WALK LIKE a KING


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I is the glory of God to conceal a thing: but the honour of kings is to search out a matter. Proverbs 25:2

Do you see the opulent glory of the king’s and Queen’s attire? Take a closer look at their stance. Do you see yourself as a King or Queen? Well, you are. The Bibles says that we are kings and priests ministering to our great and mighty God. If you are living or embracing the mindset of a pauper,  ( the choice is always ours), than it’s high time to examine the reasons being your thinking. Perhaps you were taught by your parents or teachers to  respond to life  and circumstances in a certain way. Perhaps  pastors or Sunday school teachers taught you to  decipher the scriptures in a black or white extreme or  very rigid and unmerciful. Both of these types of teaching lead to emotional and spiritual bondage and a very joyless, shallow knowledge of God’s word and person. First and second chapters of Colossians, boasts the glorious treasures  God has ordained for us to receive and walk in.

Father wishes for to be whole, healed and in living in abundance. 3 John 1:2. Why are so many brothers and sisters living defeated and miserable lives? Their very faces show the  state they are in, perpetually disgruntled, scrutinizing their brethren in grey areas of conviction and  having a negative outlook on life and the  future. No wonder non-believers have no interest in coming to Christ! Is this you, beloved?Maybe it’s time for a Holy Ghost reality check.

Why are some Christian overflowing in abundance and joy and others are in perpetual lack and depression. We can know that the joy of the Lord is our strength. In this context, Nehemiah 8:10, Joy is not an event of good fortune or a sudden happy event.  The Hebrew in this case means that we are enjoined and in the secure protection of our God! In many Psalms in the Bible, Yahweh Jehovah is our high tower, buckler and  shield. Knowing this deeply in your spirit, shoudl never cause you to stay for long periods of time in helpless depression. We are never hoepless as long as we abide in the Vine, our Savior and Lord and protective shepherd, Yashuah Jesus. Each day, we are refreshed by His rivers of living water and each new day bring new mercies.

That is good news to me and hopefully always for you too!  That[s why The Gospel of Yashuah Jesus is the good news,. Prisoners are set free…from fear, depression, poverty, witchcraft, pornography, obesity and many other generational strongholds. Luke 4:8. Brother or sister, have you received Jesus’ freedom?

It is time to embrace the revelation of Father’s covenenat promises. and it won’t be by  amassing much knowledge and studying.   Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up. 2The one who thinks he knows something does not yet know as he ought to know.… 1 Cor  :1

Paul elaborates in the first and second chapters of Colossians that mystery of the Gentiles is…Christ in you. Imagine that! In Yashuah Jesus,  all the fullness of glory, dominion and honor  exists and Father Jehovah has adopted us into that kingly-Priestly heritage. Here is where Paul urges us to walk  worthy in the Lord. How do we walk worthy? Col. 1:10.  1 Peter 2:9 ,  Tells us we are now  a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.! This is tremendously exciting news to me.

We now adopted into a royal heritage a holy inheritance through Yashauh Jesus. let us no longer call ourselves wretched sinners, but a holy Priesthood! It is time to revere the sacrifice and partake of Jesus’ gift to us through His shed blood and broken body. Sadly, many of us have never received the revelation or been taught properly because their pastors walked  in the flesh and did not accept divine wisdom and revelation from Holy Spirit (Ruach HaKodesh because of legalsim and unbelief!  Countless TV pastors and ministries  are not led by Holy Spirit, but their own perceived idea of holiness. ( God will hold accountable these pastor, teachers and Rabbis who don not walk in the Spirit, but in the flesh. sadly, these blind lead the blind and many fall into the ditch or deception an lack.  But rejoice, for . Jesus Himself comforted his disciples. When He left, Father would send a comforter. They would not be left as orphans!

Oh beloved, Father has ordained for us to be so much more than we are at present. When we  abide in the limited  perception and mindsets of the old life, we choose to live as miserable paupers.

This past Saturday night, Pastor jJentezen’s  sermon was about greatness. He said greatness is not being born to a wealthy family, having a great talent or having thousands of Twitter or  Facebook followers. Pastor elaborated on what greatness truly is and that is walking worthy in the Lord. Folks, it is a decisive decision to be excellent in every area of your life! It is very hard work and being meticulous and focused, not living in any old sloppy Agape.

I’m continuing this expository after sitting outdoors under the canopy of the trees in my  back yard. The  beautiful strains of three-part harmonies of the Christian group, Second Chapter of Acts hymn, Oh Sacred Head Now Wounded  wafted through my open windowThe mournful hymn  drew me into the depth of  Christ’s suffering  as he prepared  to strengthen Himself in preparation for His next (and last)  excruciating hours of His life. I started to weep and could imagine  Him, alone  and in fearful trepidation  in the  garden of Gethsemane. Great drops of blood breaking out around His face as he begged  His Father that the cup would pass.And Thank God that it did not pass …for I would not be writing this to you now in great thankfulness for His mercy and grace!

I continued to ponder and my  heart began grow very heavy.. Thoughts came about how our nation had sunk to such depraved depths and I  whispered, “I’m so sorry Father for my sins, for our sins. Please forgive us and heal our nation”. I thought about the sex-trafficking trade and  even thought about the breaches that came from our broken covenants and relationships and even from as far back as our  forefathers. How many of us learned from our history books as young student about the plight of the Native Americans. Their portrayal was that they were  half-naked savages deserving to be conquered, humiliated, removed from their ancient land and eventually,  annihilated. . My sorrow deepened and I now understood why our intercessor leader, (so moved by Holy Spirit) had us all repent with her on our conference line for two weeks. I began to get a deep revelation of why America was losing her glorious position fast. Deep repentance, by the whole  body of Christ,  will be the only thing  that will stop God from decimating the whole nation in judgement..

I’m getting deep here folks. We have not walked as kings and priests at all, but have been as sloppy and careless as the common folk and worse than that! We may not have transgressed by the awful sins, but we haven’t opposed evil and the injustice of genocide  Rather, we have  cowered like cowards, to lazy to lift up our holy shield of faith! We see that in the last days evil will proliferate and  so mcuh so, even in God’s church.

Paul told Timothy,  But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— having a form of godliness but denying its power. 2 tim 3 1-5

On the bright side, I’m so grateful for this newly acquired gift of deep repentance gleaned from the  broken prayers of those intercessors I join with every night from 7 to 9 PM. In my 33 years of serving the Lord, repentance has rarely been mentioned. Today, Holy Spirit reminded me deeply that repentance is the first step in healing and there will be no reconciliation  in our lives regarding our broken relationships and/or covenants with each other. Broken covenants proliferate amongst God’s people.. Marriages are held together by a bare thread and the kids are rebellious and disrespectful to their parents. Personal boundaries are trample without the blink of an eye..

Early in this expository, I mentioned how Kings search out a matter. True greatness is pondering a problem and seeking God with all our hearts to resolve the issue and bring about a righteous end. Truly, all of us, if we search deeply enough, will find we’ve missed many areas. We must start to analyze our ways, repent and turn around.  saying I’m sorry  continuously without changing only perpetuates  a damaged area. Christ has called us to be transformed by His Spirit and to apply His  righteous principles to our lives and relationships. We callously disrepect  and dishonor each other by not listen em pathetically and so we wonder why we have no joy. We wonder why we are not prospering as 3 John tells us. We are covenant breakers and many of us do not understand the degree of righteousness and love we need to walk in to abide in the vine!

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Diligence is an attribute stressed on the book of Proverbs  Faithfully and persistently honing our character is a sign of greatness. When we ask Holy Spirit continually to Tweak Me, we are seeking to be conformed to His image. We are building excellently on His holy House, which is our breathers and sisters. We must have a conviction to understand the urgency of working hard to keep the unity of the brethren.This is not always easy and many of us have unrequited relationships we should ask God to heap us heal. God’s word tell us to honor each other whether they be the unborn,   military veterans suffering from PTS, the homeless, a family member struggling with a brain-emotional issue, or the elderly neighbor suffering from  dementia.

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If we examine Romans 1 28-31, most of us could admit one or several sins taint our love walks. We need to repent of and ask Father for continual cleaning. This is the type of repentance God seeks in His children. His will is for us to rise to the level of  kingly-priestly righteousness. We are to lift up holy hand and a holy, pure heart.  May we diligently search out every matter, especially our hearts…towards our Lord and then to our brethren. Only then, can we walk like a King or Queen.

