Dystonia, Tourette’s Syndrome & “Movement” Disorders and the TMJ Connection


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After  watching so many You  Tube videos of precious people suffering from  Tourette’s Syndrome, Dystonia and other movement disorders, I’ve decided to  include  “Movement” Disorders advocacy and information to my other health categories. Since suffering from TMJ-Dystonia for ten brutal years, I can no longer allow this  mysterious, vicious and often disabling neurological condition to disrupt and hinder my life. I vow to also  share valuable information, treatments and excellent doctors with everyone.

I cannot help but grieve for the enormity of  suffering and loss of quality of life, my movement disorder brethren suffer each day. Many of us  abide in prisons of extreme pain-discomfort,  embarrassment, isolation, depression and at time we grapple with losing  hope of ever  having a normal life. We avoid going out in public because people do not understand why our movements and loud voices have to be so disruptive.Some of our postures are downright bizarre and our movements erratic. Some of us spew profanities and we are often housebound

 Drugs often do little to give us relief or diminish the intensity of our uncontrollable movements, though most choose to use drugs in the hope that any day they will get better. My decision to discontinue prescribed pain-killers and pharmaceuticals ended a month after my first diagnosis. The muscle relaxers did nothing but make me spacey, apathetic and  drowsy. I finished my bottle and that was the end of it. Since then, my husband and i have chased many rabbit holes to find the root cause o my mouth-jaw spasms. Some of you may be asking. “Why not Botox or Deep Brain Stimulation surgery”? I am an ordained minister- prayer intercessor and Psalmist-Composer-Singer.  To create, produce music and  compose expositors, I must have a very lucid mind unhindered by any drugs.

 

It took almost nine years  researching the web, to find someone who could accurately address my  spasming mouth-jaws. I saw several You Tube videos from renowned  TMJ Specialist, Dr Jeffrey Brown, TMJ-Sleep Apnea center in Falls Church,  When I showed my husband, Mark, Dr. Browns and Dr Stacks, treatments he balked. It would be a burdensome expense. But the jaw misalignment had gotten to the point where it affected my sleep, my ability to even focus clearly on my creative productivity and even taking care of my house. I was in constant pain and the jerking, clenching-unclenching of my mouth was beyond anything I could endure..  Were it not for my strong relationship with Christ, I would have succumbed to  nervous breakdown!

 

Ir was getting harder and harder to endure the incredible pain in my now left jaw also  One day, my mouth was forcing itself to open so wide, the stress on my jaw joint was staggering to the point, I would pass out. I sobbed in and told Mark, I had to make an appointment with Dr brown. I was willing to travel any distance and though it would be a very costly investment, I was one I could not afford to invest in!

I watched more of Dr brown and Dr Stack’s You-Tube videos and was astounded at how successfully, the Tourette’s and TMJ Dystonia people responded. Indeed, their was something about that special mouth appliance that helped to re-align the jaw joints and helped to  decompress pressure on the facial and neck nerves.

So, Mark and i finally made the 3 hour drive to Falls Church. Dr Brown was kind enough to schedule my appointment,  the fitting of my mouth piece and its delivery all into one day, other wise we would have to go home to New Jersey and come back the very next day, which would have been too much for Mark since he was driving. I was so relieved that I could get relief from the bone on bone pain each day and the prevention of much bone spurs..

I continued my own  researching lower facial-jaw anatomy and how the jaw joint misalignment causes other issues, such as lose of cartilage. I found health websites that said that bone broth and gelatin helps. to rebuild cartilage. Dr Brown also told me to eliminate all dairy because it contributed to calcium loss! Now i understood how high calcium intakes caused by bones to lose calcium. I was very disappointed about my new diet wouldn’t include my former favorite cheeses and my twice weekly warm milk to get me to sleep before bed. My appetite was already poor because of being stressed and depressed about my jaw pain. It would be a new challenge to embrace a dairy-free diet and also get enough protein. Time for us also to not take serious our government guidelines lied to us and said dairy was bone-strengthening.’s nutritional guidelines.

It’s been around three months wearing this mouth appliance. I continue o declare my healing prayers each day and keep a positive outlook and attitude, knowing that nothing is impossible with God. He is more than able to completely  recreate new articular jaw joints,  cartilage and ligaments. I found several women on You Tube who received miraculous miracles of healing from God!  Without hearing these testimonies, I’m sure I would be in a deep depression.

Bridgette healed of TMJ!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJWnaPpzu7A

 

Minister Becky Dvorak also has an anointed healing ministry and she explains how a child of God can receive their healing.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJWnaPpzu7A

 

The next two videos show two y6oung men, patients of Dr Stack and TMJ Sleep Apnea Center, of which Dr Jeffrey Brown has now taken over. The TMJ-Dystonia symptoms I suffer from are very similar to  except I don’t have the vocal tics and grunting.  It’s hard to imagine these young guys dealing with these violent spasms all day.

The uncontrollable movements not only affect me socially but socially as well. I’ve denied many invitation from my husband to get out of the house and enjoy the beautiful, warm day at the flea market,  I just didn’t care to deal with the embarrassment of people staring at me while making ugly facial grimaces.

