About Daughters


Pre adolecent and adolescent can be fragile  beings, driving their parents and especially fathers almost to the nuthouse. I’m a grown woman now and have weathered many family  tragedies, (including the latest, the death of my beloved Papito and my mother’s sudden plummet into Dementia…all within three months).

Today, I was very fragile and distressed, thinking about how the lack of listening with the heart has led many marriages and families to fragment. I cried out to Father for strength to make sense of the relationships in my life and realized I hadn’t read a wonderful letter from Pastor Jeff Lane, from CTN’s  call in prayer network America’s Prayer Meeting from 12;30 to 3:30 am. One sentience leaped out at me. ” My freind, you have been hurt, mistreated and unfairly judged.”  A torrent of tears burst from my eyes. Pastor Jeff’s letter continued. Blessed are the pure in heart.. in other words, blessed are those whose hearts have been cleansed from the bitterness of the world.

My issue has been being greatly wounded and traumatized by those closest to me or those who are supposed to be  my inner circle. When these are emotionally close-hearted or refused to listen and understand my weakness or person, it can be an area like  an unhealed sore. So Pastor Jeff’s  words were spot on and I asked Father to continually bless and forgive my friends who have unfairly refused to hear me out.

I hadn’t expected to compose a blog today, but  Holy Spirit used this deep, inner hurt to issue to explore this necessity of allowing heart felt communication and understanding to flow, particularity between fathers and daughters. My thoughts went back to challenging times in my father’s life where he didn’t have the support of my mother. He always turned to me, ( as his firstborn daughter). Deep down, he’d wanted his firstborn to be a son and so he never allowed my female gender to stop him from teaching me “male” attributives of leadership, discipline, resourcefulness and high education. I graciously respected and received his  guidance and all, except his insistence that we not express our frailties and emotions.

Having taken many years to heal from Papito’s demand that we never cry, all of my sisters and I paid a heavy price and the results were damaging and devastating in many ways, particularity our serious health issues. As I continue to ask Holy Spirit for the grace and healing, wisdom in understanding the psyche, (in this case, the female adolescent psyche) I hope fathers, (and mothers)  humble themselves in asking  Holy Spirit how to raise confident, androgynous, aspiring  and relaxed young women.

I’m no expert on raising great families or on having the ideal marriage, but I can definitely share what  will weaken or destroy the fiber of a marriage or family.

I’m still sorting out my feelings about my beloved father, Papito Teofilo Ferrer Cepeda, (daddy wore the name of both his mother and father proudly). His mother was a spiritually, disciplined and fiery half Latino-half  Indian who was no-nonsense, educated and taught her children well regarding self-sufficiency and excellence. When her husband, (my grandfather, Valentine) contracted a serious lung ailment, she took on the responsibility of raising nine children on her own and running her farm!

Last year, when I received a phone call from my younger,  physically-challenged sister that we needed to visit daddy in the hospital, I was shocked that yet again, there was a possibility of losing my beloved mentor. As the elevator doors opened to reveal that Mark and I were on the oncology ward of the hospital, my  heart skipped a beat. My mouth dropped open as I saw a skeletal Papito half-covered in his bed. His voice was barely audible as I took my guitar from out of its case to sing his favorite Spanish ballad, Eres Tu. I sang Amazing Grace and then my youngest sister Margarita, entered the room,  holding on to her beaus arm. Like me, she battled a neurological disorder. Hers was MS, (Multiple Sclerosis).  It was surreal, as I asked Mark to pray with my father so I could ask the nurses what was going on with him. A lovely young nurse raved about how charming and non-complaining my father was. She had never seen anyone suffering from such painful throat cancer as Teo! I started to weep, wondering what emotional ghost had brought him to this point. Even now as I write this blog, my prayer is that spouses and families will not make the same mistakes as mine.

Papito’s second wife, my step-mother was not present during my sister and my visit. I couldn’t make sense of the fact that he was in a hospital,  a three-hour driving trip away. I would have preferred for him to have hospice care near all of us girls. I played my father’s two favorite songs at his funeral and though most were moved by my testimony of my relationship with him, I was left with unrequited sorrow and no explanation of why he died the way he did.

Having learned so much the past two decades regarding the relationship between unresolved grief, bitterness and resentment precipitating cancer and other  traumatic conditions, I deduce that spouses and families must allow each other to freely express themselves! When people are faced with a traumatic episode, the shock and grief is assuaged by empathetic and non-judgmental listening  and comforting.I believe most  cases of domestic violence, child abuse and even dysfunctional-strained relationships are  caused by the person not being listened to and understood.

In my father’s case, I beloved he died of a broken heart. My mother was staunchly unsupportive of my father’s dreams and endeavors and my step-mother  had a very strong personality. Daddy preferred to keep the peace because he had developed such a fragile situation with his blood pressure over the years. Any conflict or argument would have sent him to the hospital. So, my father kept his disagreements to himself during his second marriage. I’m sure, his sorrow about his failings as a father during his and mom’s divorce and the inability to  protect his adolescent daughters was an unhealed wound.  I reckon that at least  he may have fondly remembered his dependence on us when all four of us girls helped him renovate the old, dilapidated farm  house on Shafto Road.

