FELLING the GIANT, Lyme Disease

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Lyme Disease is a killer, of mind body and spirit. It is insidious and deadly, almost unconquerable. I’ve met many precious folks on Facebook’s  Christian Lyme Disease group and am astounded at the suffering and hopelessness.  As a journalist, I feel obligated to help my brethren in their journey to wellness and victory.

I have learned so much since being diagnosed in 1992, right in the middle of my  musical journey with my boyfriend-lead guitarist, Chris, (who also was diagnosed  4 years after me).  God blessed us with an anointed calling to share the Gospel through our unique brand of Gospel hard rock, folk-rock, blues and jazz. My heart was skipping beats, I became weak with dizziness and my mind was foggy. My life exploded at the doctor’s  diagnosis of Lyme Disease!  I was terrified and overwhelmed with the thought of having to drive myself from Seaside Park to Red bank, NJ where Rosephin intravenous anti-biotics would be administered for thirty-one days straight. I could not miss one day, or the Lyme would  become aggressive and overtake my immune system.

God got me through the devastating season, but  several months later, the symptoms returned, this time with a vengeance. I had to endure another bout of anti-biotic, this time Amoxicillin. I felt better for a brief couple of months, but then soon noticed I was feeling debilitated very easy. I caught everyone’s cold and my lungs were continually congested. Within several months, I was close to Bronchitis and Pneumonia  very often and one bout was so bad, I almost died. I had no medical insurance, but was blessed by  a donation from the executive director of the  Christian ministry organization I served with.  Carolyn insisted I go to the emergency walk-in clinic for an examination and treatment. The doctor who saw me was so alarmed that I waited so long to come in and that as far he he saw, if I’d waited another few days, I would have died!

After that frightful crisis, my health took a downward spiral and I could not work. I ended up having to  support myself as a live-in companion to an elderly gentleman. Thankfully, it turned out the gentleman became,  “Pop” and became like my adopted grandfather. He, even more than I, was very concerned about my fragile health. He insisted I  hook up with a specialist who could diagnose my latest condition. I happened to befriend  a neighbor who lived just across the street from us and  she recommended  I see her chiropractor who was very affordable. I saw him the following week and at the end of our appointment, he confirmed I had Candid.  he explined how the antibiotic treatments were responsible for upsetting the good bacteria and my body and I had a fungus proliferation. I’d never heard of this strange disease with the musical name, but accepted the  protocol.   Now I knew why I had such an insatiable craving for starches and breads. They were fueling my system. I was put on a  low sugar diet with intense ant-fungal supplements. It was the hardest  diet I’d ever been on. After a month, I was feeling better, but recovery was slow. It was hard to discipline myself to even take a short walk for exercise each day. Worse was having no treats, like the starches my body was addicted to.

The Candida-Lyme battle lasted about two years because the craving for soft bread and pasts was so intense. The lack of proper nutrition, the  brain fog and damage to my immune system made me almost clinically depressed. It was a miracle to take care of Pop, the house we lived in and pursuing my music projects. Amazingly, God kept me together  My neighbors, (the Christian couple who recommended the great chiropractor) invited me to their church. Now I had a church family to help me carry the load of my temporary  disability. Even though, my pastor and my fellow brethren didn’t understand my illness, my involvement in a church family reminded me to rely on my faith in the Lord. Part of being a committed child of God aspiring to maintain victory, no matter what, I vowed to  address the LYME-Candida episode as a temporary season which Father would bring me through. If I was ever to soar into my destiny, I had to make some serious changes in my attitude and ability. I had a great calling and many gifts o share with the body of Christ. We  must never accept this demonic health attack as permanent, otherwise, we will never be whole and healed! My season with this brutal disease, brought me to new levels of fitness, natural health and wisdom on how to care for my temple. .

Father God has given us everything we need for abundant health, but sadly His people,(millions of them) are bound by disease and-or mental illness. I’m grateful for the wellspring I have learned and am the better for it. Since He has granted me the victory of overcoming and soaring forward in my calling, (as a recording artist-song-writer, journalist, artist and soul-sculptor)  I feel obligated to impart my wisdom and expertise who are presently suffering from Lyme, (and other catastrophic illnesses).

I first urge you all to surrender your whole body and being to your Heavenly Father. This is the first and foremost step to your journey of healing. At times, it may be impossible because of extreme and incessant pain to focus, but try your best to remind yourself of His protection of your life. Begin each day in worship and devotion to your Heavenly Father who cares about you more than you can imagine. He didn’t give Lyme to you, satan did. That being said, here is my prayer

Abba Heavenly Father,  please lead my precious  brother or sister sister  into your green pasture of protection and provision. Holy Spirit, please let your healing waters flow from their belly. Lead them into all wisdom and revelation through applying your  promises to their lives and perspectives. Lead them to the  godly practitioners who have knowledge of your natural healing. Father,  Give them counselors who can help them address any generational or ancestral curses and sins (such as involvement in free-masonry,  Santeria, the occult-witchcraft)  as well as any roots of bitterness unforgiveness and anger. You call us to freedom and it is harder for some of us than others, but You will work out all things for our good if we humble ourselves under your hand. Thank You Father for your love, healing and mercy, in Jesus name, amen.