Heavenly Abba Father, help us to humble ourselves under Your mighty hand. Let us be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to be angry James  1 19&20. . Help us to diligently seek out the depth of an issue, the depth of a person and the depth to which you can heal and reconcile us. Holy Spirit, help us to build bridges and not walls in our relationships with each other. Give us strength to be long-suffering and empathetic.  Most of all, help us, to  be very careful how we build upon your house.and may we choose to build with priceless materials of gold, silver and precious stones, (which are the fruits of the Spirit,  Gal 5 22&23).   In Yashuah Jesus’ matchless name, amen.

I WILL NOT LAY DOWN


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Ministering to elderly and sick nursing homes residents with Pee-Wee.

Note to Readers: My journaling of my battle with Dystonia-TMJ is to bring awareness to friends l loved ones in the hopes of giving more help, compassion and understanding to our deficiencies. I also hope doctors and medical personnel can understand the various areas of our lives that are restricted  and inhibit by inability to administer to our former duties, responsibilities and personal creative endeavors.  These journal entries and (medical personnel involved) . Our symptoms may even affect our judgement and/or mental-emotional prowess before we  had our condition. The utmost patience and compassion is needed for us to be contributors to our father’s kingdom. May our prayers, not just  for Dystonia, Alzheimer, Dementia ( or any other victim of a health disorder,)  not just be for our immediate healing, (so we don’t have to be inconvenienced) but to teach us patience and forbearance.

Journal Entry,  July 5, 2016

Just woke up to another overcast day, promising more rain. I don’t complain because many states are in a water crisis. My vegetable garden is flourishing, but the barometer and humidity has wrecked havoc with my jaw joints. When atmospheric pressure changes,  my neck muscles, nerves and jaws go berserk, making it almost impossible to accomplish any thing with merit. It’s going on two weeks trying to get together two of my best story to send to Guidepost inspirational magazine. I’m also waiting to get motivated to send m art package to a greeting card company here in Paterson, NJ.

Each day is different in this season of TMJ Dystonia in regards to what I’m able to accomplish, but it’s always the same regarding my determination to receive my miracle manifestation of healing. God has still not answered my question regarding what purpose this tormenting condition persists.  At times my flesh reminds me that it’s going on nine years and if God had a great plan for me, how could He be so cruel to allow it to linger and so curtail my vivaciousness and productivity. I remind myself that Abba is a good God and everything He gives is wonderful and needful to His children. One thing I know for sure ..that His ways are perfect and He does know how much I’m suffering. Satan’s plan is always to ambush our minds and barrage us with a continual spray of doubting questions, physical pain and our focus of it.

At times when I have a moment of peace, such as when I’m pulling acorn seedlings in my yard, I feel His gentle presence. Oddly, my muscles rest and my jaw is calm. My jaw and throat also seem to get calmer while I’m focusing on my fine bead work. But mostly, I’m groaning in agony as I press forward, (much like pushing through a tropical impenetrable forest),  through each hour to make it to bedtime. Here is where I rely on Father’s strength each day for sanity! When the neck spasms get so bad that I fall on the floor and writhe in pain, I can’t bare to be alive. Here is where I have to take captive that demonic spirit of suicide, death and insanity. I can’t explain to anyone except someone enduring daily pain on a scale of 8 or nine every waking moment of their lives.

After these many years, I deal with  the grief of losing a good chunk of my life. A dark season of nine years is a lot. I know brother Joseph, in the Bible, had to bear thirteen years of incarceration, but having a agonizing and distracting bodily condition is a whole new ball game. The most painful thing for me is deducing my relationship with Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit. I’ve always believed that valid and thriving  relationship with the Lord had to be true and breath-takingly reverent. My prayer times are anything but reverential  There’s a whole lot of shaking and  jerking going on, hardly my idea of anything pleasing to God!  My focused prayer and devotions to Him are at best , sporadic. (I’m just being transparent with you). I often go in to prayer expecting  the outcome to be detached and superficial because  mostly… I weep through the whole time! Whew. Imagine struggling through your talking to father God?

“Father forgive me for being this way.”

Maybe tomorrow, I will have no more spasms and I can joyfully never and praise him. This is the uncharted waters that the Bible doesn’t address, so I have to contend with disgust of my inability to give Father my best and to even give Him His proper due.

The other devastating thing i that doctors I’ve seen have no idea where to even start for a treatment program. They look at me in surprise and apologize that there is nothing they can do. I’ve been researching and GOOGLING for over six years and have  found only a few doctors who specifically treated Dystonia of the mouth and.or upper cervical area. A girl freind  messaged me a few weeks ago telling me she also was researching my condition and found a  Dr LEE, who has a private practice   in South Korea. Many of his  Dystonia and TMJ patients were getting successful results with his treatments!  I also found a doctor  in  DE who treated TMJ. Unfortunately, they are very few and far in between in NJ and to travel to other states like the doctor in Teaas would be very costly and inconvenient for my husband to take off work. I continue to ask and pray whether father wants me to wait for His divine supernatural creative miracle for my jaw or travel to a  TMJ physician. Father be merciful to us who are suffering.

Dr Lee’s practice and You-Tube link.

July 4th was spent praying for a breakthrough rest with my jaw and neck spasms. The day was already almost half over and I needed to express my love for my Heavenly Father. it was so frustrating, picking up my Taylor and just jerking so wildly, I had to lay down. Uselessness and despair threatened to ruin my day, but finally picked up my guitar anyway and started to sing my favorite energetic hymns, like Onward Christian Soldiers.  Anyway, I am more than a conqueror!

Fast forward today, brought my Bible, a Max Lucado devotional and Jewel’s book, Chasing The Dawn into the bedroom. I prayed that something would awaken my heart and I’d be able to move forward into my day. My eyes fell upon the subtitle of Jewel’s book, Melbourne, Australia. I’ve always dreamed of Australia even as a young girl. Down Under seemed a glorious utopia far away from the chaos and heartache of my present circumstance of my parents plan to divorce. I often dreamed in my bed at night that I would somehow end up there and live a peaceful and creative life!

So Jewel expressed the sensations of her entering the stage to perform her repertoire to her Australian fans. Her writing was so elegant and enticing, making me miss my own performing and composing tenure. I felt a profound sense of loss that I was so far and disconnected to that glorious season of my life. Words cannot describe a performance were the performer “feels” her audience and they feel her. It is an indescribable connection that infuses the artists expression of singing-performing (and doctors have no idea the profound effects that a neurological disorder as Dystonia-TMJ can have on the creativity of a talented singer-composer. This has been a major grief, few realize  the extent of loss when a performing artist is unable to perform (and compose)  at the high level she was used to. I feel less than human and disconnected that this condition has so disrupted the  beautiful overflow of expressing my music-soul.

When I perform before an audience, it’s like I gently fall off a trapeze like a leaf  I lose all sense of the present, of time and the faces that gaze at me.  Father placed me in a I  a divine bubble and I’m floating in His love. Everything around me fades into nothingness and all I’m aware of is the holiness  (and lightness0 of His presence. This has happened several times. Twice, when I sang at dying persons’ deathbed and at a funeral service, where a seer told my husband she saw cherubim dancing joyously around me as I sang my Psalm 91 original. Another recent time, was just last month while singing two of my favorite Hymns His Eye is on the Sparrow and It Is Well at a church concert. . Despite the fact I was miserable and my neck was inflamed with pain and my mouth was  moving violently, I grabbed Father’s hand and took His strength. No one could have been more surprised than me, when everyone stood up and joined me on the heart-rending chorus, It is Well With My Soul. I knew it was God and God alone who carried me through the song.

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A girl, her voice and Guitar, Proclaiming the Love of Christ!

This dark season I’m immersed in is complicated, daunting and bizarre with its untold repercussions. I can’t bare to be seen in public because of the embarrassing facial grimaces and my arms and upper shoulder jerking. Even standing in line at the post office for fifteen minutes is main achievement. With these negative symptoms molding me into something no one would want to be, I’ve learned to make some adjustments. I’ve long discarded the activity of complaining and have made a lovely habit of making someone’s day a little better. If I’m at the grocery store I find something attractive about the person near me and compliment them. I so delights me to see them smile and to make their day by a compliment. The practice of being a blessing to someone is a high point of my day. I refuse to give the enemy any ground or make him think that his attacks on me will sully God’s wonderful destiny for me. I want to please my Father by serving and being a blessing no matter how hard it is! I feel sad for mean people because I know that they’ve not practiced and seen the results of kindness in spite of their physical misery, stressful relationship or mundane life. Persistent acts of kindness and serving cheerfully is evidence of a God-infused lifestyle.
All this being said, I’m reminded of President Abraham Lincoln, One of the greatest presidents who ever lived, who endured and succeeded despite countless failures and  disappointments, shut doors and heart-aches. Amazingly, he grabbed the bull by the horn  in all his tenacity and audacity…his faith in God almighty.  He prevailed, head held high even during one of America’s most horrific times, the Civil War. Though I’m not faced with anarchy, riots and the threat of assassination, I still am facing a mountain which shall be moved by my obstinate faith in the God who restores and rewards all things.