Honestly, that wasn’t a memorable time for me as I was suddenly transferred from a wonderful catholic school where I thrived, to a public school where I became the outcast and was bullied daily. I was not allowed to speak about my terror of the three bully girls who made me feel like dirt. I endured many painful things duirng my high school years. My sisters and I did not have the freedom to express any negative things that troubled us and thus we learned to shut up and stuff it. Anyway, what kid has the  permission to voice how miserable they are with a strong or domineering father obsessed by his dream? Many families (and many marriages) today are fragmented and dysfunctional because of lack of honesty and empathy.

Looking back, I want to bravely share my thoughts on reading a diary as a fifteen year old. My love and devotion for my father since being born-again in 1982 has always been endearing and I was shocked to read the many  turbulent and devastated emotions detailed in my journal entries.Two events in particular caused me to be ostracized for the rest of high school.My parents refused to buy me a razor to shave my legs. I was nick-named bear legs by the boys. My father also refused me to wear any blue jeans because he deduced them to be anti-establishment! So I had to wear my corny Catholic school, pleated knee length skirt and loafer shoes. My parents also never came to my defense when a large bully girl accosted me daily because I was of mixed heritage. It took decades for me to shed the skin of being unworthy and insufficient.

All this being shared, I long to see children and adolescents  soaring into their  divine destiny, their parents being well-equipped to empathetically nurture, (and appropriately discipline when needed) their kids. Children do not belong to parents. Parents are temporary stewards of God’s little people, who he is seeking to one day bless their destiny!

If my father were still alive today and asked me to honestly tell him what he could have changed about the way he raised me, this is the letter I would write to him as a grown and healing woman of God:

Dear Daddy!

Words cannot express the gratitude I have for the great things you’ve taught me. Thank you for the special times  I had with you as you taught me all about sign-painting and making silk screen templates for your job. Though I was skinny and had awful hay fever allergies and hating you taking Leslie and I to doctor Pfum to get twelve allergy shots twice a year in my arm, I was able to help you dig holes for the sign posts  Thank you for insisting that I not run the streets after boys because they would get me pregnant. Thank you for playing those amazing Spanish Flamenco albums. My love for all kinds of great music contributed to me being the eclectic and innovative composer I am today.

As a grown woman, I have truly appreciate all of who you are. You are such a charming, highly intelligent and gifted man. Thank you that even while you worked full time as a graphic designer for the US government, you earned your bachelors degree in political science so you could earn a better living for mommy and us girls!

My few regrets about our relationship was that you never allowed me to cry, to complain if I were exhausted. I would have loved for you to take seriously my greif and  shame at being half Puerto-Rican and half German, ( a weirdo and not accepted  as equal by the other kids). I also wished you had appreciated  and supported my talent in sewing, fashion design and creative writing and not say they are useless! Also, please respect that I have my own mind, I am a free spirit, (non-conformist) and  not interested in doing anything rebellious of crazy!  I know you have plans for me, but allow me to make my own choices:)  The  most painful rejection from you was when the two times I needed you most, you reneged.

When I was a boarder in the house of that alcoholic man and his blind wife and he tried to kick down my door and rape me. You said, “Be strong, honey, do the best you can.” You have no idea how that devastated me. And then when my fiance was emotionally stalking and traumatizing me and threatened me with death if I didn’t marry him. You wearily said to me,  “I’m sorry, honey. I can’t help you. I’m a sick man.”

I love you and forgive you and my Heavenly father has made right all the wrongs. I ask you to forgive me for anything I’ve hurt you with and please forgive yourself. Abba God has forgiven you, Papito.

Fathers (and mothers)..Healing and reconciliation comes from  looking deep inside yourself and remembering what you said, how you responded to your daughters cries, complaints and questions! Daughters are very complex and fragile beings, (with all these chemicals and hormonal changes). Please fathers, do your intense research early, before your little girl starts to show her womanhood. Old as I am, i am still my Papito’s little girl. I yearn every day for his hug and his “I love You, Anita.” Every day. I curse that demonic man-made tradition  men don’t cry or don’t your emotions! Pride is a killer and it’s terribly wounded and destroyed many relationships with their children. Thank you for allowing me to share about my relationship with my dear father and may you learn from his and my mistakes and help heal your relationship with your princess today!

Heavenly father, thank you for your unmerited and abundant wisdom which we have avail…if we humbly ask. Let there be healing in the fathers and daughters who read this testimony. Lord, help father to build bridges of compassion, tenderness and wisdom as they raise up, confident, trusting and joyous daughters. It’s not shameful for dads to make mistakes, but the three words, “I am Sorry” heals a multitudes of bitterness, resentment, shame and unforgiveness strongholds which could take decades to uproot in our daughters. From this day forward, Father, help us daughters to also appreciate our fathers and honor them so that our lives are long and prosperous. In Jesus name, amen

A DAY in the LIFE of DYSTONIA, (Eight Years)


Eight years and counting…but trusting and believing that I am HEALED by Jesus stripes. I refuse to disbelieve that Christ also endured  the beating for Dystonia, Lupus, ALS  and PSP. These are all satanic attacks and I continue to declare my healing.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCo82bv5lRM

Dear Jim, my dear precious man, My heart goes OUT to you also. I’m a lovely gal whose life has been severely humbled and humiliated also. My struggle with mouth, tongue and throat Dystonia has been a living hell every waking moment. Others couldn’t imagine the heartbreak and anguish having to deal with CERVICAL issues which affect almost every area of our body’s and even the organs and brain neurotransmitter activity. Doctors DO NOT care about doing deeper studies on Dystonia because thy get their kickbacks from the DRUG companies. I for one CANNOT take drugs because my calling as an artist, worship leader, composer and journalist depends on my mind being high mental acuity. So my choice is suffering from great pain from a misaligned JAW joint (TMJ) to bitten my tongue til it bleeds and my lower face and mouth making the ugliest grimaces. For a woman, this is demeaning…so I’m housebound almost all of the week. the only time I get out is when I drive myself to my Chriro for my adjustment which does nothing to stop the facial movements. Driving is grueling because my nervous system reacts violently to the engine power, so my mouth goes Berserk!