The two young men have had several successful adjustments with Dr Stack and have their lives back. There are many on the Facebook Dystonia groups who would greatly benefit from Dr Brown’s expertise in addressing jaw and facial misalignment.  This next link will take you inside the jaw misalignment connect as Dr Jeffrey gives us a lesson on  TMJ jaw joint anatomy.

http://sleepandtmjtherapy.com/2018/01/case-condylar-catastrophe/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q0ixYKlwrNQ

 

As I continue aspiring to minister and serve victims of domestic violence, troubled youth and the elderly as well as successfully marketing  my color photo-journaling books, beaded jewelry, fashions  and  Christ-help books, I make every effort to share what I’ve learned and recommend the amazing services of Dr Jeffrey Brown.  This man has been compassionate and cares about his patients. Unlike other doctors and specialist who treat  all their patients alike and with little special  attention, Dr Brown, tailors His  treatments  for each unique patient. TMJ Dystonia sufferers from all over the United States and some even travel from out of the country for his treatment.

Dr Jeffrey Brown

Sleep & TMJ Therapy
2841 Hartland Road Suite 301
Falls Church, VA 22043   703-821-1103-

 

I hope after reading this blog and watchi8ng the videos, you will seriously consider your next step and journey into healing and getting your life back. I have the added blessing of calling out to my Heavenly Father, Jehovah, Rappha, my Healer and His precious son, Jesus Christ, Yahusha, who took our sicknesses and infirmities upon His own back, so that we can experience healing and restoration. I offer you the invitation today to accept Christ as your Savior and call upon Him to heal your disease-condition. Call upon His name and in the meantime, if you’re still suffering, God uses Dr Brown to help people today!

God Bless you and Shalom..on your healing journey.

FELLING the GIANT, Lyme Disease


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Lyme Disease is a killer, of mind body and spirit. It is insidious and deadly, almost unconquerable. I’ve met many precious folks on Facebook’s  Christian Lyme Disease group and am astounded at the suffering and hopelessness.  As a journalist, I feel obligated to help my brethren in their journey to wellness and victory.

I have learned so much since being diagnosed in 1992, right in the middle of my  musical journey with my boyfriend-lead guitarist, Chris, (who also was diagnosed  4 years after me).  God blessed us with an anointed calling to share the Gospel through our unique brand of Gospel hard rock, folk-rock, blues and jazz. My heart was skipping beats, I became weak with dizziness and my mind was foggy. My life exploded at the doctor’s  diagnosis of Lyme Disease!  I was terrified and overwhelmed with the thought of having to drive myself from Seaside Park to Red bank, NJ where Rosephin intravenous anti-biotics would be administered for thirty-one days straight. I could not miss one day, or the Lyme would  become aggressive and overtake my immune system.

God got me through the devastating season, but  several months later, the symptoms returned, this time with a vengeance. I had to endure another bout of anti-biotic, this time Amoxicillin. I felt better for a brief couple of months, but then soon noticed I was feeling debilitated very easy. I caught everyone’s cold and my lungs were continually congested. Within several months, I was close to Bronchitis and Pneumonia  very often and one bout was so bad, I almost died. I had no medical insurance, but was blessed by  a donation from the executive director of the  Christian ministry organization I served with.  Carolyn insisted I go to the emergency walk-in clinic for an examination and treatment. The doctor who saw me was so alarmed that I waited so long to come in and that as far he he saw, if I’d waited another few days, I would have died!

After that frightful crisis, my health took a downward spiral and I could not work. I ended up having to  support myself as a live-in companion to an elderly gentleman. Thankfully, it turned out the gentleman became,  “Pop” and became like my adopted grandfather. He, even more than I, was very concerned about my fragile health. He insisted I  hook up with a specialist who could diagnose my latest condition. I happened to befriend  a neighbor who lived just across the street from us and  she recommended  I see her chiropractor who was very affordable. I saw him the following week and at the end of our appointment, he confirmed I had Candid.  he explined how the antibiotic treatments were responsible for upsetting the good bacteria and my body and I had a fungus proliferation. I’d never heard of this strange disease with the musical name, but accepted the  protocol.   Now I knew why I had such an insatiable craving for starches and breads. They were fueling my system. I was put on a  low sugar diet with intense ant-fungal supplements. It was the hardest  diet I’d ever been on. After a month, I was feeling better, but recovery was slow. It was hard to discipline myself to even take a short walk for exercise each day. Worse was having no treats, like the starches my body was addicted to.

The Candida-Lyme battle lasted about two years because the craving for soft bread and pasts was so intense. The lack of proper nutrition, the  brain fog and damage to my immune system made me almost clinically depressed. It was a miracle to take care of Pop, the house we lived in and pursuing my music projects. Amazingly, God kept me together  My neighbors, (the Christian couple who recommended the great chiropractor) invited me to their church. Now I had a church family to help me carry the load of my temporary  disability. Even though, my pastor and my fellow brethren didn’t understand my illness, my involvement in a church family reminded me to rely on my faith in the Lord. Part of being a committed child of God aspiring to maintain victory, no matter what, I vowed to  address the LYME-Candida episode as a temporary season which Father would bring me through. If I was ever to soar into my destiny, I had to make some serious changes in my attitude and ability. I had a great calling and many gifts o share with the body of Christ. We  must never accept this demonic health attack as permanent, otherwise, we will never be whole and healed! My season with this brutal disease, brought me to new levels of fitness, natural health and wisdom on how to care for my temple. .

Father God has given us everything we need for abundant health, but sadly His people,(millions of them) are bound by disease and-or mental illness. I’m grateful for the wellspring I have learned and am the better for it. Since He has granted me the victory of overcoming and soaring forward in my calling, (as a recording artist-song-writer, journalist, artist and soul-sculptor)  I feel obligated to impart my wisdom and expertise who are presently suffering from Lyme, (and other catastrophic illnesses).