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Weathering Dystonia,  (as president Lincoln faced his own giants) I know that God must have a very important job for me to do in the future and He is preparing and training me for such a time as this. Thankfully, July 5, 20016, we are still in peace here in America and life is somewhat normal. I recently watched a Christian outreach organization,  Ezra International outreach who focused their relief efforts on the refugees from cities near Ukraine. Soldiers had all but demolishes the businesses, neighborhoods and banks by bombs and machine gun fire. I couldn’t believe my eyes as I gazed at the footage of such devastation. Thousands were killed, there were bodies in the streets and many holocaust survivors were starving and left on their own. America could soon be enduring the same fate and I prayed that God would be merciful to the sick, elderly and young ones. Any of us American citizens could suddenly face the terrible war atrocities as our brethren in war-torn Ukraine and any other middle eastern city!

So… it would behoove me…and everyone to thank God that our country is still somewhat intact and not facing the atrocities and hardships of war and judgment.  Maybe for a short time, we are still the land of the free and though my own personal suffering is challenging, t’s nowhere near the suffering of people who’ve had their homes destroyed by bombs and have no where to go to get their next meal.

Dystonia reminds me of the need to be more compassionate, empathetic and giving of my resources to those who have less. Though I’d never wish anyone to endure a condition that robs and diminishes so much of our lives, the blessing in disguise is the  awareness and empathy of others sufferings and the motivation to do something about it!

Perhaps that is the gift Father looks to glean when we face a loss or bodily suffering. May father use you and I greatly to strengthen someone who has a deformity, impediment of disability

HEALING IS the CHILDREN’S BREAD


 Do you remember the poignant story in Mat 21 15-28 of the Canaanite women who approached Jesus in desperation because her precious little daughter suffered demon-possession. Even in her utter grief, Jesus said not a word but  and his disciples urged him to send her away.

Then Jesus turned to her and said,  “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.” She was not to be ignored and knelt beside him. “Lord, help me!”His answer was “it is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”

Instead of retorting in resentment or offense, she  answered, “yes, lord But even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from the  their master’s table.”

Jesus was so moved by her audacity that he immediately healed her daughter. She had a bulldog faith that would not let go!

Friend, are you still suffering today with a painful and/or chronic condition even after years of prayer liners, prayer clothes and meditating on your healing scriptures? Could you be missing something or doing something wrong? Could there be some blockage that is keeping you from your miraculous healing? I pray my latest  article on healing will help you uncover any ground you’ve not explored before.

(Unearthing, Addressing and Dismantling  Generational Curses and Iniquities)

Today, let us ask Father Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus to explore the deeper spiritual waters in hopes of toppling the barriers to our healing and wholeness. I hope by sharing transparently, the the mystery of my own bondage and sufferings from uncancelled generational curses  that you also may gain deliverance and freedom. Knowledge is victory.

I was ordained as a minister in 2013 by Pastor-evangelists, Leo and and Edith Fram.  I’ve passionately and consistently been serving my precious Lord Yashuah HaMashiach since 1982 under the authority of a Pentecostal hell-fire and brimstone pastor. I was born to a Puerto-Rican Catholic father who was stationed in German and where he married my beautiful, blonde-haired, green-eyed mother.

In the seventh grade, I suffered a traumatic  event which led to a six year tenure of bullying by 3 black girls, who were under demonic influence. From then on, I suffered shame about my birth heritage. Soon after, my sisters and I suffered childhood abuse and neglect because of my mom’s scorn of my dark-skinned father, (and other buried traumas she endured as a girl in Germany). Dad was also almost driven insane by mom’s fits of rage and antics. Supporting us became so challenged that he decided that foster care would be best for my two younger sisters.. One day, my mom lost her grip with reality, called the cops on me and I was ordered to leave. I was also placed in foster care in my senior year of high school. My life fell apart.

My adult life, feeling orphaned by my parents and supporting myself became overwhelming. I became deeply depressed and bulemic because of shame issues. A few years later in April 1982, a “religious” friend invited me to his church where I accepted Jesus as my Lord and savior. I never realized that this was just the beginning of a very long tenure of spiritual battles and health attacks that would be helped by deliverance. It took many years to correctly use the keys Jesus had given me to wholeness & freedom. WHY? Because I had many generational curses and family iniquities that blocked my blessings and wholeness. I had no idea satan still had access to me through these buried generational curses. This is the missing key many Children of God are ignorant of.

After decades of suffering various and recurring health issues, (particularly hay fever, allergies and bronchitis, my younger sister almost died several times from Asthma attacks!) I found out lung ailments were associated with “FREEMASONRY”I had no idea there was any such thing, but it was discovered during a deliverance session that I had Freemasonry in my family line. ( my grandfather in Germany had a hidden life with this secret society group! In another deliverance session, it was found a SANTERIA curse harassing me, (my father was born & raised in Puerto-Rico and by a devout Catholic mother).

Friends, it is hard for me to imagine that as a  committed servant of Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus that I’d be suffering so much. I had a strong calling as  a worship leader and teacher. (Holy Spirit taught me how to compose and write songs on the guitar). I’ve also experienced God using me greatly in the ministering to the sick and dying in hospitals and nursing homes and have been called to preach at funerals. I’ve also counseled, challenged youth as well as professional adults as a behavior counsel our at Nutri-System Weight Loss centers.

I want to tell you all, that when we come to Christ from a family riddled with curses and generational iniquities, everything does not just disappear with the declaring of the salvation prayer. The Bible says we work out our salvation with reverence and trembling…thus it is a process. Phil 2:12 For me it’s been a staggeringly exhausting and arduous process. Imagine being so talented in music, the arts, journalism & being plagued for almost 9 years with a tormenting “movement” suborder, DYSTONIA of the mouth! My mouth, throat and tongue are the tools God uses to lead people into His presence as a worship leader. Imagine being in excruciating pain every waking minute because I refuse to use pain killers which would damage my organs or cloud my mind. (To get through each hour, I discipline myself to declare that I have the MIND of Christ).. After  having countless doctors, chiropractors and neurologists examine me and then being  told there is NO cure …Christ must be my sufficiency, or I will just have a nervous breakdown and give up the fight!

Imagine the shame & frustration of having uncontrollable mouth movements making ugly facial grimaces and feeling the sensation of being choked and can barely breath. Dozens of times, I’ve had to call in prayer lines and also had countless ministers of healing lay hands on me. Countless hours I’ve spent in researching the causes of this TMJ jaw DYSTONIA and am no nearer to relief than 8 years ago. I realize there must be mysterious issues and powers that be here at work. I cry daily   to my Father for strength and refuse to give up my right be be whole. The barrier must be found…and torn down by the blood of Yashuah…and so the mystery tour continues.

If you are in similiar treacherous waters as I’ve been for these eight and half years, (I’m not even counting the ten years earlier fighting a  staggering battle with Lyme Disease and candida), do not give up on the Lord!  Keep knocking, keep seeking. A recent scripture that was sent to me by Pastor Jeff lane from YOU and Me Prayer ministry was,

James 1 2-4  My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into                         divers  temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

So then, he/she who endures til the end shall be saved. Long-term suffering born patiently yields a precious fruit of compassion and empathy for others we meet who are also suffering! Jesus already paid the price for our healing & deliverance. There is no reason for any of His children to be suffering and ineffective for His kingdom. If we are still suffering, perhaps we’re  doing something wrong, have some buried, ancestral harassing spirit, need to press more confidently and expectantly or maybe, we just need to believe and expect our healing is already done! This is what Father Jehovah has taught me. Healing IS the children’s bread.

Sickness is not from the Father, Kynan bridges, author Possessing Your healing. reminds us throughout his wonderful book. Father will deny any good things. Are some of us harboring an “unconscious desire ” for special attention in our sickness so we don’t have to take responsibility to grow and receive the higher things of God? Let us seek Him diligently. Some of us really don’t want to be healed, because it’s out of our comfort zone! Well, folks, Father wants us to rooted & grounded in the faith, not to be forever drinking milk!

