TEACH US TO NUMBER OUR DAYS



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Journal Entry, October 1, 2018

A usual day, making my usual cup of Hazlenut coffee. But today I am eagerly waiting to see about the recovery of the baby squirrel I brought home yesterday.  I noticed a note from my husband, right next to the coffee maker. Mark usually didn’t leave me notes unless it was important or for me to do an errrand for him. He was  as concerend for the baby suqirrel as I was that she be hydrated and fed. The note said, “Honey bun, the baby suqirrel did not make it”.

I burst into tears and rusheed to the bedroom, in hopes that perhapos the baby squirrel was still asleep. She indeed had died during the night. Her eyes were partially closed and she looked so peaceful.  AS I stared at her tiny body and beautiful bushy tail,  I wondered why Father God did not choose to restore her. I had only known her a day and a half, but I was grieving as if she were a pet. I suddenly felt felt disturbed and nauseous.

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Just a short day and a half ago, I was enjoying the beautiful Indian summer Sunday afternoon on my scooter. My favorite place to roll down an incline was at a vacated building which used to be a bank. I was riding uphill on the driveway and a tiny baby squirrel stopped in in front of me, in the middle of the driveway. She was moving very slow and I got closer to take a look. She stared at me then stopped, as if she was too weak to walk. She then looked at me and gave a long sorrowful squeal as if to say, “Help me”. I melted. Then I watched her struggle to stand. She steadied herself and slowly walked to a grassy area where she lay down. Immediately a swarm of flies settled on her soft coat. I became angry that they were so greedy they couldn’t wait for her to die before laying larva to eat her. I scootered home as quickly as I could, praying that she would not die on me before I came back for her.

When I came back with the truck, she was laying on her side with those wretched flies all over her. I managed to scoop her up into a plastic tray. When I got her home, she was not afraid of me. I gave her a little water with an eye dropper and mixed some wet cat food. She didn’t even struggle or fight me. When I retired for the night, I believed when would be more chipper when I awoke the next morning to attend her.
The next morning, Mark was anxious to see Bitty, the baby squirrel I told him about. He also was smitten by her and mentioned that when she recovered she would join the other squirrels that frequented our back yard. I remembered the time I rescued to white ferret while on the way home from a recording session. It was a very dark night, but I was able to make out a small white creature rolling out from under the car ahead of me. I stopped my car to see if the animal survived and found it was a white ferret. There was no blood but I could tell she was terrified. I went to my car and grabbed a music stand and crate and was able to scoop her into the crate. When I got her home, she was relaxed and ended up adjusting beautifully to Mark and the other five cats. Ghost became a loved member of our family.

Fast Forward two days Later
Bitty’s demise made me feel disconnected and empty. I knew from experience that dying pets always made me fall into lengthy periods of nonproductively and since I was part of an intercessory prayer group, I had to stay somewhat sharp. The Bible was always my source of strength when I lost pets and my eyes fell on Moses .Psalm 90. Verse 12 always made me stop and ponder the concept of numbering our days. I wondered why Father didn’t choose to revive Bitty, our any of the precious cats who comforted me over the years. I’ve been walking with the Lord since 1983 and have come a long way in my perception and experiencing God. Today, the truth and reality of the brevity of life is crystal clear.

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Whether in joy, celebration, soberness or accepting death, God is still God and His strength is made perfect in the fragility of our grieving.  Intimacy with Him is the only way we can address great losses in our lives and move forward in strength and purpose. For me and all those who passionately seek Jehovah God, the Eternal One and His son, Jesus the Christ, Life in Him is the only life worth living.

Bitty’s rescue and death reminded me of our life, friendships and existence, ever-changing., and sometimes ending.  As a journalist, I ask my heavenly Father to use my gifts, (both tragedies and triumphs) to guide, encourage and empower those He sends my way. How I desire to express my emotions, perceptions and responses through His divine perspective. One of the most precious attributes He tempers is compassion and tenderness. Mark remarked to me how he was moved to see me so gently try to nourish Bitty.

Bikini Dies, October 3, 2018
Two days after Bitty’s death and ready to greet another day,  Mark leaft me another note on the kitchen counter. This note said that he was taking Bikini, our long-haired, gentle tan and grey tabby, to the vet. While my coffee was brewing , I called him at work to see how Bikini made out. A  long pause, “Kini’s gone,”  he said softly. I burst out crying.

Mark described his dismal morning.  Our other cat, a male,  Tiny, was meowing despairingly  in the laundry room,. He found Bikini laying on the tile floor, convulsing in a pool of her urine. Alarmed, he took her to the car, in hopes of taking her to the vet near his job. When he arrived at the vets, two female attendants were there, but they weren’t allowed to open the door and let Mark in with Bikini. One, took one look at Bikini and said, “It’s too late. She’s clearly on the way out” It was about 5:30 am when Bikin expired. I was sobbing loudly as Mark described driving to work with Bikini dead on the passenger seat.

The rest of the day,   I was nuaseous and sorrowful.. This was getting to be too much with losing three friends just last month. My daily battle with my condition and the incessant pulling of my Platysma and SCM muscles in my throat made my life all the more taxing. Every trauma took a lot out of me. The recent nights were terrible also as I’d be woken up several times during the night.  The stress of mourning Bitty’s and Bikin’s death didn’t help  my muscles. II was unable to  get REM sleep for hours.  I desperately needed a break.

I went out into the yard to rake leaves to vent my grief and called one of the matron intercessors from our prayer group. She had recently lost and was grieving over her beloved dog, Holly, so I knew I could confide in her about losing my sweet Bikini. Pastor Pam and I prayed and her prayer gave me comfort. She shared that God reminded her not to drown in her mourning and focus on moving forward. I then called another dear spiritual sister, Sandra, who was also all too familiar with losing her beloved cat right around the time she lost her mother. It was so grateful to be able to share my burden. I thought about Job crying out with the terrible news of losing all his children.

Bikini was with for about 12 years and was the subject of many beautiful photographs that I will cherish. Bikini’s meek and tender personality was unlike some other cats, who growled or scratched out if provoked or if their food bowl was threatened. Just last week, Bikini’ became more attached to me and would sit in the middle of the kitchen floor and stare up at me while I cooked our meals. Mark took Bikin’s death especially hard, blaming himself that he didn’t have her checked earlier. I assured him that Bikini died of Cancer and her symptoms were similar to my beloved white calico, Baby-Baby. The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, but blessed be the name of the Lord. My comfort during the loss of a beloved loved on or pet is that one day we will see Jesus face to face. My scripture verse of great comfort is Revelation 21:4

He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

Those of us who have accepted Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior will be reunited with our loved ones and I believe our beloved pets. Oh, the joys of our covenant relationship with our Heavenly Father. We will enjoy the glorious blessings of eternity in Heaven in a glorified body where there is no decay, accidents, sin or death. I pray, my friend that you too will invite Christ into your heart and life. So you can be assured of reuniting with your loved ones.

