The Gift of Time


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At the advancing of New Year’s Eve, most of us are contemplating our future or looking back at our lives through our accomplishments or unfulfilled dreams. As I was preparing for my prayer call and looking through my worship song book, I decided to play my original songs in an effort to connect deeply in praise and worship to my Father and Jesus. As I turned the pages, my eyes fell on Psalm, 91, a yet unrecorded song, composed in Monday, September 14, 2009 at 1015 am. I burst into tears. The TMJ- Dystonia nightmare had consumed much of the quality and productivity of my life. I felt deep disappointment and some resentment, thinking about how much I could have accomplished in almost nine years without the relentless hammering. I could have published books, recorded more music and visited many more nursing homes, hospitals and correctional facilities.

I’ve always been productive, creative and aspiring and at the same time, inundated with all types of health crisis. I stop myself and focus on God, the giver of time. Instinctively, I know that if I refocus, my Heavenly Father will help me resift my perceptive. He is faithful.
Each of us is given the same twenty four hours each day. We are blessed with the gift of free will to do whatever we want with those twenty-four hours. Some of us choose to sleep and surf Facebook all day. Some choose to discipline ourselves on Heavenly endeavors and some (like witches and Satanists) discipline themselves to fast and pray their evil hexes to bring their demonic assignments to fruition. I thought about Jesus telling us to occupy until I come. So why was the church having such little influence on the culture allowing sex-trafficking, materialism, suicide and coldness of hearts to become pandemic? A powerful, Holy-Spirit church should be taking the world by storm                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Globally, huge technological advances swept gigantic corporations, like Apple, to China. Amazon and Itunes continue to take the lion’s share of profit. The Illuminati’s plans’ to “dumb down” floods the population like a Tsunami, through pharmakia (drugs), vaccines and environmental assaults like Glyphosate and fluoride. With all our spiritual power, many of our pastors and leaders should  not be burying their heads in the sand, refusing to guide their flocks regarding any of these political and frightening things! Meanwhile, a remnant of Prayer conference line warriors gather each day to oppose the giants of evil while many of us lazy, depressed ones snooze away in disinterested apathy.. Disappointingly, I’ve observed that most people on Facebook and other media sources have become copiers and followers, rather than innovators and inventors.

As a Christian original singer-songwriter, I’ve always wondered about my former bandmates and collaborators idolizing Jimmy Page, Jimi Hendrix Bob Marley, Eric Clapton and countless other musical influences. I learned very late in my life that many of the music icons received their inspiration\from Lucifer. Led Zeppelin is known for their satan-inspired music. I’m ashamed to admit I had my own female non-Christian influences such as Tori Amos, (who actually pledged allegiance to her lover, Lucifer), Sarah McLachlan, Joni Mitchel, Evanescence and Mariah Carey. Most of these gals all have connections with the occult/New Age. I’ve since repented and thrown out almost all of my CD collection and am about to go through my Christian music also! I  watched two videos recently that revealed the truth of Christian music’s union with ungodliness, sin and perversity. Sign the dotted line and sell your soul to satan.

I’m desiring more and more to live a pure life without any contaminants and if my music is offensive to my Father and Jesus, I’m glad to rid myself of abominations. I can’t live a double life or have allegiances with entities which are responsible for destroying our youth, marriages and families. It’s been a wakeup call to find out that people I once so respected and admired are part of a satanic group bent on destroying the planet. I cannot support their music or business. I’ve lately watched too many YouTube videos about Contemporary Christian music artists selling out to the secular, Spirit of Mammon and perversity. I wanted no part of it.
Some of the current Christian icons don’t even mention Jesus name and their lyrics are very ambiguous. You know what Jesus said if we were ashamed of Him. It’s been very disappointing, but satan indeed knows his time is very short and he has been devising even more cunning ways to get even a toe-hold in God’s children’s lives!
All of the aforementioned evils amount to the truth that many of us do not know how to number our days and walk in wisdom. We have not meditated on God’s word enough, nor have we committed His precepts to our spirits. We can only achieve wisdom through time in God’s presence. Wisdom also comes through experiencing The Holy Spirit’s fruits through nurturing one on one relationships, not through racking up friends, reposts and likes on Facebook.
Using our time (actually, it’s God’s time) wisely and mercifully manifests gifts of healing. When time is yielded to Holy Spirit, we have the victory and success where medicine, science and agriculture meet. Time is of the essence to find cures and treatments for devastating diseases. When God’s people come together in unified strength, they become the benevolent architects and builders ta o build sanctuaries where broken, poverty-stricken people can thrive and grow. Truly God has given the body all kinds of gifts for the edification of the church.

