FELLING the GIANT, Pt 2


 

 

 

 

In my Felling the Giant post (Pt 1), I gave instruction, advice and suggestions for healing and support of the  physical man. When I first was diagnosed with Lynne in 1992, it was a frightening death sentence because I’d heard that people became disabled and even died.  Disability was not an option for me because God had already ordained me to participate and fulfill leadership roles in many social-outreach  capacities.  Seeing so many manifestations of His miraculous provision and healing, I refuse to believe the lies and doctors reports that I would be one of the Lyme Statistics, disabled and non-productive.

On Saturday, our usual Sabbath of rest, I participate on our intercessors conference call, but today, I felt a strong impression to research the topic of transferring of spirits .During our conference line meetings, some of the fellow prayer warriors shared their frustrations of family and relatives  emotional state very strongly influencing the atmosphere . I sought a pastors teaching on YouTube and found one from Omega Man radio. Pastor Ivory Hopkins was teaching about the transference of spirits. He kept reiterating that Life and death is in the power of the tongue. Prov. 18:21

Now, most of us are all too familiar with this verse and have declared it many times, but today, I believe I received a revelation of how all-encompassing this verse is to our perspective of victorious living.  A mature child of God,  walking fully in his glorious identity will testify of the relevancy of his tongue fruits influence both in the physical realm, but especially in the spiritual.

I used the be the Murphy’s Law girl,  “that anything that can go wrong will go wrong..” That it was . All kinds of crazy and difficult things happened to me til after I  accepted Christ in 1983. Then, I became a new creation! 2 Cor 5:17. So, I no longer declared, nor did I act as I did, a reprobate who was a walking curse.. Now, I did have to appropriate that new identity in Christ because even though my sins were forgiven and cleansed through Christ’s sacrificial blood, our nemesis  Satan, (the accuser), still could dictate to my life that I was still a sinner and unclean. Remember! We are now the righteousness of Christ.  2 Cor.  5:21

If we are a new creation, than we must stop speaking death and lack over our lives. I am sick. I am getting worse. The doctor’s report says i have stage 4 Cancer.  I Can’t do this. I’m a failure. These declarations and many others we often say even without realizing their power are contrary to what God says we are and can do.

Life and death is in the power of the tongue.  Here are the definitions of power according to the dictionary.

  1.  the ability to do something or act in a particular way, especially as a faculty or quality.

    2. the capacity or ability to direct or influence the behavior of others or the course of events. 

  1. supply (a device) with mechanical or electrical energy.
    2. move or travel with great speed or force.

So we see power is a word of force and great action!

Pastor Ivory shared a powerful sermon on the spies who were sent out to spy the land and only two,  Joshua and Caleb, ( who in fact had different spirits)  and had a declaration that was pleasing to God.

  “And Caleb stilled the people before Moses, and said, Let us go up at once, and possess it; for we are well able to overcome it.” Num 13:30 

Whose report do we believe and declare….God’s or the doctors.? Or our parents, classmates, spouses, bosses’ co-workers, neighbors.? It is time we walk as the Kings and Priests our Heavenly Father has called us and (adopted  us) into. We are called out of darkness into His marvelous light. That is something we should be excited about and share with others through our testimony!

Satan has approached, (and continues to do so) the altars of the Holy courtroom a myriad of times with the other sons of God to  accuse, lie and challenge God about our reputation.. Many of us have no idea what happens in the spiritual realm.  The real battle is in the spiritual realm and can only be fought with spiritual armament.  My blog, Prayer, The Double-Edged Sword, is a powerful study on the superiority and power of prayer infused with God’s living word! I beat Lyme Disease, Carbon Monoxide Poisoning as well as clinical depression and  Bulemia. The past 12 years I am battling a war against this neurological disorder, Dystonia and I will win!