After committing ourselves to daily prayer and worship, there are three books, I highly recommend to extricate yourself from the  death mindset of serious illness, whether it be Lyme, Disease, Cancer, MS, Lupus, etc. Many diseases have a spiritual root. I never knew this from any churches I ever went to. This discovery was one of the most miraculous in  walking towards the first step of healing. It all started with the Bull’s Eye rash I never got!


Pastor Henry Wright is an amazing man of God with divine wisdom and insight into the roots of sickness

2. http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/754419.Healing_the_Sick

3. http://kynanbridges.com/media/index/all/0/334-Possessing-Your-Healing

This is one of my favorite books! It has powerful healing prayers and declarations to  speak each day! This one is a must have!

I also highly suggest deliverance counseling ministry. Disease is not always our fault, sometimes it came from our parents, grandparents or ancestors. Imagine my surprise when my deliverance counselors was given a word of knowledge, that I had a Santeria curse and Freemasonry in my family line! Children who had parents involved in Freemasonry have lung issues.

Health Protocols-Disciplines

I would not be alive today if it were for my passionate desire for  knowing my Heavenly Father, Jesus and being led by Holy Spirit..If you are not committed to worshiping and obeying Father’s commandments, you will not be free…to heal. Obeying His commandments is not just going to church, attending Bible studies or even saying prayers. It is intimate relationship! In intimacy with Father and Jesus. You will find peace even in the strum of sickness and suffering. The following list contains the essentials of healing and peace.Do not focus on the intensity of your storm or the unfairness of why you are suffering.  Of course we all ask these questions in the beginning, but try to move forward and face the reality. Father knows it all:)

  1. Begin your day with worship, Thanksgiving and communion with Your heavenly Father, Jesus and Holy Spirit. Keep anointed worship music ( not Christian pop) worship-praise music on. Demonic spirits cannot tolerate praise and worship. They’ll have a touch time harassing you when you are singing and praising the Lord! That atmosphere draws God’s mercy and love and makes it repugnant for depression and spirits of death.
  2.  Read all you can about how your immune systems work and the chief detoxifying organs the especially the gut, where the main action takes place. Garden of Life, Primal Defense pro-biotic is an outstanding.
  3.  I was a victim or child abuse and domestic violence, (as an adult). Any long term emotional and/or physical trauma will deplete the Adrenal glands and Thyroid. You may want to get testing for this. I take a high quality Adrenal and Thyroid supplement. Make sure you  get your doctors approval for  supplements.
  4.  My lungs have suffered many assaults over the years from allergies, (hay fever, dust and mold) so I was prone to Bronchitis. I now take Clear Lungs from Ridgecrest
  5. With the many drugs and different antibiotics, the liver and detoxifying organs incur much damage. Milk Thistle has been a godsend for me. I also take raw cilantro and parsley which are very good for the cleansing of the body.
  6. Mercury poisoning seems to accompany many Lyme Victims, I’ve discovered Alpha Lipoic  Acid and Glutiathione are detoxifiers.
  7.  The immune system does not recover well from any type of stress or environmental toxins, pesticides and chemicals.  Lypo-Spheric Vitamins C amazingly strengthens my system when I’m taxed.
  8.  A wonderful tincture for Lyme is Una de Gato by NutriCology.
  9.  Other anti-oxidants are E,  A, B complex
  10.  There are many other God-given natural supplements and  natural modalities
  11.  Get informed and acquainted with world class, Christian practitioners who are experts in natural healing. Many of these have successful programs on Christian TV and internet. Here are some of my favorites. I urge you to GOOGLE, go to the Library in research an/or buy books dealing with your different symptoms, (condition)  a. Doug Kaufman, Know the Cause (The fungus Link) .http://www.knowthecause.com/index.php/get-started/about-doug-kaufmann
  12.  Doctor Mercola, an outstanding  natural doctor, http://www.mercola.com/
  13.   I first learned about Candida and fungus from reading Dr’ William Crook’s book,   http://www.yeastconnection.com/about_story.html
  14. Rest and good sleep are essential for the body to restore itself. Don’t forget the importance of calcium and magnesium. My favorite sleep enhancer is CALM.  I get it from Vitamin Shoppe and they have their own, cheaper brand.. Take twice a day. Calm soothes the nerves and it is good for restlessness  http://www.vitaminshoppe.com/p/natural-vitality-natural-calm-rasp-lemon-16-oz-powder/n3-1006#.V-2bGvSsu1s
  15.  Camomile tea and other calming teas are great taken twice a day.
  16.   Zeolites are microporous, aluminosilicate minerals commonly used as commercial adsorbents and catalysts. I occasionally use it for mercury, myco-toxins and for my liver and kidneys.              http://zeolitehealthylife.com/zeolitebenefits/zeolitebenefits.html
  17.  bentonite clay is another excellent detoxifying  substance. http://www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1718897