This next video is about Sara’s battle with Dystonia (TMJ disorder) She’s another hero of mine and her symptoms are very similiar of what my body has suffered. Following is a list of her symptoms.  I highly recommend anyone enduring Dystonia to get a good MRI of your jaw area to see if your misaligned tooth bite is the problem. I tore my jaw ligament while singing a high E note while singing. I heard  something that sounded like a crack or tear and a week later, my problem started. Unfortunately, doctors and neurologists focused on the brain area and spine, but did NOT focus on the  jaw area:) Also consider any head trauma or car accidents . I pray my blog will open up some more areas for you to find relief for your Dystonia.

The following are Sara’s symptom

Secondary/Acquired Paroxysmal Dystonia moving to Generalised Dystonia, Dystonic Storms, Tremor, Teeth clenching, Migraines
Jaw pain, Temple pain left side, Neck Pain, Back Pain, Shoulder Pain, Low back pain, Headaches, Faint/Lightheaded, Concentration issues, Occasional stutter/slurring, Vertigo, Memory impairment, Hearing impairment right side, Balance problems, Chronic Fatigue
Visual disturbances, Light sensitivity, Sound sensitivity, Smell sensitivity and lack of smell, Ear ache intermittent, Dulling of hearing, Tinnitus (occasionally), Loss of taste (I was just adding lots of salt and didn’t realise!), Toothache, Breathing difficulties, Sinus issues, Snoring
Difficult to wake up/drowsiness, Weak muscles – especially arms/legs/ unable to easily hold phone or brush hair, Sharp and Chronic hand/finger pain, Fine motor control issues -writing/eating/DIY, Slowed movement/ability to move, Biting back/sides of tongue all the time, Sensitive teeth (sometimes), Raynaud’s Syndrome (cold feet and hands), Knee pain, Hip pain, Upper arm and upper thigh (lymph) pain

 

I give all glory and thanks to the Lord for ANY creative endeavor I attempt to finish, (my recording of my albums and my 5-part series book! the incessant & violent pulling on my neck and thraot muscles DRAINS any motivation out of me, so I’m constantly crying out to Father for strength. I pray that all my beloved ones, thank God everyday for being able to enjoy your relationship with your precious heavenly Father, Jesus & Holy Spirit. You have NO idea how much easier it is to life life hen you’re not in agony every waking moment. Thank Him everyday for your health and mobility. Many are disabled by DYSTONIA or suicidal. I give ALL thanks to my wonderful Father for helping me endure this daily cross.  all and Please be patient and compassionate to those who have disability. It’s twice as hard to KEEP your marbles together! blessings to you all!

 

Here is another young lady suffering from a TMJ disorder.

Secular Music VS Sacred Music Pt 2


So, one of my Christian  Facebook sisters  posted a  video on her Timeline.  It was David Bowie’s Video, Black Star. I was struck, at once by an ominous, disturbing feeling. Everything about the symbols and imagery made me feel sick, reminding me of the condition of the world. Truly our modern icons are preparing the new way and world.

More than ever, God’s people, His bride and the intercessors must watch and pray. This is not a time for us to ignore the demonic assaults satan has for the body of Christ and humanity. Truly, we must focus on God, His word and goodness, but the Bible  speaks of our battle being not against flesh and blood, but against  the principalities of darkness. We must be alert to prophetic end-time events and pray accordingly. These are not fear-mongering  events and propaganda, but to inform God’s people to what is happening around the world. I want to remind God’s children also about who will be cast into the  fire.

   Rev 21 6  But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.

The fearful and the unbelieving are listed first! Are you  mocking the men and women of God who are watchmen? Are you scoffing that all these  reports are simply  conspiracy theories? Your soul is at high risk for sudden death. This is no joking matter and satan has had plan A, B, C and D (thru his Illuminati for many centuries) prepared for any opposing move to his plan. God’s people must heed the warnings and pray.

A recording artist shared his testimony of how his music would be marketed and what its success would entail. It was shocking to me, because since a young girl, I’ve loved the music of my favorite outrageous recording artists such as Elton John, Freddie Mercury and even led Zeppelin. I never imagined, even as a born-again  child of God, how harmful my favorites artist’s music could influence my life.

The recording artist went on to describe the  process of preparing a recording work for the public. The artist had to be initiated as a witch to produce music. Every record recorded was brought to a special room in preparation for the satanic rituals and prayers of the demonically-anointed witches. During the full moon the master is taken to the temple room  Thirteen chosen witches and warlocks decree  and declare demonic principalities over the project.