We, (my fellow brethren on the Facebook Christian Lyme Disease groups and the Facebook Dystonia groups) often  share tour frustrations and deep grief about tour debilitating symptoms, the medications  (that often don’t offer relief)  that have to be taken, and the isolation and strained family relationships we endure. I give Glory to Father God that he has been my Jehovah Jireh (Provider) who sees my need for family, friendship and fellowship and has blessed me with a handful of precious prayer warriors who have filled that need for prayer, support and understanding.  God is also my Jehovah Raphha, (my healer) and as He as supplied me with the spiritual endurance, faith and hope (expectation of my healing), even though expectancy is one of my weaker issues.  If I relentlessly pursue His face and presence with confident declaration of His word, I will also beat this staggering giant!

How do I fell this giant, Dystonia?  And how do you  fell your Lyme, Cancer, Autism,  Diabetes, COPD, etc? Many of you opt for Disability or every treatment the doctor orders. That is your option.  Isn’t God good to allow us free choice to make our own destiny? But for me and my house we will serve the Lord and His word says :

 I shall not die, but live, and declare the works of the Lord. Psalm 118:17

For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God  prepared in advance for us to do. Eph.  2:10 NLT

Of course God can use the bed-ridden and the wheelchair-bound. Look how He has gloriously used Joni Earekson Tada! But I prefer to be on my feet and energetic and I will beat this Dystonia and fulfill  the greatest things Father has ordained for me which are written in my book of Life. It really is up to me.  I have my daily declarations which I declare out loud, particularly,

And I overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of my testimony; and I loved no my lives unto the death.   Rev. 12:11

AS a closing note, I wish to remind you that satan is so cunning, having had eons to study us.  He uses every trick in the book and will use every option, open door, deeply-obscured generational iniquity from our distant  ancestors  or toe-hold to   diminish  our kingdom service, spiritual and physical well-being. I was surprised to hear of Pastor Ivory sharing the story of a cheating  husband. Because of his  adultery, satan was able to gain access and attack the wife. The Bible says that the two become one flesh, so though unfair, Satan will and does attacks us through the disobedience or sin of our spouse, children or dead relatives, (ungodly soul-ties).

There are unseen aspects and barriers to our healing which we will have to diligently seek and ask Holy Spirit to lead us to a anointed deliverance counselor.  I believe many stubborn cases of non healing is due to ancestral generational curses and/or witchcraft attacks. Pastor derrik Prince gave an excellent teaches of barriers to our healing. It would behoove us to listen, learn, pray and apply powerful principles to our daily walking (and soaring) with Christ!

 

 

 

Prayer: Heavenly Father, Thank you for Your precious Son, Yashuah Jesus, who already paid the penalty  for our healing and sins on the cross. Tetelestai, He said it is finished! We ask Holy Spirit that you lead us into all revelation,  understanding  and wisdom of  things unseen, so we can walk in freedom and victory. We thank you for your deliverance, In Jesus name, amen.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

CANCER PREVENTION, Maintenance and Alternative Treaments


 

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Today, I found out that my dear  Facebook friend and Christian brother lost his battle with Cancer. I was so shocked, I started to weep uncontrollably. Even though I barely knew him,  I felt connected to him as he loved the outdoors and nature. As I read condolence posts from friends, relatives and loved ones. I became angry. I hated the devil for  creating cancer to take down God’s precious lambs and I hated that chemotherapy often  caused people to die even quicker.  Being such a  natural health advocate, I decided I had to do something to inform and educate people on ways to keep from  being hit by this devastating disease.

Since 1992, I’ve lost at least twelve very dear friends and have heard of countless stories of people telling me that their loved ones died soon after taken chemo therapy. Even devoted Christens have succumbed to early death despite coupling their healing journey with intense prayer and healing scriptures. Perhaps chemotherapy is not compatible with anointed healing manifestation? This is very troubling to me and should be to anyone seeking to overcome and stay free from Cancer. Lifestyle and nutritional changes will have to be a part of being Cancer free.