Liberal Wisdom and Revelation

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Liberal Wisdom and Revelation
Journal Entry Saturday January 3, 2015

It is Saturday January third 2015…a new year. In March, it will be eight years dealing with the violent Dystonia spasms of my neck and throat. Mark and I have been back from out Missouri trip: attending Pastor Mel Bond’s miracle healing service. I had positive expectations of God’s creative manifestation. Having already read his powerful book on spiritual warfare and watching his You Tube healing videos, I knew him to be a soft-spoken and gracious man, not using hype to expound God’s greatness in healing. Besides the anticipation of meeting Pastor Mel in person, countless thoughts swirled in my mind. The usual, how could I be serving Father for so long and still be in miserable physical  torment despite continually declaring His healing words and taking authority over any negative thought, event or symptom. It was very frustrating to desire more of Holy Spirit and yet still suffering intensely.

Thus my continuing quest to understand the connection between my head knowledge and Father’s divine pathway to healing.

I meditate once again upon the much-read, but never fully revealed first chapter of Ephesians. Each time I reread it, I feel energized and my spirit illuminated. How can one not read the extravagant words without stopping to meditate upon God’s fatherly resplendent love and provision. He has given us every heavenly and earthly blessing to enjoy! What a book brimming with and explaining the nuances of our appointed divine treasures that father God has ordained to us since the beginning of time! I must admit that I have read the book of Ephesians hundreds of times since 1982, (the year of my salvation re-birth) and wonder why, at this late age, it strikes me in such a powerful way, so much so that I want to compose a tract and share it with the world!

Eph. 1: 3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoptions as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself according to the good pleasure of His will.

Just this opening statement in itself brims over with divine  abundance! Chapter seven continues elaborating on Father’s glorious  extravagance. blessings

In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins according to the riches of his grace which he made to abound toward us in all wisdom and prudence, having made known to us the mystery of His will according to His good pleasure which He purposed in Himself.

The first chapters of Ephesians is the introduction to the entry and adoption into the family of God! What a wonderful destiny to embrace and yet so many of God’s people are suffering in body and/or enduring poverty and need.

God’s people are now living in the great expanse of knowledge, written in Daniel 12:4)  In these present end times the church is also receiving the full brunt of satan’s rage. I ponder the irony of Paul’s declaring of the glorious destiny that every child of God receives once he follows Jesus Christ. God’s people are indeed perishing from lack of knowledge (there are many ways to perish). How can we awake and walk in that glorious destiny unless we are taught the word of God. Handling the word of God. 2 tim 2:15

Live call in Prayer hosted by Pastor Janet Ellsworth.

Each night at 12:30 am, I tune into CTN Christian network program You and Me, hosted by pastor Janet Ellsworth. This amazing woman of God always has an apt word for God’s children and she is always authoritative, yet enthusiastic and compassionate. As the night goes on and many callers share their burdens, I am astounded at how man are tormented with grievous bodily afflictions. Many call for a financial blessing and still many others ask for deliverance and demons to stop harassing them. It looks to me that the majority of God’s people have not received the pre-ordained blessings as cited in Ephesians and that their pastors, bishops, priests and rabbi’s have not taught them the very basics of the Christ life! Truly, it grieves my heart that so many brothers and sisters are greatly suffering. There are requests for healing and restoration of bodies as many are bedridden, house-bound and hospitalized. Surely, satan is  busy deploying his demons to hinder the gospel from going out into the streets by keeping God’s people in bondage. Something is seriously wrong!

We read in the Gospels’ how Jesus traveled from town to town and was deeply grieved at the wandering, suffering throngs that followed him for healing. During those times, people had little defense against demonic attack or possession. We see so many examples of people being enslaved by spirits of infirmity. We read that Jesus groaned in His spirit at the masses of the precious people scattered as lost sheep without a shepherd. He became known and glorified as the gentle healer.

Pastor Janet’s You and Me call in program is greatly needed. She begins the program with scripture and ends by ministering in compassionate prayer. People need to be taught the very basics of living in Christ,  (particularly, spiritual warfare) and to know how to defend themselves against satanic attack and oppression!  Many have no idea how demons got into their homes, attached themselves to their rebellious children or even how a voo-doo curse was placed by a angry, jealous neighbor or co-worker! This is reality. This is what God’s people are enduring. Sadly, many pastors have no idea how to cast out a demon or counsel and release an enslaved brother or sister out of bondage from a generational curse. This is incomprehensible. We must move away from the tepid Methodist and lukewarm, religious circles, because we are at war with a vicious and relentless enemy!