Science and medicine correctly deduce a physical-reason for Bi-Polar, depression or any sickness, but…Christ supersedes any emotional or physical condition. Period. .By HIS stripes were are healed. Psalm 103 1-3. Christ is PREEMINENT over ALL. I hope this helps some of you. Watch the 700 club, Sid Roth’s It’s Supernatural and Andrew Wommack’s teaching series on healing. YouTube also has amazing documentaries of divine healing. Have an open mind in Christ and see what He will do. Christ heals every day and everywhere around the world. There is NO excuse to stay emotionally ill for we HAVE the mind of Christ. You need to connect with anointed, supernatural ministries who specialize in deep healing. I thank God everyday for His word which has transformed me. When I start to get depressed about this temporary Dystonia mouth seizures, I rebuke & bind the spirit of depression and declare that I have the mind of Christ…DITTO.

One more thing, denial will keep you in tremendous bondgae and sorrow. The hardest part about starting your journey to healing through deliverance is saying, I am sick or I need help. satan is cunning as he has led so many of God’s people into bondage through spiritual and emotional deception. If he can get us to say, “I don’t need to be delivered from demonic oppression or influence” he will keep us from receiving all of Fathers benefits and blessings. As I said at the beginning of this expository, “healing Is the children’s bread.

Abba, in the name of Yashuah Jesus, I stand in the gap for my brother and sister who is in bondage. I declare that he/she is FREE in the name of Jesus and by His precious blood, they are a new creation. I bind the spirit of deception and delusion and cast you out into the dry places. Holy Spirit, fill this mind NOW with your divine, pure and holy transformation and illumination. Thank You, Father for opening up the spiritual eyes of my brother  or sister. I declare this day, that they are moving towards You and away from all the entrapments, generational curses and family iniquity. Jesus bore our sorrow, sicknesses and dins, so we Thank you NOW that my freind is walking towards complete freedom and deliverance. help him or her to walk in transparency and honesty with you regarding their sin or struggles. Your word says that we should confess our sins to each other. So give us a joyful and repentant heart, In Jesus matchless name, amen.

About Daughters


Pre adolecent and adolescent can be fragile  beings, driving their parents and especially fathers almost to the nuthouse. I’m a grown woman now and have weathered many family  tragedies, (including the latest, the death of my beloved Papito and my mother’s sudden plummet into Dementia…all within three months).

Today, I was very fragile and distressed, thinking about how the lack of listening with the heart has led many marriages and families to fragment. I cried out to Father for strength to make sense of the relationships in my life and realized I hadn’t read a wonderful letter from Pastor Jeff Lane, from CTN’s  call in prayer network America’s Prayer Meeting from 12;30 to 3:30 am. One sentience leaped out at me. ” My freind, you have been hurt, mistreated and unfairly judged.”  A torrent of tears burst from my eyes. Pastor Jeff’s letter continued. Blessed are the pure in heart.. in other words, blessed are those whose hearts have been cleansed from the bitterness of the world.

My issue has been being greatly wounded and traumatized by those closest to me or those who are supposed to be  my inner circle. When these are emotionally close-hearted or refused to listen and understand my weakness or person, it can be an area like  an unhealed sore. So Pastor Jeff’s  words were spot on and I asked Father to continually bless and forgive my friends who have unfairly refused to hear me out.

I hadn’t expected to compose a blog today, but  Holy Spirit used this deep, inner hurt to issue to explore this necessity of allowing heart felt communication and understanding to flow, particularity between fathers and daughters. My thoughts went back to challenging times in my father’s life where he didn’t have the support of my mother. He always turned to me, ( as his firstborn daughter). Deep down, he’d wanted his firstborn to be a son and so he never allowed my female gender to stop him from teaching me “male” attributives of leadership, discipline, resourcefulness and high education. I graciously respected and received his  guidance and all, except his insistence that we not express our frailties and emotions.

Having taken many years to heal from Papito’s demand that we never cry, all of my sisters and I paid a heavy price and the results were damaging and devastating in many ways, particularity our serious health issues. As I continue to ask Holy Spirit for the grace and healing, wisdom in understanding the psyche, (in this case, the female adolescent psyche) I hope fathers, (and mothers)  humble themselves in asking  Holy Spirit how to raise confident, androgynous, aspiring  and relaxed young women.

I’m no expert on raising great families or on having the ideal marriage, but I can definitely share what  will weaken or destroy the fiber of a marriage or family.

I’m still sorting out my feelings about my beloved father, Papito Teofilo Ferrer Cepeda, (daddy wore the name of both his mother and father proudly). His mother was a spiritually, disciplined and fiery half Latino-half  Indian who was no-nonsense, educated and taught her children well regarding self-sufficiency and excellence. When her husband, (my grandfather, Valentine) contracted a serious lung ailment, she took on the responsibility of raising nine children on her own and running her farm!

Last year, when I received a phone call from my younger,  physically-challenged sister that we needed to visit daddy in the hospital, I was shocked that yet again, there was a possibility of losing my beloved mentor. As the elevator doors opened to reveal that Mark and I were on the oncology ward of the hospital, my  heart skipped a beat. My mouth dropped open as I saw a skeletal Papito half-covered in his bed. His voice was barely audible as I took my guitar from out of its case to sing his favorite Spanish ballad, Eres Tu. I sang Amazing Grace and then my youngest sister Margarita, entered the room,  holding on to her beaus arm. Like me, she battled a neurological disorder. Hers was MS, (Multiple Sclerosis).  It was surreal, as I asked Mark to pray with my father so I could ask the nurses what was going on with him. A lovely young nurse raved about how charming and non-complaining my father was. She had never seen anyone suffering from such painful throat cancer as Teo! I started to weep, wondering what emotional ghost had brought him to this point. Even now as I write this blog, my prayer is that spouses and families will not make the same mistakes as mine.

Papito’s second wife, my step-mother was not present during my sister and my visit. I couldn’t make sense of the fact that he was in a hospital,  a three-hour driving trip away. I would have preferred for him to have hospice care near all of us girls. I played my father’s two favorite songs at his funeral and though most were moved by my testimony of my relationship with him, I was left with unrequited sorrow and no explanation of why he died the way he did.

Having learned so much the past two decades regarding the relationship between unresolved grief, bitterness and resentment precipitating cancer and other  traumatic conditions, I deduce that spouses and families must allow each other to freely express themselves! When people are faced with a traumatic episode, the shock and grief is assuaged by empathetic and non-judgmental listening  and comforting.I believe most  cases of domestic violence, child abuse and even dysfunctional-strained relationships are  caused by the person not being listened to and understood.

In my father’s case, I beloved he died of a broken heart. My mother was staunchly unsupportive of my father’s dreams and endeavors and my step-mother  had a very strong personality. Daddy preferred to keep the peace because he had developed such a fragile situation with his blood pressure over the years. Any conflict or argument would have sent him to the hospital. So, my father kept his disagreements to himself during his second marriage. I’m sure, his sorrow about his failings as a father during his and mom’s divorce and the inability to  protect his adolescent daughters was an unhealed wound.  I reckon that at least  he may have fondly remembered his dependence on us when all four of us girls helped him renovate the old, dilapidated farm  house on Shafto Road.

Honestly, that wasn’t a memorable time for me as I was suddenly transferred from a wonderful catholic school where I thrived, to a public school where I became the outcast and was bullied daily. I was not allowed to speak about my terror of the three bully girls who made me feel like dirt. I endured many painful things duirng my high school years. My sisters and I did not have the freedom to express any negative things that troubled us and thus we learned to shut up and stuff it. Anyway, what kid has the  permission to voice how miserable they are with a strong or domineering father obsessed by his dream? Many families (and many marriages) today are fragmented and dysfunctional because of lack of honesty and empathy.

Looking back, I want to bravely share my thoughts on reading a diary as a fifteen year old. My love and devotion for my father since being born-again in 1982 has always been endearing and I was shocked to read the many  turbulent and devastated emotions detailed in my journal entries.Two events in particular caused me to be ostracized for the rest of high school.My parents refused to buy me a razor to shave my legs. I was nick-named bear legs by the boys. My father also refused me to wear any blue jeans because he deduced them to be anti-establishment! So I had to wear my corny Catholic school, pleated knee length skirt and loafer shoes. My parents also never came to my defense when a large bully girl accosted me daily because I was of mixed heritage. It took decades for me to shed the skin of being unworthy and insufficient.