The  Cancer event which staggered my spirit and most impacted me about preventative medicine-health was my father’s. My younger sister called me one day to say my stepmother told us to go to see my father at Robert Wood hospital in New Brunswick, NJ.  Mark and I were shocked to arrive at the Oncology ward where a young nurse informed me that my father was dying of throat cancer. While I played my guitar for him, he was unable to even  focus on me because he had to grab his spit pan to clear his throat  from the heavy sputum. It was one of the most painful times I can ever remember about my father.  I couldn’t believe that after decades of suffering from a myriad to near-death seasons, he was leaving us, his daughters , this terrible legacy!

I stress that I am not a medical professional and I advise caution and urge you to  get your physician’s permission first before you try any regimes or supplements, (which could affect your medicine)  but my husband Mark and I both have spent many years of extensive research to combat the effects of a myriad of environmental assaults, including  mercury amalgam poisoning., (I had devoted a full blog about my nightmare of a mercury amalgam filling removal gone wrong), toxic mold contamination, Lyme Disease, Chronic Bronchitis and Pneumonia, and carbon monoxide poisoning.  I hope the following links will help with  maintaining your immune system strength and to cleanse you detoxifying organs, the liver, kidney and gall bladder.

Mark and I lost a dear friend who fought in the Viet Nam war and as we have read, many of our soldiers died of Agent Orange  exposure and poisoning..  For this toxin ,Zeolite is an excellent detoxifier.. Truly God’s people are perishing for lack of knowledge and wisdom and it would behoove us to research, learn  about and apply every beneficial natural substance God has blessed us with for healing. The body He created has the miraculous ability to heal itself! The first one we should go to the minute something is wrong with our bodies is Christ, our healer.  The Bible says we are to call the elders for prayer and the laying on of hands for healing.

I hope the following links with bless and benefit you in Jesus’ name amen.

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Dodi Osteen’s testimony of Healing:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HXOBF_ZhG1Y

 

CANCER,  The benefits of bentonite Clay:

https://www.mskcc.org/cancer-care/diagnosis-treatment/symptom-management/integrative-medicine/herbs/herbs-botanicals-other-products-faqs?gclid=CjwKCAjwp_zkBRBBEiwAndwD9cZBDrPvC-U-qg7plQK6LWv_BO8MMMRyeNA9IgMfgi_Y0EagfyHUQhoChh8QAvD_BwE

Essiac Tea

https://www.organicfacts.net/health-benefits/herbs-and-spices/essiac-tea.html

https://www.asbestos.com/treatment/alternative/essiac-tea/

https://thetruthaboutcancer.com/bentonite-clay/

https://csn.cancer.org/node/288399

MOLD CONTAMINATION

https://biocidelabs.com/mold-bomb-fogger/?gclid=CjwKCAjwp_zkBRBBEiwAndwD9ZnaFs_q4G3AbDqYeaQfSH7pg96gwhf8LsH5OiOgkZ7Ana8JXaciKhoCHy4QAvD_BwE

https://moldblogger.com/fighting-mold-naturally-with-5-essential-oils/

what the Bible says about mold and mildew:

https://activerain.com/blogsview/2160588/what-the-holy-bible-has-to-say-about-mold-and-mildew-

Detohttps://activerain.com/blogsview/2160588/what-the-holy-bible-has-to-say-about-mold-and-mildew-xification at a glance with Dr Mercola:

https://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2014/05/04/detoxification-program.aspx

What is Cancer?
https://www.cancerfightingstrategies.com/causes.html

Blue green Algae
https://www.mskcc.org/cancer-care/integrative-medicine/herbs/blue-green-algae
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https://draxe.com/10-natural-cancer-treatments-hidden-cures/

10 best Cancer fighting foods
https://draxe.com/cancer-fighting-foods/

Essential, oils for mold

https://www.diffuserworld.com/FeedItem/Diffuse-Essential-Oils-To-Kill-Mold-and-Mildew/

Protection from Chemt rails
https://www.chemdefense.com/chemtrails-how-to-protect-and-detox/

Prayer:

Heavenly Father,

There is nothing too hard fr you and the Bible  has an answer for every woe and malady. We ask for Holy Spirit to reveal to us anything that is displeasing or out of please in our lives so that we may remain blessed and prosperous.  Help us to make the necessary changes we need to abide in Shalom Peace and  to fulfill your Will and calling in our lives. So many need us. Remind us that Jesus has already done the work. Tetelestai, It is Finished! By Jesus stripes we were healed. Thank you Father for our healing and deliverance. In Jesus name, we ask and thank you,

Amen

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My People Perish For Lack of Knowledge


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My People Perish for Lack of Knowledge.
A Journey of Spiritual Recovery and Revelation

It’s been quite a roller coaster ride being in the throes of my intense healing regimen as well as looking on helplessly as friends and loved ones struggle for their lives in hospitals and at home. Since my last blog, a friend lost her battle with cancer and another friend survived a brain-tumor surgery leading to his losing his faculties and lying in a pitch-black room with his covers completely shrouding him! My father has been transferred to yet another hospital. His doctors are still at a loss on how to stabilize his high blood pressure which would often suddenly elevate for no reason. At present. he is clinging to his life regarding a clot in his leg. Yesterday, another dear spiritual sister called me from the hospital suffering with an unknown malady.

I wake up each morning and say my special healing prayer with assurance that God hears my declaration of faith! But I’m heart-broken that so many of my Christian friends and family members are enduring great struggles with health and healing. I keep asking Father God for answers and I keep hearing the same refrain… “My people perish for lack of knowledge!

Thinking about all these sickness and the diminished of their quality of lives, I determine to seek wisdom and understanding. I’ve never been one to just accept adverse circumstances, especially when they deal with the break-down of our bodies. Christ remind us that surely we will have trials and afflictions, but He has given us the covenant of healing and restoration. It is His perfect will to be in good health. 3rd John 1& 2

I continue to chronicle and meditate on my spiritual and physical progress. As I research the Bible and medical sites, I continue to seek Holy Spirit’s guidance. I notice one thing in common with all my friends and loved ones when a doctor diagnoses their condition. Most of them implicitly trust in whatever the doctor prescribes, however risky or life-threatening. Now I must reiterate the problem here is not just succumbing to a serious illness, but most of these people made no effort previously to prevent the disease coming on in the first place!

Sadly, my loved ones and friends acquiesced to orthodox medicine’s way of treating disease…with drugs. I refuse to go that route, preferring to allow God’s healing to restore me. Upon seeking Him whole-heartedly, because I know He knows best, I’m gaining more understanding each day. He has been faithful because I have surrendered to His wisdom. It has been a very difficult feat to unravel the mystery of my past emotional traumas and sins meshing with the environmental constituent. Holy Spirit reminds me that body, soul and spirit are all connected. The medical community sorely lacks the understanding of this truth and millions of people are dying. Millions of people have also gotten worse because of prescription drugs. Don’t take my word for it, do your own research.

As I continue to forge forward dissecting truth from the confusing maze of information and spiritual understanding. I pray that you too will uncover the error and wrong mindsets that brought you to this place of physical and emotional breakdown in the first place! Your path and choices may be very different from mine, but I pray that the books, links and materials I share in
The number one area of healing should be to ask God first. Pray and seek Him as never before. He loves you and His Bible has all the answers you need. There are also great Bible teachers who teach the perfect way of Healing through scripture verses. They are your spiritual medicine and must be declared several times a day.

Pray and ask God about medicines the doctor prescribes. I came upon the scripture verses in Gal., 5 19-21. In almost every case, pharmaceuticals are not the best choice for healing. Some may help a serious condition, but after that, other options should be investigated. The following links are very helpful regarding what the Bible has to say about healing.

http://www.victorysdachurch.org/4-01-06ChristianModMed.doc

Another outstanding and Biblically sound link:
http://heavenshelpers.org/?id=133

http://www.truthmagazine.com/archives/volume15/TM015091.html

I want to stress the most important aspect of this blog…your thinking! Your mind is the key element to your restoration. The Bible says:

“For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind”.2 Tim 1:7

The NLT (New Living Translation) translate a sound mind KJV as self-discipline.