I first urge you all to surrender your whole body and being to your Heavenly Father. This is the first and foremost step to your journey of healing. At times, it may be impossible because of extreme and incessant pain to focus, but try your best to remind yourself of His protection of your life. Begin each day in worship and devotion to your Heavenly Father who cares about you more than you can imagine. He didn’t give Lyme to you, satan did. That being said, here is my prayer

Abba Heavenly Father,  please lead my precious  brother or sister sister  into your green pasture of protection and provision. Holy Spirit, please let your healing waters flow from their belly. Lead them into all wisdom and revelation through applying your  promises to their lives and perspectives. Lead them to the  godly practitioners who have knowledge of your natural healing. Father,  Give them counselors who can help them address any generational or ancestral curses and sins (such as involvement in free-masonry,  Santeria, the occult-witchcraft)  as well as any roots of bitterness unforgiveness and anger. You call us to freedom and it is harder for some of us than others, but You will work out all things for our good if we humble ourselves under your hand. Thank You Father for your love, healing and mercy, in Jesus name, amen.

After committing ourselves to daily prayer and worship, there are three books, I highly recommend to extricate yourself from the  death mindset of serious illness, whether it be Lyme, Disease, Cancer, MS, Lupus, etc. Many diseases have a spiritual root. I never knew this from any churches I ever went to. This discovery was one of the most miraculous in  walking towards the first step of healing. It all started with the Bull’s Eye rash I never got!

1.http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/220376.A_More_Excellent_Way

Pastor Henry Wright is an amazing man of God with divine wisdom and insight into the roots of sickness

2. http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/754419.Healing_the_Sick

3. http://kynanbridges.com/media/index/all/0/334-Possessing-Your-Healing

This is one of my favorite books! It has powerful healing prayers and declarations to  speak each day! This one is a must have!

I also highly suggest deliverance counseling ministry. Disease is not always our fault, sometimes it came from our parents, grandparents or ancestors. Imagine my surprise when my deliverance counselors was given a word of knowledge, that I had a Santeria curse and Freemasonry in my family line! Children who had parents involved in Freemasonry have lung issues.

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I would not be alive today if it were for my passionate desire for  knowing my Heavenly Father, Jesus and being led by Holy Spirit..If you are not committed to worshiping and obeying Father’s commandments, you will not be free…to heal. Obeying His commandments is not just going to church, attending Bible studies or even saying prayers. It is intimate relationship! In intimacy with Father and Jesus. You will find peace even in the strum of sickness and suffering. The following list contains the essentials of healing and peace.Do not focus on the intensity of your storm or the unfairness of why you are suffering.  Of course we all ask these questions in the beginning, but try to move forward and face the reality. Father knows it all:)

  1. Begin your day with worship, Thanksgiving and communion with Your heavenly Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit. Keep anointed worship music ( not Christian pop) worship-praise music on. Demonic spirits cannot tolerate praise and worship. They’ll have a touch time harassing you when you are singing and praising the Lord! That atmosphere draws God’s mercy and love and makes it repugnant for depression and spirits of death.
  2.  Read all you can about how your immune systems work and the chief detoxifying organs the especially the gut, where the main action takes place. Garden of Life, Primal Defense pro-biotic is an outstanding.
  3.  I was a victim or child abuse and domestic violence, (as an adult). Any long term emotional and/or physical trauma will deplete the Adrenal glands and Thyroid. You may want to get testing for this. I take a high quality Adrenal and Thyroid supplement. Make sure you  get your doctors approval for  supplements.
  4.  My lungs have suffered many assaults over the years from allergies, (hay fever, dust and mold) so I was prone to Bronchitis. I now take Clear Lungs from Ridgecrest
  5. With the many drugs and different antibiotics, the liver and detoxifying organs incur much damage. Milk Thistle has been a godsend for me. I also take raw cilantro and parsley which are very good for the cleansing of the body.
  6. Mercury poisoning seems to accompany many Lyme Victims, I’ve discovered Alpha Lipoic  Acid and Glutiathione are detoxifiers.
  7.  The immune system does not recover well from any type of stress or environmental toxins, pesticides and chemicals.  Lypo-Spheric Vitamins C amazingly strengthens my system when I’m taxed.
  8.  A wonderful tincture for Lyme is Una de Gato by NutriCology.
  9.  Other anti-oxidants are E,  A, B complex
  10.  There are many other God-given natural supplements and  natural modalities
  11.  Get informed and acquainted with world class, Christian practitioners who are experts in natural healing. Many of these have successful programs on Christian TV and internet. Here are some of my favorites. I urge you to GOOGLE, go to the Library in research an/or buy books dealing with your different symptoms, (condition)  a. Doug Kaufman, Know the Cause (The fungus Link) .http://www.knowthecause.com/index.php/get-started/about-doug-kaufmann
  12.  Doctor Mercola, an outstanding  natural doctor, http://www.mercola.com/
  13.   I first learned about Candida and fungus from reading Dr’ William Crook’s book,   http://www.yeastconnection.com/about_story.html
  14. Rest and good sleep are essential for the body to restore itself. Don’t forget the importance of calcium and magnesium. My favorite sleep enhancer is CALM.  I get it from Vitamin Shoppe and they have their own, cheaper brand.. Take twice a day. Calm soothes the nerves and it is good for restlessness  http://www.vitaminshoppe.com/p/natural-vitality-natural-calm-rasp-lemon-16-oz-powder/n3-1006#.V-2bGvSsu1s
  15.  Camomile tea and other calming teas are great taken twice a day.
  16.   Zeolites are microporous, aluminosilicate minerals commonly used as commercial adsorbents and catalysts. I occasionally use it for mercury, myco-toxins and for my liver and kidneys.              http://zeolitehealthylife.com/zeolitebenefits/zeolitebenefits.html
  17.  bentonite clay is another excellent detoxifying  substance. http://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1718897

