HEALING IS the CHILDREN’S BREAD


 Do you remember the poignant story in Mat 21 15-28 of the Canaanite women who approached Jesus in desperation because her precious little daughter suffered demon-possession. Even in her utter grief, Jesus said not a word but  and his disciples urged him to send her away.

Then Jesus turned to her and said,  “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.” She was not to be ignored and knelt beside him. “Lord, help me!”His answer was “it is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”

Instead of retorting in resentment or offense, she  answered, “yes, lord But even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from the  their master’s table.”

Jesus was so moved by her audacity that he immediately healed her daughter. She had a bulldog faith that would not let go!

Friend, are you still suffering today with a painful and/or chronic condition even after years of prayer liners, prayer clothes and meditating on your healing scriptures? Could you be missing something or doing something wrong? Could there be some blockage that is keeping you from your miraculous healing? I pray my latest  article on healing will help you uncover any ground you’ve not explored before.

(Unearthing, Addressing and Dismantling  Generational Curses and Iniquities)

Today, let us ask Father Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus to explore the deeper spiritual waters in hopes of toppling the barriers to our healing and wholeness. I hope by sharing transparently, the the mystery of my own bondage and sufferings from uncancelled generational curses  that you also may gain deliverance and freedom. Knowledge is victory.

I was ordained as a minister in 2013 by Pastor-evangelists, Leo and and Edith Fram.  I’ve passionately and consistently been serving my precious Lord Yashuah HaMashiach since 1982 under the authority of a Pentecostal hell-fire and brimstone pastor. I was born to a Puerto-Rican Catholic father who was stationed in German and where he married my beautiful, blonde-haired, green-eyed mother.

In the seventh grade, I suffered a traumatic  event which led to a six year tenure of bullying by 3 black girls, who were under demonic influence. From then on, I suffered shame about my birth heritage. Soon after, my sisters and I suffered childhood abuse and neglect because of my mom’s scorn of my dark-skinned father, (and other buried traumas she endured as a girl in Germany). Dad was also almost driven insane by mom’s fits of rage and antics. Supporting us became so challenged that he decided that foster care would be best for my two younger sisters.. One day, my mom lost her grip with reality, called the cops on me and I was ordered to leave. I was also placed in foster care in my senior year of high school. My life fell apart.

My adult life, feeling orphaned by my parents and supporting myself became overwhelming. I became deeply depressed and bulemic because of shame issues. A few years later in April 1982, a “religious” friend invited me to his church where I accepted Jesus as my Lord and savior. I never realized that this was just the beginning of a very long tenure of spiritual battles and health attacks that would be helped by deliverance. It took many years to correctly use the keys Jesus had given me to wholeness & freedom. WHY? Because I had many generational curses and family iniquities that blocked my blessings and wholeness. I had no idea satan still had access to me through these buried generational curses. This is the missing key many Children of God are ignorant of.

After decades of suffering various and recurring health issues, (particularly hay fever, allergies and bronchitis, my younger sister almost died several times from Asthma attacks!) I found out lung ailments were associated with “FREEMASONRY”I had no idea there was any such thing, but it was discovered during a deliverance session that I had Freemasonry in my family line. ( my grandfather in Germany had a hidden life with this secret society group! In another deliverance session, it was found a SANTERIA curse harassing me, (my father was born & raised in Puerto-Rico and by a devout Catholic mother).

Friends, it is hard for me to imagine that as a  committed servant of Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus that I’d be suffering so much. I had a strong calling as  a worship leader and teacher. (Holy Spirit taught me how to compose and write songs on the guitar). I’ve also experienced God using me greatly in the ministering to the sick and dying in hospitals and nursing homes and have been called to preach at funerals. I’ve also counseled, challenged youth as well as professional adults as a behavior counsel our at Nutri-System Weight Loss centers.

