to be diligent when we seek Him. God was very particular about communion with him

But from there you will search again for the LORD your God. And if you search for him with all your heart and soul, you will find him. Duet 4:29. Part of growing in our intimacy with God is regularly taking an honest spiritual inventory of our spiritual journey and ask ourselves, “Am I sincerely connecting with Abba’s heart?”

Often, when I approach Abba in my prayer closet, I think to myself, “I don’t feel anything. I don’t believe Father is listening and I feel like a hypocrite or automaton.” When I feel very distant from Father, I back off and come back later when I can focus. I cannot bear to come into His presence with hypocrisy or feeling detached. For may of us, we often feel God is far away, but He will draw near if we sincerely seek His precious face! So often,  because of this movement neurological battle I endure, I cannot connect. Here is where Holy Spirit is always willing to help. I must be honest, without Holy Spirit’s help I could not abide in intimate communion with Abba or be able to even compose a blog  such as this.

Jesus promised us that when He left, he wouldn’t leave us as orphans. He would send the comforter.But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. John 14:26. .
Prayer then, coupled with Holy Spirit’s revelatory unction is God’ channel of intimate communion with his sons and daughters.

I accepted Christ in 1983 and have been part of many Pentecostal, charismatic and Assembly of God church families where I learned the basics. Because of lack of information and deep, Holy Spirit revelation and anointing, I struggled with persistent health issues and the many traumatic events of my life. I was not defeated but I was not victoriously overcoming as my Bible and scriptures promised. I knew something was missing. Something was wrong and I continued to cry out and ask God for divine help!. I was always a woman of prayer and was committed to pray, but I lacked a major component: fellowship with other like-minded, anointed and spirit-filled prayer warriors! Spirit-filled here is the key to a vigorous and victorious prayer life and faith journey. Without the power of the third person of the triune Godhead, we really are helpless and fruitless!

Fast forward 30 years from 1983, my faith journey prayer life and intercessory prowess grows by leaps and bounds. Because of my persistent, asking, seeking and knocking,  I  weekly learn miraculous and divine things from Pastor Augusto’s ministry, The Appearance, Pastor Sandra Gonzalez, Spirit-Filled Life Ministries and the anointed 24/7 NSCP national  intercessor phone conference line group, led my Pastor Eon Peia and Mother Maureen Bravo. These past several years I’vbe experienced the tremendous efficacy of prayer. It is powerful when we pay passionately and with authority to our Heavenly Father who awaits us in the great throne room of grace and power!

How prayer works:

The most successful prayers are heart-felt, nurtured in a intimate relationship with God.’ Although Father can and will hear and answer prayers from new believers
God’s angelic host can be dispatched to help when we ask God in prayer for their help. Psalm 91:11 NLT

God’s word, the Holy scriptures, are powerful. They are able to cut through Satan’s curses, assignments and attacks.. When we fervently believe, we  accept hat power or it won’t manifest! Jesus told us that Father would answer our prayers. You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. John 14:13

Prayer is intensified when joined by other like-minded, spirit-filled believers.

Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some is; but exhorting one another: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching. Heb 10:25

I cannot stress enough how crucial it is abide within a group of anointed believers. It is beneficial to find a good church where the gifts of the spirit manifest and unfortunately, these powerful, spirit-filled churches are few. How do you know if the church or group is anointed and spirit-filled? You examine the fruits. Are they full of the love and power of Holy Spirit? For some of us, the process of examining fruits may be a lengthy process, but if we ask the Holy Spirit, He will reveal and guide us into all wisdom and revelation. We must also be wary of churches or groups, (cults) which manifest signs and wonders., but which are copied by satan).  Satan is very powerful and can try to imitate the work of the Holy Spirit. Examine the fruit, whether it is good or bad!  We must ask Holy Spirit for discernment

God performs His word when we declare them in faith!

The LORD said to me,  (Jeremiah) “You have seen correctly, for I am watching to see that my word is fulfilled. Jer. 1:2 NIV

Pastor Derrik Prince has a wonderful video on Declaring God’s word. He knows firsthand how to demolish the satanic stronghold on this earth. God’s word is our sledgehammer and our double-edged sword. .

The Power of Proclamation, Derrik Prince

Applying the Blood of Jesus to our prayers, loved ones and everyone in our circle of contact

Teacher-Prophetess Billye Brim teaches on the power of Jesus blood.