All this being shared, I long to see children and adolescents  soaring into their  divine destiny, their parents being well-equipped to empathetically nurture, (and appropriately discipline when needed) their kids. Children do not belong to parents. Parents are temporary stewards of God’s little people, who he is seeking to one day bless their destiny!

If my father were still alive today and asked me to honestly tell him what he could have changed about the way he raised me, this is the letter I would write to him as a grown and healing woman of God:

Dear Daddy!

Words cannot express the gratitude I have for the great things you’ve taught me. Thank you for the special times  I had with you as you taught me all about sign-painting and making silk screen templates for your job. Though I was skinny and had awful hay fever allergies and hating you taking Leslie and I to doctor Pfum to get twelve allergy shots twice a year in my arm, I was able to help you dig holes for the sign posts  Thank you for insisting that I not run the streets after boys because they would get me pregnant. Thank you for playing those amazing Spanish Flamenco albums. My love for all kinds of great music contributed to me being the eclectic and innovative composer I am today.

As a grown woman, I have truly appreciate all of who you are. You are such a charming, highly intelligent and gifted man. Thank you that even while you worked full time as a graphic designer for the US government, you earned your bachelors degree in political science so you could earn a better living for mommy and us girls!

My few regrets about our relationship was that you never allowed me to cry, to complain if I were exhausted. I would have loved for you to take seriously my greif and  shame at being half Puerto-Rican and half German, ( a weirdo and not accepted  as equal by the other kids). I also wished you had appreciated  and supported my talent in sewing, fashion design and creative writing and not say they are useless! Also, please respect that I have my own mind, I am a free spirit, (non-conformist) and  not interested in doing anything rebellious of crazy!  I know you have plans for me, but allow me to make my own choices:)  The  most painful rejection from you was when the two times I needed you most, you reneged.

When I was a boarder in the house of that alcoholic man and his blind wife and he tried to kick down my door and rape me. You said, “Be strong, honey, do the best you can.” You have no idea how that devastated me. And then when my fiance was emotionally stalking and traumatizing me and threatened me with death if I didn’t marry him. You wearily said to me,  “I’m sorry, honey. I can’t help you. I’m a sick man.”

I love you and forgive you and my Heavenly father has made right all the wrongs. I ask you to forgive me for anything I’ve hurt you with and please forgive yourself. Abba God has forgiven you, Papito.

Fathers (and mothers)..Healing and reconciliation comes from  looking deep inside yourself and remembering what you said, how you responded to your daughters cries, complaints and questions! Daughters are very complex and fragile beings, (with all these chemicals and hormonal changes). Please fathers, do your intense research early, before your little girl starts to show her womanhood. Old as I am, i am still my Papito’s little girl. I yearn every day for his hug and his “I love You, Anita.” Every day. I curse that demonic man-made tradition  men don’t cry or don’t your emotions! Pride is a killer and it’s terribly wounded and destroyed many relationships with their children. Thank you for allowing me to share about my relationship with my dear father and may you learn from his and my mistakes and help heal your relationship with your princess today!

Heavenly father, thank you for your unmerited and abundant wisdom which we have avail…if we humbly ask. Let there be healing in the fathers and daughters who read this testimony. Lord, help father to build bridges of compassion, tenderness and wisdom as they raise up, confident, trusting and joyous daughters. It’s not shameful for dads to make mistakes, but the three words, “I am Sorry” heals a multitudes of bitterness, resentment, shame and unforgiveness strongholds which could take decades to uproot in our daughters. From this day forward, Father, help us daughters to also appreciate our fathers and honor them so that our lives are long and prosperous. In Jesus name, amen

WHY PRAY?


Prayer is the backbone of the Christian walk and without it, nothing can be accomplished in Heaven or earth. By the very power of our tongues’ confession we can move mountains,  fell giants and change the destiny of peoples and nations.

Many of our brothers and sisters have such a small vision of themselves that they don’t even believe that their prayers are heard. Why? Because they’ve not received a revelation of their identity in Christ.

The effectual, fervent prayer of a man or woman avails much Jam 5:17. Two main descriptive adjectives describe what kind of prayer moves God.  The original translation of fervent means to boil, to be hot, having fervor and zeal. According to Strong’s concordance, effectual,  means to energize or be energized. Barclay describes prayers as empowering contact with God. It’s not only a gateway to God for us, but is a channel to God for us! This should get us exited  because we are being plugged into the divine, all-encompassing power  of our almighty Heavenly Father.

Sometimes, we come into God’s presence as if it’s a chore or obligation. I definitely can understand that in light of the daunting, evil things transpiring around the world at present. Even the most passionate prayer intercessor can get disheartened and weary from travailing in prayer. I know that at times, as Holy Spirit  impress on me to pray about horrific events, particularly the ISIS invasion , (and their barbarically bloody way of Jihad) and the fetus marketing  I’m worn out when done and just want t get under the covers.

I would like to share with you how to get reignited with zeal and passion by reading about and meditating on the great prayer warriors of the Bible and how their prayers succeeded. Let us remember that some of them were fearful or young, but God uses those who are not equipped, but available and willing.

Moses

Moses had such an intimate relationship with God, that he was able to reason with the Lord.  His people, the Israelites resorted to idolatry while He was giving Moses the commandments on  Mount Sinai. God told Moses to go down quickly because he was about to consume His own people. Moses prayerful reply was reminding Jehovahah of the covenant He’d made with Abraham, Issac and Jacob. Then the Lord relented. When an intercessor knows his identity in His Heavenly Father, he is able to stand in the gap fr the people he leads. Many times Moses tried to convince God from not destroying the people because of unbelief and rebellion. Most of us are also familiar with Moses most famous exploit, parting the Red Sea.

Gideon

Gideon was a man called out by God as a judge during the period of the Judges  An angel of the Lord appeared and  called him a mighty man of valor!  Gideon replied that his clan, Manasseh was the weakest clan and he was least in his father’s house. His prayerful response was asking the Angel why his people were in such derision and ended his discourse with asking if he could lay out a fleece to prove His promise. God was gracious and listened to Gideon’s reasoning. From henceforth, Gideon boldly destroyed his father’s  Baal altar and later subdued the vicious Midainites! No matter what background or station in life, when God calls us to do great exploits, we can be assured that we will be victorious because He has called us to do it!

Joshuah

Since Joshua’s first escapade with the eleven other spies, he continued to be bold and faithful to God’s commands. He and Caleb didn’t flinch when they saw the size of the giants who occupied the land they were ordained to possess. num 13  Caleb had a different spirit than the other spies.  When Caleb announced to the Isrealites that the protection of the Anakim, ( a certain race of giants) was gone, they still protested because of intimidation of Caleb;s confidence that they tore their clothe and wanted to stone, Joshua, Caleb and Moses. The Lord was angry about their lack f faith and cowardice and  said that the only ones who would enter the promised land would be  Joshua and Caleb. These two men were greatly  favored and revered militarily. In another amazing miraculous episode, Joshua asked Gd to still the sun from going down so he and the army could finish ff their adversaries, 

Nehemiah:

Nehemiah was another beloved man f God who had a heart fr his people the Jews. He was cup bearer to King, Artaxerxes

Lord, the God of heaven, the great and awesome God, who keeps his covenant of love with those who love him and keep his commandments, let your ear be attentive and your eyes open to hear the prayer your servant is praying before you day and night for your servants, the people of Israel. I confess the sins we Israelites, including myself and my father’s family, have committed against you. We have acted very wickedly toward you. We have not obeyed the commands, decrees and laws you gave your servant Moses.

“Remember the instruction you gave your servant Moses, saying, ‘If you are unfaithful, I will scatter you among the nations, but if you return to me and obey my commands, then even if your exiled people are at the farthest horizon, I will gather them from there and bring them to the place I have chosen as a dwelling for my Name.’

10 “They are your servants and your people, whom you redeemed by your great strength and your mighty hand. 11 Lord, let your ear be attentive to the prayer of this your servant and to the prayer of your servants who delight in revering your name. Give your servant success today by granting him favorin the presence of this man.”