And it was He who gave some to be apostles, some to be prophets, some to be evangelists, and some to be pastors and teachers, to equip the saints for works of ministry, to build up the body of Christ. for all to reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God, as we mature to the full measure of the stature of Christ.…Eph 4:11-13

https://www.thegospelcoalition.org/blogs/thabiti-anyabwile/use-time-wisely-because-days-are-evil/
Paul describes the glory of God’s people building upon the foundation of the Holy house of God, (Christ being the chief cornerstone). For or no one can lay a foundation other than the one already laid, which is Jesus Christ. If anyone builds on the foundation: stones, wood, hay or straw, the workmanship will be evident, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will prove the quality of each man’s work. Time is also one of the precious substances which can be benevolent or malevolent to our fellow mankind.

See then that ye walk circumspectly, not as fools, but as wise, Redeeming the time, because the days are evil. Wherefore be ye not unwise, but understanding what the will of the Lord is. Eph 5 15-17                                                                                                                      
So let us live our lives deliberately, with laser focus and joyous anticipation, seeking diligently God’s succinct orders. As the new year, 2019 begins, I hope to impart to my brothers and sister the discipline of making the most of our moments, minutes, hours and days, so that when we stand before our judge, Yashuah, He will open our book of life and congratulate us for bringing forth great increase from the talents we’ve been entrusted.
Here are some ideas to get you started making the most of your time.

*         Find one or two people to mentor and build up in character
Visit a local nursing home weekly or monthly and read the Bible, chat with and pray over.                                                                                                                                *        Keep a list of bedridden or chronically ill people to send a handwritten or hand-made card to. Hand write a scripture verse.
*        Make it a habit to send a card to say how much you appreciate them and/or how much their friendship means to you.
*        Instead of spending hours on Facebook or other social media, re-posting other tired and trite messages and photos, send your own original, with love.
*         Do some old fashioned fresh-air walks to the local community bulletin boards and put up some scripture postcards for people to take.
*         Order tracts and pass them out.
*        Join a minstrel group and share the Gospel one on one.

Prayer: Heavenly Father help us to utilize our time to the fullest capacity being guided by Your Holy Spirit of truth, wisdom and revelation. Let us not be copiers, but endue us with fresh creativity, insight and beauty. Let us remember to make the most of every opportunity to share you Gospel, the Good News of Jesus Christ, Yashuah. I thank you for a fresh New Year with fresh anointing, in Jesus name, amen.

Brothers and sisters in Christ, occupy until He comes! Maranatha.

IMPOTENCY


Here are Websters dictionary’s meaning for these words. This essay is not so much about impotency in a once viral man, but God’s people, the church of Christ.  Are the following accurate, descriptive adjectives of your church…your life?

Impotent:

1.

not potent; lacking power or ability.
2.

utterly unable (to do something).
3.

without force or effectiveness.
4.

lacking bodily strength or physically helpless.
5.

(of a male) unable to attain or sustain a penile erection.

Benign:  a condition that is harmless.  not malignant; self-limiting.

Malignant:  very dangerous or harmful

My husband and I spend a good part of the morning discussing revelations he received from God while driving home late last night from a double shift at work. Though he was fatigued and mentality paralyzed, the double-edged sword of the Holy Spirit cut through his daze. I rejoiced in my spirit that in spite of all his malaise, he was receptive to God’s urgent grief for communion with his busy and very distracted people. God was answering my intercessory prayer for my husband to be alert and listening to God’s still small voice.

Mark reiterated various preachers and friends saying they believed the internet would be cut off as well as the means of TV and broadcasting. An anger like a defensive mother lion boiled within me and I remarked,

“How is it that that RODE VS WADE law was shoved  upon the American people, evolution is now the creed in our schools,  (while prayer was taken out…and very easily at that), Jesus name can’t be mentioned in prayer by Navy chaplains and our constitutional liberties are slowly being taken!