We read in the gospels about Jesus astounding (Exousia) authority! He promised that after He rose from the dead we would also be walking in both Dunimus) and w. Are pastors teaching the flock how to wield heavenly armament? How many Christians even know what dunimus and exousia are in the first place? I just recently heard a powerful teaching by John Paul Jackson. he elaborated on the power and authority we have in Christ. Yet, I see God’s people doing worse than non-believers! Again, I say something is wrong. We may have a testing period where we are struggling financially, but poverty and need should not be a permanent lifestyle, otherwise we’d be unable  to provide for the needs of the orphans, widows and the poor in our circle?

For the new year, pastors , church leaders and elders need to start getting with the program. It is time for the church to walk and abide in the great callings Paul taught in the book of Ephesians. He asks that we obtain the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of God and that our eyes be enlightened about the hope of His calling! Wow, that sounds like divine living. In that kind of living, there is joy unspeakable and full of glory. We are able to endure difficult times and circumstances in full hope that Jesus is always with us, even in the storm! Are God’s people so full of joy that the world sees it and rejoices? Does our joyful countenance make people compelled to taste and see that the Lord is good and invite them to be their Lord and Savior?.

But the church is too busy going on a witch hunt and scrutinizing small matters of personal conviction rather than teaching the glorious and edifying ways of Christ.

We can no longer abide in a place of lack or ignorance regarding achieving the full array of the glorious promises Father wants us to have. He wishes us to be prosperous and in good health. Yes, there will be times of testing when we may have to endure sickness for a while for His glory, in expectation of healing and restoration. There will be times when Father will allow a satanic attack to buffet us (as in Paul’s case when he asked God three times to take away the thorn in his flesh) , but use it as spiritual muscle-building test so Father is glorified.

The church is directed to build up each other in faith, in gifts and in callings. Love and edifying are the chief goals, but next in line is successful spiritual warfare and knowing our adversary the devil is about seeking to destroy. . Love and wisdom must walk hand in hand.

This January begins a fresh year where I’ll enter the next phase of God’s divine destiny, power, wisdom and prosperity. We must not think prosperity is limited to financial wealth, but wholeness in every area). Father invites us to ask Him for wisdom and we must not stop at where we are, but ask Him to continue imbue us with dunamis (dynamite) wisdom and exousia (authoritative) wisdom!

God bless you!

BEAUTIFUL hand-beaded, one-of-a-kind Chokers

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About Artist,Anita Ivette Ferrer

Anita Ivette Ferrer thought her unexpected health affliction would be short-lived. She didn’t expect to be still struggling over seven years later from Dystonia, a mysterious movement disorder which doctors say has no known cause nor cure. Anita is used to engaging challenging circumstances, but her latest has brought her to the forefront of uncharted territory Faith in Jesus Christ in hand coupled with an iron will propels her to new heights of spiritual self-discovery, supernatural trust in God and ultra creativity.

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When she wakes up each morning, she inwardly dreads another day coping with the pain and fatigue which could restrict her ability to live a normal life. But as she gets up from her bed, she relies upon Christ to empower her with strength and hope for the day! Her prayers are always answered as she tackles her house chores, outreach to the bedridden, elderly and dying and her creative endeavors.

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Quite by accident, Anita found a temporary respite from her violent facial twitching while repairing some old broken beaded chokers. She found that focusing upon the fine beadwork caused the muscles to cease pulling! The next thing she knew, she was spending more and more time at the craft stores purchasing unique, beautiful beads for her new passion!

Anita, 1989 Magna Cum Laude Brookdale Community College graduate whose major studies were in the humanities and social services, never imagined that a condition like Dystonia would lead her back to her childhood talent, designing!

fall,2014 139Anita believes with all her heart that her healing could be just a heart beat away. Though each day continues to be a struggle, God inspires her to keep the momentum going! She has learned through overcoming battle with chronic Lyme Disease, poverty, child abuse and domestic violence that in order to grow, one must re-invent themselves! Though she’s had to greatly curtail her performing and song-writing due to the spasms, her beaded jewelry design has taken her to new levels of exciting creativity and an opportunity to share her craft with the world. She also hopes to educate the public about Dystonia and movement disorders which are increasing. As yet the only treatments for Dystonia are Botox injections and DPS Deep Brain stimulation which Anita feels would not help her symptoms.

Anita resides with her husband and their cats in Browns Mills, NJ. She is also available to minister in music at your church or special event.

