THE DEADLY CONSEQUENCES, (Of Improperly Removed Mercury Amalgam Fillings)


My Tragic Story of a Dental Filling Gone Rogue October 2018

It is a beautiful fall day and I’m sitting in my room waiting for this itchy Bentonite clay to dry, so I can wash it off and move forward with my day. You may ask, why do I have clay on my face? Bentonite clay is known to remove toxins, so since I’m desperate to get this mercury out of my face, my clay application has been a part of my detoxing routine. After almost of decade of enduring tormenting, uncontrollable spasms of my throat muscles, (Platysma) and jaws. I have been on a relenting quest to solve this neurological mystery. Only just a few months ago, I found a medical journal link about an Asian woman who had the same issue as I. Imagine it taking that long to assure myself I wasn’t crazy and there had to be someone else, somewhere on this planet with a condition as mine! This lady’s solution was surgery.

So each week, I spent innumerable hours researching on the internet, anatomy photos of the face, neck and area, as well as researching everything I could find about TMJ, Dystonia and other movement disorders.

I’ve decided to write a comprehensive article on my condition which was caused by Mercury poisoning from one improperly removed amalgam filling. My misery has been so extensive and my life so drastically affected by this horrific phenomenon, that I vow to share with everyone I can so they don’t have endure the hell I’ve been through for over 11 years.

I feel it nesseasary,  as an ordained minister and journalist to make available any information that leads to wholeness and wellness. Many have no idea how toxic mercury is to the human body. Mercury is a deadly substance and yet dentists continue to fill the teeth of children and adults with it.

My husband and I were serious natural health people and we had read health articles about mercury amalgam fillings, so we decided to go to the local dentist ion our town. Today, we are regretful for our ignorance about what kind of dentist should do such a serious thing as amalgam removal. Just my one molar filling caused incredible damage and my life was turned upside down. I suffered relentless and unimaginable pain, isolation and impaired physical bodily functions.

This TMJ-Dystonia affliction also plunged my husband and I into a six thousand dollar debt for detox treatments. Our environmental MD, Dr. Rasa, trained in Dr. Klinghaddts mercury detoxifying program, was very concerned and compassionate when she saw me. She had never seen such intense symptoms in a metal-mercury issue. She did everything she could with no results.

I suffered a myriad of symptoms all relating to the compressed nerves intertwining in that jaw joint area. I had blurred vision when in certain positions, spastic tongue, (and also biting on my tongue so hard, I bled for half an hour and had excruciating pain). My masseter muscles, (chewing muscle) made me clench so hard, I cracked a back molar and had to get a crown. Other times, my mouth would open so wide, I could feel the hard tension and it hurt!

When lying in bed on my side, trying to sleep my sinuses would clog up and I could only breathe through my mouth. Most of the time, my vision is slightly blurred, but when I lay on my stomach, I can read the finest print and even see clearly the hole of the tiniest bead.  (One day, I was repairing a damaged beaded necklace and found that in my focusing on the beadwork, my throat and jaw muscles relaxed)! It was glorious to now get a respite from the tormenting and distracting pulling of my platysma muscles.

My symptoms were so distracting, troublesome and often so painful, I would have certainly had suicidal tendencies were it not for my intimate relationship with my Heavenly Father and Jesus. At the end of each day, I could wait to be entirely unconscious so I could enjoy some peace. It was a struggle every day to not speak death or negativity upon my coming into consciousness. My immediate thoughts would be, “I don’t want to have to go through another day again suffering this torment”. The average person without the Lord would ask for death. I also was getting more adept at praying fervent and victorious prayers to my Heavenly Father for strength and grace not to go insane with the pain. Without God also, I would be as mean as a snake because of my pain and discomfort. It is incredibly difficult living with a movement disorder. For me, there is no relief and no cure, (except for God). I minister to many Facebook Dystonia (and Lyme disease people), having also suffered from this vicious ailment). They suffer with isolation, damaged marriages and family lives and being unable to live their lives in a normal and productive fashion.

Please watch Dr Nicoles informative video. She is a blessing:

The Damaging Physical Manifestations of Mercury Poisoning

Platysma-TMJ Dystonia  also took a great toll on the teeth. The bruxism caused  my upper and lower teeth to clench and at other times the jaws open and close very wide every second or so. That makes it hard for me to eat, (and I avoid eating in public, because the food falls out of my mouth). Almost the whole first year my teeth clattered so hard that one of my back molars got cracked and I had to spend money on a crown. My wonderful holistic dentist, Dr Piela, from Lake Como, NJ insisted I pull it, but I lost a molar 15 years ago and didn’t want two empty spaces, (making a huge gap). And the possibility of a cavitation. I have problems with the tooth and either have to stick a hot needle to release the pus, or go to Dr Piela for an Ozone shot in that area. The Bentonite clay has been a help in keeping the infection and inflammation down. This bizarre ailment has made me go through the more crazy things to deal with.