PRAYER, The Double-Edged Sword


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Note This article is not for scoffers, mockers and those who disbelieve there is a God, a devil and demonic spirits roaming and destroying mankind. This expository will elaborate on the efficacy of focused and deliberate prayer, coupled with steadfast faith. If you are born-again in Christ, you need to consider this teaching.

Let’s start at the beginning,
For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.  John 3:16

When Adam and Eve committed the first sin, by eating of the fruit of the tree of good and evil, they literally handed their dominion over the earth to satan, (Lucifer). Our parents’ sin catapulted all humanity into chaos, separation from our heavenly Father and spiritual death. Despite the devastating consequences, we know that God had a plan to bring his creation back to Himself, by sending His own perfect, Son, Jesus the Christ, to be the sacrificial lamb of cleansing, resurrection and communion. The greatest act which happened to all mankind was Jesus’ victorious resurrection and His redeeming us back to our Father God!. This is the glory of those born-again in Christ! We are now adopted into Christ’s glorious heritage and family and are co-inheritors of all God”s blessings and provisions. This is indeed something we can celebrate and teach others about.  Right now,  Abba  God ( Daddy, in Aramaic)  awaits as many of His sons and daughters to come home to enjoy intimacy through Jesus.

So here we are, many thousands of years after Jesus’ resurrection and victorious dominion over sin,  death and eternal separation from our Heavenly Father . Many have come to the cross, and have come home, but still, innumerable others have chosen to deny God’s precious gift of salvation and communion with God,  Jesus Christ and Holy Spirit. God has blessed His children with a vehicle, prayer

The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results. James 5:16

This scripture doesn’t say the prayers of just any person. He can call himself a Christian, be of a certain denomination or a particular church prays with insincere motives and who really doesn’t seek God’s face. Jesus blasted many of the Pharisee because their prayers were, e lengthy and pious but their hearts were far from God. In many places in the Bible, God tells us to be diligent when we seek Him. God was very particular about communion with him

But from there you will search again for the LORD your God. And if you search for him with all your heart and soul, you will find him. Duet 4:29. Part of growing in our intimacy with God is regularly taking an honest spiritual inventory of our spiritual journey and ask ourselves, “Am I sincerely connecting with Abba’s heart?”

Often, when I approach Abba in my prayer closet, I think to myself, “I don’t feel anything. I don’t believe Father is listening and I feel like a hypocrite or automaton.” When I feel very distant from Father, I back off and come back later when I can focus. I cannot bear to come into His presence with hypocrisy or feeling detached. For may of us, we often feel God is far away, but He will draw near if we sincerely seek His precious face! So often,  because of this movement neurological battle I endure, I cannot connect. Here is where Holy Spirit is always willing to help. I must be honest, without Holy Spirit’s help I could not abide in intimate communion with Abba or be able to even compose a blog  such as this.

Jesus promised us that when He left, he wouldn’t leave us as orphans. He would send the comforter.But the Advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. John 14:26. .
Prayer then, coupled with Holy Spirit’s revelatory unction is God’ channel of intimate communion with his sons and daughters.

I accepted Christ in 1983 and have been part of many Pentecostal, charismatic and Assembly of God church families where I learned the basics. Because of lack of information and deep, Holy Spirit revelation and anointing, I struggled with persistent health issues and the many traumatic events of my life. I was not defeated but I was not victoriously overcoming as my Bible and scriptures promised. I knew something was missing. Something was wrong and I continued to cry out and ask God for divine help!. I was always a woman of prayer and was committed to pray, but I lacked a major component: fellowship with other like-minded, anointed and spirit-filled prayer warriors! Spirit-filled here is the key to a vigorous and victorious prayer life and faith journey. Without the power of the third person of the triune Godhead, we really are helpless and fruitless!

Fast forward 30 years from 1983, my faith journey prayer life and intercessory prowess grows by leaps and bounds. Because of my persistent, asking, seeking and knocking,  I  weekly learn miraculous and divine things from Pastor Augusto’s ministry, The Appearance, Pastor Sandra Gonzalez, Spirit-Filled Life Ministries and the anointed 24/7 NSCP national  intercessor phone conference line group, led my Pastor Eon Peia and Mother Maureen Bravo. These past several years I’vbe experienced the tremendous efficacy of prayer. It is powerful when we pay passionately and with authority to our Heavenly Father who awaits us in the great throne room of grace and power!

How prayer works:

The most successful prayers are heart-felt, nurtured in a intimate relationship with God.’ Although Father can and will hear and answer prayers from new believers
God’s angelic host can be dispatched to help when we ask God in prayer for their help. Psalm 91:11 NLT

God’s word, the Holy scriptures, are powerful. They are able to cut through Satan’s curses, assignments and attacks.. When we fervently believe, we  accept hat power or it won’t manifest! Jesus told us that Father would answer our prayers. You can ask for anything in my name, and I will do it, so that the Son can bring glory to the Father. John 14:13

Prayer is intensified when joined by other like-minded, spirit-filled believers.

Not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some is; but exhorting one another: and so much the more, as ye see the day approaching. Heb 10:25

I cannot stress enough how crucial it is abide within a group of anointed believers. It is beneficial to find a good church where the gifts of the spirit manifest and unfortunately, these powerful, spirit-filled churches are few. How do you know if the church or group is anointed and spirit-filled? You examine the fruits. Are they full of the love and power of Holy Spirit? For some of us, the process of examining fruits may be a lengthy process, but if we ask the Holy Spirit, He will reveal and guide us into all wisdom and revelation. We must also be wary of churches or groups, (cults) which manifest signs and wonders., but which are copied by satan).  Satan is very powerful and can try to imitate the work of the Holy Spirit. Examine the fruit, whether it is good or bad!  We must ask Holy Spirit for discernment

God performs His word when we declare them in faith!

The LORD said to me,  (Jeremiah) “You have seen correctly, for I am watching to see that my word is fulfilled. Jer. 1:2 NIV

Pastor Derrik Prince has a wonderful video on Declaring God’s word. He knows firsthand how to demolish the satanic stronghold on this earth. God’s word is our sledgehammer and our double-edged sword. .