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Purchase of Anita’s creations helps her to continue ministering to the elderly, disable and hospice patient. You can find out more about Anita via her http://www.anitaivetteferrer.wordpress.com blogsite

Anita Ivette Ferrer
Anita Ivette Ferrer One of a Kind Designs
Brave Flame Productions & Outreach
Po Box 102, Bradley Beach, NJ 07720

Prices range from $25 to $70

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Proceeds to Dystonia research and Brave Flame Productions & Outreach

Fighting the Good Fight of Sickness

Fighting the Good Fight of Sickness

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Children of God who struggle with a catastrophic  and chronic condition have the extra burden of dealing with excruciating pain. There are few things one can do except taking medication  which often doesn’t kill the pain. Struggling with all kinds of allergies, lung ailments, Lyme disease and Dystonia (from environmental illness) I’ve had to hunker down with Jesus and God’s word to get through each hour. I pray that you will find peace as you discipline yourself in His strengthening word

We also well know that we are in warfare and we shouldn’t be surprised at this fiery trial that is before us. Though Father never gives us illness, he always uses it for His glory and our benefit. In my case, suffering has taught me about the treasures of an empathetic heart and I find such blessings in sharing my gifts of singing-performing, encouragement and visiting at bedside the sick, elderly and dying.

I’ve also learned that illness often has an emotional-spiritual root, so I’ve had to work very hard to address many past issues of emotional traumas, abuse and abandonment. I highly suggest Henry Wright’s insightful book, A More excellent Way. Father is so faithful giving us the needed grace each day to move forward.

Recovery may also mean getting down to the nitty gritty of deliverance counseling and forgiveness. I have had to work  very hard for a few decades to abide peacefully in the shelter of His wings! Pray and ask Father and Holy Spirit if there is cleaning you need to do win your minds attic. Daily meditation of God’s word especially the Psalms can transform you immensely.

Pray, research, get counsel, pray, research. Be open-minded and open-hearted and see what miracles father has for you.

Duuteronomy 30:19

19 This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live

Don’t accept what the doctors tell you. God is the only one who has decreed your end. You have choice and treatment options. Do you want to beat this thing or die? It’s your choice!

Proverbs 18:21
Death and life are in the power of the tongue, And those who love it will eat its fruit.

Science has proven that the nerves connected speech, so the mouth and jaw are all interconnected with the brain cells and nuero-transmitters!

Psalm 139:14
(New living Translation)
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous–how well I know it.

The human body is astoundingly resilient, can heal itself Science still has not uncovered all the mysteries of the human body and its marvelous workmanship.

Psalm 139:17-18
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I could count them, they would be more in number than the sand.. When I awake, I am still with you.

Imagine God being so in love with you that he thinks about you all day? What a multitude of wonderful thoughts He has towards us and is with us every moment morning til our state of unconsciousness. Every Child of God must learn that Father loves us more than we could even fathom. A stronghold of many is the spirit of unworthiness. We have been rejected, bullied or unnoticed for most of our lives, this often, deeply-imbedded mental stronghold keeps us from truly believing we are worthy because of Jesus!

Isaiah 50:7
Because the Sovereign LORD helps me, I will not be disgraced. Therefore have I set my face like flint, and I know I will not be put to shame.

Phil 4:8
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.
Isaiah 43 18-19
18 “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness, and streams in the wasteland.

Ezekiel 37 12-14
Thus saith the Lord GOD; Behold, O my people, I will open your graves, and cause you to come up out of your graves, and bring you into the land of Israel.
13 And ye shall know that I am the LORD, when I have opened your graves, O my people, and brought you up out of your graves,
14 and shall put my Spirit in you, and ye shall live, and I shall place you in your own land: then shall ye know that I the LORD have spoken it, and performed it, saith the LORD.
The valley of the dry bones has been the most mesmerizing of all scripture to me. I marvel at the wonder of God totally restoring dry, dead bones! He is more than able to do more than we can imagine.

Isaiah 53: 5
But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed.

Isaiah 58:8
Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.

Psalm 61
I will cry to you when my heart is overwhelmed.

Lam. 3:22-23
His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is thy faithfulness.

Romans 8:35-36
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword?

Psalm 23

23The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green [1] pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest [2] my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. [3]

Jer. 17: 7 &8
…Blessed is the one who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him.
8 They will be like a tree planted by the water, that sends out its roots by the stream.
It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.”

Rev 21:5
He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

Is. 43:19
See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.

Rev 21:5
And he that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new. And he said unto me, Write: for these words are true and faithful.

Psalm 119:33
Order my steps in thy word: and let not any iniquity have dominion over me.

Psalm, 46:10
…. “Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”

Romans 12:2
Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Psalm, 30:5
For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.
Phil 4:8

…whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things.