Masses of our young people are enslaved through such devices of satan. Most parents have no idea what music and entertainment their children are watching and listening to.  They need to exercise their authority and responsibility to keep tabs and  talk with their kids about what is edifying and what is negative to their emotional health and well-being. We need to explain to our children that there is a spirit behind everything. Jesus taught us that we shall know them by their fruits. Mat 7:15-17

“Beware of the false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly are ravenous wolves. 16“You will know them by their fruits. Grapes are not gathered from thorn bushes nor figs from thistles, are they? 17“So every good tree bears good fruit, but the bad tree bears bad fruit.…

Parents, most music icons and sports heroes are wolves in sheeps clothing, promoting idolatry, sexual impurity-perversion, greed and violence.  The godly ones who give glory to God and celebrate their Christian faith are maligned and attacked by the media, the mainstream public and atheists. Teach your kids the difference between a godly role model and a perverted one.

Parents, adults and teachers, teach kids how to examine spiritual fruit.  What fruits are are music artists like  Katy Perry, Beyonce, Madonna, and sports idol  OJ Simpson producing? It doesn’t take a rocket scientist to see that  sexual perversion, occult involvement and brutal murder are not conducive to the abundant lifestyle.  Christ’s  lifestyle promotes  peace that passes all understanding, emotional stability, freedom from torment,  transformation, contentment and especially divine wisdom and power! The fruit of a committed Christian should always exude those attributes which build up themselves and other people. What is is that  offends young people about Christianity that they seek after anything satanic, (witch craft, which always includes some form of torture and  blood sacrifice), hatred-genocide towards Christians or Jews and all kinds of perversion, bestiality and chaos. Is this what kids really desire? The music-entertainment industry has deceived the population that these are all okay and normal.

Here is where parental guidance is urgently needed. Adolescents and teen’s minds are not fully mature till after the age of eighteen. Thus, they aren’t able to understand the dynamic of negative choices, habits, actions and their consequences. The saddest fact about satan’s ploy against our youth is that he disguises them as glamorous and cool. Kids don’t see the outcome of a Ouija board experience or conjuring up spirits and playing with tarot cards.  I can attest by experience that any dabbling into satan’s territory produces bad fruit, or worse yet, nightmare events that  continue until true Christian deliverance occurs. Pretty daunting. My courtship with my first (now Ex) husband led me to the most terror-filled experience of my life for almost two years.

I endured extreme violence, hatred, stalking, emotional roller-coasters of him pleading for my and God’s forgiveness to him almost murdering me by smothering in our own bed! Many single and married women suffer domestic violence and misogyny (hatred and/or prejudice of women). Witchcraft is real. Curses are real. I almost died because of not being  spiritually covered by a strong, godly pastor and father. Someday, I will publish my book about my experience with demon-possessed  exes. Sadly, I suffered much and very deep emotional trauma and physical sickness because I was ignorant of satan’s extreme ability to keep me victimized and vulnerable.  Thankfully, because of staying intimate and in covenant with Abba God,  studying His word diligently and praying His word, Holy Spirit has blessed me with much more  wisdom, discernment and awareness of the strategic devices of Satan to keep Christians ensnared and defeated!

There are many scoffers who reply on these Youtube videos, saying it’s all BS, but I must bodily state the  consequences of dabbling in  the occult and being ensnared by the glossy and perverse  videos. The bottom line, folks is: the wages of sin is death! Rom 6:23.

Another evil fruit ensnaring millions of youth are debilitating depression, attempted and acts of suicide. The following is an expert from  PUB MED.gov:

The plaintiffs in a law suit alleged that the heavy metal rock band Judas Priest, and its publisher CBS, were liable for damages to two youths who shot themselves after listening to the band’s album. Crucial issues included “proximate cause” and “precipitating cause” in suicide, and the alleged role of subliminal messages. The judge ruled that although the “heavy metal” music might have had a toxic influence, the sounds and words are protected by the free speech first amendment. The influence of subliminal messages on behavior is unproven. There were many other elements in the personalities and situations of the victims to account for their self-destructive behavior.

http://www.av1611.org/rockm.html

We can also look to the Gothic subculture as another cause for young people cutting themselves to alleviate their emotional trauma.

http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/Evils%20in%20America/goth.htm

I remind you parents, teachers, educators, mentors and law enforcement  to be aware, confront  and assuage the ploys and attacks on our children who are being hit on every side. The Occult and New Age-tinged music and  entertainment are the main doors in which satan can access a young person’s spirit and mind. Kids who have difficulty fitting in are most often the prime targets for involvement in Gothic culture. Here is where strong, loving communication must be done regularly.  I can’t be more urgent than to ask all adults to uphold our youth in utmost prayer. I pray that these videos in my blog educate and inform you as to the seriousness of the destiny of the next generation. Keep in mind also how satan uses technology to dull the  mind of creativity, compassion and respect for life.