 

Our responsibility should be to passionately explore the whole gamut of the spiritual realm and apply its precepts and protocol to our daily lives. Only by focused, relentless and courageous effort will we be able to thrive in the hostile spiritual atmosphere we abide in at present. Everyday, countless millions are hindered, tormented and/or killed by demonic spirits and the battle becomes even more daunting as more evil spirits are released from the abyss. Now is not the time for God’s people to relax or turn their backs on God. The lives of our relatives, co-workers, neighbors and everyone we rub shoulders with, depend on our Spirit-anointed prayers and intercessions.

Pastor John Eckert’s powerful declaration video speaks all about God’s miraculous Exousia and Dunamis power!! This video will change your life.

If you are to survive the ever-brutal and worsening darkness, you need to diligently apply spiritual warfare disciplines. Nothing can separate us and we overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony. Remember, you have all authority and satan and his demons are under your feet! \

God bless you, courageous warrior of teh most high God, Jehovah Sabaoth!!v

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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NEAR to the BROKEN-HEARTED


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The weight was becoming so crushing that Barbara could barely  breath

I got off of my tread mill, at the telephones’ ringing and heard my precious sister Barbara’s voice, weak with grief.  She was grieving for her son, Adam and it was a very difficult time for her. I was grateful to be  available for her and listened as she poured out her heart to me. Feelings of protectiveness came over me like a mother bear seeing her cub being threatened.  I knew the enmey was trying to drag her backwards into the depths of bondage.  I waited for Holy Spirit to download instruction on how to minister to her.

I felt a very heavy burden of anguish and then I asked her to rest and be still because I was going to release a song over her. The inspiration of lyrics came to me the past Saturday because of a burden for my three younger sisters who were are battling weights from their past. As I was checking my emails, I saw a dear prophetic brother who wrote that Holy Spirit had told him I was going to write another song. I grabbed my pen and within 5 minutes I wrote  “Enter My Rest” Holy Spirit reminded me  of  Hebrews 4:11Let us therefore strive to enter into His rest.

I could feel a spiritual tug of war going on with Barbra, but I told her I felt to sing Shalom over her. the new song,  Enter my Rest and Beautiful Daughter. Holy Spirit was showing me that Abba wanted her to  let go of all the weights..and rest in him. Then He showed me a performance anxiety spirit was pulling her. So we prayed together against the spirit.    I saw that we indeed were in a tug of war. Yashuah Jesus, Barbara and I were on one side of the  rope and the  demonic spirits at the other end. We continued to pray and we took authority over the spirits. .

As we were waging warfare,  standing firm, we felt the noose was loosening. Barbara prayed and then started singing Hallelujah, we sing hallelujah. I joined in and we were singeing prophetically.

hallelujah. We sing hallelujah,  We sing hallelujah to our King

You release us to the skies, cause we are butterflies.

We are soaring into glory.. He releases us into the skies

We soar on weightless wings and look into our Father eyes,

All of a sudden, Barbara laughed and she was light with exhilaration. Father helped her to break through. It was so delightful, she suddenly burst out that she saw a vision of millions of Monarch butterflies being released. WOW! was all I could say!

Truly, Barbara’s received a glorious breakthrough and fresh  anointing of her ability to see visions. We were enthralled at the fresh unction of confidence and strength Father had given her and we marveled at how Father is so near His children when they are broken-hearted.

During my prayer over Barbara, I also  reminded her  that Yashuah had already set a banquet table for us to dine on His exquisite delicacies of mercy and grace, among many others.  Though He invites us and often we come in shabby clothes and   broken as paupers, he garbs us in  pure white wedding gowns, spotless in His blood.  Sister Barbara and all my precious brothers and sisters, let us fall back into His hammock of love after you have confessed your sins and weaknesses! Release and rest!

“Enter My Rest” Holy Spirit reminds us in  Hebrews 4:11.  Let us therefore strive to enter into His rest. For some of us, we may need to ask God’s help to discipline ourselves from the stringent bondage of work and striving. God is faithful..He hears our cries and will surely help!

Are You THIRSTING?


 Isaiah 55:1
Is anyone thirsty? Come and drink–even if you have no money! Come, take your choice of wine or milk–it’s all free!

 When I was a very young believer, fronting our Christian hard rock band, The Promise with my then boyfriend, lead guitarist, Chris, Isaiah’s words leaped at my heart. The call was so compelling that we wrote “Are  You Thirsting” for our band repertoire’s opening call.

  Many today are thirsting and many others do not even realize their  frenzied searching for truth and dabbling in the occult is a cry for truth. My prayer is that the compelling videos included here in my blog today  will be the answer you are searching for. I especially challenge my Jewish brothers and sisters to look up in your prayer time and ask Father Jehovah to reveal the truth once and for all.