Walking in divine health certainly does entail discipline. Daniel and his 3 friends declined eating the fine food and wine at the king’s table and asked to subsist on vegetables and water. Their pure dietary regimen which affected their health proved to the king their wisdom and discipline was beneficial to His service. God allow his people to use their free will.

You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is good for you. You say, “I am allowed to do anything”–but not everything is beneficial. 1 Cor 10:23 NLT (New Living Translation)

That included choosing what to put in their temples! Many of God’s precious people suffer from illness and die because they refuse to discipline themselves in good nutrition! That is truth and that is fact. We reap what we sow. I am thankful that because of my desire to please my Heavenly Father in all ways, I sought to discipline myself by eating organic, becoming vegetarian, drinking pure water and exercising

Henry W. Wright’s book, “A More Excellent Way to Be in Health, has been an astounding treasure chest of spiritual healing information I have ever read! Henry delves into deepest recesses of our minds, bodies and spirit’s. Here is where I discovered the reference of my emotional mind-sets and how they influenced my health and immune system capability! I discovered that my mind was very sick because of how my mother raised me, how I responded to trauma and how doors were opened for evil spirits to gradually wear me down! Fear is one of the most powerful emotions and invite a host of other damaging perspectives and behaviors.Henry also explains how some people inherit negative behaviors and mind-sets from their parents and ancestors. The only way to realign healthy perspectives and thought patterns is to permeate the mind with the powerful Biblical scriptures. This is how God’s people overcome sickness, disease and death…through a regenerated mind!

Dr Caroline Leaf, Communication Pathologist, who holds a doctorate in Speech and Communication pathology proves that destructive thoughts can cause damage to the dendrites in our brain! Her page, Though Life show how powerful our brains are and what we can accomplish when we choose to think positively!

http://drleaf.com/thought_life.php

I’ve also broken some ground through the powerful and anointed ministry resources from Derek Prince ministries. The late Derek Prince, is a highly anointed and compassionate man of God whose demeanor is always straightforward, yet gentle. Because of his ministry, I’m coming to grips with many unconscious traumas from my past that have kept me from walking in all of God’s fullness. Many Christians seem not to struggle with ancestral curses or strongholds, but there are indeed many hapless and innocent children of God who have been enslaved by the sins and transgressions of their parents and grandparents.

Derek’s booklet “Pulling Down Strongholds” is an excellent resource as well as his DVD teaching, “How to be Delivered”. You’ll be very surprised to know that even evangelical, born-again people of God can be demonized, (oppressed) although they cannot be possessed by demons. I highly recommend these materials for anyone who is desperate to heal from an abusive past.
http://www.derekprince.org/Store/Products/1000058198/DPM_Store/Spiritual_Warfare/Spiritual_Conflict_Warfare/Pulling_Down_Strongholds.aspx

One of the best books on Divine healing, “Healing the Sick” by T.L. Osborne is resplendent with uplifting scriptures, testimonies and Bible truths for the sick or dying.

If you have given up on traditional ways of healing, I guarantee your hope will be rekindled when you surrender your life to the Lord! These resources I’ve shared have so enlightened me regarding the issue of healing. Each day, presents itself with renewed hope as the Holy Spirit remove all my past heartaches, old negative thought patterns and traumatic incidents that scarred me for so long. Discipline yourself to start a new regimen, starting with prayer, praise and quiet time with the Lord. Stay focused. You have to remind yourself, you are forming a new positive, Christ lifestyle. The Holy Spirit will give you new revelation and you find yourself invigorated as His word recharges your drained spiritual batteries!

I have only love, compassion and great excitement for your new life in Christ through His divine healing pattern. I must admit also, that pursuing a music career used to be my focus, but Father God allowed the breakdown of my health to seek Him with all my heart!

I’ve been drawn to the book of Proverbs, one of my favorite books and chock full of ageless wisdom. But Jer. 6:16 fits in with many of the Proverbs

“Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the
good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls.