I want to tell you all, that when we come to Christ from a family riddled with curses and generational iniquities, everything does not just disappear with the declaring of the salvation prayer. The Bible says we work out our salvation with reverence and trembling…thus it is a process. Phil 2:12 For me it’s been a staggeringly exhausting and arduous process. Imagine being so talented in music, the arts, journalism & being plagued for almost 9 years with a tormenting “movement” suborder, DYSTONIA of the mouth! My mouth, throat and tongue are the tools God uses to lead people into His presence as a worship leader. Imagine being in excruciating pain every waking minute because I refuse to use pain killers which would damage my organs or cloud my mind. (To get through each hour, I discipline myself to declare that I have the MIND of Christ).. After  having countless doctors, chiropractors and neurologists examine me and then being  told there is NO cure …Christ must be my sufficiency, or I will just have a nervous breakdown and give up the fight!

Imagine the shame & frustration of having uncontrollable mouth movements making ugly facial grimaces and feeling the sensation of being choked and can barely breath. Dozens of times, I’ve had to call in prayer lines and also had countless ministers of healing lay hands on me. Countless hours I’ve spent in researching the causes of this TMJ jaw DYSTONIA and am no nearer to relief than 8 years ago. I realize there must be mysterious issues and powers that be here at work. I cry daily   to my Father for strength and refuse to give up my right be be whole. The barrier must be found…and torn down by the blood of Yashuah…and so the mystery tour continues.

If you are in similiar treacherous waters as I’ve been for these eight and half years, (I’m not even counting the ten years earlier fighting a  staggering battle with Lyme Disease and candida), do not give up on the Lord!  Keep knocking, keep seeking. A recent scripture that was sent to me by Pastor Jeff lane from YOU and Me Prayer ministry was,

James 1 2-4  My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into                         divers  temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

So then, he/she who endures til the end shall be saved. Long-term suffering born patiently yields a precious fruit of compassion and empathy for others we meet who are also suffering! Jesus already paid the price for our healing & deliverance. There is no reason for any of His children to be suffering and ineffective for His kingdom. If we are still suffering, perhaps we’re  doing something wrong, have some buried, ancestral harassing spirit, need to press more confidently and expectantly or maybe, we just need to believe and expect our healing is already done! This is what Father Jehovah has taught me. Healing IS the children’s bread.

Sickness is not from the Father, Kynan bridges, author Possessing Your healing. reminds us throughout his wonderful book. Father will deny any good things. Are some of us harboring an “unconscious desire ” for special attention in our sickness so we don’t have to take responsibility to grow and receive the higher things of God? Let us seek Him diligently. Some of us really don’t want to be healed, because it’s out of our comfort zone! Well, folks, Father wants us to rooted & grounded in the faith, not to be forever drinking milk!

Science and medicine correctly deduce a physical-reason for Bi-Polar, depression or any sickness, but…Christ supersedes any emotional or physical condition. Period. .By HIS stripes were are healed. Psalm 103 1-3. Christ is PREEMINENT over ALL. I hope this helps some of you. Watch the 700 club, Sid Roth’s It’s Supernatural and Andrew Wommack’s teaching series on healing. YouTube also has amazing documentaries of divine healing. Have an open mind in Christ and see what He will do. Christ heals every day and everywhere around the world. There is NO excuse to stay emotionally ill for we HAVE the mind of Christ. You need to connect with anointed, supernatural ministries who specialize in deep healing. I thank God everyday for His word which has transformed me. When I start to get depressed about this temporary Dystonia mouth seizures, I rebuke & bind the spirit of depression and declare that I have the mind of Christ…DITTO.

One more thing, denial will keep you in tremendous bondgae and sorrow. The hardest part about starting your journey to healing through deliverance is saying, I am sick or I need help. satan is cunning as he has led so many of God’s people into bondage through spiritual and emotional deception. If he can get us to say, “I don’t need to be delivered from demonic oppression or influence” he will keep us from receiving all of Fathers benefits and blessings. As I said at the beginning of this expository, “healing Is the children’s bread.