 In these last days,  God’s Clarion call rings out to all across the globe.
May these wonderful videos move your heart  that Jesus Yashiach  HaMaschiah is the risen and glorious son of the most high God.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjDQ-fLWzPk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PGHHwUQjEYQ
Behold he is risen from the dead and has given us all the authority over satan and his  cohorts. Behold, the harvest is white for the reaping of which Father God is equipping and anointing His children to do His business. Father has given us a reprieve and we must be about our work quickly. Now is the time for salvation. Now is the appointed time for all to come to the cross. Our God has opened up the doors of hidden wisdom and revelation and His people must  take advantage and declare the way of the Lord to every people, tongue and nation. In times past, truth was sealed, but God has chosen to use modern technology to show the hard-hearted and doubtful that His Son,  has truly come and risen from the grave to give us eternal life and salvation.
 Heavenly Father,  we beseech thee with broken and humble hearts.  Help us be unified, all of us  standing in the gap for the lost. Lord of heaven and earth, creator of the universe. be merciful for those who have been led astray.  bring your precious Jewish people back into Your fold, their glorious destiny. We declare open hearts and open minds to be illuminated by precious Holy Spirit, Ruach HaKodesh . We thank you for Your harvest, in Jesus name, amen.

SILENCING the SONGBIRD


angel in  copper silk gown1“Lord, help me get through this. Help me, please” I kept saying as my jaw and mouth started to throb and convulse. I boldly accepted my pastor’s invitation to perform at the Jackson Baptist glory Celebration, a musical worship concert of local worship leaders and teams. A week ago, I emailed Pastor Sandra that I’d be performing His Eye is on the Sparrow and It is Well, two of my favorites that I sang to the residents of my area nursing home and the local physical rehabilitation centers. Those two songs were staples because they were a reminder of God’s promise to me that He was with me even in the valley. I had to play these two songs on my guitar almost everyday, just to remind myself that indeed, despite the incessant, tormenting pulling in my neck, the jerking of my arms and the rapid opening and closing of my mouth, one day, I would be released. It took every ounce of focus to do anything of substance. During this TMJ-Dystonia tenure, I’d programmed myself to call upon the Lord to strengthen me.. Steadfast confidence and reliance on Him was always the reward. That was who Father was,…always gracious in answering my prayer to give my best to my performances.

As more people entered the church, I could feel the excitement, which propelled me even more to be in close communion with Father. My husband Mark, saw I was in distress and massaged my neck. A girlfriend showed up, excited and encouraging and also gave me a neck massage.
People were filling into the well-lit church while the musicians and singers waited on the platform for the sound engineer to tweak their sound. My turn came and I adjusted the microphone. An older guitarist gentleman told me I could plug my guitar to his box which was a blessing so I didn’t have to set up all my effects pedals. Then I took a back seat near the edge of the church so people wouldn’t see my mouth contort. I hunched over in my seat, trying to take deep breaths to control the violent pulling and spasming in my neck. I felt an anxiety rise up, which always happened when the muscles got inflamed from the continua movement of my jaw. I continued to pray and stay alert .It was getting harder and harder to stay comfortable and I had to fight the impulse to run to the car and lay on my back for relief.

Finally, the concert started with a vivacious acapella trio. I was third in line. Then my Pastor approached the stage and introduced herself and me. I scurried up to the platform, nonchalant about my nondescript and unglamourous appearance. I’d long ago discarded my adherence to looking beautiful and well-coifed because it took so much energy to get through each hour. It had come to the point where it took an enormous amount of focus to do basic chores, my exercise routine, my daily voice scales and guitar practice. My only concern now, was to focus  on my performance-ministering in God’s anointing. To people enduring catastrophic illness, outward, perfect beauty is the last concern. Our symptoms wear us out to the point that we can’t be concerned that our make-up is perfect. Anyway, my lipstick and mascara always smeared or wore off halfway into any activity. My face always ended up leaning on my hands as I tried to position my head and neck in a comfortable way. Such is dealing with an upper cervical-spinal issue. I felt peaceful as I faced the audience.
“I’m so blessed and thankful to be here tonight despite having a very difficult almost nine years struggling with Dystina-TMJ, a neurological disorder similar to Parkinson. I’m so glad to be here to encourage any of you who are stiffening with any kind of illness. No matter who you are, God cares about what you are going through. Indeed, His eye is on the sparrow and as He is attentive to a tiny sparrow falling to the ground, so much more so are you precious in His sight”

The strains of my guitar and voice filled the church and I felt at ease, hardly aware of any muscles neck spasms. It was amazing how relaxed I now felt,compared to the preceding hour of anguish in my neck. I knew it was all Him! At the end of His Eye Is on the Sparrow, I paused for a second.  My eyes swept across the people’s faces as they sat spell bound watching me and listening to my every word. My face softened and I said, “It is well. It is Well.”
I then felt a surge of strength and stated, “You know, no weapon formed against you shall proper and Satan is under your feet. Get a hold of that and decide to walk powerfully in God’s strength. The devil is under your feet!”