Nehemiah was of an excellent spirit, compassionate and focused to organize the rebuilding of the beloved city, Jerusalem. The walls were breached in many places and broken down completely in others. Even the people’s spirits were broken, but he planned, organized and followed through with the rebuild ed. There were  several daunting adversaries intimidating the workers and who wanted to assassinate Nehemiah. Nevertheless, He prayed and those below him prayed fr God’s strength and success.anon

King Jehoshaphat

2 Chron 20 tells of King Jehoshaphat suddenly being encompassed-by the Moabites, Ammonites and other gro.  He was very afraid and had the people fast.

Lord, the God of our ancestors, you alone are God in heaven. You rule all the kingdoms of the nations. You are so powerful that no one can oppose you. You, our God, drove out the inhabitants of this land before your people Israel and gave this land to the descendants of your friend Abraham forever. They have lived in it and have built a sanctuary in honor of your name in it, saying, ‘If calamity, sword, flood,[c] plague, or famine comes upon us, we will stand before this temple, before you, because your name is in this temple. We will cry out to you in our distress, and you will hear us and save us.’ 10 So look here! The Ammonites, the Moabites, and those from Mount Seir—the people you wouldn’t let Israel invade when they came out of Egypt’s land, so Israel avoided them and didn’t destroy them— 11 here they are, returning the favor by coming to drive us out of your possession that you gave to us!12 Our God, won’t you punish them? We are powerless against this mighty army that is about to attack us. We don’t know what to do, and so we are looking to you for help.”

The Holy Spirit came upon the attending prophets and told King Jehoshaphat that the Lord would be with them and t not be afraid.  The King prepared for the victory by appointing singers to give praise before the Lord. They were to march in front f the army. The Lord launched a surprise attack n the armies and thousands f corpses all lay n the ground.

There are many other  stories of the great conquests by  God’s leaders, prophets, kings and servants and time just doesn’t permit me to share them all. They all had several things in common.

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Queen Esther’s story is most amazing because she  started out as an orphan. Her cousin, Mordecia  adopted  and raised her. Esther’s Jewish name is Hadassah and she ended up being chosen as King Xerxes new queen after his former Queen Vashti was dethroned.  From all the many maidens, Esther excelled over them all. But the king  did not know her heritage.   Esther was faced with the greatest crisis of her life when Mordecai revealed an insiduos plane where Haman, the king’s second man in commend, caused King Ahaseraus to write a decree that all the Jews in the Land should be destroyed. When Mordecai found out, he told Esther.  She then called all the people of Susa to fast for three days as well as her maidens.  Esther knew her God and knew that He would deliver her and her people. The king could not change his decree, but  Mordecia convinced her that  it may be her destiny “for such a time as this” to stand and deliver her people. As it turned out, Esther requested to see the King and he heard her request. The king issued a Deere where the Jews would be able to defend themselves if any came to harm them. For this reason was the great queen Esther revered and the Jews celebrate the  holiday of Purim.

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Daniel

Devote American Christian saints today complain that we are vexed by our  perverted culture, but there is nothing new under the sun. Daniel and  his friends were taken away and forced to live the Babylonian culture. He spent his whole life serving in the royal court of Babylon.Despite the influences of the pagan culture., Daniel thrived, communing intimately with His God. He was so focused, that he prayed three times a day, with his windows opened toward Jerusalem. Daniels’ captorss acknowledged that Daniel’s outstanding wisdom, training and intelligence was from His mighty God.  That dedication to God paid off when Daniel had to endure being thrown int the lion’s den;  Fellow servants of the King, came to accuse Daniel of not obeying the decree to worshiping him alone. The king was grieved because he loved Daniel and so revered the exceptional live he lived because of his God, Yahweh. They pressured the king and Daniel was thrown  into the lion’s den.

In the morning. after a sleepless night, the king rushed to the den were Daniel was and cried, “Daniel, servant of the living Gd, has your God delivered you from the lion’s?” He knew who the true God was. God is always near too those of a broken and contrite spirit. Gd always hears the cries of His children who are in covenant with Him. Do you disbelieve God’s almighty power and ability to save? I urge you to test Him. Taste and see…that He truly is good! You’ll not be disappointed.

God’s great prayer warriors have  several things in common

  • They were totally commuted to God
  • They were focused on Him alone being the victory over whatever challenge they had to face.
  • They were courageous
  • Most important, they knew how to worship and revere Him

Jesus, our advocate, intercedes on our behalf. Rom 8:34 When the disciples asked him how to pray, He gave us The Lord’s prayer as a templet. We should always remember  that He isn’t a magic genie or Santa Claus. He is Holy and we should enter in with reverence and honor Him for who He is… Creator of heaven and earth and God of the universe. Blessed are we that whenever we’re in a sudden bind and  can only say a quick prayer, God immediately hears us!  Let us thank Him for all our miracles and provision.

Whenever we feel our prayers aren’t being answered or we feel we are unworthy to have our prayer heard, we should recall and meditate on these aforementioned brethren who believed in their great God and loving father, for He is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow! If we are in covenant with Father and abide in the vine, every prayer is always heard. It is time for us to enter boldly, with confidence and reverence and expectation.

 

 

 

 

The Glorious Testator


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God’s special people, the Jews, were chosen and blessed by the Creator, The great I am, when He  looked upon Abram.   (whose name was later changed to Abraham,) was told to leave his country to a new place where God would choose. It was there there that Jehovah God  decreed that he would make Abraham’s name great. Indeed, Abraham became a  great and blessed nation! What a glorious beginning.

So, from the time of Abraham, all the successive prophets and great men and women of God,  His people, Israel was blessed….as long as they kept covenant with God. 

Sadly Israel had her share of covenant breakers, beginning with King Saul’s rebellion-disobedience regarding God’s protocol. His act so grieved God, that  God told the prophet Samuel  that he was taking the kingdom from Saul and giving it to someone better than him.  Samuel said, ” You have rejected the word of the Lord, and the Lord has rejected you as king over Israel!”  So, Israels’ glorious destiny was changed. because the Israelite’s insisted on having a king over them, even over  than Yahweh. God  allowed them to suffer the consequence of their decision. They tolerated the  ungodly  weaknesses and idol worship of their kings and priests which led them into  captivity and bondage.

King after king brought corruption and judgments over God’s people But the Lord consistently gave mercy and grace  and by sending His prophets to correct and guide with His divine wisdom and counsel. During one of the most lawless periods, the time of the judges God once again  rescued His people through deliverers such as  Othniel, Shamgar, Deborah, Gideon and Sampson. Then came  the silent  years, a period of four hundred years where no word of God was given and lasted from the ministry of Malachi  (circa 430 BC) to the arrival of Jesus.

Israel went through great suffering and bondage because of  their rebellion and  disobeying God’s commandments.   Eventually all the world and its people followed suit, resulting in a world pining in sin, sorrow and utter darkness. Even with Orthodox Jews  adhering strictly to the law. nothing changed. The spiritual atmosphere and destiny of all people was thoroughly  contaminated and stalled. No matter how diligently worshipers followed the commandments, sin prevailed. The law did nothing to  diminish evil, greed, violence and murder. Wonderfully, there still remained  faithful saints who cherished and  yearned for the fulfillment of old testament prophesies regarding the coming of Messiah. Devoted worshipers like Simeon and Anna waited for decades to behold their Messiah.  One transcendent day Holy Spirit revealed to Simeon that  he would not die before seeing Messiah. Imagine his exhilaration upon seeing Mary and Joseph bringing Yashuah Jesus to be consecrated! Imagine Anna, well into her eighties and after many decades of fasting, praying and believing that she would also live to see the birth of her  salvation.  Isaiah 61.

Fast forward to 2016. Despite prophecy being fulfilled long ago, through  the birth, death and resurrection of of our Lord Yashuah HaMashiach, many Hebrew roots people and even evangelical Christians are still adhering to the law in a legalistic manner. They still grope for their righteousness through the fulfilling of keeping the law. How Father Jehovah must  grieve that after His greatest act of love, allowing His only begotten Son to suffer humiliation and torture  and death to redeem His creation, many are still thinking they could earn their righteousness through  adherence to the law, (and coercing their disciples and mentees to follow suit).

How do we, once and for all, acknowledge and  revere  with full certainty,  the preeminence, Yashuah Jesus’ completed redemption?

Let’s take at look at Mose’s relationship with Jehovah. Moses, was not only a prophet, but was a friend of God and intimately acquainted with His heavenly Father’s person. God ordained Moses to present the law to his children, Israel. Moses had such a high standing that he was revered as one of the greatest servants of God of all time. He was so revered, in fact, that the people almost would have  elevated his legacy to a  god position. The Bible speaks of Satan arguing about Moses body. Jude 1:9 Who knows whether satan may have directed the people to memorialize Moses body and cause them to sin against the Lord with his own servant.