Abba, in the name of Yashuah Jesus, I stand in the gap for my brother and sister who is in bondage. I declare that he/she is FREE in the name of Jesus and by His precious blood, they are a new creation. I bind the spirit of deception and delusion and cast you out into the dry places. Holy Spirit, fill this mind NOW with your divine, pure and holy transformation and illumination. Thank You, Father for opening up the spiritual eyes of my brother  or sister. I declare this day, that they are moving towards You and away from all the entrapments, generational curses and family iniquity. Jesus bore our sorrow, sicknesses and dins, so we Thank you NOW that my freind is walking towards complete freedom and deliverance. help him or her to walk in transparency and honesty with you regarding their sin or struggles. Your word says that we should confess our sins to each other. So give us a joyful and repentant heart, In Jesus matchless name, amen.

By His Stripes… You are Healed


My Dystonia Journey

Note: If you are suffering from Dystonia, Parkinson, MS, Lupus, Fibromyalgia or any of the host of neurological disorders, please have an open heart, research. Please don’t allow drugs to diminish the quality fo your life. Pain is a killer, yes, but Christ is Life. I have no words to convince you to seek passionately and incessantly for the root issue your illness.  If anything…after eight long, tormenting years of suffering agonizing pain and humiliation, God is our only answer and cure! BTW, still can’t find a cure? Look into spiritual Christian deliverance. According to pastor Henry Wright strongholds and generational issues could be the root of you not receiving your healing. This is all so complicated, but at Pastor Wrights Healing    seminars we learned that small insidious sins such as unforgiveness, bitterness, resentments and even innocent emotions such as deep grieving can block us from healing. Deliverance sessions with a empathetic and  Holy-Spirit-filled counselor can release your ability to receive Jesus healing! check out Henry Wright on Sid Roth. His book,  A More Excellent Way, Be In Health, is a life changer.God bless you on your healing journey. Please pass this blog on to any of your loved ones or family members who are sick. This blog may change your life forever

Journal Entry, April 3, 2016 4:50 pm

So, It’s just a little past spring and I’m delighting in the glorious  blooming of my favorite “snow-busters” crocuses. I really had expected that I would be outside brisk-walking and getting back my size four shape. The violent muscle-pulling of my neck  kept me house bound and stuck sitting most of the winter day,  fashioning my beaded chokers. Stringing the beads were just about the only therapy which kept the violent mouth-jaw-tongue and neck spasms from sending me to a nervous breakdown. Of course, my reliance has been and continues to be on my heavenly Father giving me strength and declaring my healing scriptures otherwise, I would be toast!

Mark and I continue to research and scour the internet for any treatment or new breakthroughs in Dystonia, neurological disorders or tremors. We’re researching the treatment protocol to address the mold contamination situation which started in our old home. A Christian sister prayed with me one day last year and insisted I check into the possibility that it was contributing to the Dystonia symptoms and mild seizures. She said the myco-toxins were dangerous and I shouldn’t wait to let myself get sicker.   I trusted her spiritual wisdom and insight, but Mark wasn’t sure that could be the issue, and besides  the tests to find out about mold are very hard to come by. Any doctors who did treat mold were in very exclusive areas and charged at least a grand just to get in the door. After finding out about the cost, Mark got disgusted and gave up…and I continued to get worse!

Even thought, just getting through each hour was arduous and exhausting, my empathy and compassion for those enduring devastating, chronic and unexplained sickness grew. I ‘m more passionate than ever to help others find healing and wholeness.

So many things encapsulate a movement disorder condition.  Besides, the loneliness, isolation and people unable to care and/or empathize with  the mental, emotional, physical and spiritual ramifications of Dystonia, FibroMyalgia, Parkinson’s Lupus or MS, there is the frustration and hopelessness of never  leaving the bodily prison. Worse yet, are the consequences of being addicted to pain-killers and other anti-confirmatory drugs.