The Power of Proclamation, Derrik Prince

Applying the Blood of Jesus to our prayers, loved ones and everyone in our circle of contact

Teacher-Prophetess Billye Brim teaches on the power of Jesus blood.

 

Our responsibility should be to passionately explore the whole gamut of the spiritual realm and apply its precepts and protocol to our daily lives. Only by focused, relentless and courageous effort will we be able to thrive in the hostile spiritual atmosphere we abide in at present. Everyday, countless millions are hindered, tormented and/or killed by demonic spirits and the battle becomes even more daunting as more evil spirits are released from the abyss. Now is not the time for God’s people to relax or turn their backs on God. The lives of our relatives, co-workers, neighbors and everyone we rub shoulders with, depend on our Spirit-anointed prayers and intercessions.

Pastor John Eckert’s powerful declaration video speaks all about God’s miraculous Exousia and Dunamis power!! This video will change your life.

If you are to survive the ever-brutal and worsening darkness, you need to diligently apply spiritual warfare disciplines. Nothing can separate us and we overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony. Remember, you have all authority and satan and his demons are under your feet! \

God bless you, courageous warrior of teh most high God, Jehovah Sabaoth!!v

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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NEAR to the BROKEN-HEARTED


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The weight was becoming so crushing that Barbara could barely  breath

I got off of my tread mill, at the telephones’ ringing and heard my precious sister Barbara’s voice, weak with grief.  She was grieving for her son, Adam and it was a very difficult time for her. I was grateful to be  available for her and listened as she poured out her heart to me. Feelings of protectiveness came over me like a mother bear seeing her cub being threatened.  I knew the enmey was trying to drag her backwards into the depths of bondage.  I waited for Holy Spirit to download instruction on how to minister to her.

I felt a very heavy burden of anguish and then I asked her to rest and be still because I was going to release a song over her. The inspiration of lyrics came to me the past Saturday because of a burden for my three younger sisters who were are battling weights from their past. As I was checking my emails, I saw a dear prophetic brother who wrote that Holy Spirit had told him I was going to write another song. I grabbed my pen and within 5 minutes I wrote  “Enter My Rest” Holy Spirit reminded me  of  Hebrews 4:11Let us therefore strive to enter into His rest.

I could feel a spiritual tug of war going on with Barbra, but I told her I felt to sing Shalom over her. the new song,  Enter my Rest and Beautiful Daughter. Holy Spirit was showing me that Abba wanted her to  let go of all the weights..and rest in him. Then He showed me a performance anxiety spirit was pulling her. So we prayed together against the spirit.    I saw that we indeed were in a tug of war. Yashuah Jesus, Barbara and I were on one side of the  rope and the  demonic spirits at the other end. We continued to pray and we took authority over the spirits. .

As we were waging warfare,  standing firm, we felt the noose was loosening. Barbara prayed and then started singing Hallelujah, we sing hallelujah. I joined in and we were singeing prophetically.

hallelujah. We sing hallelujah,  We sing hallelujah to our King

You release us to the skies, cause we are butterflies.

We are soaring into glory.. He releases us into the skies

We soar on weightless wings and look into our Father eyes,

All of a sudden, Barbara laughed and she was light with exhilaration. Father helped her to break through. It was so delightful, she suddenly burst out that she saw a vision of millions of Monarch butterflies being released. WOW! was all I could say!

Truly, Barbara’s received a glorious breakthrough and fresh  anointing of her ability to see visions. We were enthralled at the fresh unction of confidence and strength Father had given her and we marveled at how Father is so near His children when they are broken-hearted.

During my prayer over Barbara, I also  reminded her  that Yashuah had already set a banquet table for us to dine on His exquisite delicacies of mercy and grace, among many others.  Though He invites us and often we come in shabby clothes and   broken as paupers, he garbs us in  pure white wedding gowns, spotless in His blood.  Sister Barbara and all my precious brothers and sisters, let us fall back into His hammock of love after you have confessed your sins and weaknesses! Release and rest!

“Enter My Rest” Holy Spirit reminds us in  Hebrews 4:11.  Let us therefore strive to enter into His rest. For some of us, we may need to ask God’s help to discipline ourselves from the stringent bondage of work and striving. God is faithful..He hears our cries and will surely help!

THE FELLOWSHIP OF SUFFERING


DSCN3556 John 15:13 Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.

Journal Entry, March3, 2017

My quest to find answers to the tormenting mystery of the JAW-mouth Dystonia continues. Each hour, I continue to rely heavily on Father giving me the strength to endure, uncomplainingly. My seasonal job, delivering telephone books door-to-door, started last week and my body is weary. from the windy-cold and the physical exertion.  Unlike  several years ago, when I bitterly complained to Father that I should be on tour with my incredible band. I told him, how hard it was to have do such humbling work when He had blessed me with such talent. And then the added grief of being misunderstood, alienated from wonderful fellowship and dealing with a tormentically distracting movement disorder was more than any human to bear. Even now, the pain in my (now also)  left jaw is painful and  I can barely stand to do anything. The past nine years of this  horrendous disorder (and the thought that there is no reversal for the damaged joints should cause me to sink into utter depression). Honestly, it has been lonely beyond belief and at times, I deem my small music-compassionate outreach, Brave Flame Productions-Outreach a thankless job, (at times). I am a very social person and  cherish the camaraderie of friends and loved ones being emotionally and spiritually connected with me.

Nevertheless, I realize that this ongoing suffering has brought about great change in my spiritual outlook and Father’s glorious workmanship in my life. This realization had brought me to create my 5 part-series journalism-color photographs and devotional series, ARISE FROM YOUR GRAVE. It has also compelled me to record and produce songs for two concurrent albums, a prophetic rock , Mod Prophet and a worship album, The Anointing, (His presence). One would expect that the result would be a publishing book deal and distribution or at least interest in the recorded works.  My book series still await  publication and my albums are still incomplete.

I wait upon the Lord, for He will renew my strength. What strength? For any passionately creative person in the midst of projects, there’s always the hope of success and renown. For the child of God, renown would be being sought after for the expertise of the skill. There is dealing with the disappointment of struggling financially and/or having few customers-patrons. So, I tell Father, more than anything… I wish to be in His perfect will.

This prayer brought me to place and realization of the precious treasure of His presence and company. In this quiet place of seeking Him above even success in my creative endeavors, He shows me what he truly values as spiritual wealth and abundance.