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/4905898.stm

Prayer,

Father God, we uphold our young people to you. We cry out for these impressionable souls, their destinies, their callings and well-being. Deploy your warrior angels to war against the principalities of darkness in every arena, particularly regarding the music-entertainment industry and  film.  Empower and anoint fresh, spirit-filled recording, video and  graphic artists, as well as established spirit-filled Christian producers, A&R people who own their own companies and radio stations,  to create and produce God-glorifying music, documentaries, videos, games and motion pictures,. Let their works be more alluring than anything satan could ever produce.  Strengthen spiritually, teachers, college-age youth mentors and educational leaders with salvation and  anointing. Father, we ask that there be a Holy shift in this area, in the earthly and spiritual realm, that  sexually-perverted,  violent, self-destructive negative trends and mind-sets be reversed and destroyed forever. Let a Holy Spirit anointing usurp the demonic anointing of the many music icons and sports stars which are beguiling our precious youth. We declare a reversal of mental illness- depression and suicide. Anoint your people with gifts of deliverance where they recognize demonic spirits at work and cast them out. Let your people wake up to the reality of global satanic oppression, suppression and possession of millions of precious souls! We thank You,   All Powerful Heavenly Father, for victory and miracles for this generation. in Yashuha’s Jesus name, amen.

THE OUTPOURING


I woke up this morning, after a peaceful and quiet Thanksgiving day with my husband), preparing to start my usual day in worship and prayer.This Thanksgiving, I didn’t get distressed and depressed about not being able to enjoy the company of my precious mother and three younger sisters. Some day, soon, I’d forever my family’s company in  eternity. I briefly scanned my FB page to see if there were any emergency prayers and quickly jumped to check my gmail mailbox. My  husband sent me a newsletter from his pastor freind.

One in particular disturbed me and caused my stomach to turn violently. It was this type of email that caused me to lose my appetite and drop weight, despite eating the highest quality foods I could stand. Halfway into the startling video, I stopped to pray. “Holy Spirit, how can we pray against this deluge of evil?”

As I continued to watch the demonic scenes of violence, I became queasy and had to leave the room. One reported mentioned a seven year old girl who was brutally raped right in a playground just a few yards from her mother!  The suffering of the victims of the Sweden, Germany (and whole region of Europe) was staggering beyond my comprehension! The refugee-immigrant deluge was causing atrocious suffering beyond anything I’d heard of. I watched the video to the end and then went back to  YOUTUBE to get more information.                                                                            http://www.breitbart.com/london/2015/11/11/watch-anti-migrant-video-going-viral-across-europe/

Another journalist on Youtube, Martin shared his similiar report.

The next video was from INFO WARS, (Alex Jones ) As a journalist and advocate of human rights, I have a responsibility to inform. i never seek to frighten  but know that  exposing the truth will bring us to a place of surrendered reliance on the only one who can protect and strengthen us through these perilous times! We women and children will suffer the most from this Muslim onslaught. If we rebel against  their Sharia law, we will be ambushed, beaten and raped right on our streets. We must wake up to the fact and take action, through fasting and great effectual prayer. The threat is real and it IS coming right here to the United States unless the body of Christ wakes up and  takes the spiritual offense!

And from the days of John the Baptist until now the kingdom of heaven suffers violence, and the violent take it by force. Mat 11:12

Our world is suffering great demonic violence and it is up to God’s people to violently push back,

In  the aforementioned video, a Muslim young man stated, ” I want to see every woman in this country covered from head to toe. I want to see every hand of the thief cut of. I want to see adulterers stoned to death. I want to see Shariah Law in Europe and I want to see America as well.”

America is in serious trouble because God’s people have allowed the atheists and God-haters to pull out prayer from our schools and  not opposed the abortionists from it’s  relentless bloodshed. God’s cup of wrath  is about overflowed and judgement is imminent. The only ones who’ll not incur the wrath be be His children who have borne the weight of of our corporate evil and apathy.  My heart is grieving for the impending civil war, ( which may be the bloodiest in world-wide history) war which will result in millions  dying in their sin and  separated from God and His  glorious eternal life. Brothers and sisters, our main urgency must be touching souls and leading them to Christ. Including the Muslims, terrorists and enemies of the Gospel. Jesus told us to pray for our enemies and them who persecute us. This can only be done by purifying our hearts and hands as we intercede on behalf of the lost, asking Holy spirit to come as precious cloud of salvation and healing!

My dear spiritual father and mentor, Augusto Perez, The Appearance Ministries  reported on his blogtalk radio station, that we must not take the bait. What bait? The bait by “testosterone-driven and enraged” sheriffs, law enforcement and lone-vigilantes to violently rebel and take up arms in defense of their constitutional rights and patriotism. Most patriots, Texans and NRA members who won’t surrender to  Sharia Law and would fight at any cost including their lives. I pray that we can avert such a catastrophic tsunami of bloodshed through our deepest repentance and cries for God’s mercy in America.

We need to beseech Holy Spirit’s divine counsel and guidance on how to address the shariah threat in America.  counsel to address the  Shariah threat when it does comes to America.  Untold millions will be  die as a result of the  revolution against our constitutional rights. I urge all of God’s people, to start praying, fasting and seeking the Lord as never before. We are facing a hurricane of unprecedented magnitude. I also pray that my FB  Christian brethren wake up to the reality of serious threats which face us today, (not to mention other devastating health and climate threats from GMO and cloning). These are for another post.

God’s people are the only thing holding back this tsunami of evil  (ISIS),  but since this monster is gaining strength daily by thousands of new recruits, we need more prayer warriors to commit to prayer for souls and Father’s heavenly intervention.  We cannot reverse God’s decree of Judgement, but we can lessen the totality and severity.