But God set them all straight. Lets join up with Jesus and His disciples as they went up to a mountain to pray.  Jesus became as a blinding flash of lightening and Moses and Elijah appeared.  Peter, John and James were so awestruck as the  men illuminated the whole mountaintop!  Peter faced Jesus and said,  “Master, it is good for us to be here. Let us put up three shelters—one for you, one for Moses and one for Elijah.” Luke 9:33

Immediately upon speaking this, Jehovah, I Am, spoke from the clouds,

“This is my Son, whom I have chosen; listen to him.”

The bottom line, Jesus is the preeminence over all of God’s prophets.

Why did Jehovah God ordain a superior priesthood?

God’s people will never  soar into the uttermost spiritual stratospheres regarding the fleshy, constricting mindset they embrace today. Yashuah fulfilled every single blessing and benefit of His Father’s covenant and  Ezekiel prophesied of the day when God would do away with the old order of things.

26“Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; and I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.  Ezek. 26:36 

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It’s clear to see, that God saw that His original intent of presenting the law through the old testament priestly system was not working. Imagine the Sadducees, Pharisees and rabbi’s being rebuked by Jesus so harshly. They probably looked at each other in shock, wondering what his mad reasoning was.

“Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name cast out demons, and in Your name perform many miracles?’ 23“And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; DEPART FROM ME, YOU WHO PRACTICE LAWLESSNESS.’ Mat 7:23    Oh my!

But it was not inaccurate reasoning at all. They were missing the main crux of the commandments,  Love God with all your heart, and love thy neighbor as thyself. What were their lawless acts?  They defrauded vulnerable widows, then making long hypocritical prayers. Mat 12:40  They also  oppressed  wage earners, they were adulterers and denied justice for the  aliens and foreigners.  Mal  3:5

Those of us who call ourselves the true remnant must remember to get back to the basics of loving purely, unconditionally and righteously.  Sadly, we have all kinds of unrighteousness into our lives: gossip,  strife, back-biting, bitterness, resentment, bigotry and worse of all, self righteousness.. Fear and unbelief continue to be a scourge for  intimacy with our Lord and globally a  full-blown spirit of anti-christ has maligned the Holy Spirit’s supernatural and mysterious moving.  Satan has indeed beguiled God’s people into  blaspheming the Holy Spirit when they disbelieve or misunderstand divine miracles. . Church, more than ever, we must seek true gifts of discernment to know which works are of God or of satan.

         8 But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death. Rev 21:8

It’s time to let go of our fear of the mysterious unction of Holy Spirit. Time to be fasting and praying for true discernment and not human suspicion.  Satan has beguiled people and enslaved them in the area of intellectual  human reasoning. I often ponder how fearlessly teens plunge right into the occult, hungry to experience  power and the  supernatural. Tragic that God;’s own people are so rigid in their mindsets that any sign of supernatural activity to them is a sign of the devil. Here is another area where our iniquity of disobedience: is not diligently searching out  important matters. King Solomon wrote in his proverbs:

  It is the glory of God to conceal a matter, But the glory of kings is to search out a matter. Prov 25:2

That being said, Paul reminds us that we are ambassadors of Christ and  kings and priests who will judge angels! 1 Pet 2:9 and Rev 1 5&6

Both the Gentiles, (we who are grafted  into His inheritance and covenant) and His peculiar treasure, the Jews,  are part of the wonderful family of God.  Abba Jehovah always seeks for avenues of intimate fellowship where all can mutually enjoy and celebrate His goodness, mercy and provision.  Jesus  told  His disciples

“The Sabbath was made to meet the needs of people, and not people to meet the requirements of the Sabbath.  Mark 2:27 NLT

So we must keep in mind that every gift, the Sabbath, is a gift for our benefit and blessing. God’s children who are fretting about doing chores or being uptight about the day of rest have not entered into His rest.

For the one who has entered His rest has himself also rested from his works, as God did from His.  Therefore let us be diligent to enter that rest, so that no one will fall, through following the same example of disobedience. Heb 4:11

Brothers and Sister, how can we discern if we are  veering too far to the left or to the right of the law?  How hard it is to reason with someone who is staunched in legalism. They have their own predetermined, rigid mindset  rendering them emotionally-detached  from their heavenly Father and Savior Yashuah.

The Glorious  and Preeminent Testator

Now to wrap up this expository, the old testament law was imperfect.  If it were sufficient, there would be no reason for another covenant to be incepted. God saw the fault of the people and for this reason, was His own Son, the perfect replacement for the old covenant.  Yashuah Jesus, because He continues forever , is the unchangeable priesthood, not on the basis of a regulation as to his ancestry but on the basis of the power of an indestructible life.  He  saves to the uttermost and lives to make intercession for us. It is impossible for the blood of bulls and goats to take away sins, so His priesthood is a new covenant rendering the first one obsolete and what is obsolete and outdated will soon disappear. Heb 8:13

Such was Yashuah Jesus our high priest,  holy, harmless and undefiled  and higher than the heavens. Offering sacrifices first for Himself and then for His own sins. Jesus has obtained a more excellent ministry, the mediator of a better covenant, which was established upon better promises. Now we know that where a testament is, there had to be, by necessity,  be the death of the testator. Praise father God for Yashuah’s perfect gift of sacrifice and redemption!

Holy Spirit also testifies to us about Yashuah’s perfect priesthood.

16 “This is the covenant I will make with them
    after that time, says the Lord.
I will put my laws in their hearts,
    and I will write them on their minds.”[a]

Many of God’s children straddle the concepts of grace and obedience to the law. They can avoid this lifeless mindset by seeking Holy Spirit’s revelation, (Rhema word). In my ministering and counseling,

He has enabled us to be ministers of his new covenant. This is a covenant not of written laws, but of the Spirit. The old written covenant ends in death; but under the new covenant, the Spirit gives life. 2 Cor. 3:6 NLT

Father has shown me many of God’s  children had father’s  or parents that wounded them. These were harsh, emotionally-detached and/or demanded high or unreasonable expectations. These damaging ways of rearing children cause them to be ensnared by a militarism  (police)and drill-Sargent image of God and others. Satan uses this to steal joy and weary them with need to “perform and be perfect.  Thus they demand and/or judge for perfection in their wives, children and others.

Another disturbing aspect of a legalistic worship of God is being too somber.  There is a time for seriousness, repenting and quiet reflection, but Christ’s abundant life,    (fullness. joy and thanksgiving)  should exude from us.  God wants His people to  rejoice continually in the freedom, spontaneity and victory His Son has won for us on Calvary!

Me we come back to the Davidic tabernacle of praise and celebration after we have repented from our sins. We can come quickly to the throne room of grace in our time of  weakness and need. Many of the  Psalms lyrics describe,  dancing with timbrels, harp,  ram’s horns and stringed instruments. ( Psalms 81, 149,  150) , David often used his anointed music to assuage King Saul’s possession of angry demons.   I personally steer  clear of any church or pastor whose flock are perpetually somber or judgmental (harshly scrutinizing) to other brethren and pastors.

Prayer,

Abba Jehovah, we thank you for your perfect sacrifice and your ever-lasting loving-kindness and mercies. They are new each morning. Holy Spirit, illuminate the eyes and hearts of our brethren who have been raised by parent who  chastened them harshly and/or wounded their tender spirits. Most of all we ask for your precious people, our brethren, the Jews, to see Yashuah’s majesty and superior priesthood. Let them receive a Rhema word that Yashuah has already come!

For Jewish brethren who want to  further study the Tanach regarding Yashuha in the old testament, I highly encourage you to visit  Rabbi Arthur Glass article, Yeshua in the Tanakh.

http://www.menorah.org/yeshname.html

Shalom and God bless

TRANSPARENCY WITH GOD, Pt 2


 

 

CHRISTIAN MASKS

Two years ago, one a dear pastor-mentor asked me if I would connect in a woman who seeking a prayer warrior. I agreed and contacted the sister. We clicked.  I couldn’t wait to “storm the gates” of hell with her in prayer each morning. She was also a natural healer-practitioner who wanted to assist me in my Lyme Disease and Dystonia battle. We had our love for our cats and composing worship songs as common ground and talked about everything wonderful, musical and spiritual under the sun. She introduced me to a very complicated and very costly protocol, (costing well into thousands of dollars). I balked at the cost and reminded her that healing from Jesus never put anyone into a lifetime of debt. I wasn’t being facetious, just concerned about the burden of juggling so many supplements with foods and the RIFE machine. I was shocked when I received an eight page very angry,  condemning letter that made me cry for half an hour! When I emailed her and as her if she was mad at me, I got no comment and never heard from her again. That last I heard, she emailed my husband with news she had lost her rental house and was living in her car. She I was heart-broken that she was destitute and sick. Mark and I decided to bless her with a check and one of my hand-made beaded chokers to let her know she was still a Queen in Father’s eyes.