Each morning, as I arise to consciousness, I’ve disciplined my spirit to mediate on several verses. I have had to train myself because the left jaw is so violently  spastic that I awoke several times during the night in great pain. I didn’t want to succumb to anger or bitterness as I had with my past Lyme Disease battle in 1992.

Psalm 19:14

14 Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O Lord, my strength, and my redeemer.

Once awake, I ask Holy Spirit to order my steps and  focus me on what scripture He wants me to meditate on.  During the next hour, He will show me someone who needs a prayerful phone call, a hand-made card or care package. Yesterday, a Christian sister’s name popped into my spirit. I said, “Okay Abba, I will call Jackie, (not her real name)”

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When .I called Jackie, she replied, “That is amazing, Anita. I was thinking of you just yesterday and i was going to call you.” She asked me how I was doing with my jaw-mouth situation and I immediately gave her details of how I thought I was stopping my own healing. I slipped more often than I’d liked, saying  things like, day , “I can’t do that because of this disabling TMJ-Dystionia.” Lately, I was at least catching myself in mid sentence and repenting and saying, I am healed.” Jackie  admitted she was also speaking sickness over herself., her lungs and poor breathing. Jackie’s lungs had deteriorated so bad in the past year that she was on oxygen all day! I was thankful, that though my jaw-throat situation was very painful and distracting, at least I could drive and walk around freely. Jackie then confessed that during her seeking prayer to God about her suffering, she had deep, unresolved grief about her childhood and past.

I was astounded hen she mentioned her deep grief because i  was presently getting victory over my own many losses by reading a wonderful deliverance book, Pray Through It  by Rob Morrisette. The author was very detailed about the traumas and strongholds of his counselees and I was getting freer and freer reading about the victorious testimonies of the people.  Rob’s counseling manner was very detailed and he stressed bringing every painful incident to God in prayer and asking for healing. Jackie was very excited and wrote down the name of the book. I also shared with her about my joy of participating on the conference telephone line several hours each day with passionate prayer warriors across our nation. I told her how strengthened I was in their company and the powerful anointing of their prayers. She admitted to feeling judged around other brethren  and I felt she was constrained by a spirit of unworthiness. Jackie also took down the conference prayer call number and I prayed with her.

At the end of our discourse, Jackie was in tears and prayed for me. She thanked God for me being obedient God had put me on her heart the day before, but she didn’t call and was grateful that I was spiritually sensitive. I was deeply humbled and broken that Father was so gracious to even use me in such a way..to build up and strengthen my precious sister who  said she felt she was backslidden!

This call was a confirmation that I was  right where Father wanted me to be, sitting in his love and waiting for direction. My direction happens to be the gift of edifying, building up my brothers and sisters who feel broken  weak and unworthy.  Father is not so concerned about my creative endeavors, (however God-inspired they are) but about developing intuitiveness to the needs and brokenness of my brethren. In order to have sensitivity to ascertain that my brother and sister needs tenderness, encouragement or a tangible need, (such as rent money or groceries), I need to stay deeply connected and deeply compassionate, however rough or irresponsible they may seem. I’ve desperately longed for patience, long-suffering and understanding about my weird  movement (with loud voice) disorder and have often been judged harshly and misunderstood. But Father has used these painful times so I can learn long-suffering and kindness.  Separating myself unto Him and worshiping with a thankful heart has borough me to precious places of surrender, where I can give out of a pure heart. Though my physical reserves, (my energy) seem limited, my capacity to  love has so increased. Father is nurturing my capacity to love deeper than a surface level. If I encounter relationships were a brethren seems difficult, a nuisance or unpleasant to be around, I ask Father to remind me that there may be deeply-rooted generational issues or traumas from childhood and up.

The Pray It Through, book  has been eye-opening resource to delve deeply into the hearts of my brothers and sisters and where Father can groom me to love, not just in word and deed, but true empathy! I believe this is what causes strife and rejection in the body. We say we love  (and pray for) our brother or sister from afar, yet we will not come forth in honesty and reason at the table with them and our Heavenly Father.

I pray that my brothers and sisters take a deeper look at their season of suffering and submit it to our Abba. He will show us how he is breaking down ideologies of tradition, religion and even relationships, (as the secular arena perceives them). Our ways are not God’s ways and our thoughts are not His. He uses the weak, broken , ugly things, and even small, insignificant (according to the world’s standards) ministries.

He has made everything beautiful in His time. Ecc 3:11

When mega-churches and mega-ministries crumble at His glorious appearance because they did not minister to the orphans, widows and  foreigner, those ministries build on His compassion will thrive and be the lighthouse to the nations!

Let us remember that the temporary sufferings and lacks are not worthy to be compared with the glories which await us in heaven! be encouraged my brother and sister! God sees and he is pleased.

WALK LIKE a KING


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I is the glory of God to conceal a thing: but the honour of kings is to search out a matter. Proverbs 25:2

Do you see the opulent glory of the king’s and Queen’s attire? Take a closer look at their stance. Do you see yourself as a King or Queen? Well, you are. The Bibles says that we are kings and priests ministering to our great and mighty God. If you are living or embracing the mindset of a pauper,  ( the choice is always ours), than it’s high time to examine the reasons being your thinking. Perhaps you were taught by your parents or teachers to  respond to life  and circumstances in a certain way. Perhaps  pastors or Sunday school teachers taught you to  decipher the scriptures in a black or white extreme or  very rigid and unmerciful. Both of these types of teaching lead to emotional and spiritual bondage and a very joyless, shallow knowledge of God’s word and person. First and second chapters of Colossians, boasts the glorious treasures  God has ordained for us to receive and walk in.

Father wishes for to be whole, healed and in living in abundance. 3 John 1:2. Why are so many brothers and sisters living defeated and miserable lives? Their very faces show the  state they are in, perpetually disgruntled, scrutinizing their brethren in grey areas of conviction and  having a negative outlook on life and the  future. No wonder non-believers have no interest in coming to Christ! Is this you, beloved?Maybe it’s time for a Holy Ghost reality check.

Why are some Christian overflowing in abundance and joy and others are in perpetual lack and depression. We can know that the joy of the Lord is our strength. In this context, Nehemiah 8:10, Joy is not an event of good fortune or a sudden happy event.  The Hebrew in this case means that we are enjoined and in the secure protection of our God! In many Psalms in the Bible, Yahweh Jehovah is our high tower, buckler and  shield. Knowing this deeply in your spirit, shoudl never cause you to stay for long periods of time in helpless depression. We are never hoepless as long as we abide in the Vine, our Savior and Lord and protective shepherd, Yashuah Jesus. Each day, we are refreshed by His rivers of living water and each new day bring new mercies.