Eph 2:10

For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
Isaiah 59:19 So shall they fear the name of the Lord from the west, and his glory from the rising of the sun. When the enemy shall come in like a flood, the Spirit of the Lord shall lift up a standard against him.

In the Waiting Room

Standing in Faith for Divine Restoration

I’m in the waiting room. It is the same room where Job wrestled with himself and God. This waiting room is a spiritual area where an afflicted and suffering child of God straddles , (and struggles with) the blurred line of complete faith and trepidatious pain.

In the waiting room, I’m reading the book of cures for all conditions, despite the fact that I dread the fact that I may wake up to yet another day where this stabbing in my Jaw joint will relentless pummel me to the point of sobbing out loud for relief. I may not be scraping erupting boils off my skins with a sharp piece of pottery, but I am fighting thoughts of being in never-never land with my heavenly father, where there will be no more tears or suffering. What keeps me going is the truth that my Redeemer lives.

God has sent me off downhill on the front seat of a racing rail car in to uncharted territory. For those of us dealing with acute chronic pain without medication, I’ve spent years wracking my brain trying to pinpoint the source of my distress. I’ve also exhausted every option of treatment, to no avail and have also been through countless doctors who’ve treated me with every healing modality available.

I stand here, scratching my head, wondering what to do with myself. I follow Jesus with a devoted heart and know of a certainly that Father God is not the giver of this tormenting disease, but my enemy satan who has sent out one or several of his minions to torment me.

I’m pretty much exhausted and disgusted by all the years of driving to doctors and trying this and that with no relief. I wonder every day how other children of God deal with their excruciating pain. I’ve amassed a library of books on deliverance and getting myself free.

I’ve experienced and learned quite a bit since my other Dystonia blogs from several years ago. I hope this latest one will give a little more insight and a little more hope to the hopeless!

Prayer avails much and the more yo know about the specifics of your condition, the more confidently you can pray in full assurance that Yashuah, or healer shall heal or sickness! Always put prayer at the top of your list, asking Father for supernatural wisdom and whether you’ll need to be treated by a good doctor.

First off, here are a few links that yo may want to check into. My issue has been violent twitching of the neck, mouth, tongue and throat areas, particularity the Platysma muscles and Temporo Mandibular Jaw joint, TMJ. I have done all kinds of research to find a way to sooth the pain in that area.

Dystonia of the lower face cold be cased by Trigeminal Neuyraligia


You may also want to pray and ask Father if your resistant Lyme or Dystonia could be linked to a spiritual root. My husband and I just finished a week-long stint of powerful teachings on the spiritual roots of Disease. Although I am very acquainted with the scriptures, I was very surprised to learn about how satan can afflict God’s people with disease and sickness through open doorways of sin or generational curses. Many pastors and denominations insist that once we accept Christ as our Savior it’s a done deal. But there are too many Christians who love Christ and are trying to live godly lives who are suffering greatly from the effects of things that happened during their childhood, in early adolescence and even in the womb! I would leave no stone unturned when it comes to walking in total healing and deliverance.

Doctor Henry Wright, founder of BE IN Health teaching ministries and author of his book, says much about sin being a cause of our stubborn and chronic sickness.


Here are some excellent ministries who specialize in deliverance if you find your symptoms are not improving.

Robert Heldler

Pastor Derek Prince

Pastor Suddoth
Righteous Acts Ministries

I also highly recommend detoxifying your body as best as you can. Since Lyme is also connected with mercury start today on a dedicated detoxifying regimen. You’ll still have to deal with pain or discomfort but the less toxins, bacteria and fungi you have the more energetic you’ll be.

Doctor sherry Rogers, book “DETOXIFY or DIE”


Above all, Dr Jesus is your chief physician, so pray, declare those scriptures and rejoice, even if you’re sobbing in agony! My life has been so complicated, as many of you also have. May we love each other and fervently pray for each other as Jesus commands us and share the secrets of healing and restoration with each other. The world truly knows we are Christian when we love and cherish each other.

A Tailor’s Journey With Her Taylor

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A Tailor’s Journey With Her Taylor

Before I fell in Love with music, I was a skilled tailor by trade. As a young girl, I watched my mother sew with thread and needle. I tried my hand and found I was skilled. By sixth grade, I was designing the medieval costumes for school plays and continued to take fashion and seamstress courses in high school. After graduation, to make ends meet, I tailored for various local seamstress shops and even at Abraham and Strauss.

After several years, I grew restless sitting at a sewing machine all day. I hoped for an out and got one a few months after my new job at a fine ladies dress shop. I altered very expensive clothing and was very stressed. One day, a month into my stint at a fine ladies dress shop, I was working on a suit. My mind drifted. I wasn’t paying attention to the heat of my iron. To my horror, the iron touched the lining of the suit’s sleeve and melted a noticeable hole. My supervisor discovered it the next day and I was fired.