I would also like to see other pastors, nationally arising and addressing the refugee issue and getting their flocks armed and prepared in great fasting and prayer for the outpouring of the Holy Spirit, in America and  globally. I’m so thankful for Pastor Augusto,: The Appearance Ministries, Pastor Elias Fargas, Kingdom Epic center, Ray Thoman: Hia Ministries, Daniel Holdings, Larry Taylor,  Steve Quayle, Tom Horn  and many other watchmen who are blowing the  trumpet and warning us. We need to uphold our watchmen in great prayer for their protection and for exposing the enemies plans for the greatest genocidal-revolution, (Christians and Jews, as well as anyone who opposes Shariah ideology-invasion). that ever was.

http://www.breitbart.com/london/2015/11/11/watch-anti-migrant-video-going-viral-across-europe/

Prayer: Father God, Creator of the Universe and our mighty,  high tower and shield, we ask You to deploy your myriad angels to war against the hosts of hell.  As we pray, guide us with Your divine counsel and revelation so we may push back and overcome the onslaught of the enemy,. His plans are to ambush and  lasso millions more  souls into eternal damnation. please let not this outpouring of evil continue to mushroom, in huge swaths of territories abroad, in Europe, the middle East, Africa and North America. Let there be an outpouring of the Holy Spirit that has never been seen. Come Holy Spirit,  let your truth, revelation and salvation  fall like a fresh rain over the seething masses. Right now, Abba Father, release your divine angels to assist your people who are called by your name, for victory and so that  souls can be sealed for an eternal destiny with You! Thank you Jesus, Captain of the Host, for raising  your people in victory. We seal this prayer in  the matchless name of Jesus, amen.

 

TASTE and SEE


Beautiful words stir my heart. I will recite a lovely poem about the king, for my tongue is like the pen of a skillful poet. Psalm  45:1 NLT

Last night, I went to sleep listening to watchmen, Nathan Leal and Steve Qualye sharing their visions of America’s future. You could call me a glutton for punishment because what these two men of God shared isn’t material fir for good sleeping,.  continue I ask Holy Spirit to keep me alert, awake and prayerful about what Father  does in the world. and what I can do to influence and bring beauty and healing.

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/cfp-radio/2015/01/23/steve-quayle-nathan-leal-when-watchmen-see-eye-to-eye

The men continued to share their chilling visions, sending me into anxious tiredness.   i ended up tossing and turning  while reciting my peaceful scripture verses which eventually relaxed my mind.  I’d deal with the judgment visions in the morning.  The next day, ,despite not feeling well, I worshiped  with my guitar and thanked Father for yet another day of warmth, a good cup of coffee and running water.  As I was worshiping,  a vision of sudden panic and chaos hitting Americans made me disturbed again and I started to weep . A major US city felled by a nuclear attach was too much for me to even imagine and tears of sorrow fell for the victims. I believed that the degree of calamity hitting America would solely depend  upon the wisdom and strategy of spirit-led men and women of God, well-prepared for spiritual warfare of any kind. The main concern I see is the lack of reverence ,worship and thankfulness to our Heavenly Father-Creator.   Rom 1:20 came to mind..

     20 For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse.

Invisible qualities are evident and even more so… visible attributes! And what attributes are those? One cannot look through a Hubble telescope without being awestruck by the expanse and breath-taking beauty of the universe! Who set those stars in their places? Psalm 8:3   Psalm 104:    Psalm 104 expounds on the glorious dominion over all things on heaven and on earth. Anyone with an open and humble spirit would examine any of God’s natural creationist  and gasp in reverential awe!

Fearfully and wonderfully made

Since accepting Christ as my Savior in April of 1082, God seriously woke my creative senses beginning with my journey with my camera and macro lenses. Looking into that lens and photographing anything of virtue, I received a taste of God’s transcending creativity.. After earning my degree in college, I became a true artist, dabbling in painting, photography- darkroom technique , lettering and anything relating to the creative arts. I was more so passionate about in-depth studies in the humanities. To me, there is nothing more fascinated than what makes a human tick and how he thinks.  I wanted to learn all about  the workings of the human mind (intellect, will and perspective) and how they developed. How utterly amazing is the human body and mind, when healthy and whole flowing in sync

King  David,  God’s anointed Psalmist  marveled, ” …When I was shaped in the hidden place, (his mother’s womb) and knit together. Psalms 139: 15

In other words, he was “fashioned’ by the hands of a mighty and thoughtful Creator. Deeply pondering this unparalleled genius , (the design of the human body), only a supernatural genius could conceive and  bring to life His creation! That being said, My Heavenly Father continues to dazzle me with His revelations of His deity and creativity. .The closer I draw near to Him, the more he shows me all the depths of His desire and destiny for His creation.

I was browsing around a thrift store years ago and came upon a very alluring full color, coffee table book called The Incredible Machine. Robert Poole compiled the contents of the book for National Geographic. The full-color clarity and detail of the photos draws you into the magnificent workmanship and design of the human body!  I was transfixed by the photos of the embryo in the womb. That picture sold me and I hurried home to explore the  book in full.