That is good news to me and hopefully always for you too!  That[s why The Gospel of Yashuah Jesus is the good news,. Prisoners are set free…from fear, depression, poverty, witchcraft, pornography, obesity and many other generational strongholds. Luke 4:8. Brother or sister, have you received Jesus’ freedom?

It is time to embrace the revelation of Father’s covenenat promises. and it won’t be by  amassing much knowledge and studying.   Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up. 2The one who thinks he knows something does not yet know as he ought to know.… 1 Cor  :1

Paul elaborates in the first and second chapters of Colossians that mystery of the Gentiles is…Christ in you. Imagine that! In Yashuah Jesus,  all the fullness of glory, dominion and honor  exists and Father Jehovah has adopted us into that kingly-Priestly heritage. Here is where Paul urges us to walk  worthy in the Lord. How do we walk worthy? Col. 1:10.  1 Peter 2:9 ,  Tells us we are now  a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.! This is tremendously exciting news to me.

We now adopted into a royal heritage a holy inheritance through Yashauh Jesus. let us no longer call ourselves wretched sinners, but a holy Priesthood! It is time to revere the sacrifice and partake of Jesus’ gift to us through His shed blood and broken body. Sadly, many of us have never received the revelation or been taught properly because their pastors walked  in the flesh and did not accept divine wisdom and revelation from Holy Spirit (Ruach HaKodesh because of legalsim and unbelief!  Countless TV pastors and ministries  are not led by Holy Spirit, but their own perceived idea of holiness. ( God will hold accountable these pastor, teachers and Rabbis who don not walk in the Spirit, but in the flesh. sadly, these blind lead the blind and many fall into the ditch or deception an lack.  But rejoice, for . Jesus Himself comforted his disciples. When He left, Father would send a comforter. They would not be left as orphans!

Oh beloved, Father has ordained for us to be so much more than we are at present. When we  abide in the limited  perception and mindsets of the old life, we choose to live as miserable paupers.

This past Saturday night, Pastor jJentezen’s  sermon was about greatness. He said greatness is not being born to a wealthy family, having a great talent or having thousands of Twitter or  Facebook followers. Pastor elaborated on what greatness truly is and that is walking worthy in the Lord. Folks, it is a decisive decision to be excellent in every area of your life! It is very hard work and being meticulous and focused, not living in any old sloppy Agape.

I’m continuing this expository after sitting outdoors under the canopy of the trees in my  back yard. The  beautiful strains of three-part harmonies of the Christian group, Second Chapter of Acts hymn, Oh Sacred Head Now Wounded  wafted through my open windowThe mournful hymn  drew me into the depth of  Christ’s suffering  as he prepared  to strengthen Himself in preparation for His next (and last)  excruciating hours of His life. I started to weep and could imagine  Him, alone  and in fearful trepidation  in the  garden of Gethsemane. Great drops of blood breaking out around His face as he begged  His Father that the cup would pass.And Thank God that it did not pass …for I would not be writing this to you now in great thankfulness for His mercy and grace!

I continued to ponder and my  heart began grow very heavy.. Thoughts came about how our nation had sunk to such depraved depths and I  whispered, “I’m so sorry Father for my sins, for our sins. Please forgive us and heal our nation”. I thought about the sex-trafficking trade and  even thought about the breaches that came from our broken covenants and relationships and even from as far back as our  forefathers. How many of us learned from our history books as young student about the plight of the Native Americans. Their portrayal was that they were  half-naked savages deserving to be conquered, humiliated, removed from their ancient land and eventually,  annihilated. . My sorrow deepened and I now understood why our intercessor leader, (so moved by Holy Spirit) had us all repent with her on our conference line for two weeks. I began to get a deep revelation of why America was losing her glorious position fast. Deep repentance, by the whole  body of Christ,  will be the only thing  that will stop God from decimating the whole nation in judgement..

I’m getting deep here folks. We have not walked as kings and priests at all, but have been as sloppy and careless as the common folk and worse than that! We may not have transgressed by the awful sins, but we haven’t opposed evil and the injustice of genocide  Rather, we have  cowered like cowards, to lazy to lift up our holy shield of faith! We see that in the last days evil will proliferate and  so mcuh so, even in God’s church.

Paul told Timothy,  But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power. 2 tim 3 1-5

On the bright side, I’m so grateful for this newly acquired gift of deep repentance gleaned from the  broken prayers of those intercessors I join with every night from 7 to 9 PM. In my 33 years of serving the Lord, repentance has rarely been mentioned. Today, Holy Spirit reminded me deeply that repentance is the first step in healing and there will be no reconciliation  in our lives regarding our broken relationships and/or covenants with each other. Broken covenants proliferate amongst God’s people.. Marriages are held together by a bare thread and the kids are rebellious and disrespectful to their parents. Personal boundaries are trample without the blink of an eye..

Early in this expository, I mentioned how Kings search out a matter. True greatness is pondering a problem and seeking God with all our hearts to resolve the issue and bring about a righteous end. Truly, all of us, if we search deeply enough, will find we’ve missed many areas. We must start to analyze our ways, repent and turn around.  saying I’m sorry  continuously without changing only perpetuates  a damaged area. Christ has called us to be transformed by His Spirit and to apply His  righteous principles to our lives and relationships. We callously disrepect  and dishonor each other by not listen em pathetically and so we wonder why we have no joy. We wonder why we are not prospering as 3 John tells us. We are covenant breakers and many of us do not understand the degree of righteousness and love we need to walk in to abide in the vine!

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Diligence is an attribute stressed on the book of Proverbs  Faithfully and persistently honing our character is a sign of greatness. When we ask Holy Spirit continually to Tweak Me, we are seeking to be conformed to His image. We are building excellently on His holy House, which is our breathers and sisters. We must have a conviction to understand the urgency of working hard to keep the unity of the brethren.This is not always easy and many of us have unrequited relationships we should ask God to heap us heal. God’s word tell us to honor each other whether they be the unborn,   military veterans suffering from PTS, the homeless, a family member struggling with a brain-emotional issue, or the elderly neighbor suffering from  dementia.

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If we examine Romans 1 28-31, most of us could admit one or several sins taint our love walks. We need to repent of and ask Father for continual cleaning. This is the type of repentance God seeks in His children. His will is for us to rise to the level of  kingly-priestly righteousness. We are to lift up holy hand and a holy, pure heart.  May we diligently search out every matter, especially our hearts…towards our Lord and then to our brethren. Only then, can we walk like a King or Queen.