SILENCING the SONGBIRD


angel in  copper silk gown1“Lord, help me get through this. Help me, please” I kept saying as my jaw and mouth started to throb and convulse. I boldly accepted my pastor’s invitation to perform at the Jackson Baptist glory Celebration, a musical worship concert of local worship leaders and teams. A week ago, I emailed Pastor Sandra that I’d be performing His Eye is on the Sparrow and It is Well, two of my favorites that I sang to the residents of my area nursing home and the local physical rehabilitation centers. Those two songs were staples because they were a reminder of God’s promise to me that He was with me even in the valley. I had to play these two songs on my guitar almost everyday, just to remind myself that indeed, despite the incessant, tormenting pulling in my neck, the jerking of my arms and the rapid opening and closing of my mouth, one day, I would be released. It took every ounce of focus to do anything of substance. During this TMJ-Dystonia tenure, I’d programmed myself to call upon the Lord to strengthen me.. Steadfast confidence and reliance on Him was always the reward. That was who Father was,…always gracious in answering my prayer to give my best to my performances.

As more people entered the church, I could feel the excitement, which propelled me even more to be in close communion with Father. My husband Mark, saw I was in distress and massaged my neck. A girlfriend showed up, excited and encouraging and also gave me a neck massage.
People were filling into the well-lit church while the musicians and singers waited on the platform for the sound engineer to tweak their sound. My turn came and I adjusted the microphone. An older guitarist gentleman told me I could plug my guitar to his box which was a blessing so I didn’t have to set up all my effects pedals. Then I took a back seat near the edge of the church so people wouldn’t see my mouth contort. I hunched over in my seat, trying to take deep breaths to control the violent pulling and spasming in my neck. I felt an anxiety rise up, which always happened when the muscles got inflamed from the continua movement of my jaw. I continued to pray and stay alert .It was getting harder and harder to stay comfortable and I had to fight the impulse to run to the car and lay on my back for relief.

Finally, the concert started with a vivacious acapella trio. I was third in line. Then my Pastor approached the stage and introduced herself and me. I scurried up to the platform, nonchalant about my nondescript and unglamourous appearance. I’d long ago discarded my adherence to looking beautiful and well-coifed because it took so much energy to get through each hour. It had come to the point where it took an enormous amount of focus to do basic chores, my exercise routine, my daily voice scales and guitar practice. My only concern now, was to focus  on my performance-ministering in God’s anointing. To people enduring catastrophic illness, outward, perfect beauty is the last concern. Our symptoms wear us out to the point that we can’t be concerned that our make-up is perfect. Anyway, my lipstick and mascara always smeared or wore off halfway into any activity. My face always ended up leaning on my hands as I tried to position my head and neck in a comfortable way. Such is dealing with an upper cervical-spinal issue. I felt peaceful as I faced the audience.
“I’m so blessed and thankful to be here tonight despite having a very difficult almost nine years struggling with Dystina-TMJ, a neurological disorder similar to Parkinson. I’m so glad to be here to encourage any of you who are stiffening with any kind of illness. No matter who you are, God cares about what you are going through. Indeed, His eye is on the sparrow and as He is attentive to a tiny sparrow falling to the ground, so much more so are you precious in His sight”

The strains of my guitar and voice filled the church and I felt at ease, hardly aware of any muscles neck spasms. It was amazing how relaxed I now felt,compared to the preceding hour of anguish in my neck. I knew it was all Him! At the end of His Eye Is on the Sparrow, I paused for a second.  My eyes swept across the people’s faces as they sat spell bound watching me and listening to my every word. My face softened and I said, “It is well. It is Well.”
I then felt a surge of strength and stated, “You know, no weapon formed against you shall proper and Satan is under your feet. Get a hold of that and decide to walk powerfully in God’s strength. The devil is under your feet!”

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The audience grabbed a hold of that one and I preceded to sing It is well. I was joyful to hear one of the drummers accompanying me and my performance came alive with God’s hope and victory for everyone who’d choose to believe that all is well because of Christ’s victory on the cross!

By the third verse, everyone was standing and joined in through the end of the song! The chorus…It is well, with my soul reverberated with the layered harmonies of many voices. It was a transcendent moment for me! Father God punctuated His daughter’s glorifying music performance with His healing presence.

As I left the stage with the applause still lingering, the wicked spasms came back with a vengeance and I told Mark and my friend I had to lay down. I rushed to our HHR car and rested, immediately feeling less pressure in my neck. After about a half an hour, I decided to go back in, in case there was anyone who wanted to talk with me or have prayer. I was immediately approaches by several people One tall lady in particular, grabbed my hand.

“Hello sister and what can I pray with you for?”I asked.

“I was so blessed…so blessed by your songs. ” She gushed with tear-filled eyes. ” I have Lupus and have been very depressed for a long time.” She went on to share a little of her story and then a pastor joined me as I prepared to pray over the sister. Quite a few more people approached me to hug me and shake my hand and then I felt weak with the excitement and challenge of the night. I retreated back to the car to rest.

As I meditate and chronicle this pivotal evening of my life, I ponder the mystery of my battle-journey.  This TMJ-Dystonia condition has affected me in so many ways, some bad, but mostly good. Anyone diagnosed with a chronic illness will first ask, “Why me, God?” Then they will become angry at the injustice of it all and then resign themselves, either to resentment-bitterness or they decide that they will fight back and make the best of it! I have chosen to be the victorer and make the best of this daunting trial and trust that father will get all the glory from it!l

My encouragement to anyone enduring a daily or terminal illness is to weight your thoughts, dreams, standards and hopes by God’s word and His living presence. The Bible doesn’t answer all the the Jobian mysteries of a catastrophic health condition. For me it’s been groping my way through a dark maze and then leaving the “out” door onto a terrain riddled with land mines. Failure and death lurks beside every mine and one wrong step could propel you into the cemetery of resignation. I’ve often asked myself why I forge forward in my research, knowledge of Biblical healing and preventative medicine, (natural healing) when I’m daily almost overwhelmed with these devastating muscle-neurological and bio-chemical abnormalities.