God tell us, “My ways are not your ways and your thought not my thoughts.” Nothing we could do, think or say could compare with God’s magnitude of wisdom and understanding. The wonderful thing about our heavenly Father is that He is eager and willing to share all of His knowledge and guidance…if we ask Him first!

5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. James 1:5 NIV

If a child of God wants to be successful, he must make it a practice to ask God first…about everything. The ancient, (Hebrew translation is must seek for the ancient paths ( the original translation of ancient is “heavenly.” So then, everything about God and what he wants to give us is divine…from above. As we allow Christ to transform our minds into His mind,we unlearn the old, futile and negative ways from the world, our parents upbringing and our own ideas. How urgent then it is for parents and teachers to guide children in the ways of God so they can prosper!

As you heal, remember to thank Him…even if it hurts.

It’s kind of funny, that having had a very successful tenure as a teacher of youth at Youth Advocate Program, Eatontown, NJ and behavior modification counselor at Nutri-System weight-loss centers, I am presently apprenticing under the Lord. I’m starting over and re-learning God’s pattern of life, health and success!

I hope to obey God’s word to be tender-hearted and nurture you all in wisdom and love. Many of you have been deeply wounded and have no idea how to break out of your old prison May of you have poor or no information. Many of you have had harsh parents, teachers, pastors, priests or rabbis who led you down the wrong path…of legalistic religion.

I hope to remind teachers to be very careful in our ministry to the fragile souls, (and even with ourselves) as we address deep unconscious areas that need God’s special healing!

We are to be tender-hearted (1 Peter 3:8, 1 Tim 5:1, Eph 4:32) to all. We are called to tell the truth in love.. Oh, how we need good, anointed teaching and good nurturing. Choose carefully who you will learn under. Most of what I’ve learned the hard way is by making my own mistakes The areas of dating/courting, nutrition, health-medicine are sorely lacking.

Know that to be blessed with knowledge and understanding is to be like searching for hidden treasure. Prov. 2 3&4

Derek Prince mentioned in his book that God’s people need to learn to think. That is the mistake most of us make when we become Christians. We seem to lose the ability to think for ourselves when we get under a pastor. That is why it is so important to study God’s word under the guidance of the Holy Spirit and to ask God to learn and grow under a loving and wise pastor! We have to learn to get deep and ask God for the very specifics.

Father I ask for your divine wisdom today for the reader of this post. I declare a divine connection between them and You, Lord. Open up the well springs of your wisdom and knowledge so they can declare your works and majesty. Holy Spirit, guide and enlighten them with all truth. Cleanse every area of their minds and help them to walk in the path of Divine healing starting now. In Jesus’ name, I thank you and pray. Amen!

WAGING the War…and WINNING it!


Journal Entry, March 30, 2011

Lance Armstrong riveted the world with his compelling journey battling and conquering cancer. Despite his devastating and dismal prognosis of testicular Cancer that spread to his brain and lungs, he managed to accomplish astounding endeavors, including winning the Tour De France from 1995 to 2005 and is the founder and chairman of the Lance Armstrong for Cancer research and support. This amazing and determined  man refused to accept Cancer’s “death” certificate.

CANCER thrusts the strongest man to his knees, the most tender and  dedicated wife and mother to the  most influential public servant. Cancer prejudices no one. We hear of battles fought across the oceans in wore-torn third world countries with tangible and energy-powered. weapons: Uzi’s, machine guns, missiles and rifles. But the most devastating foe rages within our own body.

When we hear of a friend or loved ones diagnosis, Cancer or any terminal illness, we are shaken to the core. We watch the daily struggle as body functions diminish and the body wastes away through chemo and radiation. We marvel at the courage of Cancer victims as they somehow survive their treatments and yet all around the world, there are so many others who also struggle against an unseen foe within their bodies.