I became very depressed and for over a year, I languished directionless and unmotivated, going to different neighborhoods for garden work and leaf raking. It was a very difficult and uncreative time, but I had to pay my rent. I prayed to God for a miracle and knew that He had something very special for me.

In 1989, I befriended a talented guitar player who asked me to front his Christian heavy metal/hard rock band. Chris liked my voice and I ended up writing lyrics for him and his drummer. We fell in love, soon discovered we had some differences and less than a year later, we broke up. The band also fell apart.

Time healed our wounds. Chris and I resumed our friendship and he has remained my long-time song-writing partner, contributing greatly to my recorded songs. he is one of the most creative lead guitarists I’ve ever worked with.

Fast forward, a few years later, a surprising and unexpected door opened! My friend and spiritual mother and I were enjoying a crisp, fall day at the Collingswood Auction flea market. We were searching the small stores for treasures. At one store, she noticed a handsome, pony-tailed guy eying something in a counter. “Mom” Winnie tapped him on the shoulder and asked him if he was a guitar player.

“I’m helping my friend find a suitable guitarist to accompany her for her gigs,” she explained.

Jeff was so gracious and asked her if I had any music he could buy. He followed us to my car where I had a copy of my first, recently printed CD, “I’ll Fly High”. Then we exchanged numbers. Imagine my surprise when I arrived home and found his message on my answering machine!

“That voice! That voice” he gloated. I called him.

“With that gorgeous voice you need to be accompanying your own self on guitar,” Jeff urged.

The next week, Jeff came over with his guitar, sat me down and showed me the fingerings of a few basic chords. He urged me to get comfortable with it and play every day.

By the end of the week, I’d fallen in love with his guitar. Two weeks later, I wrote my first song, an acoustic ballad, Receive.” A month later, I felt confident enough to play my own guitar at a church coffeehouse and a woman even accepted the Lord as her Savior at the end of the concert as we prayed together! People responded so well to my voice, that I bought a jazz chord book so I could experiment with different chords. I wrote “Basket Case” a week later!


Jeff was so impressed that he planned to take me on a shopping spree for my own guitar. We made plans to visit Nothing New Music store, Lakehurst, NJ, Taylor guitars were advertised. When the owner, Ken Sturcke. offered to show his three Taylors he wanted to sell, Jeff’s eyes lit up. He was especially impressed by a certain model because of her rich-bodied tome and cherry wood. After playing a few more leads, Jeff smiled, “Well that settles it, Ken, Anita’s gonna take this Taylor.”

I balked at the list price, but Ken said he would give me a great deal on the Taylor.

“Your angelic voice must be accompanied by this Taylor,” Ken assured me.

I was so excited, I knew this was a God thing! Ken prayed with me that God would bless my artistry and ministry with the Taylor. I knew in my heart that we’d soon be making wonderful history.with her. When I got home, I pondered the sudden timeliness of purchasing such an expensive thing as a guitar, I knew God would make a way for me to pay for her…and He was faithful

Within a month, I had the full thousand dollars. I didn’t even have to pay for the seventy-five dollars tax because I served with a non-profit organization. Our executive director said that my singing/ministering was a part of the organization ministry.

I’ll never forget that day I walked out of Ken’s store with my exquisite Taylor. The following year, I was continually inspired to write new songs, experimenting along the way with the unique jazz chords I’d found in my book. The Taylor kept up her true tuning despite humidity and the cold. My Taylor was so well-crafted that I never suffered the embarrassment of an out-of-tune guitar at the start of my set. My Taylor continued to give me excellent, service for all my gigs as well as funeral/wake service.

Opening for Highway 9, STONE PONY

Fast forward again, a few years later, I had to make an impromptu visit to a friend who was dying of cancer. I’d just came home from grocery shopping and had left my Taylor outside, next to the rear of my car. After dusk, I hurried to start my car and proceeded to back out. Each time I tried to go in reverse, the car would stop. Something was caught by the wheel. As I tried backing out the third time, I suddenly remembered I’d left my Taylor outside. When I got out of my car, I shrieked in horror. The top part of the Taylor’s case was mangled! I almost passed as I bent down to take a closer look. I felt weak with shock as I gingerly opened the case to inspect the damage. The upper neck was in bad shape. Tears fell from my eyes as I ran back to my apartment to call my boyfriend about the terrible news. He calmed me down and then I called my pastor. He prayed with me that the Taylor was not so badly damaged that she couldn’t be played again.

I called Ken, told him what had happened with my Taylor. He suggested a friend who owned a luthier shop in Toms River. I brought the Taylor to Paul Unkert and he said the Taylor was repairable. He couldn’t guarantee that she’d stay in tune, but he would do the best he could. It turned out that the truss rod had not been damaged.