I’ve learned from Dr Caroline Leaf (brain scientist) about the utter complexity of how the brain and the nuero-transmitters react to stress and trauma. From her research I’ve gleaned amazing insight on the importance of learning, meditating and relying on God’s divine and superior knowledge. After all, He did create and fashion our bodies in the most unfathomable ways ways!

Coming from a background of extreme abuse (bullying and domestic violence) and suffering much rejection because of generational sins, and then being redeemed  and transformed by Christ’s Yashuha’s love and freedom, reminds me  of my vow to the evil powers that be, that I will never again live in bondage. Though these devastating symptoms threaten me each day to hold me captive, I’ve relied on God’s Holy Spirit to empower me with His all-abiding strength, resilience and the possibility of total healing-restoration! Who else can promise that? Neither doctors, nor the toxic drugs they push can promise the prefect healing of our physician, Christ the messiah whose very stripes enabled us to walk in restoration!

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I, for one, need nothing else, but Him. The irony of my health journey has been that my enemy has tried to silence me by afflicting the very tools of my ministry. A worship leader-psalmist-speaker’s mouth and voice are the instruments with which she/he expounds God’s healing words, promises and anointed presence. Only in God’s presence is healing, so my enemy has chosen to viciously attack me, ( in my neck, vocal chords, throat and jaw) so that he can shut me down and shut off God’s healing works through me!

Ten years ago, somewhat vivacious and passionately aspired to get signed and go on tour, I never would have imagined to join the ranks of the “disabled” population.  Any pride or self-reliance I had is now completely extinguished and I’ve been brought to the place of humble submission…total reliance on Him alone!. This is Father’s refining process for me. I’m on his potters’ wheel and He is shaping me to what he wishes me to be. (Now, I can’t say that I’m always still and yielding) but mostly, I trust that He knows what He is doing.

He is using a chosen instrument, not of my parents ilk. None of my parents were musicians, nether were any composers or played instruments! It has been a testimony for God to teach me how to play guitar and compose the beautiful Psalms he has given me. It will be seven years since beginning the recording of my album MOD PROPHET and then my worship CD,  The Anointing, His Presence. They are nearing completion, getting more polished and glorious with each song. I will not stop and neither shall my enemy stop my mouth from praising Him and teaching the world of His great promises and Love.

The songbird will sing!

 

HEALING IS the CHILDREN’S BREAD


 Do you remember the poignant story in Mat 21 15-28 of the Canaanite women who approached Jesus in desperation because her precious little daughter suffered demon-possession. Even in her utter grief, Jesus said not a word but  and his disciples urged him to send her away.

Then Jesus turned to her and said,  “I was sent only to the lost sheep of Israel.” She was not to be ignored and knelt beside him. “Lord, help me!”His answer was “it is not right to take the children’s bread and toss it to the dogs.”

Instead of retorting in resentment or offense, she  answered, “yes, lord But even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from the  their master’s table.”

Jesus was so moved by her audacity that he immediately healed her daughter. She had a bulldog faith that would not let go!

Friend, are you still suffering today with a painful and/or chronic condition even after years of prayer liners, prayer clothes and meditating on your healing scriptures? Could you be missing something or doing something wrong? Could there be some blockage that is keeping you from your miraculous healing? I pray my latest  article on healing will help you uncover any ground you’ve not explored before.

(Unearthing, Addressing and Dismantling  Generational Curses and Iniquities)

Today, let us ask Father Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus to explore the deeper spiritual waters in hopes of toppling the barriers to our healing and wholeness. I hope by sharing transparently, the the mystery of my own bondage and sufferings from uncancelled generational curses  that you also may gain deliverance and freedom. Knowledge is victory.

I was ordained as a minister in 2013 by Pastor-evangelists, Leo and and Edith Fram.  I’ve passionately and consistently been serving my precious Lord Yashuah HaMashiach since 1982 under the authority of a Pentecostal hell-fire and brimstone pastor. I was born to a Puerto-Rican Catholic father who was stationed in German and where he married my beautiful, blonde-haired, green-eyed mother.

In the seventh grade, I suffered a traumatic  event which led to a six year tenure of bullying by 3 black girls, who were under demonic influence. From then on, I suffered shame about my birth heritage. Soon after, my sisters and I suffered childhood abuse and neglect because of my mom’s scorn of my dark-skinned father, (and other buried traumas she endured as a girl in Germany). Dad was also almost driven insane by mom’s fits of rage and antics. Supporting us became so challenged that he decided that foster care would be best for my two younger sisters.. One day, my mom lost her grip with reality, called the cops on me and I was ordered to leave. I was also placed in foster care in my senior year of high school. My life fell apart.

My adult life, feeling orphaned by my parents and supporting myself became overwhelming. I became deeply depressed and bulemic because of shame issues. A few years later in April 1982, a “religious” friend invited me to his church where I accepted Jesus as my Lord and savior. I never realized that this was just the beginning of a very long tenure of spiritual battles and health attacks that would be helped by deliverance. It took many years to correctly use the keys Jesus had given me to wholeness & freedom. WHY? Because I had many generational curses and family iniquities that blocked my blessings and wholeness. I had no idea satan still had access to me through these buried generational curses. This is the missing key many Children of God are ignorant of.