Many struggle with familiar conditions such as Parkinson’s and Bells Palsy, but a new group of related “movement” disorders such as Dystonia, PSP are increasing with intensity. Not to diminish the seriousness of cancer, imagine the devastation of a condition where the body, jerks, spasms and violently thrusts your head forward, backwards and sideways? Imagine the exhaustion and expenditure of energy from such a condition where there is NO cure and doctors have no diagnostic tools to pinpoint the cause of this bizarre disorder than comes out of no where!

The neurological.system is like the netherworld of the deepest ocean. Most of it is unseen and still very little is known about it’s complex structure. This mysterious infrastructure encompasses ALL the major glands and organs of the body and even the brain.

When properly and accurately treated, Cancer survivors retain an active and productive lifestyle. Lance Armstrong is an icon for miraculously overcoming a deadly foe. I have yet to hear of recovery testimonies of movement disorder victims. From what I’ve seen, most get worse and some are completely disabled. We are looked upon as freaks when entering a social situation as we twitch and jerk our way through a conversation. Many of us eschew even going out in public so people don’t stare at us. It can be an uncomfortable or frightening thing to have a close encounter with a Parkinson’s or Dystonia victim.

I remember waking up one morning and going down to the kitchen of the home of an elderly gentleman who had Parkinson’s Disease. I stared in horror upon entering the kitchen doorway at a counter covered with Cheerios, bowls, cups and spoons. Milk and sugar made a sticky mess all over the cabinet doors and floor! I ran upstairs to Alex’s room and asked him what was going on. Then he explained to me what Parkinson’s Disease was .

“I shake so violently, everything falls. Ii can’t even pour milk into my cereal, everything splashes all over the place.

I was shocked that a condition could do that to a person. It was my first experience with a movement disorder. I asked him, “How can you live with this?”

I will never forget that day and now I’m waging a battle with a similar condition, young and vibrant as I am.

Yet, something in me bubbles like an effervescent geyser. I have something Alex didn’t possess, an undeniable power and strength that impassioned me to shine brighter than the sun and soar higher than any eagle! Like Lance Armstrong, I purpose in my heart, not to be vanquished by the assaults of my foe, but to scrutinize and study my opponent’s weakness so I can victor over him!

Amidst stressful driving through congested highway to doctors and practitioner appointments, through the daily, uncomfortably incessant vise-like invisible grip on my upper neck and spasmming jaw joins, through the myriad household chores and wifely responsibilities and through the endless required health/nutrition/exercise  routines and regimens, I groan with the effort of juggling them all. I stimulate my passion to regain complete recovery by the hope that is in God only.

What is it that sets passionate health and humanitarian advocates in motion and victory apart from those who die or became totally disabled? We refuse to acquiesce to the victim status. We have been given too much to give up. Christ Himself gave ALL of Himself, so knowing this, there is no going back. I move forward with determination, like a triathlon runner who has engaged in rigorous discipline to achieve his goal!

There are unsung local heroes all around us. Theo Vrahnos, one of my dear friends, wages his battle against Wilson’s Disease, a condition where coppers builds up in the body and causes almost irreparably damage to the neurological system. This beautiful young man refuses to allow this condition to stop him from living a social and normal life. I wrote a power  ballad  “Nobody Sees” about him. Every time I sing it in public, I remember signing to Theo while he was bedridden and now is married and a father.

Dystonia has made me a more compassionate person, concerned in bringing a hurting someone more comfort and acceptance. It has stretched me to be more tolerant of difficulties and challenges. It has pushed my mind’s endurance to it’s greatest heights as I focus on emotional, spiritual and creative strategies not only for myself, but for anyone struggling a disabling condition. Dystonia will NOT imprison me, in fact, it will usher me to even deeper spiritual realms than I’ve even imagined. I’m about to explore new frontiers in the medical and natural healing areas. I believe that God Himself is drawing me to Himself to find answers that secular minded experts refuse to ponder or accept.

God reveals great mysteries to those who search…like curious and hungry little children. No new knowledge will be given to those who think they know it all. So…here I am, Lord. Teach me more!