Heavenly Abba Father, help us to humble ourselves under Your mighty hand. Let us be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to be angry James  1 19&20. . Help us to diligently seek out the depth of an issue, the depth of a person and the depth to which you can heal and reconcile us. Holy Spirit, help us to build bridges and not walls in our relationships with each other. Give us strength to be long-suffering and empathetic.  Most of all, help us, to  be very careful how we build upon your house.and may we choose to build with priceless materials of gold, silver and precious stones, (which are the fruits of the Spirit,  Gal 5 22&23).   In Yashuah Jesus’ matchless name, amen.

I WILL NOT LAY DOWN


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Ministering to elderly and sick nursing homes residents with Pee-Wee.

Note to Readers: My journaling of my battle with Dystonia-TMJ is to bring awareness to friends l loved ones in the hopes of giving more help, compassion and understanding to our deficiencies. I also hope doctors and medical personnel can understand the various areas of our lives that are restricted  and inhibit by inability to administer to our former duties, responsibilities and personal creative endeavors.  These journal entries and (medical personnel involved) . Our symptoms may even affect our judgement and/or mental-emotional prowess before we  had our condition. The utmost patience and compassion is needed for us to be contributors to our father’s kingdom. May our prayers, not just  for Dystonia, Alzheimer, Dementia ( or any other victim of a health disorder,)  not just be for our immediate healing, (so we don’t have to be inconvenienced) but to teach us patience and forbearance.

Journal Entry,  July 5, 2016

Just woke up to another overcast day, promising more rain. I don’t complain because many states are in a water crisis. My vegetable garden is flourishing, but the barometer and humidity has wrecked havoc with my jaw joints. When atmospheric pressure changes,  my neck muscles, nerves and jaws go berserk, making it almost impossible to accomplish any thing with merit. It’s going on two weeks trying to get together two of my best story to send to Guidepost inspirational magazine. I’m also waiting to get motivated to send m art package to a greeting card company here in Paterson, NJ.

Each day is different in this season of TMJ Dystonia in regards to what I’m able to accomplish, but it’s always the same regarding my determination to receive my miracle manifestation of healing. God has still not answered my question regarding what purpose this tormenting condition persists.  At times my flesh reminds me that it’s going on nine years and if God had a great plan for me, how could He be so cruel to allow it to linger and so curtail my vivaciousness and productivity. I remind myself that Abba is a good God and everything He gives is wonderful and needful to His children. One thing I know for sure ..that His ways are perfect and He does know how much I’m suffering. Satan’s plan is always to ambush our minds and barrage us with a continual spray of doubting questions, physical pain and our focus of it.

At times when I have a moment of peace, such as when I’m pulling acorn seedlings in my yard, I feel His gentle presence. Oddly, my muscles rest and my jaw is calm. My jaw and throat also seem to get calmer while I’m focusing on my fine bead work. But mostly, I’m groaning in agony as I press forward, (much like pushing through a tropical impenetrable forest),  through each hour to make it to bedtime. Here is where I rely on Father’s strength each day for sanity! When the neck spasms get so bad that I fall on the floor and writhe in pain, I can’t bare to be alive. Here is where I have to take captive that demonic spirit of suicide, death and insanity. I can’t explain to anyone except someone enduring daily pain on a scale of 8 or nine every waking moment of their lives.

After these many years, I deal with  the grief of losing a good chunk of my life. A dark season of nine years is a lot. I know brother Joseph, in the Bible, had to bear thirteen years of incarceration, but having a agonizing and distracting bodily condition is a whole new ball game. The most painful thing for me is deducing my relationship with Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit. I’ve always believed that valid and thriving  relationship with the Lord had to be true and breath-takingly reverent. My prayer times are anything but reverential  There’s a whole lot of shaking and  jerking going on, hardly my idea of anything pleasing to God!  My focused prayer and devotions to Him are at best , sporadic. (I’m just being transparent with you). I often go in to prayer expecting  the outcome to be detached and superficial because  mostly… I weep through the whole time! Whew. Imagine struggling through your talking to father God?

“Father forgive me for being this way.”

Maybe tomorrow, I will have no more spasms and I can joyfully never and praise him. This is the uncharted waters that the Bible doesn’t address, so I have to contend with disgust of my inability to give Father my best and to even give Him His proper due.

The other devastating thing i that doctors I’ve seen have no idea where to even start for a treatment program. They look at me in surprise and apologize that there is nothing they can do. I’ve been researching and GOOGLING for over six years and have  found only a few doctors who specifically treated Dystonia of the mouth and.or upper cervical area. A girl freind  messaged me a few weeks ago telling me she also was researching my condition and found a  Dr LEE, who has a private practice   in South Korea. Many of his  Dystonia and TMJ patients were getting successful results with his treatments!  I also found a doctor  in  DE who treated TMJ. Unfortunately, they are very few and far in between in NJ and to travel to other states like the doctor in Teaas would be very costly and inconvenient for my husband to take off work. I continue to ask and pray whether father wants me to wait for His divine supernatural creative miracle for my jaw or travel to a  TMJ physician. Father be merciful to us who are suffering.

Dr Lee’s practice and You-Tube link.

July 4th was spent praying for a breakthrough rest with my jaw and neck spasms. The day was already almost half over and I needed to express my love for my Heavenly Father. it was so frustrating, picking up my Taylor and just jerking so wildly, I had to lay down. Uselessness and despair threatened to ruin my day, but finally picked up my guitar anyway and started to sing my favorite energetic hymns, like Onward Christian Soldiers.  Anyway, I am more than a conqueror!

Fast forward today, brought my Bible, a Max Lucado devotional and Jewel’s book, Chasing The Dawn into the bedroom. I prayed that something would awaken my heart and I’d be able to move forward into my day. My eyes fell upon the subtitle of Jewel’s book, Melbourne, Australia. I’ve always dreamed of Australia even as a young girl. Down Under seemed a glorious utopia far away from the chaos and heartache of my present circumstance of my parents plan to divorce. I often dreamed in my bed at night that I would somehow end up there and live a peaceful and creative life!