During the first several years of this Dystonia situation, two different neurologists ordered MRIs. One prescribed pain drugs and muscle relaxants, (which I told him would not give me relief). The other neurologist give a quick glance and suggested my problem could be related to my past Lyme Disease episode. No one even approached the idea that my jaw could be dislocated. My husband Mark was severely affected by my trauma and pursued every modality he thought could help, including acupuncture, magnets, special TMJ supplements and Rife machine. None helped at all. It was becoming a great crisis for both of us and affected our marriage in ways we never thought of.

About eight years into the TMJ Dystonia nightmare, I was feeling excruciating pain in the other jaw joint. (Around the end of my first year after being diagnosed with Dystonia), the right jaw also became extremely greatly affected and I had to put heat and ice several times a day to endure the pain. I could feel an abnormal bump when I felt that area. Many times, sobbing hysterically, I would beg Mark to find another doctor to help me.

We couldn’t even enjoy activities a normal couple enjoyed, a nice meal at a fine restaurant, bike-riding, socializing, movie theaters and even a car ride was unfeasible because of the pain and discomfort of sitting up for a long period.
http://amalgam.org/education/scientificevidenceresearch/mercuryamalgamfillingsmajorfactorperiodontaldiseaseoralhealthproblems/

I suffered other manifestations of mercury and metal poisoning, including mineral deficiencies and digestive/ malabsorption problems. The condition of my hair, skin and nails was terrible, dry and brittle and as of late, my hair has not grown and has even broken up to the extent that I have almost shoulder length hair instead of the very long, luxurious mane I used to sport. The mercury seems to have accumulated because of my love for tuna fish, which I ate several times for the protein content. Under my new detox regimen, (nutritional Balancing), no tuna or fish is allowed.

When Mark and I lived at our water front home, we did twice weekly FAR sauna sessions in our downstairs music room. He had also reminded me to stay on distilled water, (I’ve been faithfully drinking distilled water since I married him) and now I am certain that this was a mistake because it robbed my bones and joints of the necessary minerals and nutrients it needed. Today, I don’t advise anyone to drink distilled water without the guidance of skilled natural physician who has expert experience in detoxification. I’m paying a heavy price for following  wrong health advice.

The past year and a half, the TMJ-Dystonia issue was unmanageable and I begged Mark to take me to a Doctor Jeffrey Brown, who shares a Sleep-TMJ practice in Church Falls Virginia. I’d done much research about jaw joint damage and treatments and found amazing You Tube videos of the work Dr Brown and Dr Stack were doing with a Gelb mouth appliance for Tourette’s syndrome and TMJ sufferers. I was convinced that the Gelb appliance was the only thing I’d seen which had the effect of stabilizing a spastic and maladjusted jaw joint. The mouth piece itself was a staggering $4,000, (and out of our budget) but I was constantly in excruciating pain and the quality of my life was worsening. Something had to give or I’d be good as a vegetable. I was desperate for some relief, from the teeth grinding and the opening-closing movement of my mouth really hurt my jaw joints.

I was so sure that I had a jaw issue that I asked my primary care physician to refer me to a specialist who could order an MRI of my jaw joints. He agreed and I made my appointment with Dr Carlson, EMT specialists. I greatly anticipated the MRI results and as I had known, the MRI showed extensive damage and no more cartilage. I sobbed hysterically when I shared the details with Mark when he got home from work. At least my suspicions were confirmed so I could move forward with a treatment.

Mark and I finally drove to Church Falls, VA for my first appointment, X-rays and mouth appliance fitting with Dr Jeffrey Brown, TMJ-Sleep Center. I told Dr Jeffrey, I believed the integrity of my head, mouth and throat tissues were compromised because of the mercury spillage and here was the result. I also mentioned that being I was a professional vocalist for many years, the belting and long hours of performing made my jaw joint “pop” and that must have been the joint getting out of the socket. So much for a vigorous singing career and drinking distilled water.