JACKSON BAPTIST Church concert June  5, 2016

The audience grabbed a hold of that one and I preceded to sing It is well. I was joyful to hear one of the drummers accompanying me and my performance came alive with God’s hope and victory for everyone who’d choose to believe that all is well because of Christ’s victory on the cross!

By the third verse, everyone was standing and joined in through the end of the song! The chorus…It is well, with my soul reverberated with the layered harmonies of many voices. It was a transcendent moment for me! Father God punctuated His daughter’s glorifying music performance with His healing presence.

As I left the stage with the applause still lingering, the wicked spasms came back with a vengeance and I told Mark and my friend I had to lay down. I rushed to our HHR car and rested, immediately feeling less pressure in my neck. After about a half an hour, I decided to go back in, in case there was anyone who wanted to talk with me or have prayer. I was immediately approaches by several people One tall lady in particular, grabbed my hand.

“Hello sister and what can I pray with you for?”I asked.

“I was so blessed…so blessed by your songs. ” She gushed with tear-filled eyes. ” I have Lupus and have been very depressed for a long time.” She went on to share a little of her story and then a pastor joined me as I prepared to pray over the sister. Quite a few more people approached me to hug me and shake my hand and then I felt weak with the excitement and challenge of the night. I retreated back to the car to rest.

As I meditate and chronicle this pivotal evening of my life, I ponder the mystery of my battle-journey.  This TMJ-Dystonia condition has affected me in so many ways, some bad, but mostly good. Anyone diagnosed with a chronic illness will first ask, “Why me, God?” Then they will become angry at the injustice of it all and then resign themselves, either to resentment-bitterness or they decide that they will fight back and make the best of it! I have chosen to be the victorer and make the best of this daunting trial and trust that father will get all the glory from it!l

My encouragement to anyone enduring a daily or terminal illness is to weight your thoughts, dreams, standards and hopes by God’s word and His living presence. The Bible doesn’t answer all the the Jobian mysteries of a catastrophic health condition. For me it’s been groping my way through a dark maze and then leaving the “out” door onto a terrain riddled with land mines. Failure and death lurks beside every mine and one wrong step could propel you into the cemetery of resignation. I’ve often asked myself why I forge forward in my research, knowledge of Biblical healing and preventative medicine, (natural healing) when I’m daily almost overwhelmed with these devastating muscle-neurological and bio-chemical abnormalities.

I’ve learned from Dr Caroline Leaf (brain scientist) about the utter complexity of how the brain and the nuero-transmitters react to stress and trauma. From her research I’ve gleaned amazing insight on the importance of learning, meditating and relying on God’s divine and superior knowledge. After all, He did create and fashion our bodies in the most unfathomable ways ways!

Coming from a background of extreme abuse (bullying and domestic violence) and suffering much rejection because of generational sins, and then being redeemed  and transformed by Christ’s Yashuha’s love and freedom, reminds me  of my vow to the evil powers that be, that I will never again live in bondage. Though these devastating symptoms threaten me each day to hold me captive, I’ve relied on God’s Holy Spirit to empower me with His all-abiding strength, resilience and the possibility of total healing-restoration! Who else can promise that? Neither doctors, nor the toxic drugs they push can promise the prefect healing of our physician, Christ the messiah whose very stripes enabled us to walk in restoration!

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I, for one, need nothing else, but Him. The irony of my health journey has been that my enemy has tried to silence me by afflicting the very tools of my ministry. A worship leader-psalmist-speaker’s mouth and voice are the instruments with which she/he expounds God’s healing words, promises and anointed presence. Only in God’s presence is healing, so my enemy has chosen to viciously attack me, ( in my neck, vocal chords, throat and jaw) so that he can shut me down and shut off God’s healing works through me!

Ten years ago, somewhat vivacious and passionately aspired to get signed and go on tour, I never would have imagined to join the ranks of the “disabled” population.  Any pride or self-reliance I had is now completely extinguished and I’ve been brought to the place of humble submission…total reliance on Him alone!. This is Father’s refining process for me. I’m on his potters’ wheel and He is shaping me to what he wishes me to be. (Now, I can’t say that I’m always still and yielding) but mostly, I trust that He knows what He is doing.