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My studies in the humanities paid off and after graduation, God opened doors to put my knowledge to experience firsthand in the counseling fields. I was hired as a part-time behavior counselor for Nutri-System Weight loss center and  mentored youth for a youth-family organization during the other days of the week. Here I learned to help kids and youth navigate through the difficult channels of life, school and their challenged family lives. It was a sublime gifting from God to connect empathetically  with the precious people I counseled-taught. I also knew that if I was to be successful, I first had to intimately connect with my heavenly Father  His honing me to “soul sculpt” became my second passion in life, (after knowing Him). Over the years, I learned how daunting and complicated, (at times) counseling-discipling could be  to help guide to healing the emotionally traumatized and “unlovable” people . Modern science, medicine and  and psychology seemed not to make a dent in certain cases

Music, a Healing tool

Besides my tenure into the social sciences,  my second gift has been as a vocalist composer. My journey learning the guitar has been delightful, but even more so exploring the arena of the …voice. I’ve learned that the voice is similar to our finger prints..there are no two alike. From the range of the deepest bass to the highest soprano, there are myriad various attributes: texture, vibrato,  timbre and tone, raspiness, pure ,ect.. There are three areas where the vocal tone is placed, the falsetto, head voice, the mid range and the chest voice.  The diaphragm is the chief muscle which gives the tone and strength to the voice.  I encourage all seekers of God to explore the glorious “vocal” instrument which  is His tool. Singing out praises to Him with thankfulness and joy can impact the earthly and heavenly realm. Let all the earth sing Praise the Lord…for His mercies endure forever!

There are countless other organs of the body with their own supernatural abilities and because of lack of space, I cannot elaborate on them all. But I must mention the eye, so complicated and amazing, it dazzle my mind. the capillaries can be as fine as a hair and the capacity of the eye to differentiate distance, focus clearly and relate to our brains what we are seeing..is breath-taking. So much for being an artist acutely aware of God’s transcendent wonders!

A New Elite Group, The Transhumanists

That being said, I must share with you about an elite group who does not revere or acknowledged Jehovah God’s creation.

Transhumanism is the greatest threat that mankind has ever faced. humanities greatest threat. Transhumanism is  the belief or theory that the human race can  evolve beyond its current  physical and mental  limitations,  especially by means of science and technology.  The mainstream population may be ignorant of this affront to God’s superior design of the human race, but scientists continue to push the boundaries of their experiments through gene splicing and DNA tampering. What we have now, is a boiling cauldron of GMO, cloning and fetal marketing. The saddest thing is that most of the body of Christ has no idea, nor inkling about what we humans are now facing. Pastors and teachers must awake and address  the Transhumanist’s agenda via research, and  experimentation to annihilate and destroy humans. If not, mankind as we know it will vanish!

To me, it is tyrannically demonic to  understand that the Transhumanists think that they can improve upon God’s creation. God’s people know know that their their minds have been taken over by spirits of deception and arrogance. What are they not seeing? God’s word says

“They knew (about God…and saw His glorious handiwork) but they wouldn’t worship him as God or even give him thanks. And they began to think up foolish ideas of what God was like. As a result, their minds became dark and confused.

Since the beginning of time, satan’s goal has been to ensnare man into thinking the wrong thing and totally apart from God’s perfect wisdom.  This is why God  had to destroy almost everyone except Noah and his family. Satan had  beguiled learned men of the day to entice the people with pagan worship. Their demonic knowledge was so profound and advanced that they contaminated the DNA and mankind was no longer God’s work, but mans. So today, we are in the last days of Noah. Man mankind goes about their business, oblivious to his  emotional detachment to his Creator and ensnared in satan’s ideology of godhood and self-glorification. .

The Transhumanism agenda is now so dangerous and threatening to humanity that pastors, godly educators and scientists must address. Our government has  already made great successful strides to enhance soldiers to create the prefect ubermensch. The Ubermensch is the  ideal superior man of the  future  who could rise above  convention Christian  morality to create  and impose his own values , originally described by  Nietzsche in Thus Spake Zarathustra.

In the very near future, satan will be presenting human enhancements  as so attractive and necessary that most people will  go for them.  The scientists who Dr Tom Horn interviewed in his  Inhuman documentary, make a very strong argument for humanity to transcend its present state. Indeed the Bible prophecies that if it were possible, the very elect would be deceived.

I had a good idea of what artificial intelligence was like watching Data on Star Trek’s The Next Generation.   Data’s character struggled with not being able to feel emotion  One episode showed him playing a violin concerto with another character and another episode showed him enjoying company with his cat, Spot.  Sadly, only in a family-oriented program such as Star Trek,  being human is a coveted  and prized state.

In another Star Trek, series, Voyager, the later seasons brought in a  fascinating new character, a female Borg, 7 of 9, who was separated and  severed from her collective. Captain  Janeway took on the responsibility of helping 7 adjust to her re-entry back into humanity. She was born a human, but was kidnapped and assimilated by the Borg.  Captian Janeway has been a strong force in reminding Seven continually of the greatness of being human. In the first episode where 7 is introduced the scenes and dialogue between her and Captain Janeway is riveting. 7 mourns her disconnection from her collective and says she cannot survive without then. Captain answers, “We are you’re collective now.” She reminds 7 seven that she is human first because she was born human.  During the next episodes and seasons, we rejoice with Capetian Janeways success at helping 7 re acclimate to her original human state.

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If the Transhumanists  get their way, they will persuade us that being enhanced is the future of humanity and to refuse would be to rebel and reject the great plan of the new humanity. Who would  reject the opportunity to never get sick,  old,  fat and bald. It’s everyone’s dream to stay young and physically invincible.