After decades of suffering various and recurring health issues, (particularly hay fever, allergies and bronchitis, my younger sister almost died several times from Asthma attacks!) I found out lung ailments were associated with “FREEMASONRY”I had no idea there was any such thing, but it was discovered during a deliverance session that I had Freemasonry in my family line. ( my grandfather in Germany had a hidden life with this secret society group! In another deliverance session, it was found a SANTERIA curse harassing me, (my father was born & raised in Puerto-Rico and by a devout Catholic mother).

Friends, it is hard for me to imagine that as a  committed servant of Jehovah and Yashuah Jesus that I’d be suffering so much. I had a strong calling as  a worship leader and teacher. (Holy Spirit taught me how to compose and write songs on the guitar). I’ve also experienced God using me greatly in the ministering to the sick and dying in hospitals and nursing homes and have been called to preach at funerals. I’ve also counseled, challenged youth as well as professional adults as a behavior counsel our at Nutri-System Weight Loss centers.

I want to tell you all, that when we come to Christ from a family riddled with curses and generational iniquities, everything does not just disappear with the declaring of the salvation prayer. The Bible says we work out our salvation with reverence and trembling…thus it is a process. Phil 2:12 For me it’s been a staggeringly exhausting and arduous process. Imagine being so talented in music, the arts, journalism & being plagued for almost 9 years with a tormenting “movement” suborder, DYSTONIA of the mouth! My mouth, throat and tongue are the tools God uses to lead people into His presence as a worship leader. Imagine being in excruciating pain every waking minute because I refuse to use pain killers which would damage my organs or cloud my mind. (To get through each hour, I discipline myself to declare that I have the MIND of Christ).. After  having countless doctors, chiropractors and neurologists examine me and then being  told there is NO cure …Christ must be my sufficiency, or I will just have a nervous breakdown and give up the fight!

Imagine the shame & frustration of having uncontrollable mouth movements making ugly facial grimaces and feeling the sensation of being choked and can barely breath. Dozens of times, I’ve had to call in prayer lines and also had countless ministers of healing lay hands on me. Countless hours I’ve spent in researching the causes of this TMJ jaw DYSTONIA and am no nearer to relief than 8 years ago. I realize there must be mysterious issues and powers that be here at work. I cry daily   to my Father for strength and refuse to give up my right be be whole. The barrier must be found…and torn down by the blood of Yashuah…and so the mystery tour continues.

If you are in similiar treacherous waters as I’ve been for these eight and half years, (I’m not even counting the ten years earlier fighting a  staggering battle with Lyme Disease and candida), do not give up on the Lord!  Keep knocking, keep seeking. A recent scripture that was sent to me by Pastor Jeff lane from YOU and Me Prayer ministry was,

James 1 2-4  My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into                         divers  temptations; Knowing this, that the trying of your faith worketh patience. But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.

So then, he/she who endures til the end shall be saved. Long-term suffering born patiently yields a precious fruit of compassion and empathy for others we meet who are also suffering! Jesus already paid the price for our healing & deliverance. There is no reason for any of His children to be suffering and ineffective for His kingdom. If we are still suffering, perhaps we’re  doing something wrong, have some buried, ancestral harassing spirit, need to press more confidently and expectantly or maybe, we just need to believe and expect our healing is already done! This is what Father Jehovah has taught me. Healing IS the children’s bread.

Sickness is not from the Father, Kynan bridges, author Possessing Your healing. reminds us throughout his wonderful book. Father will deny any good things. Are some of us harboring an “unconscious desire ” for special attention in our sickness so we don’t have to take responsibility to grow and receive the higher things of God? Let us seek Him diligently. Some of us really don’t want to be healed, because it’s out of our comfort zone! Well, folks, Father wants us to rooted & grounded in the faith, not to be forever drinking milk!

Science and medicine correctly deduce a physical-reason for Bi-Polar, depression or any sickness, but…Christ supersedes any emotional or physical condition. Period. .By HIS stripes were are healed. Psalm 103 1-3. Christ is PREEMINENT over ALL. I hope this helps some of you. Watch the 700 club, Sid Roth’s It’s Supernatural and Andrew Wommack’s teaching series on healing. YouTube also has amazing documentaries of divine healing. Have an open mind in Christ and see what He will do. Christ heals every day and everywhere around the world. There is NO excuse to stay emotionally ill for we HAVE the mind of Christ. You need to connect with anointed, supernatural ministries who specialize in deep healing. I thank God everyday for His word which has transformed me. When I start to get depressed about this temporary Dystonia mouth seizures, I rebuke & bind the spirit of depression and declare that I have the mind of Christ…DITTO.

One more thing, denial will keep you in tremendous bondgae and sorrow. The hardest part about starting your journey to healing through deliverance is saying, I am sick or I need help. satan is cunning as he has led so many of God’s people into bondage through spiritual and emotional deception. If he can get us to say, “I don’t need to be delivered from demonic oppression or influence” he will keep us from receiving all of Fathers benefits and blessings. As I said at the beginning of this expository, “healing Is the children’s bread.

Abba, in the name of Yashuah Jesus, I stand in the gap for my brother and sister who is in bondage. I declare that he/she is FREE in the name of Jesus and by His precious blood, they are a new creation. I bind the spirit of deception and delusion and cast you out into the dry places. Holy Spirit, fill this mind NOW with your divine, pure and holy transformation and illumination. Thank You, Father for opening up the spiritual eyes of my brother  or sister. I declare this day, that they are moving towards You and away from all the entrapments, generational curses and family iniquity. Jesus bore our sorrow, sicknesses and dins, so we Thank you NOW that my freind is walking towards complete freedom and deliverance. help him or her to walk in transparency and honesty with you regarding their sin or struggles. Your word says that we should confess our sins to each other. So give us a joyful and repentant heart, In Jesus matchless name, amen.