He is using a chosen instrument, not of my parents ilk. None of my parents were musicians, nether were any composers or played instruments! It has been a testimony for God to teach me how to play guitar and compose the beautiful Psalms he has given me. It will be seven years since beginning the recording of my album MOD PROPHET and then my worship CD,  The Anointing, His Presence. They are nearing completion, getting more polished and glorious with each song. I will not stop and neither shall my enemy stop my mouth from praising Him and teaching the world of His great promises and Love.

The songbird will sing!

 

PUT UP YOUR DUKES


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Strategic Warfare  (Holiness, Fasting and Unceasing Prayer)

I want to discus with you beloved brethren about the  crisis and proliferation of false prophets and false shepherds. YouTube is replete with prophetic posts and words from the Lord. I was very troubles to come across  well-respected Pastor Perry Stone asking Brian Carn to repent. On the right side of the YouTube page were other brethren also calling out Brian. I was very sad to read these other  allegations. Indeed there seems to be a proliferation of people  prophesying Thus saith the Lord.

Truly, we are in very dark times and Jesus told us that there woudl be many false prophets. Today, a sister asked me to respond to her post about the miraculous outpourings of salvation upon the Muslim people and their visions and visitations by Jesus to them. A sister responded that the woman of God who was  ministering to this group was performing eh miracles through satan. Now this is certainly something we need to be aware of and spiritually discerning about. This sister made some very relevant points.

 Many would come in Jesus’ name and would be deceived,  Mat 24:5 2. The word of God is truth’s test. 3. Call them out and warn others.

Bethel Church (Bill Johnson Hillsongs; Brian Houston, Rick Warren, to name just a few) are all in question by man brethren. It certainly is a very  hard things to discern between the true men and women of God and the false. We know that if it were possible, the very elect would be deceived.

Mat 24:24  For false Christs and false prophets will arise and will show great signs and wonders, so as to mislead, if possible, even the elect.

I doubt that any of us are above being deceived, so we need to more than ever fa sat and pray for however long it takes to receive a direct answer from Holy Spirit. After all He is the true reveler

john 16:13 .But when he, the Spirit of truth, is come, he will guide you into all truth: for he shall not speak of himself; but whatsoever he shall hear, that shall he speak: and he will show you things to come.

Heidi Baker shared her precious testimony on Sid Roth’s It’s Supernatural program. She seems a woman whose heart was pure and seeking the Lord with all her heart at a very young age. It’s hard to believe that she started out as a “false” prophet. It’s hard to believe that any of the TV Evangelist, prophets or teachers began with impure motives. Most of us start out wanted  God so much with a pure heart. So when and how does the “false” anointing and prophesies come in?

We can discern the truth of a person’s identity by examining their fruit, Jesus said you’ll know them by their fruit. We must also pray unceasingly and with great focus. As satan is incessant in pummeling us with lies and deception, so must we engage. The greatest sin of the pastors and teachers, especially of the mega churches is they are not  grooming their flocks to seek  and revere Father’s presence! the most needful thing for God’s people is to hunger after Him. How many of His children are crying out to sit in His presence and worship? We are in serious trouble, folks. A precious prophetic brother of mine who also struggles with a physical malady share what Holy Spirit gives him. People, Abba God is devastated about the lack of love and hunger His people have for Him. is cup is about to overflow with indignation because weare walking in hypocrisy and sin.

Here is the message Holy Spirit gave to my brother:

“My son, I am bringing a full fledge of My fire upon My church because of the great sin it has committed against Me. I am bringing this fire My son because it is absolutely necessary to burn up the sin which has overtaken the leaders of My church. My fire is necessary My son because of the enormity of sin that is within My holy temple from the leaders to those who sit listening to them. My son, why are there so few calling out for My holiness? My son, holiness is not an option. It is what I require because it reveals the true intent of the heart. It reveals My son those who are for Me and those who are not. My son, why are so few standing up and calling out for My fire? My son, I love My precious church but why doesn’t My precious church love Me anymore?

   My son, My heart aches for the multitudes who have abandoned Me. My son, My temple is supposed to be holy, it is supposed to be pure, it is supposed to be undefiled. My son, My word says that I search to and fro seeking those who are Mine but I am finding so few who have hearts of worship for Me. My son, My priests have abandoned their calling because their calling was first to Me and then to lead My flock but so many have jumped into bed with the world. My body, My precious body My son have no one to lead them because My priests, My leaders have allowed prostitutes into My holy temple, My holy place. My son, what I am sending will not be pretty but is absolutely necessary.