I went down to attend a chore in the laundry room, then came back to the kitchen. Hubby had slipped off to the bathroom. Holy Spirit spoke to me and I had a spiritual conniption!

God showed my how His people, the church had succumbed to being an impotent church.  We have become weak, powerless and the kingdom of Hell has mowed us down as easily as a lawn mower over new grass. Satan’s children have aggressively pushed until they’ve pushed over our flimsy walls of watered down doctrine, ungodly, compromised living and prosperity pastors and teachers!.

We are no longer a spiritually malignant people with overcoming strength and power, but a weak flimsy minority whom world rejects and disrespects.

Back in the old testament, The foreign and pagan nations knew of the famous reputation of God’s deliverance of the Israelites and their exodus from Egyptian captivity. As Joshua prepared the great men for battle,  their hearts melted!

This week, I battled in intercessory prayer withe several brothers and sisters in the faith who had been under great spiritual duress. As I cast and bound the spirits in high principalities ans spoke power and victory over my friends, I could feel God’s power imbue them. Oh, the glory of victory in spiritual warfare in the power of the Holy Spirit!

I told my husband that I had been imprisoned and violently abused. I was helpless and overcome for decades from girlhood to a married woman bound to a demon-possessed husband.  I realize now, that God wanted me to taste of such a  devastating and cruel existence so I could see the difference between being powerless and imprisoned and free and victorious in Christ. I will never again lay down impotent and let the enemy just mow me down. There’s gonna be a bloodbath and it won’t be me with the split blood!

Though I wear many battle scars from my attacks, I’m proud that I look to the scars of my Savior who transcended hell, death, sickness and captivity.

Lisa Bevill shared an amazing story of her love for the beautiful, wild land of Africa. Her favorite pastime was watching lion prides in the wild, particularly mother lions. In one of her visits, she watched  a mother lion attending her young cubs. Even when the mother was tired from her cubs feeding, her eyes and ears were super sensitive to every sound or threat of danger. She said that the mother lion was alert and highly dangerous and any predator would be savagely torn apart if they came near her cubs!

That is how the church must be…alert and dangerous.

I told my husband,  that I was not about to once again lay impotent and benign as the evil infidel men in high positions took away all our rights and tools to spread the gospel.  King Hezekiah refused to accept the prophet Isaiah’s announcement  God said,

“Set your house in order for you will die”. He wept, repented and believed, in God’s mercy and he got it. God answered his faith by giving him fifteen extra years.

Everyone can go ahead and accept America;s demise, but I will not…not on my watch. I will continue to compel my brothers and sisters, prayer warriors to fight for our spiritual rights that were so bravely fought for by our military and that was paid for with such a high price. Our forefathers would turn in their graves if they beheld what we have succumbed to as a people.

The church must get serious and start today to be a malignant spiritual tumor that is eating the very insides of the kingdom of hell. We must be like that mother lion, alert and highly dangerous, where when we oppose and bind in the authority of Jesus the evils in high places. We are destined to win. Christ has called us to  occupy and to prevail.

Today is the day of Salvation and victory, so let us put on our spiritual armor and our heavenly ammunition. Out battle is not with tanks, machine guns and bunker bombers, but on our knees with a repentant heart.

Let us prepare for battle… today!

WAGING the War…and WINNING it!


Journal Entry, March 30, 2011

Lance Armstrong riveted the world with his compelling journey battling and conquering cancer. Despite his devastating and dismal prognosis of testicular Cancer that spread to his brain and lungs, he managed to accomplish astounding endeavors, including winning the Tour De France from 1995 to 2005 and is the founder and chairman of the Lance Armstrong for Cancer research and support. This amazing and determined  man refused to accept Cancer’s “death” certificate.

CANCER thrusts the strongest man to his knees, the most tender and  dedicated wife and mother to the  most influential public servant. Cancer prejudices no one. We hear of battles fought across the oceans in wore-torn third world countries with tangible and energy-powered. weapons: Uzi’s, machine guns, missiles and rifles. But the most devastating foe rages within our own body.

When we hear of a friend or loved ones diagnosis, Cancer or any terminal illness, we are shaken to the core. We watch the daily struggle as body functions diminish and the body wastes away through chemo and radiation. We marvel at the courage of Cancer victims as they somehow survive their treatments and yet all around the world, there are so many others who also struggle against an unseen foe within their bodies.