So Jewel expressed the sensations of her entering the stage to perform her repertoire to her Australian fans. Her writing was so elegant and enticing, making me miss my own performing and composing tenure. I felt a profound sense of loss that I was so far and disconnected to that glorious season of my life. Words cannot describe a performance were the performer “feels” her audience and they feel her. It is an indescribable connection that infuses the artists expression of singing-performing (and doctors have no idea the profound effects that a neurological disorder as Dystonia-TMJ can have on the creativity of a talented singer-composer. This has been a major grief, few realize  the extent of loss when a performing artist is unable to perform (and compose)  at the high level she was used to. I feel less than human and disconnected that this condition has so disrupted the  beautiful overflow of expressing my music-soul.

When I perform before an audience, it’s like I gently fall off a trapeze like a leaf  I lose all sense of the present, of time and the faces that gaze at me.  Father placed me in a I  a divine bubble and I’m floating in His love. Everything around me fades into nothingness and all I’m aware of is the holiness  (and lightness0 of His presence. This has happened several times. Twice, when I sang at dying persons’ deathbed and at a funeral service, where a seer told my husband she saw cherubim dancing joyously around me as I sang my Psalm 91 original. Another recent time, was just last month while singing two of my favorite Hymns His Eye is on the Sparrow and It Is Well at a church concert. . Despite the fact I was miserable and my neck was inflamed with pain and my mouth was  moving violently, I grabbed Father’s hand and took His strength. No one could have been more surprised than me, when everyone stood up and joined me on the heart-rending chorus, It is Well With My Soul. I knew it was God and God alone who carried me through the song.

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A girl, her voice and Guitar, Proclaiming the Love of Christ!

This dark season I’m immersed in is complicated, daunting and bizarre with its untold repercussions. I can’t bare to be seen in public because of the embarrassing facial grimaces and my arms and upper shoulder jerking. Even standing in line at the post office for fifteen minutes is main achievement. With these negative symptoms molding me into something no one would want to be, I’ve learned to make some adjustments. I’ve long discarded the activity of complaining and have made a lovely habit of making someone’s day a little better. If I’m at the grocery store I find something attractive about the person near me and compliment them. I so delights me to see them smile and to make their day by a compliment. The practice of being a blessing to someone is a high point of my day. I refuse to give the enemy any ground or make him think that his attacks on me will sully God’s wonderful destiny for me. I want to please my Father by serving and being a blessing no matter how hard it is! I feel sad for mean people because I know that they’ve not practiced and seen the results of kindness in spite of their physical misery, stressful relationship or mundane life. Persistent acts of kindness and serving cheerfully is evidence of a God-infused lifestyle.
All this being said, I’m reminded of President Abraham Lincoln, One of the greatest presidents who ever lived, who endured and succeeded despite countless failures and  disappointments, shut doors and heart-aches. Amazingly, he grabbed the bull by the horn  in all his tenacity and audacity…his faith in God almighty.  He prevailed, head held high even during one of America’s most horrific times, the Civil War. Though I’m not faced with anarchy, riots and the threat of assassination, I still am facing a mountain which shall be moved by my obstinate faith in the God who restores and rewards all things.

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Weathering Dystonia,  (as president Lincoln faced his own giants) I know that God must have a very important job for me to do in the future and He is preparing and training me for such a time as this. Thankfully, July 5, 20016, we are still in peace here in America and life is somewhat normal. I recently watched a Christian outreach organization,  Ezra International outreach who focused their relief efforts on the refugees from cities near Ukraine. Soldiers had all but demolishes the businesses, neighborhoods and banks by bombs and machine gun fire. I couldn’t believe my eyes as I gazed at the footage of such devastation. Thousands were killed, there were bodies in the streets and many holocaust survivors were starving and left on their own. America could soon be enduring the same fate and I prayed that God would be merciful to the sick, elderly and young ones. Any of us American citizens could suddenly face the terrible war atrocities as our brethren in war-torn Ukraine and any other middle eastern city!

So… it would behoove me…and everyone to thank God that our country is still somewhat intact and not facing the atrocities and hardships of war and judgment.  Maybe for a short time, we are still the land of the free and though my own personal suffering is challenging, t’s nowhere near the suffering of people who’ve had their homes destroyed by bombs and have no where to go to get their next meal.

Dystonia reminds me of the need to be more compassionate, empathetic and giving of my resources to those who have less. Though I’d never wish anyone to endure a condition that robs and diminishes so much of our lives, the blessing in disguise is the  awareness and empathy of others sufferings and the motivation to do something about it!

Perhaps that is the gift Father looks to glean when we face a loss or bodily suffering. May father use you and I greatly to strengthen someone who has a deformity, impediment of disability

HEALING IS the CHILDREN’S BREAD


 Do you remember the poignant story in Mat 21 15-28 of the Canaanite women who approached Jesus in desperation because her precious little daughter suffered demon-possession. Even in her utter grief, Jesus said not a word but  and his disciples urged him to send her away.

Then Jesus turned to her and said,  “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.” She was not to be ignored and knelt beside him. “Lord, help me!”His answer was “it is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”

Instead of retorting in resentment or offense, she  answered, “yes, lord But even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from the  their master’s table.”

Jesus was so moved by her audacity that he immediately healed her daughter. She had a bulldog faith that would not let go!

Friend, are you still suffering today with a painful and/or chronic condition even after years of prayer liners, prayer clothes and meditating on your healing scriptures? Could you be missing something or doing something wrong? Could there be some blockage that is keeping you from your miraculous healing? I pray my latest  article on healing will help you uncover any ground you’ve not explored before.

(Unearthing, Addressing and Dismantling  Generational Curses and Iniquities)

Today, let us ask Father Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus to explore the deeper spiritual waters in hopes of toppling the barriers to our healing and wholeness. I hope by sharing transparently, the the mystery of my own bondage and sufferings from uncancelled generational curses  that you also may gain deliverance and freedom. Knowledge is victory.

I was ordained as a minister in 2013 by Pastor-evangelists, Leo and and Edith Fram.  I’ve passionately and consistently been serving my precious Lord Yashuah HaMashiach since 1982 under the authority of a Pentecostal hell-fire and brimstone pastor. I was born to a Puerto-Rican Catholic father who was stationed in German and where he married my beautiful, blonde-haired, green-eyed mother.

In the seventh grade, I suffered a traumatic  event which led to a six year tenure of bullying by 3 black girls, who were under demonic influence. From then on, I suffered shame about my birth heritage. Soon after, my sisters and I suffered childhood abuse and neglect because of my mom’s scorn of my dark-skinned father, (and other buried traumas she endured as a girl in Germany). Dad was also almost driven insane by mom’s fits of rage and antics. Supporting us became so challenged that he decided that foster care would be best for my two younger sisters.. One day, my mom lost her grip with reality, called the cops on me and I was ordered to leave. I was also placed in foster care in my senior year of high school. My life fell apart.