My son tell anyone, tell everyone what I have spoken to you. My son, tell, tell, tell anyone who will listen to you that the hour is so late and I am getting ready now to call those who are My church, who are My precious bride, home. My son, I am asking My temple to rend their heart and not their garments because their garments have been polluted by the sin of this world, the sin of riches, the sin of filthy lucre. How My son did this happen to My precious church? I am calling out right now to My precious body that the time for preparation is over but how many will hear My voice? How many will hear My heart since very few know My heart anymore? My son, the day of preparation is over because the day is at hand for My times of fire. My son, the day of My cloven tongues of fire is at hand. The day and the hour of My fire, the fire of My Holy Spirit which will reveal whose hearts are for Meand whose hearts are not is now at hand.”


This blogs’ message is even more urgent than the last one. Those who are  zealous for the Lord know that the falling away has already occurred and many are being swept away into deep delusion. My heart is sobbing for my brethren who have lost their first love. Every night in bed, in my darkened room, I cry out, “Mercy, Abba, mercy” I know his judgment will come swiftly and His fire burning to a crisp  those who prophets them  with their mouths, but whose hearts are far from Abba. Oh, my, I have to search deeply my own self every day to stay close to Him, to worship in spirit and truth and pray for others to receive the priceless revelation of His majesty and the accessibility into the Holy of Holies…His glorious presence.

Once saved is not always saved and being close to Father, Yashuah and Ruach HaKodesh years ago or even weeks ago is not the same as abiding in His presence. Abiding in Him means to stay connected with him every day and often, with so many distractions and fearful world events, we can very well loose sight of His ever-abiding presence and His hope!

I urge you brothers and sisters, especially if your in a mega-church…to re-assess your relationship with Jehovah Father, Yashuah Jesus and holy Spirit.  The hour is so late, we may not have the next day to repent. We are called to lift up Holy hands. Put away looking at worthless things,  Psalm 119:37 Are you focused on your job, making more money to buy more toys and material things? Are your priorities on your hobbies, refurbishing your car and/or home? Is most of your time spent watching sports and TV?  These ear all “worthless” things which won’t amount to dust  When we see sin, false prophets leading the sheep astray)  we must confront and pray unceasingly. Fast…and pray in the Holy Spirit.

.The bottom line, our life’s mission is to love the Lord with all our mind, soul and spirit and love our neighbors as ourselves. That is how we can fend satan’s blows of deception, idolatry and worldliness. Satan will drag many of God’s people into hell by their selfishness and carnality. It must hurt and anger Father that the meg-churches boast thousands of members, yet there the sheer numbers don’t dent the staggering numbers of poor and homeless people amidst their very cities!.

We can certainly judge by  fruits and the inability of the church to address such abject poverty is a true sign of hypocrisy and sin. There is such a things as overabundance of opulence and wealth (and a mismanagement of stewardship regarding the finances which come in to the coffers.  Is it really needed to have several million-dollar homes and  exotic cars? There is nothing wrong with great wealth, but when it is is hoarded to a high degree, it is somehow evil. Father is watching those who give generously in their alms-giving. And we will be held accountable for our stewardship of our wealth, finances and even our time. Church, we must  immediately get circumspect with our walks because His coming is imminent. If you’re lacking in any point, repent, renounce your greed, sin or apathy and move forward in abundant l worship (to Him)  love and giving.  Living Holy, repentant lives is how we defend ourselves from the wiles of satan.

Holy spirit recently anointed me with a precious new song called Fruits of Repentance.  Jeremiah 616. One of the verses is from Jeremiah 6:16 , “Stand by the ways and see and ask for the ancient paths, Where the good way is, and walk in it; And you will find rest for your souls.  Now if the time for us to get back to the basics, obey His commandments and ask for the old ways…for they are righteous!

Until the church gets a strong revelation of personal obedience and reverance for His presence, many will be shocked when Yashuah says, “”depart from me who work iniquity!”

Many will weep in torment when cast out into utter darkness and eternal separation. My brother or sister, make your path straight. Ask Holy Spirit to examine your walk everyday and listen…and obey. God bless you beloved.

WHY PRAY?


Prayer is the backbone of the Christian walk and without it, nothing can be accomplished in Heaven or earth. By the very power of our tongues’ confession we can move mountains,  fell giants and change the destiny of peoples and nations.

Many of our brothers and sisters have such a small vision of themselves that they don’t even believe that their prayers are heard. Why? Because they’ve not received a revelation of their identity in Christ.