Many struggle with familiar conditions such as Parkinson’s and Bells Palsy, but a new group of related “movement” disorders such as Dystonia, PSP are increasing with intensity. Not to diminish the seriousness of cancer, imagine the devastation of a condition where the body, jerks, spasms and violently thrusts your head forward, backwards and sideways? Imagine the exhaustion and expenditure of energy from such a condition where there is NO cure and doctors have no diagnostic tools to pinpoint the cause of this bizarre disorder than comes out of no where!

The neurological.system is like the netherworld of the deepest ocean. Most of it is unseen and still very little is known about it’s complex structure. This mysterious infrastructure encompasses ALL the major glands and organs of the body and even the brain.

When properly and accurately treated, Cancer survivors retain an active and productive lifestyle. Lance Armstrong is an icon for miraculously overcoming a deadly foe. I have yet to hear of recovery testimonies of movement disorder victims. From what I’ve seen, most get worse and some are completely disabled. We are looked upon as freaks when entering a social situation as we twitch and jerk our way through a conversation. Many of us eschew even going out in public so people don’t stare at us. It can be an uncomfortable or frightening thing to have a close encounter with a Parkinson’s or Dystonia victim.

I remember waking up one morning and going down to the kitchen of the home of an elderly gentleman who had Parkinson’s Disease. I stared in horror upon entering the kitchen doorway at a counter covered with Cheerios, bowls, cups and spoons. Milk and sugar made a sticky mess all over the cabinet doors and floor! I ran upstairs to Alex’s room and asked him what was going on. Then he explained to me what Parkinson’s Disease was .

“I shake so violently, everything falls. Ii can’t even pour milk into my cereal, everything splashes all over the place.

I was shocked that a condition could do that to a person. It was my first experience with a movement disorder. I asked him, “How can you live with this?”

I will never forget that day and now I’m waging a battle with a similar condition, young and vibrant as I am.

Yet, something in me bubbles like an effervescent geyser. I have something Alex didn’t possess, an undeniable power and strength that impassioned me to shine brighter than the sun and soar higher than any eagle! Like Lance Armstrong, I purpose in my heart, not to be vanquished by the assaults of my foe, but to scrutinize and study my opponent’s weakness so I can victor over him!

Amidst stressful driving through congested highway to doctors and practitioner appointments, through the daily, uncomfortably incessant vise-like invisible grip on my upper neck and spasmming jaw joins, through the myriad household chores and wifely responsibilities and through the endless required health/nutrition/exercise  routines and regimens, I groan with the effort of juggling them all. I stimulate my passion to regain complete recovery by the hope that is in God only.

What is it that sets passionate health and humanitarian advocates in motion and victory apart from those who die or became totally disabled? We refuse to acquiesce to the victim status. We have been given too much to give up. Christ Himself gave ALL of Himself, so knowing this, there is no going back. I move forward with determination, like a triathlon runner who has engaged in rigorous discipline to achieve his goal!

There are unsung local heroes all around us. Theo Vrahnos, one of my dear friends, wages his battle against Wilson’s Disease, a condition where coppers builds up in the body and causes almost irreparably damage to the neurological system. This beautiful young man refuses to allow this condition to stop him from living a social and normal life. I wrote a power  ballad  “Nobody Sees” about him. Every time I sing it in public, I remember signing to Theo while he was bedridden and now is married and a father.

Dystonia has made me a more compassionate person, concerned in bringing a hurting someone more comfort and acceptance. It has stretched me to be more tolerant of difficulties and challenges. It has pushed my mind’s endurance to it’s greatest heights as I focus on emotional, spiritual and creative strategies not only for myself, but for anyone struggling a disabling condition. Dystonia will NOT imprison me, in fact, it will usher me to even deeper spiritual realms than I’ve even imagined. I’m about to explore new frontiers in the medical and natural healing areas. I believe that God Himself is drawing me to Himself to find answers that secular minded experts refuse to ponder or accept.

God reveals great mysteries to those who search…like curious and hungry little children. No new knowledge will be given to those who think they know it all. So…here I am, Lord. Teach me more!