What have I learned from this health crisis? I lost so much living my formerly creative and active life. My confidence has plummeted, because the facial and mouth spasms are so apparent, strangers stare at me in the grocery store, the library or even just walking down the street for a walk. Singing, which usually comes so easily and naturally is now a physical feat of exhaustion. My Platysma and SCM muscles are so tight, I can barely breathe or get air. I believe the mercury may have also made me extremely sensitive to EMF and WIFI, as well as bright lights.

Thankfully, my strong prayer life and a life of walking in thankfulness and praise to my Heavenly Father and Jesus has kept me sharp enough to continue my journal blogs- on WordPress and performing-recording my compositions. I keep encouraging myself, remembering my upscale Jazz gigs and teaching my classes. One day, soon, I will be doing what I love uplifting people! Though being housebound has been a bummer and the vicious spasms have prevented me from bringing joyful music to the elderly residents at Buttonwood Hospital. I often struggle with feeling ugly and freakish, but I refuse to allow this brutal beast to keep me down forever. There are too many people I need to teach, encourage and inform on health and wellness in Christ. That is my hope, Christ is my healer.

I hope my sharing all the details of my mercury amalgam filling disaster will make you nervous and concerned enough to carefully research a highly qualified Holistic dentist to remove you or your loved ones mercury filling. Please make sure to watch the informative videos. I want to thank Dr Nocole for her excellent video. She is the kind of dentist you can trust to protect your health and future. I also recommend my dentist Dr Elizabeth Piela, Lake Como, NJ for east coast people.

I’d like to mention that many Cancer survivors fare better than victims of mercury poisoning. Their neurological dysfunctions and TMJ issues may be misdiagnosed and many thousands of dollars can be wasted for treatments that don’t address the true issue. I hope this article helps you to make good decisions about your dental health and treatments. Please feel free to contact Dr Nicole, Dr Piela or me to answer any questions you may have. God bless you and stay healthy!

 

 

 

MOVING ALONG at a SNAIL’S PACE


Journal Entry, Tuesday,  September 6, 2011

Well, to me Summer is over. The leaves on my favorite little tree in our backyard has already changed to speckled orange and cranberry. I’m wistful as I look out the window to a grey, cool and rainy Tuesday, the day after Labor Day. Mark had to work again & I had I regretted that I got no visits or calls from friends or family.

Today marks four years and a half years since my Dystonia diagnosis,  I’ve come a long way, spiritually, but my progress in other areas have been intelligible. I read the blogs of fellow Dystonia sufferers and I just start to weep. Many shake violently. Some have given up their favorite hobbies. Most have become so dependent on their loved ones and families that they have lost their sense of  affirmation. That’s what a catastrophic illness does.

To be totally honest, watching Alex, (a 27 year-old Dystonia sufferer)  on the Montel William’s show was heart-rending.  I couldn’t  get through the first minute without crying this still-beautiful young woman shares that she had planned to be a dancer. Sharing this poignant struggle and journey, I wonder how others like her deal with Dystonia.  Regardless, she has become an inspiration to those of us suffering from movement disorders.

http://www.thedoctorstv.com/main/content/Alexs_Story

Each day, thoughts and emotions about mortality, usefulness, attractiveness and career aspirations flood my mind. It seems the quality of my life has diminished drastically since graduation from Brookdale College  in 1989.  So seeing Alex struggle through life, I ponder how she gets along each day. I feel compelled to join the an advocacy crusade to help people like her continue to live productive and fulfilling lives.

The focus of any difficult condition is living as normal a life as possible and I’ve worked very hard to do so in spite of such vicious discomfort and exhaustion.  Hiding in my house was is not the plan God has for me.  There is a purpose  and I’m determined to make the best of it so that others can look to Him to thrive and shine.

Few conditions so steal so much as Dystonia because our bodies are totally out of control. The constant movement drains the life, energy and any creative desire. All I want to do is be unconscious and right now, my teeth  has already clenched down hundreds of times. The muscles at the nape of my neck are already very tight and my tongue is sore from scabs where my teeth have bitten right through. Is there anyone out there who has a tongue swollen with bite marks?

So…what good things can I say about my battle with Dystonia?  I continue to express my sadness and hopes for the future through my blogs and journaling. They’ve helped greatly to daily assuage the anger and frustration of hating to wake up and to address my longing for  my life to return to normal again.  I’m impassioned about mentoring people in the health/nutrition advocacy and hope to  educate the public about the seriousness of our tainted air, food and water supply and how it contributes to neurological disorders like MS, PPS Alzheimer and Parkinson’s Disease.