The effectual, fervent prayer of a man or woman avails much Jam 5:17. Two main descriptive adjectives describe what kind of prayer moves God.  The original translation of fervent means to boil, to be hot, having fervor and zeal. According to Strong’s concordance, effectual,  means to energize or be energized. Barclay describes prayers as empowering contact with God. It’s not only a gateway to God for us, but is a channel to God for us! This should get us exited  because we are being plugged into the divine, all-encompassing power  of our almighty Heavenly Father.

Sometimes, we come into God’s presence as if it’s a chore or obligation. I definitely can understand that in light of the daunting, evil things transpiring around the world at present. Even the most passionate prayer intercessor can get disheartened and weary from travailing in prayer. I know that at times, as Holy Spirit  impress on me to pray about horrific events, particularly the ISIS invasion , (and their barbarically bloody way of Jihad) and the fetus marketing  I’m worn out when done and just want t get under the covers.

I would like to share with you how to get reignited with zeal and passion by reading about and meditating on the great prayer warriors of the Bible and how their prayers succeeded. Let us remember that some of them were fearful or young, but God uses those who are not equipped, but available and willing.

Moses

Moses had such an intimate relationship with God, that he was able to reason with the Lord.  His people, the Israelites resorted to idolatry while He was giving Moses the commandments on  Mount Sinai. God told Moses to go down quickly because he was about to consume His own people. Moses prayerful reply was reminding Jehovahah of the covenant He’d made with Abraham, Issac and Jacob. Then the Lord relented. When an intercessor knows his identity in His Heavenly Father, he is able to stand in the gap fr the people he leads. Many times Moses tried to convince God from not destroying the people because of unbelief and rebellion. Most of us are also familiar with Moses most famous exploit, parting the Red Sea.

Gideon

Gideon was a man called out by God as a judge during the period of the Judges  An angel of the Lord appeared and  called him a mighty man of valor!  Gideon replied that his clan, Manasseh was the weakest clan and he was least in his father’s house. His prayerful response was asking the Angel why his people were in such derision and ended his discourse with asking if he could lay out a fleece to prove His promise. God was gracious and listened to Gideon’s reasoning. From henceforth, Gideon boldly destroyed his father’s  Baal altar and later subdued the vicious Midainites! No matter what background or station in life, when God calls us to do great exploits, we can be assured that we will be victorious because He has called us to do it!

Joshuah

Since Joshua’s first escapade with the eleven other spies, he continued to be bold and faithful to God’s commands. He and Caleb didn’t flinch when they saw the size of the giants who occupied the land they were ordained to possess. num 13  Caleb had a different spirit than the other spies.  When Caleb announced to the Isrealites that the protection of the Anakim, ( a certain race of giants) was gone, they still protested because of intimidation of Caleb;s confidence that they tore their clothe and wanted to stone, Joshua, Caleb and Moses. The Lord was angry about their lack f faith and cowardice and  said that the only ones who would enter the promised land would be  Joshua and Caleb. These two men were greatly  favored and revered militarily. In another amazing miraculous episode, Joshua asked Gd to still the sun from going down so he and the army could finish ff their adversaries, 

Nehemiah:

Nehemiah was another beloved man f God who had a heart fr his people the Jews. He was cup bearer to King, Artaxerxes

Lord, the God of heaven, the great and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love with those who love him and keep his commandments, let your ear be attentive and your eyes open to hear the prayer your servant is praying before you day and night for your servants, the people of Israel. I confess the sins we Israelites, including myself and my father’s family, have committed against you. We have acted very wickedly toward you. We have not obeyed the commands, decrees and laws you gave your servant Moses.

“Remember the instruction you gave your servant Moses, saying, ‘If you are unfaithful, I will scatter you among the nations, but if you return to me and obey my commands, then even if your exiled people are at the farthest horizon, I will gather them from there and bring them to the place I have chosen as a dwelling for my Name.’

10 “They are your servants and your people, whom you redeemed by your great strength and your mighty hand. 11 Lord, let your ear be attentive to the prayer of this your servant and to the prayer of your servants who delight in revering your name. Give your servant success today by granting him favorin the presence of this man.”

Nehemiah was of an excellent spirit, compassionate and focused to organize the rebuilding of the beloved city, Jerusalem. The walls were breached in many places and broken down completely in others. Even the people’s spirits were broken, but he planned, organized and followed through with the rebuild ed. There were  several daunting adversaries intimidating the workers and who wanted to assassinate Nehemiah. Nevertheless, He prayed and those below him prayed fr God’s strength and success.anon

King Jehoshaphat

2 Chron 20 tells of King Jehoshaphat suddenly being encompassed-by the Moabites, Ammonites and other gro.  He was very afraid and had the people fast.