Liberal Wisdom and Revelation


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Liberal Wisdom and Revelation
Journal Entry Saturday January 3, 2015

It is Saturday January third 2015…a new year. In March, it will be eight years dealing with the violent Dystonia spasms of my neck and throat. Mark and I have been back from out Missouri trip: attending Pastor Mel Bond’s miracle healing service. I had positive expectations of God’s creative manifestation. Having already read his powerful book on spiritual warfare and watching his You Tube healing videos, I knew him to be a soft-spoken and gracious man, not using hype to expound God’s greatness in healing. Besides the anticipation of meeting Pastor Mel in person, countless thoughts swirled in my mind. The usual, how could I be serving Father for so long and still be in miserable physical  torment despite continually declaring His healing words and taking authority over any negative thought, event or symptom. It was very frustrating to desire more of Holy Spirit and yet still suffering intensely.

Thus my continuing quest to understand the connection between my head knowledge and Father’s divine pathway to healing.

I meditate once again upon the much-read, but never fully revealed first chapter of Ephesians. Each time I reread it, I feel energized and my spirit illuminated. How can one not read the extravagant words without stopping to meditate upon God’s fatherly resplendent love and provision. He has given us every heavenly and earthly blessing to enjoy! What a book brimming with and explaining the nuances of our appointed divine treasures that father God has ordained to us since the beginning of time! I must admit that I have read the book of Ephesians hundreds of times since 1982, (the year of my salvation re-birth) and wonder why, at this late age, it strikes me in such a powerful way, so much so that I want to compose a tract and share it with the world!

Eph. 1: 3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoptions as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself according to the good pleasure of His will.

Just this opening statement in itself brims over with divine  abundance! Chapter seven continues elaborating on Father’s glorious  extravagance. blessings

In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins according to the riches of his grace which he made to abound toward us in all wisdom and prudence, having made known to us the mystery of His will according to His good pleasure which He purposed in Himself.

The first chapters of Ephesians is the introduction to the entry and adoption into the family of God! What a wonderful destiny to embrace and yet so many of God’s people are suffering in body and/or enduring poverty and need.

God’s people are now living in the great expanse of knowledge, written in Daniel 12:4)  In these present end times the church is also receiving the full brunt of satan’s rage. I ponder the irony of Paul’s declaring of the glorious destiny that every child of God receives once he follows Jesus Christ. God’s people are indeed perishing from lack of knowledge (there are many ways to perish). How can we awake and walk in that glorious destiny unless we are taught the word of God. Handling the word of God. 2 tim 2:15

Live call in Prayer hosted by Pastor Janet Ellsworth.

Each night at 12:30 am, I tune into CTN Christian network program You and Me, hosted by pastor Janet Ellsworth. This amazing woman of God always has an apt word for God’s children and she is always authoritative, yet enthusiastic and compassionate. As the night goes on and many callers share their burdens, I am astounded at how man are tormented with grievous bodily afflictions. Many call for a financial blessing and still many others ask for deliverance and demons to stop harassing them. It looks to me that the majority of God’s people have not received the pre-ordained blessings as cited in Ephesians and that their pastors, bishops, priests and rabbi’s have not taught them the very basics of the Christ life! Truly, it grieves my heart that so many brothers and sisters are greatly suffering. There are requests for healing and restoration of bodies as many are bedridden, house-bound and hospitalized. Surely, satan is  busy deploying his demons to hinder the gospel from going out into the streets by keeping God’s people in bondage. Something is seriously wrong!

We read in the Gospels’ how Jesus traveled from town to town and was deeply grieved at the wandering, suffering throngs that followed him for healing. During those times, people had little defense against demonic attack or possession. We see so many examples of people being enslaved by spirits of infirmity. We read that Jesus groaned in His spirit at the masses of the precious people scattered as lost sheep without a shepherd. He became known and glorified as the gentle healer.

Pastor Janet’s You and Me call in program is greatly needed. She begins the program with scripture and ends by ministering in compassionate prayer. People need to be taught the very basics of living in Christ,  (particularly, spiritual warfare) and to know how to defend themselves against satanic attack and oppression!  Many have no idea how demons got into their homes, attached themselves to their rebellious children or even how a voo-doo curse was placed by a angry, jealous neighbor or co-worker! This is reality. This is what God’s people are enduring. Sadly, many pastors have no idea how to cast out a demon or counsel and release an enslaved brother or sister out of bondage from a generational curse. This is incomprehensible. We must move away from the tepid Methodist and lukewarm, religious circles, because we are at war with a vicious and relentless enemy!

We read in the gospels about Jesus astounding (Exousia) authority! He promised that after He rose from the dead we would also be walking in both Dunimus) and w. Are pastors teaching the flock how to wield heavenly armament? How many Christians even know what dunimus and exousia are in the first place? I just recently heard a powerful teaching by John Paul Jackson. he elaborated on the power and authority we have in Christ. Yet, I see God’s people doing worse than non-believers! Again, I say something is wrong. We may have a testing period where we are struggling financially, but poverty and need should not be a permanent lifestyle, otherwise we’d be unable  to provide for the needs of the orphans, widows and the poor in our circle?