I reeled with shock and grief at the sudden severing of this relationship, but abrupt endings of this nature happen everyday for people all over the world. It can emotionally traumatic to receive a damning letter from someone you loved and trusted. Events like these often disturbed my peaceful momentum, especially since I came from a background of abuse, but I’ve learned to focus on restoring peace and harmony by bringing the schism to the Lord, forgiving and praying for the person. I then become creative and joyful again. Our response to angry confrontations is to pray for those who persecute or offend us and especially if they are our brethren. We should also not gloat over any misfortunes that befall for the way of love is showing compassion.

When we are hurt, insulted or accused of something we didn’t do or say, our flesh can allow our tongues to set aflame a forest fire of retaliatory damage. We must consistently abide in Father-Jesus presence to keep our flesh bridled. Paul tells us in Rom 12:18 to try as much as possible to live at peace with all men.

The glorious and transforming essence emanation emanating from Holy Ghost through us determines the outcome of Father’s blessing and provision. When we discipline ourselves to flow in His unconditional love, (and forgiveness) we will see a local, national and global soul-harvest We often hear it said “There is strength in unity” We just have to read our newspaper headlines blaring examples of chaos and disunity all across our own America everyday. Scattered groups seethe in civil disobedience. Racial hatred and rioting brews between law enforcement and angry protesters. Political parties are also in disunity about how to address and solve the problem of an ever-rising and astronomical debt. Going down the line, we see husbands and wives at enmity with each other mistrusting each others motives, manipulating to get needs meet and controlling to Lord over. Here is an example of a fragmented and disunified America at her worst.

To God’s dismay, His people are in the same position, disorganized, squabbling, impotent , pathetic, not to forget busy-bodies scrutinizing everyone’s walk and business but their own. Do we really think Jesus is coming for a bride in this condition?
It is time to look in the mirror and ask Holy Spirit to scrutinize us for the purpose of purifying us.

We cannot continue in our state and expect to see God’s supernatural signs and wonders. His hands are tied by our self-righteousness, unresolved conflicts, prejudice, harshness, and condemnation which weakens the fragile fibers of God’s tapestry, His church. Imagine a complicated machine with many parts and electrically powered. If there is a short somewhere in the wire and the connecting wires are severed, the machine won’t work. Once the breach is repaired either by soldering or reconnecting the wire, the machine does its magic. This is how the body of Christ also operates.

Apostle Paul gave us a beautiful descriptive picture of how important everyone of us is in the body. Each child of God is a crucial part of the smooth-running of His body! Two people, a couple or a group can have a schism and all are affected. The momentum of the machine is slowed down or stopped. We wonder why our ministries, marriages and finances are not flourishing and as an ever-flowing fountain of water. We cannot expect for fruit from works of the flesh. Peace and joy comes from an uncluttered and pure spring. When we walk in love, we bear patiently with each other and are tender-hearted.

Paul tells us to bear each others burden Gal 6:2 We are all responsible for each other growth and well-being. We shouldn’t stand idly by if a brother or sister is in sin or making poor choices for his life and family. Wise and mature elders are to groom and teach the younger and inexperienced. This is how the body of Christ should operate, in fullness and harmony. The trend of Christian apathy must change in the United States and the heavy burden should not be borne by the tiny percentage of intercessors? All of us are responsible with our gifts, talents and abilities to mesh with each other in divine harmony.

… 25 …so that there may be no division in the body, but that the members may have the same care for one another. 26And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it; if one member is honored, all the members rejoice with it. 27 Now you are Christ’s body, and individually members of it. 1 Cor 12 25-27

I’ve had to deal with many other disturbing and confrontational issues with various people. I most stressful one with one of my husband’s friends, a fellow minister who thought it was his calling to scrutinized my every spontaneous ministry endeavor-activity. He’d often counsel my husband.

“You need to control that situation.” or ” My wife would never do that. Anita is out of order.” Once too many times, my husband would remark during a spat, “I need to put my foot down like pastor ( no name disclosed)  says!”  Looks like an insecure, controlling and manipulative spirit here. This  man needs to mind his own business and pray about me if he is that  bothered. that much by my excitement to go out spontaneously to minister at a nursing home. This type of scrutinizing and controlling advice is  greatly damaging to a marriage and certainly does nothing to build up a wife’s hospital ministry!

I also had to deal with  the contention of another Christian brother who would start a discourse with my husband and end  six to seven hours later into the wee hours into the night!  Though his visits were infrequent, the tiny window of time my husband and I was often devoured by his nebulous conversations. He could not see my concern for my husband’s need for  sleep and our need for quality time together on the week-ends. He was obstinate with pride and refused to be courteous and respect our marriage covenant and relationship. The last time he came to visit, he exploded in anger when I asked my husband to reserve the last hour of Sunday night for our time. He was so enraged by my request to my husband that he wrote me a 10 page letter beginning with how domineering I was. I couldn’t believe that the same man I prayed with in my car after my grocery shopping two years ago was the same person who lunged at me in rage in my own house!

He has yet to apologize, but I’ve forgiven him and moved on in prayer for him and God restoring our friendship.

Another strange confrontation happened to me about eleven years ago. A dear Christian musician-artist sister’s husband bawled me out one day by phone with the most hateful accusations. He didn’t believe my intentions with his wife (or our relationship) was godly. I loved being around this sister and loved being involved in perforating and ministry. he called me a user and manipulator and that I manipulated my best friend-music partner for years. I was so shocked and sick for days!

I didn’t hear from this dear woman for over eleven years, but never ceased praying and blessing them. Just imagine the fruit of our friendship, the fellowship and ministering to souls with our combined gifts. Satan loves to disturb the balance and harmony of God’s people with mistrust, hard-hardheartedness and pride.If this couple would have sat down and we all reasoned and listened wirth the Spirit, many wonderful things could have been accomplished for the kingdom.

Satan’s spirits are usually at the root of angry, hateful confrontations or accusations and we must be on guard to his devices. When the body is weakened by unforgivesnness, bitterness and false slander, we cannot overcome the attacks that come our way. Our prayers are hindered by our prideful resistance to apologize and reason in fairness and love!

So, here is the connection between the rise of ISIS, racial tension, persecution, genocide and every other malignant evil. The body of Christ is the salt of the earth.We are the city of a hill and from which all nations should look too because of our righteous and obedience to god’s commandments and ordinances!Proverbs 29:2 tell us that the righteous increase, the people rejoice. But when a wicked man rules, the people groan.

America and the rest of the world are groaning!

The enemy gains power when God’s people are weak with strife, disharmony and pride. For the creation awaits in eager expectation for the revelations of the sons of God! Rom 8:19. It is time that we all gaze into God’s mirror and see the haggard, weary sin-scarred visage staring back at us. Let us not believe in the deceiver who has fooled us into thinking that we are right with God because we are memorizing scripture, attending Saturday or Sunday services, keeping the Shabbat, tithing (and even praying (in the flesh). Let us worship…in Spirit and in truth. John 4:24

How fruitful are our “godly” activities when we’ve ignored and minimized our broken or strained relationship? Husband do you belittle or ignore your wife’s passion to win souls and her passion for heavenly things? Wife do you neglect to cook, take care of the house and honor your husband? Children, do you disrespect and rebel against your parents? Pastors and elders are you meddling in people’s “out of the box” marriages and ministries when it’s none of your business? These are some of the “insignificant”(in our eyes) sins, but crucial as far as the health and fruitfulness of the body of Christ.

Prayer:
Heavenly Father,
Let us not love not in word but in deed. 1 John 3:18 Let us not do cheap lip service, “I love and pray ” for so and so everyday, yet we talk about them like dirt behind our backs. Beloved, Help us Holy Spirit to love each other fervently and with pure hearts., forgiving each other.
Help us to be transparent with You and with each other, confessing our sins so we can walk in healing and joy!

In the matchless name of Your Son, Jesus, Yashuah
Aman

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