My Taylor had another accident again, about three years ago. She was in her case, standing vertical. The case just fell over, slamming violently to the floor. Again, the upper neck came apart. Again, Paul Unkert came to rescue and again, Amazingly, The Taylor still kept her tune!

Soon after the Taylor’s second accident and repair, I fell ill with a mysterious condition which affected my neurological system. Fearful, my husband and I saw a doctor who diagnosed me with Dystonia. He had no idea what caused it nor a cure to give me relief. My neck & throat muscles pulled and twitched violently. I made strange-looking facial grimaces and was exhausted by mid-day. I lost all interest in socializing, my hobbies, eating, song-writing and gigging. The Dystonia also affected my mouth, teeth and tongue. I felt like a freak. I was always anxious that at any moment, my teeth would comp down hard on my tongue and I’d be a bleeding mess.I was miserable!

Anita strummin' fall 2009
I forced myself to leave the house and make something of my life. I ended up visiting the elderly, ailing and handicapped seniors at Buttonwood Hospital. I found when I made the sacrifice, I was so rewarded giving joy and music to those suffering more than me! Amazingly, when I sang with her, my tremors lessened!

Dystonia has been vicious to me, often robbing me of creativity, motivation and joy BUT God…has always provided me with strength and hope each day as I continue to seek a cure and restore my former life. There’s no room for bitterness or resentment when I see people in worse shape. God is my strength and I live moment by moment, one day at a time.

Playing Christmas Hymms on my guitar with Pastor Matt

As I continued struggling with my symptoms, the beautiful Taylor seems to take on her own voice. Often, I’m in such distress I can’t stop crying. I’d suddenly stop as lyrics flowed through my mind. I grabbed my Taylor and wrote beautiful laments-songs, sometimes within 15 minutes! From this painful year came enough material for a my first worship Psalms CD, “The Anointing.”

“I’ve Come Here To Worship” is one such song that unendurable;e pain inspired me to write. Weeping is always followed by praise and worship when I acquiesce to His presence and get out of my self! Many more songs have come from this place of suffering.

My Taylor possesses another special quality: a magnetic attraction to nature and wildlife. One such episode was when I stopped to relax on a park bench in Marine Park, Red Bank, NJ for some solitude.I faced the undulating, peaceful Navesink river, The skies were blue with puffy white clouds. I noticed a school of fish congregating to where I was. At first, I thought it was coincidence that they lingered right there in front of me. Every time I stopped playing to take a short break, they swan away. As soon as they heard the strains of my voice and guitar, they floated back towards me. It was pretty amazing! I felt like the Pied Piper. Birds and dragon flies are also prone to linger whenever I play and sing.

The most transcendent episode with my Taylor though, has been when I had to minister at a funeral service. She accompanied me at the bedside of a my husband’s best friend’s dying father. I sang amazing Grace and my Psalm 91 and encouraged him not to be afraid of where he was going. I felt like Monica of “Touched By an Angel’

“Do you know how much God loves you,” I tenderly whispered to Claude’s father as I held his hand.

He died a few days later and I was asked to sing a song for his memorial service. I sang Psalm 91 again.

When my husband and I arrived at the Catholic church, we were surprised to find out the cantor had not even expected me to sing. Nonetheless, God gave me favor and the cantor told me where I would be in the program. As I walked to the podium to sing my solo. I noticed the sublime ambiance of the stain-glassed surroundings of the church. My pristine soprano reverberated and I felt like an angel singing glory to God. After the service, family and friends met at the banquet hall nearby. When I went to the ladies room, I noticed a woman pulling my husband aside. When I met him at our table, he told me the woman was an old family friend and had to tell him something.

“I must tell you that your wife has a beautiful voice… the voice of an angel My gift is seeing into the supernatural realm. As your wife was singing,I saw cherubim gathered around her shoulder. They were dancing gleefully and celebrating!”

I was very surpassed to hear that from my husband but it made sense in light of the precious way, the Taylor and music entered my life. It was so extra-ordinary, no one could deny God’s hand in this magical and sublime gift. My Taylor and I were a mesmerizing pair! Another amazing thing is that no one in my family was a musician or had a calling for ministry.

Performing at Buttonwood
At present I am without my Taylor. This spring’s unusual humidity caused my Taylor’s neck to come apart again, so she is waiting for a miracle. I’ve been performing and ministering with Jeff’s guitar and though she is wonderful sounding, nothing compares to my Taylor.

I’m praying to continue ministering at the hospitals, finish the recording of my “Anointing” Cd and to be ready when there is a need for people to come into God’s presence. I know I’m called to continue recording and performing the exquisite psalms my heavenly Father inspires me to write. I wait expectantly to see the next miracle with my Taylor!