For the new year, pastors , church leaders and elders need to start getting with the program. It is time for the church to walk and abide in the great callings Paul taught in the book of Ephesians. He asks that we obtain the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of God and that our eyes be enlightened about the hope of His calling! Wow, that sounds like divine living. In that kind of living, there is joy unspeakable and full of glory. We are able to endure difficult times and circumstances in full hope that Jesus is always with us, even in the storm! Are God’s people so full of joy that the world sees it and rejoices? Does our joyful countenance make people compelled to taste and see that the Lord is good and invite them to be their Lord and Savior?.

But the church is too busy going on a witch hunt and scrutinizing small matters of personal conviction rather than teaching the glorious and edifying ways of Christ.

We can no longer abide in a place of lack or ignorance regarding achieving the full array of the glorious promises Father wants us to have. He wishes us to be prosperous and in good health. Yes, there will be times of testing when we may have to endure sickness for a while for His glory, in expectation of healing and restoration. There will be times when Father will allow a satanic attack to buffet us (as in Paul’s case when he asked God three times to take away the thorn in his flesh) , but use it as spiritual muscle-building test so Father is glorified.

The church is directed to build up each other in faith, in gifts and in callings. Love and edifying are the chief goals, but next in line is successful spiritual warfare and knowing our adversary the devil is about seeking to destroy. . Love and wisdom must walk hand in hand.

This January begins a fresh year where I’ll enter the next phase of God’s divine destiny, power, wisdom and prosperity. We must not think prosperity is limited to financial wealth, but wholeness in every area). Father invites us to ask Him for wisdom and we must not stop at where we are, but ask Him to continue imbue us with dunamis (dynamite) wisdom and exousia (authoritative) wisdom!

God bless you!

In the Waiting Room


 

Standing in Faith for Divine Restoration

I’m in the waiting room. It is the same room where Job wrestled with himself and God. This waiting room is a spiritual area where an afflicted and suffering child of God straddles , (and struggles with) the blurred line of complete faith and trepidatious pain.)

In the waiting room, I’m reading the book of cures for all conditions, despite the fact that I dread the fact that I may wake up to yet another day where this stabbing in my Jaw joint will relentless pummel me to the point of sobbing out loud for relief. I may not be scraping erupting boils off my skins with a sharp piece of pottery, but I am fighting thoughts of being in never-never land with my heavenly father, where there will be no more tears or suffering. What keeps me going is the truth that my Redeemer lives.

God has sent me off downhill on the front seat of a racing rail car in to uncharted territory. For those of us dealing with acute chronic pain without medication, I’ve spent years wracking my brain trying to pinpoint the source of my distress. I’ve also exhausted every option of treatment, to no avail and have also been through countless doctors who’ve treated me with every healing modality available.

I stand here, scratching my head, wondering what to do with myself. I follow Jesus with a devoted heart and know of a certainly that Father God is not the giver of this tormenting disease, but my enemy satan who has sent out one or several of his minions to torment me.

I’m pretty much exhausted and disgusted by all the years of driving to doctors and trying this and that with no relief. I wonder every day how other children of God deal with their excruciating pain. I’ve amassed a library of books on deliverance and getting myself free.

I’ve experienced and learned quite a bit since my other Dystonia blogs from several years ago. I hope this latest one will give a little more insight and a little more hope to the hopeless!

Prayer avails much and the more yo know about the specifics of your condition, the more confidently you can pray in full assurance that Yashuah, or healer shall heal or sickness! Always put prayer at the top of your list, asking Father for supernatural wisdom and whether you’ll need to be treated by a good doctor.

First off, here are a few links that yo may want to check into. My issue has been violent twitching of the neck, mouth, tongue and throat areas, particularity the Platysma muscles and Temporo Mandibular Jaw joint, TMJ. I have done all kinds of research to find a way to sooth the pain in that area.

Dystonia of the lower face cold be cased by Trigeminal Neuyraligia

http://neurosurgery.uthscsa.edu/display_patients.php?ps_id=61&pg

You may also want to pray and ask Father if your resistant Lyme or Dystonia could be linked to a spiritual root. My husband and I just finished a week-long stint of powerful teachings on the spiritual roots of Disease. Although I am very acquainted with the scriptures, I was very surprised to learn about how satan can afflict God’s people with disease and sickness through open doorways of sin or generational curses. Many pastors and denominations insist that once we accept Christ as our Savior it’s a done deal. But there are too many Christians who love Christ and are trying to live godly lives who are suffering greatly from the effects of things that happened during their childhood, in early adolescence and even in the womb! I would leave no stone upturned when it comes to walking in total healing and deliverance.

Doctor Henry Wright, founder of BE IN Health teaching ministries and author of his book, says much about sin being a cause of our stubborn and chronic sickness.

http://www.beinhealth.com/public/

Here are some excellent ministries who specialize in deliverance if you find your symptoms are not improving.

Robert Heldler
http://www.amazon.com/Set-Yourself-Free-Deliverance-Manual/dp/0979167809

Pastor Derek Prince

I also highly recommend detoxifying your body as best as you can. Since Lyme is also connected with mercury start today on a dedicated detoxifying regimen. You’ll still have to deal with pain or discomfort but the less toxins, bacteria and fungi you have the more energetic you’ll be.

Doctor sherry Rogers, book “DETOXIFY or DIE”

http://organicconnectmag.com/sherry-rogers-md-god-designed-the-body-to-heal/#.U0cKRlOwXrY

Above all, Dr Jesus is your chief physician, so pray, declare those scriptures and rejoice, even if you’re sobbing in agony! My life has been so complicated, as many of you also have. May we love each other and fervently pray for each other as Jesus commands us and share the secrets of healing and restoration with each other. The world truly knows we are Christian when we love and cherish each other.