I yearn to understand how my body works and how the immune system can break down from outside poisoning assaults.  Movement disorder victims are increasing and they will continue to increase until we health advocates demand clean food and water! Our bodies can’t work efficiently when we are constantly inundated with pollution, fluoride, heavy metals and artificial chemicals.  The liver, kidneys and gall bladder become blocked. Victims of MS and movement disorders have lost most of their Myelin  sheath because of heavy metals. I believe the key to my healing will be to purge my body of metals and accumulated toxins, not drugs.

How have I really coped the past four and half years?  Not well, because I’m such a creative and curious person who loves to produce and learn about everything wonderful. I feel as if my emotions are muffled and find it almost impossible to connect deeply with anyone. Dystonia has also affected my femininity and assessment of who I am as a child of God.  I must rely heavily on God’s promises that assure my worth through His love and grace for me. That is difficult when all my life I’ve strived to stay fit, poised, trim, focused and intuitive.  All these have fallen to the wayside. I can’t even try to look attractive. It takes too much effort.  Right now, just getting through the next hour is a challenge

I’ve also become clumsy and drop things continually. At times it’s been so unbearable, all I can do is weep until I can’t weep anymore.  The hard part sometimes, is no one wants to talk about their struggles, especially Christians. Most of them give a trite scripture verse.  Sure no one wants to hear complaining or talk all the time about how bad you feel, but dog-gone-it, tell me how you deal with  honestly!

On the plus side, I’m blessed to share every tear, angry outburst and prayer with my Savior and Lord, Jesus Christ, my dear spiritual family on Facebook and Indie heaven. My wonderful husband, Mark has been my defender and companion and  courageously bears with me in out battle together. Without the Lord,  though, I know I would have killed myself.

Thankfully Dystonia has  not affected my pure Soprano singing  voice or my fingers when I play guitar or do deft handwork on the hand-made cards I design. I take advantage of days where I’m not overly spamming.

Dystonia has ddefinitely dampened my desire to aggressively promote my music and books.  It takes tremendous amounts of energy,  time and focus and the draining and continuous movements leave me few hours of productivity.

I started my 4th original CD, Mod Prophet in 2007, shortly before the first spasms. Since then, I’ve had a severe curtailment of inspiration to write new songs. Once in a great while, during moments of  overwhelming grief, a new song will burst out of me.  “I’ve Come Here to Worship” is one such song that was borne during such a time and a dear friend has created a beautiful video which can be seen on You-tube.!

The most wonderful thing I can share about this painful  time is the reality of God’s sweet presence that has always sustained me throughout my life, but most especially these past four and a half years.  He always come in at the weakest times like a fresh, soothing rain to cool my parched and weary spirit. Perhaps that is the miracle of suffering!

My blogging/journey writing has also blossomed amazingly, allowing me the comfort and unrestricted platform to express my grief, sadness, regrets and joys.  In spite of the great and taxing weight of such a condition, God has truly  used me as His conduit,  (surprisingly) the areas of hospice, hospital visitation and at funerals.

I was told by a woman attending my husband’s best friend’s father’s funeral, that while I was singing my song, she saw giggling cherubs surrounding me. The woman was able to see into the spiritual realm. She insisted that I pay attention to my gift of healing to the sick and dying!

Expectations must be greatly lowered when you grapple with Dystonia. A neat, orderly house, beautiful trim, figure and a focused faith walk all fall apart and are often inconstant and sporadic. I often feel like I failed in my attempts to please God with my good behavior and faithful spiritual service. Since a young girl, much was expected of me by my father, my pastor, employers s and closest friends.

I try to make as much sense of it all as I can, but in the end, it is the Lord who sustains my balance and sanity.  Perhaps He is using this illness to make me dependent on Him and to show me I must learn to ignore people’s scrutiny, harsh judgments and  criticism, however well-intentioned. The Dystonia may have even be caused by years and years of conflict, hostile interactions and  too-high expectations placed on a fragile, and sensitive young woman trying to find her way in the world.

Dystonia may be just a complete break-down of my immune system and God wants to completely overhaul my whole body!

When ever I weep about the lost person I was because of this illness, God gently reminds me of His wonderful and tender promises. His grace is sufficient for me gauging my spiritual walk with others who enjoy good health is no longer an option. When I ‘m drained mentally and emotionally from trying to cope with the myriad  and mundane small tasks and chores I need to do each day, Jesus is there  to remind me, “lay your burdens upon for my burden is light. People have placed too many demands that have broken me and now I await my precious Savior to restore me.

Come quickly Lord Jesus.