Lord, the God of our ancestors, you alone are God in heaven. You rule all the kingdoms of the nations. You are so powerful that no one can oppose you. You, our God, drove out the inhabitants of this land before your people Israel and gave this land to the descendants of your friend Abraham forever. They have lived in it and have built a sanctuary in honor of your name in it, saying, ‘If calamity, sword, flood,[c] plague, or famine comes upon us, we will stand before this temple, before you, because your name is in this temple. We will cry out to you in our distress, and you will hear us and save us.’ 10 So look here! The Ammonites, the Moabites, and those from Mount Seir—the people you wouldn’t let Israel invade when they came out of Egypt’s land, so Israel avoided them and didn’t destroy them— 11 here they are, returning the favor by coming to drive us out of your possession that you gave to us!12 Our God, won’t you punish them? We are powerless against this mighty army that is about to attack us. We don’t know what to do, and so we are looking to you for help.”

The Holy Spirit came upon the attending prophets and told King Jehoshaphat that the Lord would be with them and t not be afraid.  The King prepared for the victory by appointing singers to give praise before the Lord. They were to march in front f the army. The Lord launched a surprise attack n the armies and thousands f corpses all lay n the ground.

There are many other  stories of the great conquests by  God’s leaders, prophets, kings and servants and time just doesn’t permit me to share them all. They all had several things in common.

Queen EstherEsther

Queen Esther’s story is most amazing because she  started out as an orphan. Her cousin, Mordecia  adopted  and raised her. Esther’s Jewish name is Hadassah and she ended up being chosen as King Xerxes new queen after his former Queen Vashti was dethroned.  From all the many maidens, Esther excelled over them all. But the king  did not know her heritage.   Esther was faced with the greatest crisis of her life when Mordecai revealed an insiduos plane where Haman, the king’s second man in commend, caused King Ahaseraus to write a decree that all the Jews in the Land should be destroyed. When Mordecai found out, he told Esther.  She then called all the people of Susa to fast for three days as well as her maidens.  Esther knew her God and knew that He would deliver her and her people. The king could not change his decree, but  Mordecia convinced her that  it may be her destiny “for such a time as this” to stand and deliver her people. As it turned out, Esther requested to see the King and he heard her request. The king issued a Deere where the Jews would be able to defend themselves if any came to harm them. For this reason was the great queen Esther revered and the Jews celebrate the  holiday of Purim.

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Daniel

Devote American Christian saints today complain that we are vexed by our  perverted culture, but there is nothing new under the sun. Daniel and  his friends were taken away and forced to live the Babylonian culture. He spent his whole life serving in the royal court of Babylon.Despite the influences of the pagan culture., Daniel thrived, communing intimately with His God. He was so focused, that he prayed three times a day, with his windows opened toward Jerusalem. Daniels’ captorss acknowledged that Daniel’s outstanding wisdom, training and intelligence was from His mighty God.  That dedication to God paid off when Daniel had to endure being thrown int the lion’s den;  Fellow servants of the King, came to accuse Daniel of not obeying the decree to worshiping him alone. The king was grieved because he loved Daniel and so revered the exceptional live he lived because of his God, Yahweh. They pressured the king and Daniel was thrown  into the lion’s den.

In the morning. after a sleepless night, the king rushed to the den were Daniel was and cried, “Daniel, servant of the living Gd, has your God delivered you from the lion’s?” He knew who the true God was. God is always near too those of a broken and contrite spirit. Gd always hears the cries of His children who are in covenant with Him. Do you disbelieve God’s almighty power and ability to save? I urge you to test Him. Taste and see…that He truly is good! You’ll not be disappointed.

God’s great prayer warriors have  several things in common

  • They were totally commuted to God
  • They were focused on Him alone being the victory over whatever challenge they had to face.
  • They were courageous
  • Most important, they knew how to worship and revere Him

Jesus, our advocate, intercedes on our behalf. Rom 8:34 When the disciples asked him how to pray, He gave us The Lord’s prayer as a templet. We should always remember  that He isn’t a magic genie or Santa Claus. He is Holy and we should enter in with reverence and honor Him for who He is… Creator of heaven and earth and God of the universe. Blessed are we that whenever we’re in a sudden bind and  can only say a quick prayer, God immediately hears us!  Let us thank Him for all our miracles and provision.

Whenever we feel our prayers aren’t being answered or we feel we are unworthy to have our prayer heard, we should recall and meditate on these aforementioned brethren who believed in their great God and loving father, for He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow! If we are in covenant with Father and abide in the vine, every prayer is always heard. It is time for us to enter boldly, with confidence and reverence and expectation.

 

 

 

 

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