My adult life, feeling orphaned by my parents and supporting myself became overwhelming. I became deeply depressed and bulemic because of shame issues. A few years later in April 1982, a “religious” friend invited me to his church where I accepted Jesus as my Lord and savior. I never realized that this was just the beginning of a very long tenure of spiritual battles and health attacks that would be helped by deliverance. It took many years to correctly use the keys Jesus had given me to wholeness & freedom. WHY? Because I had many generational curses and family iniquities that blocked my blessings and wholeness. I had no idea satan still had access to me through these buried generational curses. This is the missing key many Children of God are ignorant of.

After decades of suffering various and recurring health issues, (particularly hay fever, allergies and bronchitis, my younger sister almost died several times from Asthma attacks!) I found out lung ailments were associated with “FREEMASONRY”I had no idea there was any such thing, but it was discovered during a deliverance session that I had Freemasonry in my family line. ( my grandfather in Germany had a hidden life with this secret society group! In another deliverance session, it was found a SANTERIA curse harassing me, (my father was born & raised in Puerto-Rico and by a devout Catholic mother).

Friends, it is hard for me to imagine that as a  committed servant of Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus that I’d be suffering so much. I had a strong calling as  a worship leader and teacher. (Holy Spirit taught me how to compose and write songs on the guitar). I’ve also experienced God using me greatly in the ministering to the sick and dying in hospitals and nursing homes and have been called to preach at funerals. I’ve also counseled, challenged youth as well as professional adults as a behavior counsel our at Nutri-System Weight Loss centers.

I want to tell you all, that when we come to Christ from a family riddled with curses and generational iniquities, everything does not just disappear with the declaring of the salvation prayer. The Bible says we work out our salvation with reverence and trembling…thus it is a process. Phil 2:12 For me it’s been a staggeringly exhausting and arduous process. Imagine being so talented in music, the arts, journalism & being plagued for almost 9 years with a tormenting “movement” suborder, DYSTONIA of the mouth! My mouth, throat and tongue are the tools God uses to lead people into His presence as a worship leader. Imagine being in excruciating pain every waking minute because I refuse to use pain killers which would damage my organs or cloud my mind. (To get through each hour, I discipline myself to declare that I have the MIND of Christ).. After  having countless doctors, chiropractors and neurologists examine me and then being  told there is NO cure …Christ must be my sufficiency, or I will just have a nervous breakdown and give up the fight!

Imagine the shame & frustration of having uncontrollable mouth movements making ugly facial grimaces and feeling the sensation of being choked and can barely breath. Dozens of times, I’ve had to call in prayer lines and also had countless ministers of healing lay hands on me. Countless hours I’ve spent in researching the causes of this TMJ jaw DYSTONIA and am no nearer to relief than 8 years ago. I realize there must be mysterious issues and powers that be here at work. I cry daily   to my Father for strength and refuse to give up my right be be whole. The barrier must be found…and torn down by the blood of Yashuah…and so the mystery tour continues.

If you are in similiar treacherous waters as I’ve been for these eight and half years, (I’m not even counting the ten years earlier fighting a  staggering battle with Lyme Disease and candida), do not give up on the Lord!  Keep knocking, keep seeking. A recent scripture that was sent to me by Pastor Jeff lane from YOU and Me Prayer ministry was,

James 1 2-4  My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into                         divers  temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

So then, he/she who endures til the end shall be saved. Long-term suffering born patiently yields a precious fruit of compassion and empathy for others we meet who are also suffering! Jesus already paid the price for our healing & deliverance. There is no reason for any of His children to be suffering and ineffective for His kingdom. If we are still suffering, perhaps we’re  doing something wrong, have some buried, ancestral harassing spirit, need to press more confidently and expectantly or maybe, we just need to believe and expect our healing is already done! This is what Father Jehovah has taught me. Healing IS the children’s bread.

Sickness is not from the Father, Kynan bridges, author Possessing Your healing. reminds us throughout his wonderful book. Father will deny any good things. Are some of us harboring an “unconscious desire ” for special attention in our sickness so we don’t have to take responsibility to grow and receive the higher things of God? Let us seek Him diligently. Some of us really don’t want to be healed, because it’s out of our comfort zone! Well, folks, Father wants us to rooted & grounded in the faith, not to be forever drinking milk!

Science and medicine correctly deduce a physical-reason for Bi-Polar, depression or any sickness, but…Christ supersedes any emotional or physical condition. Period. .By HIS stripes were are healed. Psalm 103 1-3. Christ is PREEMINENT over ALL. I hope this helps some of you. Watch the 700 club, Sid Roth’s It’s Supernatural and Andrew Wommack’s teaching series on healing. YouTube also has amazing documentaries of divine healing. Have an open mind in Christ and see what He will do. Christ heals every day and everywhere around the world. There is NO excuse to stay emotionally ill for we HAVE the mind of Christ. You need to connect with anointed, supernatural ministries who specialize in deep healing. I thank God everyday for His word which has transformed me. When I start to get depressed about this temporary Dystonia mouth seizures, I rebuke & bind the spirit of depression and declare that I have the mind of Christ…DITTO.

One more thing, denial will keep you in tremendous bondgae and sorrow. The hardest part about starting your journey to healing through deliverance is saying, I am sick or I need help. satan is cunning as he has led so many of God’s people into bondage through spiritual and emotional deception. If he can get us to say, “I don’t need to be delivered from demonic oppression or influence” he will keep us from receiving all of Fathers benefits and blessings. As I said at the beginning of this expository, “healing Is the children’s bread.

Abba, in the name of Yashuah Jesus, I stand in the gap for my brother and sister who is in bondage. I declare that he/she is FREE in the name of Jesus and by His precious blood, they are a new creation. I bind the spirit of deception and delusion and cast you out into the dry places. Holy Spirit, fill this mind NOW with your divine, pure and holy transformation and illumination. Thank You, Father for opening up the spiritual eyes of my brother  or sister. I declare this day, that they are moving towards You and away from all the entrapments, generational curses and family iniquity. Jesus bore our sorrow, sicknesses and dins, so we Thank you NOW that my freind is walking towards complete freedom and deliverance. help him or her to walk in transparency and honesty with you regarding their sin or struggles. Your word says that we should confess our sins to each other. So give us a joyful and repentant heart, In Jesus matchless name, amen.

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