If we understand the repercussions of submitting to  the transhumanism, evolution  we will very well be participating  to the downfall of humanity in Jehovah God’s original creation.  Stop for a moment and realize that  existence will be sterile and gone will be the intangible treasure of humanity all its glorious creative expressions! I urge you to ponder the implications of a world where our bodies do not get weak or sick,  where our life spans are greatly increased, but where there is no need or desire for the works of art from composers, poets and artists. Father God  gave His creative inspirations to His creation, Humanity because he is all about beauty, truth and rejoicing in His glorious handiwork. Let us remember that  Lucifer was His first vessel , and yet he was so envious of God that he rebelled. Imagine, a third of the heavenly angels were cast down to earth because of this mutiny!

Friends, let us not be distracted with the candidates and the elections. satan is very busy keeping our eyes on the latest Dancing With the Stars and other hot TV series. Our  soldiers are already being chipped. I urge you to stop, look, listen ….watch and pray. this is one of the most urgent blogs I have every composed.. The Bible reminds us that His people are perishing In these last days, if it were possible, the very elect will be deceived by anti-christ impending regime. It is time for God’s people to be alert and aware of the insidious plans awaiting us.

I know, I for one have no desire to be part of the new robotic, sterile and godless  world.  And here is where a war between humans and robots will come. Remember the opening scene of Terminator 3 Rise of the Machines shows a post apo2, where the scene opens up with humongous destroying robots walk over a the skulls and remains of humans. Sci fi fantasy, but we humans will be disposable if we  do not pray now for God’s intervention.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

forever. . So…imagine what life would be like as artificially  produced beings now take over the earth. Imagine a world devoid of the divine attributes of empathy, mercy, grace.  Though having to deal with a multitude of greatly challenging and uncomfortable health maladies es since child hood, I know for a certainly that I choose the life God made me. Nothing can compare to the sublime creativity which inspires me to compose music, express my potry and  paint a masterpiece.  Can man create a synthetic nbeing that can express all the emotional and artistic sublities  li were were offered a chnace at receiving enhancements, I know I would This world reminds me of the world of  Tra Trek’s First Contact.

 

 

 

The TRUE Gift of Christ Empathy


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Brother Chad and I are discussing the great deception and delusion that have taken over some. Immediately, Holy Spirit reminded me, may the body of CHRIST worship Him, in spirit & in truth. Many cannot decipher the difference between knowing His word intellectually VS abiding in the Vine, Holy Spirit’s presence. This is the deficit-famine Chad mentioned in his post. Some brethren in my own circle have tremendous head knowledge about God, but deny the power there of. They think because they were trained in Bible school, studied the word of God under lukewarm pastors teaching watered-down Gospels, (which neither save, deliver or transform) and you can tell just by looking at their miserable, frowning faces how much of Christ they reflect!.

Abba Jehovah commanded us to “serve our God-Father-Creator with joy and thankfulness!” Duet 28:47

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They are swollen with their pastor’s doctrines that are very close to the truth, but still far from what is righteous in Yashuah’s eyes!!

Yashuah Jesus  said to a Pastor Richard Sigmund, his book, My Time In Heaven” that “My people have lost their compassion. Compassion is thing I desire of my people” Jesus had such love for people that He groaned in His spirit when they rejected  him. Mat 23:37 “Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you were not willing.”
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In the description section of  the book, I found sarcastic, scoffing reviews from one person,  but whether Pastor’s experience is authentic is not  the crux. The  crux is empathy and action, like the Good Samaritan! There are too few who seek not true empathy, (which is weeping deep in your spirit and wanting to ease the pain…and doing so) This is TRUE compassion Yashuah speaks of. We must be very careful not to place more effort, focus and dedication to our jobs, businesses, ministries or even our own personal revelation which we hope to convince others! (I’m writing quickly as Holy Spirit is leading me).

Being so inundated with prayer requests and seeing so many in need, I wept much  during my special time with my Heavenly Father. I praised, ministered & thanked Him for the multitude of His blessings during my 33 years in Him. I also wept in deep anxiety about the suffering and torment which is soon coming upon the earth by a small group of people who delight to kill off most of the population!  Not conspiracy theory but just check out the ever-growing  statistic of precious people dying of Cancer from pesticides on our foods, GMO and horrendous quality of oxygen in our air. How could  anyone with compassion not grieve for humanity?.

If only they could glimpse what the enemy has planned for the world Jesus clearly warned us in Mat 24:21 For then there will be great distress, unequaled from the beginning of the world until now–and never to be equaled again.

And Luke 21:26, Men’s hearts failing them for fear, and for looking after those things which are coming on the earth: for the powers of heaven shall be shaken.

So I bless you all as I close and anyone who wishes to engage a living, loving and transforming Savior, free free to contact me. There is a risen Savior who came to seek that which was lost!

I pray that we all have ears to hear and allow Holy Spirit to  receive what He has to say and not our pastors or our own personal experiences! Ask Father to show you how, when and to whom to bestow random acts of kindness and mercy, (seeking no reward) , for our reward is in Heaven! Let us be like that compassionate Samaritan who  had empathy, stopped to minister aid and brought restoration to a half dead man!
God bless you as you accumulate treasures in Heaven that will not fade not pass away.


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America must stand with Israel at all costs! Are there any brave conservative, Christian leaders who are bold and honest enough to tell our president and the administration of God’s covenant with Israel. Someone MUST tell him or America is doomed..

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