I hope the following conversation I had with a freind educates other sufferers of immune and/or nerve disorders. The name is changed  for privacy

Damaris:

I just hate to see u in pain. Aside from lethargy and sluggishness, which I know all too well from my meds, do the meds help w tremors
Do u have trouble eating or swallowing. Is that how u keep your youthful, zero fat shape.
Me:

BTW, just to add, I’m waiting to get my book ready for publication. Editing takes great segacity. Excelling at my craft for the Lord far exceeds the issue of NOT being in pain. Choosing to stay alert, (Mark has great immune system challenges also) & I have to be on top of everything regrading knowledge of immune-enhancing supplements, herbs and especially keeping up with label reading,, a new priority since this evil government seeks to weaken the population thru vaccinations , GMO and our produce being tainted. Not to even elaborate on the toxicity of Splenda, Sucralose, MSG and high fructose corn syrup now being added to most foods and beverages. HFC makes makes people even fatter..Daily exercise is also a priority for me. I need to keep fit because Mark’s back has severe herniated disks and he couldn’t do any taxing physical work like chopping the wood or a lot of snow shoveling. I’m adamant about fitness and there’s the necessity of being so in case of any impenitent  EMP situation. God help those who are overweight  or physically debilitated in anyway!  You know, I would have had cancer also if  it not were for my Biblical declaration of Healing scriptures and researching everything I can about keeping my body cancer-free.
Regarding drugs for tremors, Sinemet and other muscle relaxers do little to get to the root of the  spasms. And besides, I don’t have a Parkinson or tremor problem. I have a nerve spasm issue from pinched nerves from the TMJ ligament and trying to detoxify my body from a past severe Carbon monoxide poisoning which did a number on my body.
Damaris: Any Dr mention wiring jaw wiring for what?
Damaris,  miracles abound for people getting astounding healing from Jesus, our Divine healer. Doctors know almost nothing about the body & how God created it to heal itself! I watch the 700 club, Copelend, Andrew Wommack ministries and many evangelical outreaches, German evangelist Rinehard Bonnke have prayed for miracles all over the world, especially in third-world nations. I’ve heard of testimonies on the Sid Roth Program of people whose limbs restored. Others had eyes restored where their eye sockets were empty. God created new eyes! Others gave testimonies of God giving them brand new organs like lungs, a new heart and  kidneys.
So, Mark and I don’t put too much trust in most mortal doctors who  are revered almost as gods. Mark insists they practice medicine.  Most of them could care less to passionately research new holistic and natural healing modalities. They’d not get their extra thousands from the kickback drug companies give them! Most of them are charlatans who rob poor working-class people and their greed compels them to aspire to  another Lamborghini. Remember, the drug industry is a billion dollar industry.
The Bible frowns on drugs and the overuse and dependence on them is overrated.  Drug are not conducive in any way to healing and wholeness of the body or mind and God’s people should not be so gullible and foolish to fall under the temptation to depend on them. (In rare cases, God may allow them  to stabilize a severe health issue, like blood pressure or high  blood sugar),  but we should all approach drugs with great caution and  education about side effects. they may be used We should seek the counsel and wisdom of Holy Spirit for everything and most particularly, our health and well-being.
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In Galatian 5:20,
pharmakeia: the use of medicine, drugs or spells

Original Word: φαρμακεία, ας, ἡ
Part of Speech: Noun, Feminine
Transliteration: pharmakeia
Phonetic Spelling: (far-mak-i’-ah)
Short Definition: magic, sorcery, enchantment
Definition: magic, sorcery, enchantment.

Most of the time the drugs have more side effects than the condition itself. Sadly, many people don’t care to do their research for natural cures, (or prevention in the first place). Why aren’t physicians teaching patients how to prevent sickness? 
God’s people should ask the question and ponder the manner in which our precious healer, Jesus Yashuah suffered and bore the lashes on his back and body so we could walk in divine healing! His bruising was beyond our comprehension and manuscripts have yet to describe to true  totality of his battered body for our healing and benefit God’s children are already healed and we have the authority to be healed in His name This is another reason I walk with and serve my Lord, so what doctors offer is of little worth or help. Mark and I will have to continue to seek a Holy Spirit-filled doctor who is in touch with Christ and has the right diagnostic equipment to pinpoint  the root cause of this Dystonia.
I’m thankful for my Facebook sister with the gift of discernment who originally pointed me in a good direction. Mold poisoning , (Myco-Toxins)  often mimic neurological disorders, so besides sharing my other blogs about possible causes, I pray this one will help also.